BOOK 8

                                                       CHAPTER 103

I must a meant that Harlem’s at its best I do not respect everyone that’s in here don’t ask me why. you have to live your life and take care of your dreams and only good will come from it do not set trip. when it’s on and that’s from the heart. do not worry about them handle yours feel me. when her death became true handle yours right now and don’t worry about anything. what you need to worry about is me.

If that’s what they want then give them war and do not be scared of them. when you have me right by your side we can handle whatever it is. you rather be woke why is it that? I’m sleeping because of you not all but why would I lie? stay stronger than anyone out there.

They can’t hold me for long you're right I was out of town but I’m thinking about the get back. my drug money didn’t ever stop. it didn't matter if I had to do it hand to hand or keys and pounds coming over here for me. things do not get to me, when it’s about my family then it becomes a problem. the question isn’t where I have been, it’s about what I’m here now, and doing for you isn’t a problem with me.

The direction that I’m going in. I hope that you are following me because it’s the best place that you could be and it’s a great place to raise children. out for all that these companies can give me. the act has grown that’s what ladies are looking for in a man. not men that just want to use there you know what. having kids isn’t a game a lot of kids are having kids. they are not ready for what's in store.

What crossing me means for them fuck the other side. I have seen the south not just visiting it being out there with guns. it’s four told when you ask blank about what we went through but l’s knowing it’s hot. fuck they sent ATF to the house I’m going out in cuffs. 2 months isn’t that long for me I will do it. going to the next step thanks to lay. how can I get out of that check? just stay focused on home and every moment will help you out. troubles some acting as 2pac will say warning as biggie smalls will say.

Riding with guns ready to find who we are looking for. status is now turned on 101. sex money murder has bones to pick with you so do not get caught up. looking from the outside looking inside of the home that I take care of looks good to fail the way I was brought up isn’t right for me and you know why I think I might need help from an angel from heaven.

Can’t count you out what does that mean I have my angels watching me and every move that I make. a place where there’s no fighting or crimes or dying twice. the only thing is coming back to earth. hell can’t call me to go down there but me not knowing if am I already in hell. there are a lot of deaths people are into too many drugs. as black people we are showing our kids that the game is alright.

I can’t believe that they cross me for money. when it wasn’t my time to die but you know what you help me because there are a lot of people that praise me. I try not to be out at night because anything can happen. the pain part of my story is under God I miss my mother a lot and I will make sure that I see her again. just to be here with my writing it feels good to be so far in my thoughts.

The path that I was on wasn’t the right one. my girlfriends do not want me to sell drugs again. it wasn’t the best move that I made but a lot came from it. like having a lot of money building businesses. this is how you wanted it and I mean problems to all who go against sporty. how many more days do I have to take this from you? you wanted to be on top and that’s what you got. I’m working to better my life and thank God for all that I am blessed with because without him this wouldn’t be possible. it wasn’t just for me to come up. it was for me to get back into my children's life.

Do not remind me. I'm trying to get paid, my money on my mind. I will not let them know. yes, I'm riding in the whip smoked up. I know that it's hell down here, you can't think like that. I have to keep grinding by myself. my business is on my mind you heard me. money before sex I will never change that alright. I'm about that life the same way that you are bout it. we get paper collect cream. I fuck with these young gangsters. flipping bricks is not a game. I'm covered here.

                                                   CHAPTER 104

Now my body is personal the love is there. you can always find me on the grind. gangster passion you know how and who did it. cover arms hold my head. in this world, you can get money. dogs business is a must you know that. what are people doing out here? I do not know but I got to trust myself for now. my paper is correct grams the loot is what I'm waiting on.

I came from the bottom and now I'm at the top. dogs know gangster I'm blowing money because I had to get rich. being smart writing poetry. uptown keep it between us. I do not want anyone to get hit up. this is the rule all day every day. over the gate this is how it goes. that's my word dot I'm coming home doing big things. I understand that the game isn't like it used to be but they make it out to be and I understand money is the only thing that's on these people's minds.  

I have to take my time out here because you can get set up. people act like they can't get murdered on these streets. I know the game well and I have to protect myself from people that are in it. there are bad and good things that come from it. a lot of people talk about it but they do not know the outcome of this game.

I have no time for people and how they feel about me. I try to set my goals high in life. I am a good person to know. I love my life and what I have done with it. people think it's all about money. that's not what I am about I put my family first. I have no fear I just got a lot of love for the game. people got the game fucked up now, what happened to the trust that it had in it. I know all of the old-time drug dealers are looking at us like some of us are doing it wrong.

Some people just want to murder you for a name. then there are people that you have beef with that want you murdered. then some people just hate on you for whatever you are doing. I have a dream that has to come true. this man that's helping me out with this music is the only one that knows how hard it is doing this. you and I have to stay on point at all times in this game.

They act like they are the only ones that are getting money out here. I and this man is at the bottom and that's where he wants me until we finish writing. I can't understand why he wants me here with him. I just hope he's leading me in the right direction. then I ask myself this is the path that he's taking. so why wouldn't it be the right path? me learning from him is a blessing, that's why I plan on keeping it going.

He showed me that money isn't everything. he's a family man just like I am. working is one of the best gifts that I have. he's the only one that has the same amount of money that I have out here. everyone does not understand the pain that I had to go through for my family to be okay but I know that they are okay because of me. I have to say that I made the right moves on these streets.

I know that if something happens to me people that work for me would want to find out who did it to me. that's why I have a lot of people that work for me. I'm prepared for the outcome that the game has in it. everyone has to set a goal in their life. my goal is to open up my company, I know it's going to take everything that I have to open it up. I know if it opens up I will be okay but it's taking time for it to open up.

The best part of my life is when all of this is over and I have my company. girls like men that are getting money well I have to stay com and let everything come to me and then I will be alright. writing everything down that's on my mind on paper. pages after pages like daddy do all of the time to make moves like this. I was able to close that part of my life, I had closed it.

The moment you take charge. the more you have power over everything. I want you to have your own. yes, we are supposed to get the money together. yes, you are first in line. I can't understand the way the game is going. don't hate the player hate the game. don't hate ninjas getting money to respect the grind that that person has. when ninjas are in the streets. all morning and all night. people that are on their grind hustle 24/7. that's the way it's supposed to be. when you roll you roll deep. taking care of business out here is a must at all times.

                                                        CHAPTER 105

This is how the story goes. stay awake from here on. never doubt what another ninja can do to you. when you fall back that's when ninjas want to get hard. yes my guns do bark. you never know who's on your side until you get in some real beef. you have to learn the streets and learn it swell. I swear to God you better be in it until you can't ride anymore. ninjas out here saying they're gangster but I don't see it. how do you see the streets nowadays fam. you should never run from a challenge. staying above water that's all I want to do.

Godly what has the world come to when you tell a ninja to get your gun before I pop you? you say I'm always in the mix but I don't see it that way. you should know right from wrong. yes, I'm asking you who taught you street life. you should be in and out. the quicker you get it you should stack it. the more you make moves you should always respect older ninjas than you. the game nowadays everyone's trying to play it. It's two ways out death or in black justice trust me. the way you are going you will end up in black justice or dead.

Holding onto you before you leave me. you in the house I'm not saying you can't go and enjoy yourself. all I am saying is respect my gangster before you turn me back into when I was 15 and I know you don't want that. people say what happened in the past keep it in the past. I'm not that person anymore. my player card is been out of order for a long time. shorty I'm sure to get you open feel me. eclipse, when you look up, do you see me? holding onto what I have. yes, she walked past me. where are you I know you chilling?

Calling you out when you see the things I did for the game. what's your name or should I say what should I call you? you want to be my wife but first, you have to pass a couple of tests. you will not believe what she said to me. she told me to up my game because I still ride the bus and train. the richest people in the world dress in plain clothes. it ain't about what I drive. my company is building fast. so don't miss out on what I have to offer. just because I'm not fronting doesn't mean I don't have it but I'm going to let you think what you want to think. 

When it comes down to it. I pass my test on being faithful to you. you haven't had a worry in the world in all of your life. I have been hustling I've been working. this here isn't easy I just want you to know that. this shit is hard. I'm trying my best to take care of you. I fight every day to provide for our family and it's taking everything out of me. being able to control my feelings and stay on top of my writing. writing every day all day and all night. trying to make things right for us and yes it's paying off. keeping my head in this book. fighting for what I believe in.

You should always come to me. if anything goes wrong never go anywhere else. I'm taking my time and yes it's going to take a little more time than usual but I want you to know that I'm putting everything into getting myself back on my feet. yes, I'm trying to make the right moves now. I have been in this game for a long time now. 25years is a long time being in the game. every time I see you I think about doing right by you. therefore I try to handle my business the best way I know how to handle it. sometimes you have to know your place to take advantage of the opportunities that God has given you.

Catch me if you can. shorty there's no pressure over here. I see you out and about. there are things that you can do and there are things that you can't do. please don't disrespect me because I don't disrespect you. so far so good don't get caught up in the bull shit. the money will keep coming in. one move and I'm taking everything. your best bet is to fall back. I do not want you to be in the mix with other people. that's like me because I know how I think and another ninja might be thinking the same thing that I'm thinking and that's sexing you.

Growing is a state of mind. you can be grown but still think young. the way you move out here tells how you have grown up. I'm trying to give my family options in life like which way they want to go. the best part about it be you will feel good about yourself. the hard work will pay off trust me. the long nights will pay off. the studying will pay off. you are royalty to me. I'm here trying to make you a better woman. one that can be trusted in life. one that knows how to take control of her life without a man.

Dear love, I'm thinking about how I'm going to start this. you always making a young brother wait for you. I want to rub on your back and turn you over and rub on their tits. you know I want to get you wet. what you do not want me. how can I get next to you? I want to kiss all over your body. I know it's hard to be with me because there are a lot of females out there and there are a lot of men out there. you are the only one I think of. I want to push up on you. the way your body feels when I touch you. you always make my day. the thought of you in a relationship with me.

Emotions come by the house. so I can undress you because this player is on this pimp shit. all girls want to fall in love with me. this here for me is a one-night stand so don't get in your feelings. you have a boyfriend right and I have a girlfriend, so together we can never be. you are only good for sex. If you want this money you better perform at the highest level. step into the room and lay down. she thinks she is hot with that freak shit. taking shots at who. you think you are bad yeah right, there are other females out here that look better.

                                                          CHAPTER 106

Call me what's the nasty thing you ever did. she was on the phone talking about I'm the best thing that ever happened to you. save that shit for someone that cares. you are only a one hit and then I'm done. you're not that bad anyway shorty. females come a dime a dozen. you better be grateful I choose you. now bring your sexy ass over here. she asked me do I go downtown and I said how many bodies counts you got because I only go down on females that have no body counts. she said how many bodies count you got I said men and women are different and she said why.

When you are in it to the fullest. you will die for what you believe in. the way the game is going yes it's going in the wrong direction. the good die young. I know I better straight up before the 12 come and get me. I see you doing your thing, the work speaks for itself. your money won't change up. keep your ninjas getting the money with you. do what you can while you are out here. the way shit is going I have to keep my head full focus. what do you believe in heaven or hell? when you gamble with your life shit can get out of hand. so you have to protect yourself.

The way you show you care about me.  you are the only one I want in my life. the thought of losing you will get me upset. you are the only one I look at. can you follow these things and apply them to your everyday life, yes I appreciate it. that's what she told me. I hope it was genuine. you are my world but who knows how our life will turn out? the more I step up and be there for you. the more you make me believe in the love I have for you. I'm telling you this is for a reason and you make me feel more responsible for the way I act when I'm not around you.

It's secured the way you and I think about one another. we have to be here for one another. you know the game makes people turn into enemies out here. I'm trying to stack that's what I haven't been doing but I promise my shorty I'm going to do this for her. one rule uses your mind out here. why do people play cards and why do people bet it all? I want to stack it little by little. so when I come up my family will be good. this is the way you see things but that's not the way I see things. this is not the end of the road feel me?

Until the end of time. I'm going to ride until the wheels fall off. the more you put in you get out. how can I help you become a better woman for me and not someone else? I'm trying my best to write until the days come. it's taking everything out of me but I know what I have to do. show up and perform as if this was the last day of my life right? you are so super intelligent. you have the best mind and comfortable conversation. that's what I like about you. you always say what's on your mind. thanks for letting mother come downstairs and tell me tomorrow.

Float on your love. she got me lost in her beauty. hi baby what do you need out of me? so let's chill on an island. let's go to the beach. let's get in the water, let's get faded at night. let's dance all night until the break of dawn. let's go back to the hotel room you know it's five seasons. you getting in a hot shower. the first time you didn't catch me but the second you caught me. you walking out with the towel on and your body dripping wet and I'm asking you if are you alright and you answered me yes. say know more.

In the battle of the money-getting ninjas and the stickup kids. the money-getting ninjas will stay on the block and handle business. meanwhile, stick up kids' plots on ninjas that are getting money. people like that will put the gun to your head and tell you to give everything up and trust me they are not playing. people like that you have to watch out for because they want whatever you have and they will pull that trigger. people like that love that type of shit. getting money type of ninjas don't want that problem to trust me. that's why you have to be on the low.

Help me gather more information about life and what I can do for you. being a couple yes it is hard work. but I'm putting in the work and yes I can tell you notice it. I'm trying to do the right thing while I'm here. like supporting my family and having their back at all times. listening and learning what a female love to do and what female hate doing to her. the more you show me and call me the more I feel like it's true. I need all of the help I can get because having mind thinking will help the company out trust me.

Being strong and with a lot of ambition get you far. can guide your mind to a place that the unstable mind can't compare. stay educated on what it is that you are trying to study for. the more you seek the knowledge you become a better person. strive a course pack as much knowledge as you can. the more you learn the more your mind will intensify. it's all about growth especially when you have a partner that's willing to do it for you. when you are in need you lack a relationship. I can't blame myself for what you lack, love is sharing. 

Life Goes On. when people die where do they go in the bible it reads. Jesus sits on my right hand but my dot is on my left hand. do I control heaven maybe? the reason I went out to handle business was that I didn't have my wings but now I do. two bullets one on each arm that's where my wings open up at. so I can go to heaven. maybe you think I'm saying too much but I don't think so. remember Jesus died for a reason what was the reason? I did this now so nobody after me will have to do it.

                                                          CHAPTER 107

Another one is when you feel like you balling on the court. you can go to black justice. so be careful out there before the jump-out boys come for you. the reason I leave so early is that I'm into I can't be out late. one reason is that I'm working another reason is that jake may be onto me. I'm not rushing you home to see you. the conversation we have all the time. thinking of you all day and all night. you stay on my mind. thinking the streets need me or do my shorty need me more. sitting here thinking about my family.

The Message. so if he use to cop from uptown. tell me who he was coping from me that who. the pass-off was all I needed. follow the game to the max and the macs. the way the streets call you gangster even family will change up on you. peep you in that whip ninjas started busting off. ninjas like me got low not before grabbing the toast. when we got uptown you know I had to let one off just in case. your life is on the line that's what 50 cent said beef is real but the hate is even more real. in this game, you have to watch your back. how many times do I have to tell you?

Yo get money and fuck hitches. by the time the money slows up, you can't dance with the devil. where are you trying to go to heaven or hell? some people are nice and some people are evil. when you do so much to a person. but steady asking for money or for them to do something for you. how long does it take to stack as much as you want? it takes a ninja with deep pockets to go broke or crack. you do shit for a show while I do shit for the love of the game. you got to take charge of this game. stand tall in the eyes of the beholder.

The way things are going I can't help myself but get out of the game. you have to know when to hang it up. you can't talk about other ninjas. that's where ninjas get caught up at. you never know what the other person is thinking maybe he go back and tell the person you were talking about. the best part is waking up next to the money by your side. how many ninjas does the money change hands with before going to the top that's where you sit at. what you looking for can't help you with street life. you should know right from wrong.

Call it what you want. when people have their hands out. was it all a part of you using a person for what you can get out of her? the game is fuck up right now but I got a couple of tricks up my sleeve trust me. if the money doesn't show and tell later on get back to me. yes, it's the way people live sometimes that's not the right way to live because it may come back to you. I did everything the right way. I hope I can see someone tomorrow. the world plays know games out here. you have to keep your mind right.

When you live that life. it's hard to get out of the streets. shorty keeps calling me. a course I'm answering the phone call to get close to her. yes, I'm growing my hair back for one reason and one reason only. I'm using it as a cheat code sitting in between your legs turns me on. the way you use to push that cat up on my neck. yes, it's coming back to me. this time if you are not in it for the full-time play don't ask and if you are ready call me. I can't wait until the fall come when the fog starts but it's not raining.

Yo to not give a fuck about what people think. you have to control what you say to people. stay moving before you fall off. yes it's all or nothing about the way you handle your business. you have to keep it on the low. running the streets ain't for everyone. I'm telling you the game doesn't last forever. ninjas get sent to black justice all fucking day out here. when you want to stack your money keep your head in the game. how can you win on an everyday basis? please don't fall for the bull shit. you make sure you control your feelings at all times.

Who shot you? grinding in these streets leads to different things. the question is can you control all that comes with the game? ninjas are dying people going to jail people fighting all the time. when you have something to look forward to you watch your life carefully. you never know how you are going to go out. from my understanding play by the rules and I know sometimes that can get you in trouble. let me paint a perfect picture of the drug game. yes, it is hard as hell. your own man may set you up.

I am thinking that she loves me. I do not know. if she's cheating on me. I am a strong man and I'm just making a way for me to get money. so I can do it for us when we need it. as a man it's hard. the pressure is all on me and I know you work. so some pressure is on you. if you do not want me to help you. then I guess it's over between me and you. I'm just trying to protect myself from those that don't love me.

Now that I got myself together. I can handle my business out here on these streets. I do feel bad about what happened between me and you. you didn't understand Jesus was on my side and that he gave me something to do. are you sure you want me? I know my children are involved with this. that's why I'm not mad at you. but now you have to show me you want me. I cannot see you hurt when you are the mother of my children.

                                                            CHAPTER 108

We don't play you know what it is. this is what I do because I love paper. you ninjas that don't have it like us then fall back. when you have paper girls will do anything for you. my girls love looking good. that's why they are with me because I take care of them. drugs and girls mix with most people but that's what fucks you up. they are fucking you for your money. how many ninjas do you think she fuck with that have money.

That's all they look for every day of the week. so they can buy clothes and spend that shit up. they blank for what they need and you spend money on them. so what does that mean to me nothing? you talk like I don't hold my weight around here. I went to war with you and you told the police. that's why I went out of town. I rather hate you than become friends with you understand that. my father has been locked up and that stop her from speaking to me over Easter. that hurt me and I will never forget that.

There's no way to explain what we have been through. for the kids, it's all good amen. I handle my business. the other side of me is going through it. I am right here and I am on my job for real wrong moves I know I can make. I hope there's no crime to being a father and I will take care of my kids. that's the best feeling in the world. she is living and I will make sure she knows what's popping and what I am doing. you think that I was playing only 12 years old but I know right from wrong.

It's a war that didn't stop me from grabbing the gun. can you handle it? if not then get out of the game. let me tell it. I am a saint and that's the good side of me. blood sent me out of town the right way. soon as I got down there I had to pick up the gun. this is going to be with me until I get back home. just face it we need each other. they will do whatever they have to do to break us up. we can't let that happen. I had to get back on my feet. this was God's plan. please be aware of people that want to get you hit up. this game is funny, stay on top of your game. it's hard to be on the low.

But there are a lot of things you have to do like love me. heaven is a good place to start up there I want to see how they live. nights I know how it feels to be on that bull shit. help me please you know it's hard. I just want to lay down and sleep but I stay waking up to go to hell my friends will show you what it means. I am likely to handle my business. I am on the block and I know the money is stacking up.

It doesn't matter to me. let me tell you something. if I go under it's going to be hell on earth. can't knock the hustle. the game means in the game. they just want a man that's there for them and they will be there for you. once it's gone it's hard to get it back. I saw her with another man. I am not mad about it just hurt because she didn't understand. I had something to do. beef yes gunshots exchanged. that's these people.

You have to know your role when you are in a relationship with a girl. what does it mean to be in a relationship? so who should you tell all of your secrets to? you need to know the more you depend on her. the more you understand the life you can live. you only make one relationship and you should make it count. you should always know what your partner is thinking. the more you get into a relationship the more trust will build. you have to trust your partner. you should always give her respect. so she will always respect you.

Why should we sit here and waste time? we have to continue to do for one another. stand up and be the woman that I need not one that's running these streets. you know it's always one thing that we go through and that's a lack of trust. how hard is it to defend one another? being out here in these streets? you made me believe you had my back out here. you should want more for yourself. taking care of us should always be first on my mind. never leaving anything out. try to understand the way we move. I put my family first when I am out here.

In this world, you never know what you are going to get. you have to come with everything you have to accomplish your dreams. put God first and everything will fall into place. try to remain humble at all times. be creative be your person out here. stay in your lane. do what you have to do. never take no for an answer. things may get crazy but stay focused. trust me your time is coming, the man upstairs has a plan for everyone. people may ask why it takes so long for my dreams to come true and I reply he is just testing me.

Yo, the hurt I feel right now. miss you, bro. I'm going to continue getting down and dirty. I know to do my dirt by my loneliness. the way I feel anyone can get hit right now. the money doesn't mean anything without you here on earth. you know your young brother is going to keep it hell on earth. ninjas ain't know shook ones out here on these streets. fuck that keep that shit coming until I die. ninjas better not talk shit about a real one. the game feels different that quick. who knows the way we had queens on lock? when AZ exchanged that money.

                                                           CHAPTER 109

You ain't ready for a street life baby. who called you gangster nobody. you fall back for now let's write until we can't write anymore. the heavens called you to come up there. funny last night the dot located to the heart with a slash my family. I knew something was wrong but my family nowhere I'm at. coming to an understanding that the last time we met was on that note. the problem remains with some ninjas out there. the game let people go with no worries. this is the game we choose to live. changing our life and in the new song, you said don't cross you. 

Please don't get caught up in beef with ninjas that are looking for beef. how many ninjas got to lay to rest? the way I'm feeling right now. damn dog I miss you so much. causing problems in this industry fuck it. the reach is forever. this is my last time telling you that love is stronger than ever. you better be prepared for the outcome of the streets. when you call I'm coming with the toast. that's the toast that's in my hand. please don't forget this here. it will have the rain falling for eternity if not that y'all. the slash will be slashing down everyone's temple.

There's nothing I won't do for you. I remember blank coming over to my house to cop work from me. my shorty was there. we were working on an album. you had a bag full of 25 thousand dollars. like lox and x said in money power and respect. how many keys the kid sent to you? I remember running threw queens with ninjas getting money. I can't forget about who we had beef with. trying to throw a young ninja off of his game. ninjas couldn't stand us because we were handling our business. when we were out there getting money. Of course, we had to watch our back out there.

If you are a person that looks for money. you may not be able to get money. it takes courage to make moves in these streets. how many shots I took when that 50-cent shit happened on my back. I had to escape with two bullets. each arm had a bullet scape on it. in the form of the cross. I guess God was telling me she wasn't good for me. who knows it all depends on who she fuck with. yeah starting the war back up. at any time ninjas may get hit up. people thought that might throw me off my game.

Being out there in queens. you find yourself getting involved with problems before all of these new kids came up. I have been in it ever since I was about 13 years old. taking trips there. 32 and 17 in the chamber with the thought that it will go off. who are you kidding I've been down for some time now. the beef will go away but what if I would've got hit and went missing who would've given a fuck. plus I know the game doesn't stop if a person dies but I'm going to live for my brother. I guess God wanted the cross next to him.

She Will rich ninjas. tell me how you feel about me leaving you. I can't do this anymore. I have to walk out because you and she are playing too much. what you want me to do. be somebody baby girl. the money won't stop. you stay on my mind all the time. before we break up can I hit it one more time? what you need to be doing is calling yourself a cab and bringing your sexy ass over to my place. yeah coming in the house and running straight to the bathroom piss me off. Are you saying you feel like letting me hit it right and drop me down?

I'm so glad you were in my life the whole time. when I was out of town you showed your true colors. you mean the world to me. I'm so happy being your father. this task is a blessing for me, you mean the world to me. yes, I have dreams and of course, you are in them. I can't imagine my life without my children by my side. when I wake up every day all I know be a hustle for my children. you make my life so much better. when I'm out here I focus on what I need to focus on and that right there means a lot to me trust me.

What do you know about getting the job done for the people you love? my other mother misses you. I can't wait to see you again. you do not have to respond right now. how are our children doing. tell them I said thank you. wake and miss stick I know when I see wake tears will pour out of my eyes. the thought of being with both of you. hold me tight and never let me go. I remember you calling me and telling me. you took me to get a pair of sneakers and the sneakers I choose were the reebok pumps. I just want to say thank you.

If this was a baseball game. you have to come correct at any game. what do you know about stealing bases? who will win the game? when I'm on the mal I'm hitting home runs. what do you know about birds flying high and getting down at any time for money? I want one that holds her own. how many chicks can I run threw a lot that's how many? if I wanted to, yeah she riding around in a lot of whips now. this is what you get for fucking with a person that's getting money but if she strikes out. I'm moving on to the next one and never looking back. 

How Do You Want It? tell me is it cool to have sex? when I'm in motion it ain't no stopping me. yes, she's riding on top of me and she's looking right into my eyes. you inside of me and I'm inside of her. she is telling me don't forget that this here leads to children and I'm telling her ain't it's fathers day. she replied yes it is, this is what I man supposed to do to his women right. she said you read my mind and I said how. she said being parents. let's think about tonight. she simply trying to tie me down but you know what she is bad as hell. so I don't mind.

                                                           CHAPTER 110

When the connect calls you listen to what he has to say about that shipment. I want you to send me everything you have. you only have one chance to make your mark in this game. how many ninjas got to die for respect, not me? my respect comes from my family. I'm trying to fall back for them but ninjas keep sending that girl over here. yeah, I'm trying to keep bubbling like no other. there are a lot of people in this game. you also have to plan if you want to last in this business. yeah, you make a lot of money but when you get picked up. all of that is out of the window.

What is it all about. who has more money if we put our minds together there's nothing we can't do out here. two heads are better than one. the more money we put together the bigger the shipment. you can't stop for a minute and think. what about getting a crew that can't be touched? ninjas that bust their guns with no problem. you need live wires with you just in case ninjas get out of hand. your peoples handle that shit asap. this is what you get when you deal with people that have no heart. the game is all I know. I'm trying to let the younger generation know there's another way to get money.

Do you mind me working all the time? yes, I'm missing my family. times are getting harder for us because we want to be in one another life. the way time is passing us by. you know deep down in my heart you are my world. baby how can I make this up to you? the one I miss can never be replaced or is this girl her? I'm trying to figure it out. all of the numbers add up and if she is in it for all of the wrong reasons. so help me God for planning a future with her. I could've kept my wife and us as one living every day.

All I do is work to provide for you and my future. I'm holding onto this dream that I have. I'm not letting anyone take that from me. I have to work hard and try not to overwork myself. being the head of this company everything is on me. as a man I am going to take care of my business. if she was here I would be working even harder. so let me give it 100 percent. I know she's smiling down from heaven saying I'm so proud of you or her body might be inside of someone else. this is God's plan, not mine.

What do you want from me? tell me right now you are in and out of me. you are the best baby that a man can have. you look at me and I'm looking at you. is everything, alright baby? can't wait to go to the west side. foul leaf clover feels me. saying no names because she might get mad or will she call me out. you are my baby, let's get to know one another on a deeper level. don't show your ass off. cause if she does isn't that a problem? you know better than to disrespect me. you make me feel so good at night. I'm ready to go to war for you.

If you want to move on. Let me know before I put my all into this relationship. you know you are the love of my life but what I am doing. If you don't approve walk out now. so I can find someone that will love me for me. you ask for everything hurting the way we live. I know you also work and I am proud of you. the things that I help you with keep me on my toes. how does it feel taking care of you? my heart has mixed feelings about this. you are supposed to be here for me. am I bugging out you showed a different relationship that I'm into?

Gangsters move in silence. you will never know what I'm doing. I have to keep Ninja's puzzle out here. get money and stay true to yourself. nevertheless, hold shit down and follow know one. watch everything that's moving in these streets. when it's on you can't hide from ninjas that are looking for you. Especially when you stay on the block. hide where eye-to-eye body-to-body ninjas don't want know static with me. you never know what a person is thinking. people might want to get you lined up for those stacks that you have.

People may ask where I'm from. I can tell them from people that live that life. people turning junk town into a place where only the real make it out. I can't believe the shit I am seeing. ninjas are quick to use old drug dealers. if the ninjas were living trust me people will be getting laughed at. everybody doing shit as if they are real pleases God. if 2pac was here this shit would be the downfall of the coast. I can't take any more fake shit. you can't talk about what you never did. this shit got us looking like what the fuck is going on with us and the way we act out here.

I'm the only one that you can't sleep on. this shit doesn't change anything, I'm still going to be getting money unless I fall off. that's when I'm going under one of my shorties. I hope one or all of them has my back out here. if I'm out of money because they are the ones that have all of my money. that's the fall back trust me. I know I have to be prepared for the fall off. if you stop making way for us to eat. you grind from the bottom and rise to the top out here. you make what you have the best out of what you have before you go broke.

Please don't get caught up in the mix of what's going on out here in these streets. if one of my ninjas out here whiling out. I would tell him to hold his head. walk light no we do not want the beef when you get the money you have no time for beef. when you not getting the money you always have time for beef. ninjas are always in other ninjas' problems. keep mine to a minimum. this shit ain't for everyone to know. how can you say you are here for me? when the war is on you do what you have to do out here. never forget that and know that the number one rule is trust.

                                                             CHAPTER 111

As I lay down thinking about my family. I'm so glad you choose to be with me. never let anyone change the way you feel about me. this thing that we have here. what a good feeling the way she loves me. the way she shows me she cares, yes it's about time you give me what I've been waiting for sexually contact. getting in between your legs. you laying there looking into my eyes. all of my energy inside of your energy. when we let go we know it's the right feeling. please never let anyone between your legs. the more we see one another. yes, I know how you feel.

Step up and handle your business. all of this cocaine comes from all over the parts of the world. yes, I'm in it everything copyrighted. yes, I know the feds be watching me but who cares. There are all stories of my life and I'm going to continue to get money. fall back why now keep pushing for a better life for yourself? the connections stay hitting me with big loads of this girl. it's out of my hands now because you get rich how you get rich. while I get rich how I get rich. in my hand is I'm Irish or a Richardson for those that don't know.

Things that need to change in my life. the more I think about the way I live hurts me. I couldn't just take the money and run away. so I guess I have to continue to stack this bread up. all of the money that you get from the streets isn't enough to log out of the streets. yes, this young ninja stays in tune with what's going on in the streets. getting money isn't everything to me. I miss the shorty that use to hold me down. now she's up in heaven but I know our daughter is watching me while her mother watches over us. what more can I say?

What do you do in any situation that's bad for you? you live and you learn from your mistakes. fight until you can't fight anymore. you need others in your life to be a strong person. walking out seems so hard because one does not know what to do. what is a relationship like trusting your partner? giving her space how much space before she goes with another man. everyone is getting money out here. so thinking because you make yours. she can't leave you. the fight isn't with her it's with the one that you love and she will always be my angel.

When you come to realize that everything ain't all that it is cracked up to be. the only way you will come out on top. stay focused on what makes you happy. when shorty wants to have a nice time shit I want to have a nice time too. if I go all out with her will she goes all out for me? I'm still looking for one to plant my seed inside of her. maybe she will be the mother of my children. yes, we have a long way to go and you not getting any younger. she keeps yelling when the time is right. I can't wait for that day. I already have the child that's the golden child. Layla, what are you thinking right now?

You try and try to make things right but she always has an attitude. I'm trying to make things right. yes, it's going to take some time for me to get it right. baby you are the only one I look at like that. all of these females out here but only one caught my heart. tell me where is our relationship going and in what direction. I hope everything's alright. I know you enjoy the time we spend together either it's me on top of you or it's you on top of me. what you know about getting whatever you desire. this is the easy part of taking care of yourself. how about you taking care of me?

Take your property I will be sure to defend it. all of the money in the world, I'm giving myself to God for blessing me with this life. my heart is yours for life and forever in time and may we never be out of time. the Lord watches every move I make out here. I'm still battling between good and almost good baby there's nothing bad about me. I'm trying to live my life the best way I know how. when times get hard yes I call on him by thanking him for putting this locator in my hand. this is by far the best thing that I ever found connected to my soul that the man upstairs has blessed me with.

My bad for all that I have put you through. sometimes I can't help myself. flying to the highest power means the praise that was given to you. use it and be glad that he gave it to you. the way things are going means the world to me. owning the biggest company means the world to me. one day I plan on getting my day1 out of the streets. in this mind is full of knowledge. it is hard to contain everything that was thought but storing my thoughts means the world to me. this is the way God planned out my future and I am proud of what I have accomplished.

When you are up so much. you pray you don't fall off. sometimes you win and sometimes you lose. it all depends on how you are playing the game. when she calls I answer. there's not one day that goes by that I do not do as much as I can for you. imagine me with the money that my company has. I try not to think about the money and no I don't do it for the money. maybe that's why I can make so much. you have to stay in place with what you are doing to achieve your goal.

First come first served. steady on my bull shit with people that don't like me. what a young man has to do to be respected. if only he knew what he was getting himself into he may have thought twice about street life. who can I call when I'm in need? I hope you are by my side even if it is through ups and downs. yes, I can explain the way my life is headed. being by your side I pray for the best out of you but if you cross me. I have to move on now I'm wondering if it was about what I can do for you or if it was about one another lending a helping hand.

                                                             CHAPTER 112

Approach a person like you like him. that person may give you everything that you want from him. in the dark eye what was the real reason you asked this man for a helping hand? the idea of one-day marriage. one-day children being together. please help me understand this. when your mind is going to different places at different times. what do I do how about putting your life back in order? with a plan that you can follow on an everyday basis. growing up empowering others to do good that's what I am looking for in everything.

I don't wanna be without you. forgive me for looking into the future of our life. when we first actually talked was when you called me. when I got off of work, how hard was it for you to make that phone call? I'm so glad you called me and not the streets because I was waiting on you to talk to me. the same place your mother called me to see you were the same place she first saw me. whether it's true or not that is not working out. I vow to take care of you for better or worst. the way things are going the only thing we are missing is two letters.

God gave me the ability to be a thinker because of my condition I couldn't have both meanings of talking and thinking. some people do not come back from what I was going through but I came back from that, I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't think or talk. my world was upside down. imagine your life like that. it was hurting me to know some of the people that were supposed to be in my life left but you know I bounce back like it never happened and for that, I praise him.

It's killer or be killed out here. tell me how you are above everyone out here. if you didn't put the work in. you have to get a good connection that has all of the drugs and he knows you are not one to tell on him. that's what a drug connect like to know about who is dealing with out here. I'm telling people keep their mouths close because if they don't they might get found missing and you don't want that right? I didn't think so. yes, it is outstanding how ninjas tell so quickly. I'm glad he home because it was a long fight but I told you patience is a must.

When you do not have to count it. you weigh it. that means you get a lot of money. being in this business yes it's hard as hell. remaining heads up and not falling for anything out here. you may have had the game in lock back in the days then something happens and you have to go away for a minute. but people not knowing you are out of town getting money. it didn't matter if you were blood. you had to hustle hard to get where you needed to be. ninjas weren't trying to hear shit about I'm gangster if I'm gangster I better show them.

Hate music yes it's true all fucking night I will be up handling business. when you are in the field having the mac's ready peace God. having the blazer on your side because your brother left me in charge of his gang. who want war don't forget the dot talk for itself. I walk around every day with that thing on me. just in case one of you ninjas try me. who you know run the streets and in black justice me that's who. if you don't watch your back ninjas get picked off for nothing so why do you feel safe out here?

When you live by the codes of the streets. you stay one up on ninjas. drowning myself in work. playing ball I knew I couldn't make it. that's why I got into the drug life. young ninjas had to do what I had to do to get this money. everyone gambling with their life out here. knowing every day it's a chance you can get murdered. living the wrong way can get ninjas in trouble out here. it costs to be the boss but when you are in it until you win or lose everything makes you smart or dumb. that's why I listen to older drug dealers. look and watch every move ninjas make out here.

                                                           

Created writers have to put their all into it. you can't sit here and write about money if you not getting it. you can't write about murdering people if you not doing it. you can't talk about drugs if you not selling them. yeah, the game is watered down and the reason is that everyone is trying to rap now. what about the essence of rap let's get back to that. if you didn't start as a poet then how can you call yourself a rapper, Nas, Pac, and Rakim was a poet first. when rap had substance now people just get on beats and say anything nowadays. plan your song and writing is a talent.

                                                             

Looking for the one that makes me happy. the one that puts a smile on my face, the one that I do not mind doing for. the ladies in my life have everything. they take trips to where ever they need to go. yeah, I'm still hustling out here but as long as they are taken care of. I don't see a problem, they get first then comes me. so while I'm working they can enjoy the fruit of the labor. making sure everything they want may have. it takes time to set everything up for them but I am doing my best. staying true to myself and to the ones that depend on me.

                                                              

Are you feeling me? you tell me you love me and want to be with me. when pushing my heart to yours. my daughter, I want you to know that you have other brothers and sisters. if not you then who. the time I want with you. my love is strong for you. I remember hanging out all night with girls. when our team is winning why would you count me out? being on this earth with you. let's pop bottles yes you can get smoked up. whatever puts you in the mood for what's about to go down for tonight. Lord, please keep us in good spirits.

                                                              CHAPTER 113

You may ask how I do this. well, I put my mind on moving words. I don't talk much but my mind keeps getting these letters. that come to my mind and I'm writing it down. work is a must for me. how do you think the ladies that's in my life eat? taking care of them so my children can have the best future that they can have. I know times may get hard for you and I. let's take things one day at a time. days turn into weeks and weeks turn into years. how many people can I love at one time? I'm open to all that love me. all I know we share the same life.

                                                                     

Please don't get out of line in these streets. if it ain't one thing it's another. counting all of this money got my mind hurting and bagging all these cracks got ninja hands hurting and having all of this cocaine from Mexico got a ninja deep in these streets. I know ninjas want me to lay back but I can't. if I leave the game will people still love me? taking charge the best way I know how. yeah, it's all about money. holding my ground out here fuck what you heard. sitting on tons makes you a drug kingpin. meanwhile ninjas only fucking with grams. I ain't knocking you get your money how you going to get it.

When it comes down to who is real and who is not. think about me and my ninjas. the thought of going all out. when people want the best out of you. you never know what ninjas thinking in this game. the only way to play the game. put your all into it for what it's worth. let me tell you something you have to be a hundred with this game. when it comes down to it. who can you trust you are supposed to trust your ninjas. you have to put it all up if you plan on making any money but don't be scared of losing it all. it's all about how you come back.

                                                                           

Where do we go. what will we see with one another? I want you to have the time of your life with me. when you walked away from me that's the only thing she is saying to me. you asked me what am I doing and I said everything is going to be fine. did I live up to my promise? yes, I did you have cars and a house to call home and I think I'm doing my part in raising our daughters and sons. yes, it's hard but this is what a man does for his family. the goal I set for me to take care of my family. yes, I want to get old with you and take care of our grandchildren. people say that's all a part of growing up.

I and my people made. a couple of trips out there. things are going well we made a lot of money out there. the man that put me on is happy with what is going on. we had this spot now we were going to take a lot of work out there. the work got out there. he asked me do I know somebody that wants to go out to the west to grind I got my man out there he sells weed. I can get that to him. so that means he does not have to come and get it. now let me call him right now and he answer the phone.

                                                                               

Yo my, connect got some of that send it. alright so he said yes address and I gave it to him. Now I'm bagging up work. the work got to my man and then he called me and said it's a go. so they are out there hand to hand both of them. they are onto the cops because they are watching them. they know what they are doing but they are not paying the cops know mind. no problem they decided on going out to a party. that's their first time going out. other people started seeing them and they knew that they weren't from here and that they were from out of town.

After the party, people started shooting at them and they are shooting back. now that means it's beef they are going to be looking for us and we are going to be shooting back at them. they got more people and we did not even know. so we left and called the boss and told him. he said hell no. we are going out west. now I'm out here with my track 1.

You lose yourself when you think about what other people have. I’m not in a race with anyone I’m in my lane. when I ask for trust you are supposed to give it to me because that’s what I give you. the thought of parting ways never crossed my mind. if that’s something that you want exit now and keep stepping on. how do you feel about me? I can’t have a person sexing my queens. hold me tight like you haven't seen me in years but keep working on your goals.

Putting my women first is all I want to do. I remember playing outside all of the fights that we had was puppy love. I know I did things but I was preparing myself for the fight that has been going on thus far. battling my inner self my mind was so busy but trust me. I had to make people think that something was wrong with me. that way nobody would try to talk to me. Do you think I’m crazy yeah crazy about my family? I’m home and I’m never leaving again until death does us part.

If you feel lost it’s because you made me feel unwanted and uncomfortable one time two many. so now I’m walking out and never coming back to you. trust me it’s not because of another woman. you couldn’t handle me and the way I move. I guess everything that was given to you for what and it turned out to hurt me. losing you help me become the man I am today. so go on with your life God bless you. I’m a strong man that has wants and you couldn’t fulfill them. so I had to move on to the next one.

                                                            CHAPTER 114

So if you say I’m one in a million. I foresee every single thing you did for me. you treated me you trick me into believing you are by my side. oh, you're not by my side you're inside of me. my world is inside out and this works for you to have my back to the wall right and you telling me how else you are supposed to move forward. I always listen to you because you tell me what I want to hear and you make things come true for me and that’s why I believe in you. you always were my go-to girl all right.

For someone to give the other person options. it's your choice if you want to be on these streets. holding onto something that wants to run the streets. isn't a good look for me. I want what's best for you and that's why I'm giving you options. I want to make sure your life is easy as it could be. watching your every move and asking me what time I'm getting in the house. I like when you keep me posted on what you are doing. thank you for telling me about your moves. am I wrong for expressing what's going on in our life?

What do I plan on getting out of this work? one a better future for you and me and our children. working hard means putting in the time that needs to be put in. having gratitude and overcoming anything bad that the devil put in your way. always listening to what God has to say. planning at all times. growing day by day with your family. taking care of your responsibilities. taking action for what you do. manning up and never looking down on people. taking the time to understand what your partner is talking about. you and your partner standing side by side.

I have always known how to be a man. gambling with your life when you are on these streets. I can't let the streets get one up on me. looking at everything that needs to be looked at. I get down when it's time to get down on another note you take care of yourself when you are in these streets. if that's the life you want to live. you move when it's your time to move. I can't take the bull shit, my friends are all I give a fuck about. can't run these streets. I have to prepare myself for a long future. you never know how things are going to go. you have to be a stand-up man all of the time.

Trying to find out what she wants. the best thing for me to do is fall back. maybe I need to try to talk to her. so I can make sure everything is okay with her. you never know what a female is doing. they keep all of their business to themselves. trying to figure out what she likes or should I say what she loves to do. if she's not one with you or trying to help you accomplish what you are trying to achieve. let her know how much you love her show her. when you come to an understanding that the world is small. the more you prepare for our love.

People say when a woman is happy in a relationship it will last forever. I do not want you playing a game with my heart at all. be there for me as a woman, we shouldn't play games about love. how can we get deep into this relationship? standing up for your women. take the step that needs to be taken. the more you spend time with her. the more she is going to love you. letting her know that you are in her corner. taking up for her if anything goes wrong. I'm bettering myself for you so you can have a bright future. by letting you know you are my queen bottom line feel me.

Neva ends what will we do if we separated from one another? you had my heart from the beginning. when we first saw each other eyes the contact was real. please do not let our fighting get to us. you yelling at me telling me you need me to do my best. baby ain't that what I'm doing, yes I met your mother. holding on tight to you. the way your body is calling me. waking up every day with you in my bed. seeing the way you carry our love. we have to be at the same time if we want this to last.

Putting everything in her name. let me ask you a question is that called tricking or is that preparing her for the future? if anything happens to me my children will be taken care of. going all out for the one you love. a lot of people can't be faithful to one female but I do not have a problem with that. the trust has been strong from the first day I met you. you are doing everything the right way. so why wouldn't I want to take care of you for the rest of our lives? I know we take our time. you make me feel so much better knowing there's one female that I'm putting my trust in.

Giving your all to a person that wants to party and hang out. sometimes you have to part yourself from her. move on and start over this is something that runs through my mind a lot. you should only be faithful to someone faithful to you. I'm not taking anything from anyone if that's something that you want to do then do it. the problem is one relationship fall apart not that I care but because I'm letting this one female understand that there's another way of having fun. what if I leave and find someone different? one that understands what I am saying? come to think of that's what I should be looking for.

The way she does things gets me upset. never let her get under your skin. be a man and stand up and let her know what she is doing is wrong. when she gets mad at me for all of the things that I did in the past. who you know that straightened it up right away. I had to work to put things back in place and never forget that. you help me and will help you out. when you look her in her eyes to see if she's cheating on you. you want me to get back at you. the conversation means everything to me. we have to understand where one another is coming from.

                                                               CHAPTER 115

The hustle doesn't stop you have to stay on your grind. running through the city with top gangsters watching my back. I know shit can get out of hand at any time. carrying that thing on me at all times. I'm talking about the dot on my hand. it ain't nothing like having protection from God if shit gets out of hand where the body lay its problems. making moves like no other person out here. you make the moves don't let the moves make you. you have to tell me what you want out of these streets.

This ain't know show and tell type of shit. when you put your all into it. people love what I'm doing out here. I want people to remember me for all of the right reasons. I can't stand being in these streets but I have to grind hard if I want my blessings. putting my mind on the right thing will help me out. people get locked up every day out here. you have to have a strong mind dealing with street life. if you don't get what you want right away. fall back and wait your turn, everything happens for a good reason.

As many times as I said yes to someone and given her whatever she want knowing now this wasn’t a good idea. in the long run, I found out this wasn’t what God made for me. so now I have to walk out and start this all over. I wish you the best but I’m trying to walk away because the cross hurts. what is this about now it can’t be about trust right because you were untrustworthy? I know my daughter loves me and that’s what I protect and I will continue to do for her.

I want to cater to 2 u. no money in the world can make you love me. I’m here for the game. one that doesn’t worry about how much I make. she helps me make the money because she’s a businesswoman. we handle our business and I respect her for that. just imagine riding in the whip with me and I’m taking you shopping and getting your hair done. I’m here to make sure you have everything that you want. I do anything for my lady. what more can I do for you, I’m here to serve you.

When people think you are not a survivor. I was staying at your house and going to school before any of this shit happened. then you stop talking to me so how was I going to stay there? I remember asking why you don’t speak to me. I remember walking up the block and you and her stop me and said you know what and gave me five dollars. for years you didn’t speak to me and I understand what miss you mean miss you with the bull shit. I’m still here taking care of my business fighting to handle what God has planned for me.

You want a baller one that’s going to trick you. when you go to the club you are looking for a man that’s buying bottles and one that’s in his new gear. check this is what a man is looking for a woman with a phat ass and nice hips and tits looking nice as hell. that combination is what the man and ladies are looking for. what if that man can’t spend his money because it’s in his bank account and his spending limit is low but when I want to open up the business and spend the bank account money he can but not yet?

Know you better she keeps asking me what I do for money. I handle business why is it so important to you? I’m grinding to put food on the table. you get mad when I stay out all night. I want you to know I’m not sleeping with another woman. I’m in and out of meetings taking care of us, you have to trust me. when we first met I told you I’m a businessman. you like all of the finer things in life. you spend whatever your heart desire. I’m working hard every day to keep you up in all of the designer clothes and nice whips and all of the diamonds.

You know I miss you. this place you put me in being here without you. sometimes I blame myself for you not being here anymore. walking with you on my mind over and over. it seems like it’s taking forever for me to go to heaven to see you. what’s better than having faith that you are waiting for me at the pearly gates up above? when the man upstairs ask me did I cross you. I’m going to look him right in his eyes and say no I didn’t and thank you to God for believing me.

You expect me to fix the problem when I do everything for you. I ask for little things to get done and they don’t get done. taking care of the same people all of my life. sometimes I think about moving on and changing my life by getting a woman that wants to help me handle this business that I have. when I ask what you do for me and you can’t tell me. that means you have done nothing for me. you want me to take care of you and provide what you need right? you can’t just have it your way because there are other people with their lady by their side handling their business.

Changing a woman's mind can be so hard, she feels like I have changed but I’m telling her I’m still the man that she knew when we were young nothing has changed. I respect you I’m letting you know I don’t mind taking care of you. I want to come to the table with work. seeing you yes I want to and you know that. I’m trying to follow my heart and stand up for you. my last post is supposed to be me telling you how I’m not feeling, why would I take this away from you? when you are the love of my life.

                                                            CHAPTER 116

You don't even know what I have been through. it was hard but I did it without you and I will never need you again in life feel me. it's four told that Jesus Christ will come and I am here and Christ's mother feels some kind of way. that wasn't right on any level. I just hope we can get past that and live our life the way we should because I love you trust me. more than the other sisters. it was hard for me living there with all of them. in the Ten Commandment.

                                                              

It makes us wonder what happened to our mother. people were working for the police. so if people say they are gangsters they know the truth. people were doing this to their blood. that's painful but trust me I will never hurt again. alright maybe I was wrong being a drug dealer at that age but I had older girls that were going to college that's why I did what I was doing and if I had to I will do it again. I am cool about the way it turned out but I need the outcome to be better for us.

We all miss him. we just want him home. so he can be with us as a family. if that's going to happen it's supposed to happen this year or next year. I do not believe he would have killed somebody for money maybe for respect. but black justice should have had a time when he can get off with no questions asked. I just can't forget what happened to me. when I was a child. some people did things to me know names but she knows who she is and I don't know if I like her for that.

                                      

You want to play with me. the money she's alright for life. she's living her life with her man and her man has plenty of money. these girls will try to get you for everything you own. not me close legs get fed where I'm from. cause I'm inner sexing right now. I met this girl at my house. she looked good to me and we had sex with one another that's the last time I saw her and she could've had a baby by me. I need three years to catch up with you. now we are here and it feels good. now we can talk about who's money longer. your cat is not holding what I am holding.

Let me sum it up get off me. people are telling me keep pushing. that's what I'm going to keep doing. it's easy to know people talk shit about me. my hustle grind together makes me unstoppable. the move I make is right for me. people murdering feel like I can't take it anymore. I want everything for my family. I'm making sure we take care of one another. holding you in my arms. make sure we stay true to each other. that's where we are supposed to be. I'm on the grind for us and it is hard.

                                                             

If my last days had to come. it will be with my family. the love of my life is inside of me and her child lives on with us as mother and father. this way we could protect you as one. together we are stronger than ever trust me. people cannot stop us. the only way is by death and you and I both know that's not going to happen right? Jesus is the most important person in my life and he promises to protect me. while I am here on earth.

How are things going with you? you should stand up tall and give a helping hand. you are the strongest part of my life. yes, you take her place and now you have to live up to it. the only thing I know is let's help one another out. the game doesn't change saint working over here. yes, I want you next to me all the time. you know I want to get next to you. undressing you I'm about to get faded with you. climbing on top of you is all I want to do. parting me for coming straight forward with you. she said okay but let's take it slow okay?

When will the world stop never? you better be in it until the end. am I supposed to show these people I got money? this is going well right now and I don't know how it's going to end up. but I'm in it for my family. catch a person down and out when that shit happened I had nothing now I'm handling mine too many people died. I don't know when it's my time to go, or while I'm here paper is on my mind.

This man had no fear I got sick that hurt me. now my mind is fine and I'm stronger than ever. people talk about all of the shit they did but they didn't do anything to me but tell the 12. how many times have I got locked up because of them? how I see it it's bigger than ever. you know who writes to me. so why would I lose. as a kid I knew it was going to be problems CO would've told me to get them off me and stack fuck what people think and that's how I feel.

                                                             

You never know if people will try to stick you up. watch them close, yeah I know about sticking people up. growing up I had to watch my back. for a lot of reasons, you feel me right didn't know who wanted me to die. that scared me when you don't know who wants to get you murdered. you have to be on point at all times. wake and miss stick helped me get rid of that tang go in cash. we had a lot of work to cut up after cooking it. we went out of town and it was fine. we were pumping crack and cocaine. that's what wake wanted when she showed me how to make cool aid. I knew that's what she meant.

                                                    CHAPTER 117

Don't get murdered. I got too much on my mind. the other side of me is going through it. I'm right here and I'm on my job for real. mistakes I know I'm going to make them. I have to get back on my feet. trying not to fall off before I leave why not close it? this is God's plan I'm the type of man that do right. please be aware of cats that want to get you hit up. this game is funny, stay on top and remember people are out there. it's hard to be on the low. get your act together faith I'm on that. 

                                         

93 proof this is a small world too many cats wanter get money. but the work came back bull shit. funny money doesn't count, race to be rich in this game. check caps they talk a good one. the battle does not make things better. I want it all for you from the start. this is what you get out of it. being a man in a woman's life, my fault for all of that shit. they cross me and I showed you the status.

I came to get this shit started. you get your shit together. pass time family I'm on some other shit. dam dog real is in my fam and I go all out you know this. told you this mic is mine from the beginning. watch who you give your drugs to and who counts the money up. know this test shoot at them, run into the bullets. get popped up that's the type of person I am. I knew that from your man, still fuck with you. I could help a person like you. 

People trying to get next to you. gun them all down. put the money up, you know I will fam. I wanted to be on top of every move I make. work for who fam. can't see dealer yours. what you want from me. I'm not having it son. I make things come together. I know it's a lot to do with this game. know test money yes. follow you for now I'm still on the phone diary for me and you.

Baby, I know that nobody can take care of me the way you can. ladies I am trying to remain in your life. you know that I want to marry you. it seems like that's the only way that I can be with you. baby don't I show you that I care? these emotions for you are getting stronger. I am the last of a dying breed. that means I was born in Moe do you love me? the reason I talk about love is because that gangster shit means nothing to me and my kids.

Baby, I am a young man with a lot to offer someone like you. do you want more for yourself? I know I had to learn about what to do to women. I know how to treat her now. I cannot believe you want someone that treats you so wrong. I am trying to cover up things that went on in my life when I was 13. I am thinking that you stayed here to find out what was the outcome. I was 19 when I realize I needed to focus on my home.

This is the way you make money, you have to save money. then you will have a lot of money to spend. people will try to take from you. this is what I had to do, I had to start from the bottom and work my way to the top. when I got to the top. I wouldn't let anybody bring me down from where I am at. other drug dealers want me alive. but I keep moving on. while my pockets get fatter. I am going to keep growing.

What is the other side talking about. what is the other drug dealers talking about. our mind is on taking care of one another. we are not ready to die but we know it can happen. we have to be on our best behavior. if you are ready to take then let me know by doing it. I cannot take it this killing shit is making me more in teach with myself. I am watching my back from everyone out there that's in this game we play.

Praying for better days. hard work and dedication will do the job. put your best foot forward in any situation okay? learn to love how can you call a woman a hoe. when you have a mother. I try my best to treat the women I'm loving like a queen because that's what I want for my mother and sisters and daughters. if you treat a female like a hoe. you can't say anything if another man treats yours like one. you have to be concerned about the way a man may treat you one day. so you treat the one you with perfect.

Why am I running from the life I chose to live? who can help me out by helping me get out of this life? when a bad person wants to turn good. you confess all of your sins to God. if you don't want that chip on your shoulder play by his rules. understand his wisdom and what he has planned for you in life. follow the words of a wise man. learn what you need to learn out of life. never think you to smart for your good. even the smartest people can end up in black justice. we as a people need to beware of those that are not been in our life for a long time and people that can't do us any good.

                                                         CHAPTER 118

Holding her tight like I never want to let her go. being her rock doing things for her that were never done to her before. being a man for her. guiding her on the right path. showing her that there's more to life than what the eyes show. caring at all times for her. making her my wife having children by her. when it's dark she always shows her strength. missing her when she's not with me. if it's only for a minute feels like a long time. growing up with her next to me. proving to her that I'm the man she always dreamed about.

You never know how life is going to turn out or how life is going to treat you. living one day at a time determined how your life is going to be set up in the future. grinding for my family staying aware and preparing myself for the worst. carefully taking my company to the highest degree that it can go. that means working long nights early days and mid-afternoons. if you want your company to succeed in this business. planning always gets you one step ahead of the competition. never let your dreams go to waste.

In life, you need to know where you are headed. to accomplish goals that mean so much to you. thinking about ideas and making your ideas come to reality one day that's a goal that you accomplished. striving for greatness never letting anyone tell you. you can't do something. you should always believe in yourself no matter what. I have been perfecting my craft for seventeen years now and I have come a long way from when I first started. if you find something you are good at stick with it. it will pay off in the long run.

Messing with females. can get you in trouble at any time and any place. stay ten toes down. make moves as you should feel me. yeah, I'm waiting on you to tell me it's on. never play the female that's in your corner. good things will come to you if you do what you are supposed to do for her. sharing the love that you and she have for a child. keep pushing for something to happen. it's not one day that goes by that I don't think of you. the more you insure her the more you will increase the chance you will be with her.

What do you like? can you tell me? so I can have an idea about what you like. so bad I want to get next to you. maybe one day that will happen. it's all up to you. follow the lead I'm on before something happens. undressing that body like a real man would do. watching you walk like you are a top model. crowning the one you love. putting her next to me because she's bad as hell in my eyes. you better get right on it. how many times do I have to tell you? you look good in nothing watching you cook me a meal.

I'm riding around the world looking for that one special person in my life. if black justice comes will you be there for me? I'm doing all of this hustling for us. so we will be able to have the finer things in life. Jesus died on the cross because his friends gave him up for goods and money. where is the loyalty out here? I hope me and my friends never let money come between us. there's enough money for all of us out here. yeah, we are still on the grind but God has a bigger plan for us trust me. tell me what we have to do as friends to remain loyal.

Maybe I deserve to know who you messing with. you telling me you have feelings for someone else. I can't believe that all my life was spent taking care of you. doing everything right I never walked out on you. accept when I went out to handle business. but you okayed it and now you want to do your thing. is he calling you are you going out with him. are you kissing him? I'm ready to get back on my player shit. but when I look deep inside my soul knowing she's still here with me and we have a daughter together and I'm just letting you know I love you forever.

Why do you have to have all of the numbers connected to my heart? I'm trying to walk out thinking life was over until meeting you. what I am trying to tell you. if you break my heart I don't know how I am going to feel. maybe I'm going to think it's my fault. you always try me with you talking about you walking out. if that's what you want to do leave. you are not going to keep threatening me about walking out. I'm so strong now with or without you. I have grown into a man that watches his own back and time is getting shorter in life.

The thought of passing away with the one you love in your corner means the world to me. that's how my baby went out. in the song I miss you she said when she was going to college I was going to high school which is true. in the song, she said no more and I agree. the person that has me thinking twice about what she said can only be the person the connection match the one that isn't here anymore. you never fully understand what you have until you lose it. missing her but knowing I found her again only can mean one thing God didn't want me to go through life without someone by my side.

How do you want me to take what you tell me? am I supposed to take it the wrong way? you telling me if I don't get my shit together you leaving me. what you can't see won't hurt you. you live your life the way you like to live your life right, you are all up in my business for what. you think half of this belongs to you, I have something in mind help me get this money then you can talk about half of this shit is yours. until then keep your mouth close. taking care of things that you love to take care of right? what is a relationship without two people that care about one another?

                                                             CHAPTER 119

Pacing back to back not knowing where life is going to lead us. praying for the good to come out of her. things she may like to do you might not like to do at first but once you get used to what she likes to do. you find yourself enjoying things that she likes. simple things like long walks in the park. going to the movies. going out to eat. rubbing her feet kissing her sexy body be things that you both can enjoy. treatment that you give her. you will receive the same treatment I bet you. love her care for her. show her that you are the man for her and shower her with gifts.

Guns bust fast what you think you can't get picked off. people die every day it's how you take heat to it. this shit here ain't nothing to fuck with. gang members love to bang blood dots on my hand. you want to get hit up and if you think it can't happen you got another thing coming feel me. anybody can get murdered quickly. fuck what 12 say handle business to the max. who gives a fuck about what ninjas think about you. this here is family until the day I die. my ninjas better get down no matter what's the problem.

Note to self. should I or should I not trust females? playing inside of whoever soul is inside of my soul yes. if you will like to keep the souls playing you have to remain faithful no questions asked. when we go to heaven my soul will continue to play for eternity. that's why the dot was so important for me to activate. the vibration that sows over our body feels so good to me. what activates when body-to-body contact and I mean inside of one another. only God may know and we will find out when that day comes. until then let's be patient.

                                                              

Me and my bitch. standing there with what you want. the way you are supposed to be sitting. head held up out here on these streets. I'm asking you what you want from me. how about that 171 thou shall. that's a lot of money how can you pay me back. you have to put your all into it. baby, I'm not saying this because of that. I'm pointing things out. you can have everything you want can't you see I'm trying my best. one thing I was always taught help others and your blessing will come ten times more than what you gave.

                                                                 

Someone tell me what I'm doing wrong or if am I doing everything right only she will know. people will talk about our relationship but you tell them it's okay. you are the one that I want. when I was out of town doing wrong. trust me I never touch anyone that I wasn't supposed to touch. thinking about my family and friends. as I stand here telling you I never cheated and never lied. imagine if I would've kept having sex with people. I wouldn't be where I am right now. by the grace of God, I'm able to be here with you.

Catch me if you can. the way one changes their life into one another. baby not having everything down packed in this game. gangsters do what they have to do. playing in your life fuck what ninjas have to say. let's keep up with the jones. you better cover all sides. don't leave anything out. put whatever up for my baby. you want to stop me from what I am doing. that's not in God's plan feel me. I want to wife you but you play too much. I shouldn't have to look over my shoulder and watch what you do every day of your life.

                                                                       

If I can escape from all that I have done to you. taking you out and giving you what your heart needs. I want you only God knows how much I care about you. promise me you will let me know when you are ready to make love to me. this song that you sing to me at night baby. yes, I made everything right by you. grinding for our family yes I know the kids need me. my heart wants to scream out loud missing you. when we connect will be the happiest day of my life. growing from that day forward yes it is in my eyesight.

Let me lay down my life for once. when it's a lot of money to deal with. ninjas get funny but I'm helping all of my friends out no matter what's the cost. I know and I understand what she was saying. what more can I do to prove I'm here for life? this is the shit outsiders don't want you to see. when you make moves yes everyone knows how you are moving on the block. but who cares if you're down with me? let's get to this money. in and out of black justice is something that I do not want to do.

                                                            

When shit goes down don't run your mouth. street code ninjas die fast feel me. this drug game ain't going to stop because ninjas want to fill their pockets up to the max. when you are in this game problems can happen. that's why I try to stay to myself and get money with ninjas I know. it ain't a big thing to get work on the arm. being one of the best that ever did it. what do you know about having tons of cocaine coming to the U.S. from all over the world? that's how this young man is stacking. I know I can't have all of this money in the bank. but I'm low in the pocket and have to pick myself back up.

                                                             

Follow the rules that were given to you. you will never go wrong. let older ninjas share some games with you. please don't hustle backward make moves forward at all times. handle business first the only thing that comes before that is family. hustle until you can't hustle anymore feel me. try to stay away from 12 and dive deep into these streets. getting money is the only way it should be out here. if 12 happen to come to get you. your word is all I remember when you were in these streets. playing both sides will get us mixed up.

                                                            CHAPTER 120

Being strong you should always do the first thing that comes to your mind. sometimes second-guessing might be the wrong idea. make sure you do what the heart wants you to do. by you not taking heat to what you think about may never come to the light and please do not tell others about ideas you may have. work hard every day on what it is you are trying to accomplish. never give up you know if it might just pay off. so you should always follow your ideas. you are supposed to take your time and put one part together at a time don't rush it feel me.

                                                                    

A black girl lost. I don't want a female that's in these streets. sleeping with everyone unprotected sex can lead to death. I need one that got something going on with herself. one that wants the better things in life. how can I find one like that or should I say where do I look to find that type of female? growing up yeah it's one thing to be out in the streets. but if you don't learn and try to change your life. making love to a man for money. yeah, they still lost out here. changing her life and now she's doing better. I'm looking for one that when she was young she wasn't in the streets at all.

                                                                      

Preparing yourself for the next few steps you take in life. make sure you make those steps count okay? people get lost in their actions but not me. I'm trying to take care of my family. that's the number one rule. the second rule takes care of my company. fight to better yourself in any kind of way. the problem with us as a people we don't want to see our brothers or sisters doing good. if we all come together and put our minds on the same thing more money will generate inside the black community.

                                                                         

You grind so the money can come in from all over the world. Are you messing with a man that has deep pockets feel me? I can't get caught up staying away from 12. hustling is a part of the game. you learn from the older people that you hang out with. yes, I have to stay in my lane. putting people on is all I want to do out here. you shouldn't be the only one eating out here. playing the game how it goes in these streets. you got to move low-key out here but get your money. partying not me I got my eyes on this trillion dollars.

                                                                           

You should've known better. when you meet the woman of your dreams. making that phone call to see if everything was alright. she told me to pick up the phone to let her know I'm not in some heat. I'm trying my best to keep you happy. the way life is going I'm wondering if she's going to stay in my life. time waits for no one, I'm glad you are a part of my life. holding onto this relationship we have. building together for the future is all I want to do. asking who is that I'm hoping this shit isn't some bull shit. Layla yes I'm sitting here wondering how life would be if your mother was here.

Baby, I know you want me. why are you doing all of this talking? how about getting together body to body? let me ask you something this is the conversation you talk about with your friends. In the end, are you going to give your body to me? I can tell by the way you look at me. people say you are overrated but trust me you're fine as hell. I'm wondering where you came from. heaven must have an angel he left here on this earth. stop acting like you're too good for me. all I want to do is undress you. I'm over here thinking about what I am going to do to you. if you give me a chance to be with you.

The way you sex me I appreciate it. you are young but act so grown. tell me if you are the one for me. spending all of my money on you. you want me to get mad at you about life. but so far I'm playing you like you playing me. when I was young I had a lot of females around me. girl, you know how much I miss that. growing up is one of the best feelings in this world. 

                                                           

I'm trying never to forget about the life we had. how can I forget? you make my life so much better. how am I not supposed to acknowledge you? when you did so much for me, you use so much of mine. why is the question I'm asking you? it may be because you need me or it can be you can't live without me. if I didn't have this company will you still be interested in what I'm doing? 

                                                               

The moves I make yes it's for us. but not for you to be giving others the okay to use what we built. people don't care about what's on our plate. people don't eat what we eat or help us get money. I'm only telling you this because you have to be careful out here. I'm moving the way I move for a reason. can you understand that. where are the gangsters, the hustle doesn't stop feeling me. I remember when I was in the street life out of town. 

                                                              

Doing my numbers yeah people can fall off. fuck that that's why I'm counting my blessing. I can't stay on these streets all of my life. yeah, I hustle like I never had anything. that's why people front because at a young age people didn't have that much. I want everybody to know street life leads to two things. that's jail or death you have to stand strong. if you want to last in this game.

                                                             CHAPTER 121

                                                               

I had the time of my life with you. you showed me so many things that one man never knew. getting together with you whether it was bad or good. this is all I know but baby for you I'm changing it right now because you are all I want in my life. yes, I'm trying to get myself together for you. yes, there are little things that I need to work on baby. as long as you are here for me that's all that matters right? 

Planning all of this the mind is capable to follow the heart. when the mind feels pain the heart hurts. holla, when you tell me how I made you a better person. so you are my queen and I'm your king. the conversation you had with him when you were on the phone. the conversation was about 400 million and I said 800 million. when Nicki Minaj and Nas did that song. you said you weren't attracted to me right? fast forward to now 800 million is covered and nas is back with Nicki Minaj right. and I'm growing my hair back using it as a cheat code.                                                                

How can I compete with someone else? you have my heart and I'm proud to be in your life. the way you move and get up on me. showing me how much you want me. things you whisper in my ear. telling me you miss me and I'm trying to find a solution to our life. doing your thing how hard is it to say how you and I feel? God works in mysterious ways. everything's getting greater trust me, baby. I have your best at heart. I miss you too. I want you here with me. right next to me. who's throwing shade at us?

                                                            

Tarnish a person's character is something I will never do. I have high hopes that dreams do come true if you put your mind to it. having an understanding of where life will lead you. what's the right direction up or down or right or left? these are some of the things I think about. creating different ideas makes me happy. it is important to have set goals in life right. why wait until you get old to start living your life I want to take care of my business now that's why. so when I'm old I can go on trips buy cars and live in mansions.  

You are my girl. I want to see you keep my focus. yes, it's hard for me to stay strong-minded in this game. if I lose everything will you still be there in my life? what if I had no more money will you leave me? some females chase people with the bag. I can't touch my money right now. I don't want the people onto me and the people watching me. I have one thing to say I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm in the house at a reasonable time every day. 

                                                                

It doesn't matter if it's lit outside. I'm still ducking the people. I can't go to black justice. the places I have seen make me a better man. I have been through a lot of real ninja shit and I want to have the time of my life with you. how about getting your things and going out with me? I promise you will have the time of your life. if you don't believe me take a chance. you won't regret it baby now that I have you in my eyes watching me watching you right? I'm in it to make your life better trust me. the things you do for me. 

It's only right I do something for you. let me cross my fingers in the name of God protect me. giving your all in this relationship is all I want to do. thinking about growing old with this lady. how can I remain faithful to you is what I'm thinking? building this life with you means we have to tell one another everything that goes on. do you agree with that? if I'm telling any lies be the first to let me know. baby I'm trying to control my feelings but you keep getting the best of me. 

                                                                     

Growing up yes I made mistakes but I'm putting all of that in the pasted. you are the new woman in my life. baby, what's going on in this mind? sitting here wondering if you want to leave. it's your choice to pick and choose who you want to be with and who you aloud in your life. if you don't want to grow with me. let me go and find someone who will understand me. you make one step forward and then you take ten steps backward. people say Jesus lived to be 110years old that's in Genesis. following the book that's in my hand. what book you may ask and I say the Bible. I am strong but sometimes I feel weak. giving praise to the man upstairs means a lot to me.

                                                        

When the mind goes please take my heart with it. I had so many things on my mind, planning is what I am doing. yes, I want you in my life never let me go. yes, we can ride around in flashy cars. buying you all of the clothes you want. putting diamonds all over your body. you know things cost and I'm trying my best. I want you to know taking care of yourself doesn't come easy. it's one of the hardest things in this world. 

                                                           

Nowadays a man has to prove to his lady that he loves her and I'm trying my best to show you. is this a forever thing or is this a for-now thing? being productive in any situation means you have some home training. as a kid how were you brought up if you were brought up with morals and respect that's how you are going to live your life. a place where magic can happen. I'm just waiting until it's my turn know rush. 

                                                          CHAPTER 122

Waiting for that one special person that I can spend the rest of my life with means everything to me. having an understanding of how women need to be treated may mean the world to her. what you do and how you act reflects on how you were taught when you were young right? when you die where do you go? how about in my hand right that's where heaven at right. I showed y'all the dot now it's up to you. if any person tries to body me my soul goes inside of his or her body and slashes the temple feel me. 

Then it's murder she wrote right yes. mad lock who did what to who. playing ball is in your corner, right? ducking the 12 how long can a young ninja stay in these streets without 1time on my back? ninjas swear to God I'm hiding. who asked Mase to leave and come out of town me that's who. snacks rocking chains right yes I did. only God knows how a young ninja gets to it. never let people talk you out of doing what you love. 

                                                                 

How strongly do you and your crew have to be you have to be the strongest. the way to go is from the top to the highest level. make what you can make then get out of the game. if you get greedy you can get locked up and you don't want that right? playing your part means a lot to me. when you can control what happens in your life. you will see a great outcome feel me. the only way to get money is with your ninjas. if one eats all eat right.

When the war is on. you better get your gun because I'm getting mine. even doe mine is in my hand. ninjas want to party and bull shit. fuck that I'm getting to this money and anyone that think differently can do something about it. I don't think my hitter would like that. low money is the best money, right? that's what the OG'S told me and I followed those rules. ninjas better stay out of the way of ninjas that are in the street life. 

                                                           

Everybody wants the best things in life for me I just want my family back right? itch ninjas put me in this position right. what you throw out is what you get. I can't hold my head watching you out here. I hope you want what I want. speaking to me do you want in on this relationship or not? it's a never-lasting imprint that we leave in this game. how hard is it to make a way for yourself to eat? when you get shit on the arm you get what you want from whoever handling big business. 

You make up for what you want while the whole time I gamble with my life. I have to change that right now. it's all for you so what are you going to do out here? who is the love of my life you? walking past wondering if you want out. only time will tell. yes, I'm out here making sure everything goes right. when you have someone's heart you do whatever it is to keep that person happy. I want to know how you feel about me is it love or hate? growing up with you from here on makes me feel good. the world is on a young man's shoulders and I am making a way for us to be happy. 

Wondering how to stay at your place. can be so hard not knowing. when is the right time to speak? people should always know what their partner is thinking. if she's the one you want to spend the rest of your life with right? always plan your moves so they can happen as you want them to. standing tall never falling short. How can a person stand up in a relationship? when you and she are always fighting? we should be uplifting one another. how can we come to an understanding that everything is okay? we must come to terms that theirs two people in this relationship.

                                                                         

What are you waiting for? my love goes out to the woman that I want to be with. that means all of y'all let's stay in this relationship for the rest of eternity. the last couple of things I have to say. knowing that we are trying to remain strong and trusting I know it's hard. Every day is a fight that I'm willing to take. baby never let your love go anywhere. yes, it's just r&b. holding you at night now that's what makes me happy. the way you say my name, and the talks we had mean so much to me, let's get our minds right.

The way she looks at me. the way she takes her time to understand me. the way she was there for me. all signs of good women. I hope everything I say about females is. help you understand what it is I'm looking for in a woman. disgusting everything that we need to take care of. Makes this relationship between us look positive. we should never look down on one another. we should always share. a strong relationship between two people means talking about the wrongs and the rights. we have as a couple.

This will probably be the story of my life. how did I do this writing is something I like to do. I never want to let my family down. it's times like this that a grown man has to step up and show his young ones that there are other ways to get money. Relax and take your time with what you want to accomplish. anything is possible to do. the way I see it. it's hard at first. but once you be patient anything can happen. you got to put your trust in God first and everything will fall into place.

                                                          CHAPTER 123

Last day. this is for the ninjas getting cocaine. do your thing a young ninja sees you and hears you loud and clear. being from the streets. this young man trying to change up. the way I think fuck the bullshit everybody wants money and is willing to do anything to get it. When you from the dirt. all you hope for be for the seed to grow into a tree. ninjas say money doesn't grow on trees. my ninjas get high as fuck. do you see where this is going? when you live in these streets. you got to keep your mouth close.

Runnin' only the people in this world know. I can't look back now. I got to keep pushing. the way life goes handle yours with the utmost respect. people will try to pull you back. hustling in these streets. Mean two things black justice or five feet underground. on the other hand, you can live life free and stay out of trouble. which one do you choose? a person that has no worries often lives on the streets life. someone with a family who wants to live the good life. it's only right to stay positive in this life.

Starin' through my rear view. when one man gains the world. others will try to take from him. you can't pass up your dreams because you are scared. stay on your job. time to face facts. the people you have in your corner that's the ones you look out for. Having family and friends helps a lot. all I can say is keep grinding. your mind must be focused on goals and yes you can have many goals. it's a young man like me trying to accomplish goals in his life. when pressure gets hard and your back is to the wall. you overcome your fears.

Essence, fuck ninjas get money. staying small and don't want the Feds on my back. probably got the phone tapped. did that in and out of states. getting nothing but big money. came home for about 11 years straight to get more money. what the fuck ninjas thought. This is a business that I'm in. can't hit the streets as I want to. trust it's because I'm working hard. when this young ninja gets older I will have something to lean back on. if one career doesn't work quickly changes. do something else with your time. never stop because you never know where this can go.

How hard is it to find the right woman? there I go again it's just r&b. these songs just come to my mind. this is for the ladies that are in my life. how do you feel knowing I can walk out at any time? their so many females out there. but theirs is one that caught my eye. Maybe it's meant to be or maybe not. growing as times increase times are getting better. how can we show each other that love is real? the way we look at one another. the way we respect one another. there are other ways but the most important one is how we trust one another.

Holla at your boy. get up mother fucker and get money. hang in there and handle your own. gangsters always say what they're going to do to someone but not me. rolling with these ninjas that are in these streets. my ninjas telling me you are the boss. So you should lay back and continue writing these tracks. take what you learn from these streets and put it into verses. you spit it out of your mouth. make sure you say the right thing and never get carried away. how many times do I have to tell you. the streets aren't going anywhere?

When you do the most. out of all of your friends, you get treated with respect. you have to keep your cool in all situations. you should always want to better yourself for the sake of your children. let me guess you asking what is the plan. The plan is for us to get our shit together. I must take my time and only then will I be blessed. blessing comes from people that do good for others and that pray. it's a cold cold world out there. you must plan for a good future. that's why I'm doing all of my homework now.

It's the danger zone. the answer is yes. stay in P.C. I don't want to hear anything, who's in this game with me? I can front right now. ninjas that run their mouths are the ones that are not about that life. the ones like me stay silent and move on the low. How she hit it on the nose when she knows every move you make. that means her mind is constantly thinking about your mind. pay attention and stay focused that's what I like. dam fam not home yet. as time pass by miss all of my dogs. that's still in black justice. The last ones left.

                                                    

Looking into her eyes. you can tell what a woman is thinking. partying up all night or is she handling business? I know something is wrong with me. I got to get back to my job. in the beginning, we had everything. but enough is enough of all of this fighting. You are the only one I care about. I do not want to see you crying and upset about little things. baby, we have to get a grip on this relationship. before it ends and all we worked for goes down with us separated. if we work together we will have more in the future believe me.

Ghost, the resurrection if I come back to this earth. I'm coming back as a mother fucker that don't give a fuck. about the past, it's all about the future. so me and my ninjas jumping in the whip looking for these ninjas. that want beef. This is the shit I'm talking about. I can't get my thoughts together but fuck it. when you come from the bottom of the world. I had to hustle for everything I wanted. I had to handle mine like a man in these streets. I always watch my back from these so-called enemies. let's talk about status staying true.

                                                       CHAPTER 124

Death is around the corner. I got to stay on top of my game. S.M.M. to the day this young man rests up. I'm not throwing know white flag in. for those that don't know what that means. peaceful solution stays on your grind. it's all about that green flag get money young ninjas. Damn, I can't smoke dada shit. it's how you make moves fighting for the best in this life. we call living with nothing to show for it. I'm trying to plan for the future olie. the 5 stay popping in this life of mine. to make moves. yeah, I came back home with a plate for my ninjas to eat off of.

Somebody's gotta die. let me get this straight. so many hill ninjas are not here no more right? where did all of this killing shit come from? everybody is cool with each other. nobody wants to face facts, you not rocking me to sleep I'm up wide awake. You trust ninjas that did dirt from a long time ago and forgive them. it's still in ninjas heart. watch your moves and handle your business. can't forget or let anything go because when it was on I was there. it was a war going on. whoever doesn't like it. oops, 16 floors check it.

When you think of the women of your dreams. you come to an agreement that all women aren't the same. you have to dig deep inside your soul to bring that woman to light. the bottom line holds her tight at night. take care of her with all of your heart. Try to never let her down. this is when she sees you are becoming a man. the life you live will be better, life has its ups and downs. when we are together there's nothing better than that. the time you spend with your lady. will make up for all of the time you miss. I promise you that.

It's one thing to stand up and there's another thing to fall for anything. battling thoughts in my head. telling me to remain focused on my writing. if you want something make it happen. dream big and never let anyone take that from you. The time is right now. so become who you are going to become. get what you can get out of life now. make sure you follow the rules of the game. make smart decisions and take action on everything you want. nothing will be handed to you out here. remain strong and on the right path.

Believe me, baby it's all up to you. whether you want to keep me in your life. baby the thought of leaving you. yes, it's hard the battle wasn't with you. it was with me getting myself together. I know you holding on to me. for all of the wrong I did. But now I'm grown up and I respect her with all of my heart. can't imagine my life without you. baby, you are my rock. keep showing me things that I never knew or things I didn't see. how can you make that person feel so good? that she never wants to leave?

When you see your women. playing games it's time to sit her down and have a talk. baby, what's going on with you? do you want someone else? I can see you are not faithful in this relationship. the things you are doing. mean you are ready to start over. It's out of my hands. can you make up your mind, do you want me or him? you can't keep going back and forth. maybe I should walk out before things get out of control. how can you play both of us? it's just r&b it's nothing personal. this man here is strong with or without you.

                                                                                   

Matrimony, when you think about me. the way I think about you. women can cheat because when she takes walks. how many men are going to holler at her? but let me take a walk not one female will holler. so if you don't treat your lady with respect. There are so many other men willing to do it. this is what one of my friends told me. thinking it's all about money. that there doesn't give me a rush. the business now that's what gives me the rush. looking at every single thing in this world to find the right woman.