BOOK 11

                                                            CHAPTER 168

When I first came to your house to see you. I asked you do you want to go to the store and you said I can order what I want to eat. I was saying two things in one and that was one but the other thing was telling me a story about you. so I can write stories about you. that's exactly what you did that's why I have this much information about you. is it a problem using this information? you know when you went to black justice I wanted to see you. if I shall go to black justice I hope you will come to see me and I'm not speaking it into existence.

I also remember you giving me a towel to put around my clothes and you said that was your towel. question no you answer it in your mind because it can get tents with what I'm about to say. you were trying to tell me you were here for me but do you hear me when I say you are the only one I need in this world? traveling your mind is a mother please tell me your thoughts don't I listen to what mother has to say? this shit can go either way I'm trying to find the balance in all of this madness please forgive me.

Being young and not knowing what I want can change a man's mind. showing you the best things in life is all I want to do for you. what if you want to walk out on me? who do I turn to in life? this thing that we're in can feel good and also feel bad. it depends on how you treat one another in y'all life. the back and forth do you have any idea about the way I feel about you? I know there are other men out there and I'm trying to find out what made you stay with me. I never raised my voice at you, we never had one fight. we always had good communication. 

Work sure is hard but I do this for us okay? I want to provide for us. I get a thrill out of taking care of y'all. I put my life up for you so please take care of me too. the love I have for us will never fade feel me. this is like when you get married or have a child. we can do both, for now, you are doing your part, so in the future, I will do my part. I want to touch you all over your body because you are so beautiful to me. you keep this man working on his writing. how do you feel about what I say to you?

I think men have to figure out the secret to loving women. what she likes to do how she likes to do it. what are some of her favorite things to eat? you have to know some of the places she likes to go. what is her favorite color? does she like to go to the movies and take long walks in the park? if a man knew all of this stuff it will give us some insight into her life. these are some of the questions you have to ask her because, in the long run, they will help you understand her. if she has children with you, you should know these things. 

When I was coming to your house to get my hair done at 2 Pm. you soon changed it to noon my guess so I can see you in the afternoon. I was fine with that because I wanted to see you as soon as possible. I remembered when you were at your program and I was supposed to get my hair done. you called and told mother tell me don't leave because you were on your way and I said okay. when you came inside the house. when you came in and you sit down and I got between your legs. you climb on the sofa opening the blinds to get some light inside of the house.

The calls that I was receiving when I was there for you daily. the only thing I wanted was for you not to be in these streets. as I look at what I did for you. I see you took my advice and I'm so happy about that. when you seek the knowledge you will find it and you told mother to tell me light and that's how I remembered that you can't make bad choices now because you are a grown, woman. so there shouldn't be any excuses from you. stand up and fight for what you desire feel me. you only get one life so live it to the fullest.

I had a lot of females in my life, right? I slept with a lot of females when I was under 12 years old. anything up from that dame, is not my fault but there's one that I still want and I hope she hears me. Jan sported a bookbag at a block party the block party was from 150 to 155 in Edgecombe, and after that, she was coming to see me and she always made me laugh. we had a little rendezvous and from my understanding. she had a baby right when I came home one of my friends came to the block and called her and she said she was with her boyfriend. 

This here makes females fall for me. is it because I do my job with my family and other females see that and want in. who am I not to let them in here with this family we have? when I walk in the door you know what time it is she gets undressed? is that the only thing you know how to cook? you have to prove you can cook more by fixing a full meal. I mean soul food can you get down like that and if so show me one day. you keep saying you are a bad hitch right prove that to me, you look like you are alright.

I'm just writing things that went on in my life. I have to express everything that comes to my mind because I do not want to hold anything in. the only thing I know is I'm here to uplift you not bring you down. I have to figure this out before things get too deep or am I in too deep but I'm cool. straight here for you and the way this life is going to begin. I have to keep moving on you. I like to release my thoughts because my thoughts run 100 miles per hour and they can get intent. the passion I have for this music is outstanding trust me.

                                                                CHAPTER 169

So I'm where I wanted to be. did you listen to this album I heard it but don't remember all of the songs to this piece of work. this is a clue for you am I Noah because you say things about me and I thank you for the name If I had to ride the 7seas it sure was fun for me. I'm in the eighth inning so if you want to stay in this game. you better play your part because if you do not someone will take your place and I'm talking about who. you should always claim your spot in my life because you mean so much to me.

Digging deep in the midst of all of the shit people put me through. I remain a real one but I guess people don't like that right. a lot of people getting out of hand but who am I to talk about it? I know you hear me. uncle, I'm cool trying to stay sucker free because people will hate you and don't even know your story. my story has ups and downs just like anyone. what I have learned sometimes you have to lose everything to gain it back. so bear with me as a climb my way to the top and stand my ground.

I love making you proud of me. baby, I want you to understand me. if it was all about the money think about what you helped me out with. if that’s so I will remember what you did for me. so don’t get upset if I move on because what you won’t do another woman is willing to do. so make sure you stay on your grind before you get replaced. I have options in this large world for every man there are five women to accommodate me. please don’t get lost in what I do because it can stop.

You try to throw signs that you are not a cheater when two females get the idea and they send this other female to find out what you are doing. she saw nothing because I was doing nothing wrong but you couldn't handle me telling you that I'm faithful to you. I had a dream last night about that in a sexual form but I know nothing will ever happen. you find out who had your back when times were hard but you don't mind the girls that got away from you. you have a group of females that love you to the core feel me.

What should a young man write about next? when this money comes in I'm not going to be greedy. if I eat everyone eats you have to understand you do things with that person and now he's on some other shit how does that make you feel. I was on youtube and came across someone saying. the reason for the breakup was that you said he was chilling with that person and now you messing with him. this ain't about sticking together this is more like who's hot gets money. people from junk town beef every day with one another.

You shouldn't dwell in the past. you should be here making money moves with me. before you check me you should check yourself. this has been going on for years when are you going to give up? you can't hang out all the time so respect me. if things get out of hand I'm thinking twice about saying that I'm going to leave because you can go out. the only thing I say is respecting me as I respect you. damn, I want to undress your sexy ass. you always turn my feelings up because the thought of losing you can't happen.

Finding the woman of your dreams how can it be? you know you always telling me what to do. this feels so right to me. I plan on making you my wife there isn't anything you are hiding from me because I tell you everything that you need to know. I want to make it last the way you look at me. can't be replaced at all. so get on this boat but make sure you and I are riding together and there aren't any men riding somewhere I'm supposed to be. the last thing I want to do is break up so hold onto me for dear life.

The game is so tight they call it a virgin. you mess around and you will have everything that I own. so you better get with the program I remember when you text me and asked for you know what. I get what you were saying that amount means 365 I haven't seen a dime like you before. I had you going for a minute right? the respect you have for me is amazing. I never had doubts about you being in my life but something just has to sit right. this is worrying me can you correct it before things get hot? Are you looking for the dog oh he's out of town cross me?

You'll see when the war is on please don't get too close because it can get out of hand. you show all of the paper that you got. I know people want to leave me left but it can't happen because this soul will go inside of your body and pull everyone slash. I know you can't stand to see me but wait until this paper come in. fuck that I'm waiting into the future before I spend any of my money. I will sit back and let my young people eat. finding out shorty was on some bull shit but the get back is real for me.

Wishing you were right here next time for me. so I can tell you everything that's been going on in this life. I know you are watching over me. it's hard to understand why God wanted you next to him but who am I to question him? you gave him the power to feel again and that power went inside of me. this shit doesn't get easier. so I fight hoping one day I will see you again are you walking with this young lady or do I have to start over again when I lay down and have grown up business? the one that I do that with will be her or are you here?

                                                                CHAPTER 170

Daydreaming about you. the last thing I remember doing hurt me. I wish I could go back in time but I can't. I want to make it up to you. I remember dancing on the block with you. then that turned into us dancing at the Apollo and the name we use as children of color. it seems that people use the name we had because I was like ten years old but who knows? we did everything together we were strong you held me down all the time. I want you to know life wouldn't be the same without you in my life.

This young man belongs to a family that he can't leave even if he tried. baby, you have this hold on me. if I see things what if I change up what will you do? I never talk to any of the females that they hang out with but people sure try to talk to my ladies. what if I put my mind on girls that are out there and get next to them? how will you feel if that happens? I think I'm making up my mind to hang out. do you want that before you say anything let me know if it's right because if it was me? you would have an attitude with me.

Yeah if I had one wish it will be getting down on one knee and asking you to be my wife. the only thing you have to do is start up and say what you mean. I remember you getting down on one knee and telling me. you know what you said. tomorrow is the day I asked you to be my wife. every time we have a fight I let you get the last word. l's is cool but now I'm fighting for your love. I hope you hear me because I can't go on without you in my life. I think I made the right choice choosing you am I right?

You got me thinking this way. if I am in your head it doesn't mean I'm brainwashing you. it's called getting in touch with your inner self and bringing the best out of this relationship. can I be honest with you? you stay on my mind all day. I can't get enough of you. when I see you I get the hawk not butterflies in my belly. speaking about this has me emotional because you are giving life and if it's not mine I have to deal with it. what you want to do because you can't have me thinking bad thoughts because you have good thoughts.

You saw something in me that I didn’t see and I know what it is you saw in me. this is what happens when you do everything right by your family. please tell me if I lose my cool because you always say what you do for me. what about what I do for you? I can understand you following the rules that you know. how else will you fulfill your dreams? if it’s up to me you will have everything that you want. so be patient with me because it’s coming to you. I never want to let go of you.

When you first started loving me was it? puppy love, I'm not here to buy your love but to plant seeds inside of your body. I see you accepted my seeds thank you. who do you think I was waiting for I'm glad you're grown now. you are ten times behind me if what Pusha t said is true. you are on your way to nine months if I'm wrong by all means excuse me for thinking differently. I will be on my way to find another girl. if I say something to you take heat to it. I think I had a hand in raising you.

So people talking about the company that is owned by you and me. people will try to bring down our company but we can't let that happen. I will continue to write because this is the way I feel. we are up for this because first. they said they had nothing on us. why people talk too much but we can take criticism from people. we plan on keeping our business running the way it's running. why do people have something to say after all of these years? we never said one thing about you. so stop sweating what's not there anymore.

Closing my life to the one that has things going on with other people. I have to be the man that my mother made me but how can I be that man? when I have questions about you, I know the timeline is correct. so you say I have nothing to worry about is that right? I want to coast and change my atmosphere maybe I need to go out of space because finding love on this earth is so hard. females want their cake and eat it too. I had it up to here with the bull shit. so I mine as well move on before I get hurt. 

So she thinks she's going to have the last laugh but she ain't. I will figure you out one way or another. so you better cover up what needs to be a cover-up. you can't hide this from me. why do you need so much from me? I give you everything you ask me for and this has been going on for a long time. matter a fact ever since I came home. I think I only miss one Birthday and even then. I came to your house and I wasn't scared and handed you what you asked for. I know it's the thought that count. I want to watch you walk away from me.

7 play 1 you always can find out what a woman is thinking before she says it out of her mouth. 2 I want a woman that does not cheat on her man. 3 I want one that has a business or more because we can build together. 4 she has to want sex most of the time I can't be running in her all of the time because it can get old. 5 once in a while that will keep me wanting more from her. 6 one that wants to be my queen and let me be her king. we can't be fighting all of the time. 7 it had to have the connection but it's okay.

                                                                CHAPTER 171

Wake what's up what are you up to? I plan on seeing you before you know what. so stop playing with me before I start yelling at the top of my lungs. you still watching your little sister it can get gray and the rain might start falling. you know a person ran up to me then I left and soon as I got home the rain started falling. people didn't believe in me they were looking at me like how when they had it. in the back of my mind family-like wake got to eat and who was going to stop me from feeding her?

You can blossom into a great person if you want to. but you can also be the worst person on this earth. you have to decide which one you are. taking your time is always a plus because you need to have an idea about where you want to be in the future. Do great minds think alike you ever heard the saying. a lot of people have great things to say about you. thank you for believing in me. that means so much to a person that started with nothing and accomplishes this much. you can't stress out about things you can't control.

When you set your mind on what you want when you get money girls will come from all over the place trying to get with you. I got this question if I had nothing would you still want me? better yet spend all of the money get fly and I'm here to make sure you have food on the table. I'm here to make sure your rent is paid and you have nice clothes and cars. how many it's up to you, this ain't tricking this is called taking care of my queens. so make sure you get with someone that wants to see you win as I do.

When I leave early from off of the block that means my phone is dead, and thoughts come to my mind 24/7 so I have to embrace it. I see everyone working and I'm just trying to get how much I can write. and other reasons it's taking so long but it's coming trust me. business call from the highest so bears with me. you have to put more work in I'm talking to myself because this is how you feed your family. great things come to people that wait you have to be patient for what you want.

So I'm digging into you. how far do I have to go to get your attention? how far do I have to go for you to acknowledge me? if the date means as much to me as it does to you. I remember feeling contractions when I was getting my hair done by sis. we had so much fun when we were younger. it's like since we got grown it's harder to come together but it's okay. as long as we are on the same page. I'm reading out of the book of Elijah. this is my book and everyone that's in it holds a special place in my heart.

Tell me what am I supposed to see when I look at you? I'm covered for real, my whole life waiting on you to show that you want to engage in a relationship with me. you want to throw that in my face for what. you want me to get my hopes high looking at you. I can't wait to undress you because I bet the box is great. I hope you didn't make me wait all of this time for nothing. she said you can have it when you are ready and I said okay fine with your fine ass. you are so cute baby be mine and only mine.

Helping you out first we have to start somewhere besides getting in bed. I want your mind first am I supposed to be mad? this is the only way you can get to my heart before you follow me. first, follow your heart because that will lead you to your destination and that’s with me. we have to remain the same through the good and bad. I want to show you that I’m pure and the reason is you. I want to hold you in my hands and never let you go. so we can be together forever.

This life will never be the same if you cross me. that’s on you so don’t forget what I did for you. I’m not putting it all out there for you to think that I’m on that. I just can’t believe you changed up on me. people should work just as hard as I work. if you want something just ask me and it will get taken care of. we shouldn’t have to tell one another that the other person took care of the things that we needed. I’m not going to blast you. whatever goes on in my mind, I’m writing it down.

Letting you know everything about me is getting uncomfortable for me. the reason I'm letting you know things that I usually don't tell anyone. you seem to be the one so I'm letting you know everything about me. people say things that you do like what goes around come around but I never did anything to anyone. if it was that it wouldn't be this promising for me. things look up from here I want you to know that I love you. standing there with your sexy body and cute face. I need women like you in my life.

Damn, I'm tired but work must go on, the last 18 years of my life have been here at home not messing with anyone. so with that being said, I have the option to choose who I want in my life. looking back at things that went on wasn't fair in know kind of way. you helped people out and it backfired on me. so this time I'm being careful who I help out. you have to prove yourself to me for me to lend a helping hand. it's times like this that I wish you were here with me. you were always the roc of this relationship. you know what the first one turns into you.

                                                                    CHAPTER 172

You give me excuse after excuse but I'm on to you. I have to be on my feet because people will use me for what I have. if the shoe fit wears it if not let it fly. making this family happy is all I've been doing. what about making myself happy I'm happy but it's inside of me. she's the other person now and the one that did me wrong. I hope you live your best life because I want out before I look up and you have more than and nothing is mine. should've left a long time ago but asking me to stay for what.

It seems like nothing I do is right. when you come from the bottom. you will appreciate things better. you will add value to your life. there’s only one way to go and that’s up. when you dedicate your life to her life. some men don’t want to settle down but what's the sense of running around all of your life? this life we have together will be more if we take our time. this distance relationship is hard. we haven’t been in one another life for a long time. I’m sure up to how long this will go on.

You look like something is wrong with you. know I’m just playing your smile can light a room up. when y’all are happy that is what makes me happy. just know you are okay and the fact that you are taking care of yourself. the last thing I remember is you telling me that you love me. you said if I wait for you I will not be disappointed about what life has in store for me. you came to see me when I first came home and I appreciate it. you can brighten up my day with the thought of seeing you again.

Blaming you for what it is because you got me upset because I was thinking one thing. when it’s another thing but I have to get over it. why must you ask me for things? if that’s so doing my part because this is the end of time. you wonder why I’m playing this way. you have a whole man with you. if I couldn’t take care of my business. how do you feel asking another man for things that you need? does that make that person less of a man or am I a fool? when it’s over it's over.

Sometimes you have to separate the two from one. I don't know how I'm going to do that. putting up these numbers of people reading my writing. this is the best feeling a man can have other than his family. putting this together was hard but I stuck with it and our company is doing fine out of every feeling in the world supporting my family is by far the best feeling. creating words so my family can have that understanding of what I'm thinking about. I'm climbing higher and higher until I can't climb anymore.

When we connect and I hold you down for the rest of our life. I know you like riding thru your city top drop-down letting the wind blow threw your hair. I don't mind you going out but make sure you do something that I will approve of. let's keep our love on this level so we know what the other one is doing. please don't hide anything from me. if you want to walk out yes it's hard but I will try my best to get over you. you play for what team do I want to know are you for me or someone else?

Like I told myself don't put all of your eggs in one basket again. a cheater will cheat not once but I have changed. it ain't that I cheated I was let to be outside because the cage and the kettle had to be taken care of. this dog only messes with dogs that do only gangster shit. coming up you watch the drug dealers but at that time I was in it with them. who do you think had the 12 running streets crazy? they called my uncle CO not because of what you would think but because the setup was real and you had to get it the real way.

Ninjas knew how I got down because if you came across me, you were in for it. I use to be in these streets getting down whenever and wherever. ninjas tried to get rid of me but it was in God's hands and you ask me why I don't give a fuck. I remember having a black girl pit bull. she was a beast for real. my friends and I had a house where all of our pits were at. I remember going to one of my friend's houses. leaving their pit and it chases me out the door. Luckily the elevator was there or I would've got bit and this was a big pit.

Most of y'all can only make a hot verse and can't make a hot song blood red. yeah, I always carry that thing on me because I never know when it's my time to go. I want to look my killer in his eyes, the dot will enter his soul and slash the world. if you don't know ask my family if it's true. please don't be surprised about what answer they give you. it's probably something that you don't want to hear. yeah, there were nights I cried myself to sleep praying to get back home to my family because being on the run took a toll on me.

Putting so much in one person's hands hoping he can deliver. you never stop to think how hard it would be. you never thought that I could've died. you never thought that I could've got locked up. you never thought that I would go broke. I am glad you allowed me to understand you and the way you work. if it wasn't for you there would've been know me. having you leading me and this path was great and now I'm not saying it's going to stop here. people that read my stories keep reading them thank you.

                                                                CHAPTER 173

If four is the key then so be it. I want this person to remember what was done for her. it will never be done again because you can't ever find a person to trick. I didn't do it for that so get off of that. what more can I say about the fact that it went left I have to keep my right guard up before someone else come to you. why should I be mad when I learned so much that's never to trust a female that's looking for money. I hope y'all ain't after that because I can show you how to get to a dollar.

Trying to find what I did wrong nothing is what my mind keeps telling me. you live and you learn from what is good and bad. the family will turn against you even if you are in the right. if you hear me it's okay things do change. you can't keep helping people that only want help and never gave you anything. that's like a relationship with a female that only wants money. you find yourself taking care of her all of your life. you should be on the side that was there for you. you're right do you have to make it seem like you don't mess with me or do you just don't?

What I will tell you is to get money because people will talk about you whether you are doing good or bad. yo get that out of your head and continue to do you. who to tell how long this company will be running but for now get your paper up. put all of the bull shit aside and keep your mind in this book because this is where your mind feels relaxed. so press on is what Aaliyah said to me holla back showtime they were. meanwhile, people go to jail for a long time. this shit doesn't bother them as it bothers me.

If you put all of this shit together you will get this. first one of my shorty get triple five up but before that people from you know where said they were hustling with you know who. not one, not two, not three but four gone. others got picked off by people that we are not supposed to be messing with. the same people they talk about had something to do with people that got picked off the hill. excuse me for being the only one that remembers or are people just that blind to see or say it?

Why do people keep going on interviews talking about things that happened back in the day? we are not worried about what y'all are doing. if you wanted to make the music business how you want it to be then get into it. you said you have grown from that but keep talking about it. you stay saying someone talking to the fed what are you in applying. you dry snitching right people need to get this shit right. if you got it like that then open up and do you. if you can make money from it. why not because you can't get fully in the game.

You thought the dog was a friend oh no. Layla, how are you doing? I haven't talked to you in a minute. I hear you every second of the day telling me to keep pressing on. I need women that don't think men are all the same because they had a couple of bad relationships. this man is a grown man and loves females that help him accomplish his goal. the fight does not stop you have to give your all. the only thing I keep thinking about is how people forget so easily and y'all claim to be gangsters. back then now it doesn't matter if things happened.

People talk about it but wasn't around it. if you know firsthand what happened. you would look at things differently, things just don't go away and everybody that wants the best for me thank you. I'm taking on this head-on with no questions asked because I love my family. it doesn't take a man to do things you have to have God in your corner for real. then you add all of your blessings up and then you will know how much he loves you. you could be a bad person and turn your life around to him and good will happen.

Second thoughts are a must cause she can have you out here looking crazy. just a little bit right but what you have written. the comparison doesn't add up to what you have now. so be grateful for what he has blessed you with alright? if it doesn't work out move on. this is what I am thinking about doing now. who's to say if I'm right or wrong but one thing for sure and two things for certain if it was all for money that's the hurt part. you have a gift right so be happy for your gift and that's you being able to write this much.

You have to follow your mind. you should show yourself that you have self-love. you have to love yourself first before you can love someone else. when the right female comes into your life you will be ready. I keep singing this song to you. when I step in the house what are you doing because you help me build this company? so if I find someone else she will have all of this. when you perform you better kill the stage because I believe in you because you are talented. I know you can do it because you are my girl.

Possibility fate shouldn't be measured. you have people in the music business. that writing song about you because your life is popping right now. the biggest hits come from people talking about your life. you always have to be humble out here. that's the only way you will continue to get your blessings before you let anyone get to you. you have to understand you can't let people get under your skin because that's one rule. you can lose if that happens okay? I'm just informing you before you get upset.

                                                              CHAPTER 174

Whatever you put your mind to you will receive. I want to know if you want to talk to me. before someone runs up on you and takes my place. I like writing a love letter to you. when you read it does it turn you on? I'm locked in and know it doesn't stop here. I will continue to think of ideas to write down. so you can feel what I'm saying. all I know is if I never I will go to her and she will be there with open arms but if one day it happens let it be. the dot if I should die. it's all in the family. so you will understand never mind.

Who knows more than you about how to love? you have the right sex appeal for me. you look just like something out of a magazine. building wealth with my family. one hand wash the other and now that we know that. who would want to leave this special place have to be sane because where will you find love like this? I'm just saying coming closer to being older and older together. who needs space when you and I want to spend so much time together? who knows what can come from this? are you ready I am surely ready.

When you feel like talking to me. you will so I guess I will be waiting until that day comes. you put your best fit on so I can see you. you know you hold the endless heart that I have. show me that you are worth me picking you. it’s all or nothing so let’s make it work because I have changed. you bring the best out of me before you know we are raising a family. the only thing that holds me back is you but I’m here until you are ready. you spread positivity in my life and I’m grateful for you.

You're still on three-way right? I'm glad you are making sure I come home at a reasonable time. you always keep me on point. who can tell this is what loving y'all feels like? the motion you go in when you are inside of her. you ought to rub her feet because she has been up all day. you do wonders with me. I have one question how do you know what I like because you always tell me what I want to hear? I'm gossiping about you all of the time. when I talk about you I emphasized it. so people would know how much I love you.

So you made mother make a phone call to me. saying last of a dying breed right? I wanted to know if are you eating out-of-ordinary food because you know why. I shouldn't have to explain it. if so I wanted to know if you eat pickles and ice cream. if so you are nasty like biggie smalls said. am I turning around holding my daughter? if so get the strap come closer to me and let me whisper something in your ear. my bad you did that already right? let's stay on this track because I'm at my best when you guide me.

This goes out to all of the UBN. when are we going to come together? sets fighting sets that aren't what we are supposed to stand for. back in the days' rules were applied to all of us and nowadays there are no rules. people know their codes but we all speak the same codes. it might be different lingo but it's all the same. what hood are you from what does it matter? when this blood shit started it was for a cause and now anybody banging and don't know what they are banging for. this shit doesn't make any sense at all.

Seeing is believing things with your eyes. whoever takes heat to what I am saying be motivated with your talent. God gave us this gift and we should use it well. you can't hide the truth from me. I know you have feelings for me and I have feelings for you. what would I do without you by my side? I have to stay above water sometimes it snow and it gets hot. the rain is something that I control. by the way let's see how long it will take you to come to me. yes, I want to see her because it's been a while since I've seen her.

Another move by the big homie. add another one to our portfolio. adding all of these things under our belt makes me so happy. accepting great deals that make us level-headed. if you weren't with me when I had my back to the wall. I have friendships with people that want to see me win. this is just one of many more businesses that we are running. picking up the speed on our business. when he said bow in dead presidents he was talking about bow wearing a shirt with my company name on it.

People looking at what we did as a unit and want to come for us. what deals got to do with how we take care of our business. if we had nothing to do with it. the money wasn't put into our pockets. if it has to come to a head be strong and tell the truth okay? we don't need any mistakes. this isn't a case involving another person doing something to us other than business. the way we move comes from learning the game at an early age. where did we go wrong this is a quote from bleek and the answer is nowhere.

Everything happens for a reason. you put your game down and hope someone sees what you are doing. so they can invest in you but it's the other way. so handle yours you feel me. you know the in and out of this thing we call hustling. I know people can't wait until faith is on our side. if we ever cross anyone we would have been hit with karma. it's always two ways and two sides to a story. you only get money right here and keep it with your family. you fell a lot of time but you got back up and forth. 

                                                                    CHAPTER 175

So 45 wants to call me and tell me about bushes like she giving up the cake. I can't believe her ass wants to take shots at me. Do you think you look good you ever given head doing 220 on the dash? you trying to be funny I hope you understand this shit. all day you want to show how you look okay you alright ain't shit to get stressed out about. all I know is these children ain't mine. I'm waving my hand is that your hair because you showing it as if that is yours. you can keep the cake that you bake damn time against you.

If I show this lady that she's worth more than anything to me. she will think twice before doing anything that can hurt this relationship and that's how I want her to think. when another man tries to talk to her. she will have me on her mind and all that she will lose. as a man, I have to stay on my job because if I lack another man will do and I can't have that. if I shower her with gifts and take care of her people say that's tricking but if you have a girlfriend. you want her to feel like you can handle whatever she may need.

The glow-up is real because when you have a man that wants to see you do better. if you roc with me I will roc with you too, yes I see you and I appreciate you from my heart. are you the same person I fell in love with. is it something on your mind because you seem like there’s something that you want to tell me? I will try my best to make sure that you see whatever it is that you want to see. should I get my hopes high for this blood drop? how am I supposed to take this information? should I be ready if so I am?

Just because I don’t want you in the streets. this is me just leading you in the right direction. you need to stay in touch with what you are doing and don’t change anything up. you ought to want more for yourself when you bring a child into this world. you have to take good care of him. why not listen to what I have to say, this is like a long-time relationship because I have been here for 13 years. There are some of my thoughts be a wonderful mother to your child. growing up is a part of life never forget that.

Finding the main thing in a female mind, yes it’s so hard giving back to her because she has this thing called bringing life into this world. when you settle down I hope it is with me. I have learned so much from you on a faithful level. my heart can get hurt this is why I’m covering you. I’m thinking about moving into a house with all of y’all there. I know I will have so much fun that’s all that’s on my mind. if I fall off will you be there to pick me back up?

Pushing things that mean nothing to you will have you in a maze. you have to get your ideas together before I notice you. I need women that have some kind of idea of where they want to be in the future. I want you to give me a kiss and a hug because I'm big on that. the little things mean a lot to a street man don't let that hard shit get to you. any man will like the woman that cooks for her man and who rubs his back because there's a lot of 801 going on in his life. so be that woman and your man will love you.

I think about you all the time but what if you go another way? this thing that loves means holds a scary place because you can leave when you feel like it. you told me that you want to build a life together and this is what we have done. whether it is business we did both things. if this comes to an end hurt ain't the word that I will feel because my heart is soft for you. anything you need I'm trying to give you. you see how hard and long I have been working. that should mean something and if it doesn't forget you.

There are things that we have to work on yes I know. working on them things together is better than apart right? putting our knowledge in one space is better and awesome right? so let's do it so we can get the money together. there's so much for us to accomplish out there in the world. being a better person comes from having a strong foundation meaning ladies. people might not know but your women and children make you a better man. this is what we as men have to understand or we will not get far in life.

I wonder why you have four in the middle of your name. what's the connection to that? lets me tell you what four-leaf clover and for Aaliyah's four-page letter. the connection is real so we have to a by by it. you are up and running you kept your word this time but what better time than right now? you know the saying better late than never right? spacing my thoughts while I'm getting connected to you and what it is you want. would like does that sound better because I want to talk properly.

Just to pass the time I want to go out and chill for a minute but now. I will be inside writing this is the future of music feel me. I'm thankful for all of the people that read my stories. this shit isn't easy but I like to express myself like that. the grind doesn't stop like X said you ain't never rich but being wealthy is. you have to a meant I'm a different breed. a lot of people said in their raps that you are the only one for me. I can't stop now because my family depends on me to take care of this corporation that we have.

                                                                 CHAPTER 176

Putting your feelings aside and doing because it's the right thing to do. isn't always the right way to go about something. you have to want to do for her. you do things out of the kindest of your heart. where do you go from here how about you keep working on what you want? being the head of the household means you have to show your ladies and children. the right way to live before things fall apart. you know I can't have that right. traveling to the evil that may be only to come back to Jesus who I am.

You have to control the way you are feeling because you are the women that give birth. you bring life into this world, you are right clubs aren't for us and I'm not saying you can't go out to drink at a lounge. this isn't black justice but if you were doing it all of the time. it will become a problem for the both of us and you might lose me because I need women. that want a house relationship who will lose out me or you. if we break up. are you lying to me and want to go out and hang in the streets with your girlfriends?

There's nothing wrong with wanting more out of this relationship because the way I see it you deserve it from me to you. we have to keep this home happy because we will lose so much if we don't keep it happy. being sad thinking about what if this life we have goes without you in my life. the bottom line keeps yourself clean, letting others cum inside you. you don't know what other people have or what they had. if you want to leave and move on to someone else do me a favor and ask that person to take the test.

Thou Shall is passed by your truly. I can't get the fact out of my mind. that you are willing to give me this family I'm so happy. you turn those bad nights into good nights just being with you. what more can a young man ask for when I have the lady that I want? I'm working all day putting this here for our children. so in the future, they do not have to worry about money. this company is here for them. so one day they will run it. when it all comes down to it you are my world. I'm thinking this can be so much more.

What about me walking down the block and seeing you? you want to know what was on my mind. it was what were you doing. this reminds me of something that I had asked you in your other body. when I came to the park I said hi Trish and you said hi Sin. what more do you need to be done? you have shown me that you are here because of the scene that we replayed. covering you is something I take great joy in. I'm trying to find that place that's connected to your heart. this means that you are all mine.

What's life without the women you gain everything with? what was the clue in the verse I just wrote? it's easy to notice but if you didn't catch it here it goes Trish. you take away the Tee and put an I that means Irish. this is why the dot I have on my hand means so much to me and the heavenly bodies understand what it means to me. I remember telling you that you need the key to go inside the spirit of the man upstairs. you don't have to believe me but if you do thank you for all of these days you have been right next to me.

Trying to hide from who you are isn't good. stand up for once and be yourself. when you connect one part to another part. the parts come together and are one for all eternity. you have to want this for yourself because if this is someone else dream. it won't work because you ought to put your destiny in your own hands. from what I have learned you only get what you put in and I'm putting the work in. trust me I work every day that I'm able to. I work hard for this and you should work hard for your dreams.

So I wrote something that goes like this. she has a tattoo on her ankle. what does that mean I'm curious to know. she's up in a lot of men's faces and that's not something that I will tolerate. I don't mean to interfere with what you are doing but why did they connect after I said what I said? it could be she's in her feelings and wants a man and not a little boy. let's see how long this is going to last because it seems like all of those girls that are out there do the same thing. I want whoever to know that I have the apple of my eye with me.

Let's turn this shit up real quick. if I'm looking for love who am I looking for is it you? take a wild guess dress to impress feel me. right now my mind is on stacking this paper, please don't get it twisted. I'm still that kid that will get down but being here with my family has cooled me down and she can cook and move the LK. I shouldn't have to go into more details right? y'all did y'all thing too so why would I go back? when it was going down everybody was messing with everybody. so please don't say it's my fault because I had my agenda.

I need a girl to show me how to settle down. you have shown me the things that I was lacking. I wanted you to know everything that went on back in the day. when you were a child. I didn't hide anything from you. I don't know how all of these numbers add up to both of y’all please I'm not forgetting about you. you are the oldest had both of y'all by my side. this is what Jesus said when he was on the cross and had his wife looking up at him. being nailed to the cross. this is why I'm so certain that y'all are my little sisters.

                                                               CHAPTER 177

Never talked to anyone, not one guy meaning dating or anything. I remember you walking from school watching over you as a big brother. who knows but it has moved to something else right or am I out of my mind? first off you complete me, I believe that I have found a woman that has allowed me to be myself. the way we live this life together will always be acceptable to me. keep doing what you are doing because you have caught my eye and my eye got caught by a woman's rear. looking over your shoulders because I have to keep you on 050. 

I don't think I ever had to run behind another man having sex with her. if Aaliyah told her friends that were on the trip with her to get on the plane that crashed. she knew that Moses met seven sisters. if they should cross me she got seven waiting for me but guess what one changed lovers. so that means the seven that she died with have a connection to me. y'all are not 100 percent. as for me cheating, I bathed in the red seas that Moses spread in half. so my body is clean and not one of the enter females has anything inside of my body.

She wanted to cater 2 me. she cooked a home-cooked meal for me. she use to do things for me. that know women have done for me in about 21 years. this is the first female to ever cook for me, which means something she made is inside of my body. doing my hair over and over again. I remember walking up the house before I got there in your mind you said ask you do she mind doing my hair every week and that's exactly what I asked her and she replied no she does not mind. there was a couple of time you said something in your mind and I answered you.

If you take my family from me. I will have nothing to look forward to. y'all are my world in the form of me. y'all are half of me, you have half of my heart. half of my mind. half of my spirit and soul and flesh. you first come from me and then goes inside your mother. then she carries you for nine months. how can I walk out when you start from cum and then change into a body. that your mother pushes out of her. so I'm here and there will be no shaking me and you said there goes your party but it's for a good reason.

You know when you put that extra time in for work. yes, your mind feels like you want to just go to sleep but you can't because work is on your mind. this thing repeats itself and I'm sure I'm strong enough to work hard. if I couldn't I wouldn't but I can. you are not supposed to say you can't. that word shouldn't be in your vocabulary. you should always demand better from yourself. if you do not you won't have the passion that's supposed to connect to your dreams. in due time you will get awards for all that you have written.

The way you find out if she’s with you. you test her and never tell her that you are testing her to see what she does. I think it’s the other way around I think she’s testing me and not telling me. I got a trick for her everything will be okay from here on. so she will know that I’m for real. it’s all in your heart if she wants you and if you want her. this isn’t made up I feel like everyone that’s here keep me sane. first off let’s keep it real you are the only one I have been caring for 13 years straight. tell me what have you learned from me.

I'm going to take a game from someone that I follow. he said it just because a man has money. women shouldn't sleep with him because there are STDs out there and HIV. yeah, you open up your legs for the man with money but just because that doesn't mean you are getting some of his money. this is why I'm not having sex with just anyone and this is just my thoughts, so don't take offense to what I am saying. this is just something that I believe in. Women should fill out a man and see if he's going to be there for the long run.

Baby, I just want to know if everything is okay. how does it feel in your new body I think this body fits you so perfectly and she looks just like you. how did you know I will be happy with the trade? she acts just like you she has a smart mind like you and she's smart and good-looking. I know you have to be the first one that I lay down with. is this true or am I bugging out? why not you hold the whole world and that's me being in your life. working on the next steps because I know you are faithful to me right?

If everything falls through you are going to be the one. I understand that you are following the rules. when I came to your house a day after blue ivy was born. fast forward one year after that you were growing a baby inside of you and she was born 4 days after blue ivy. you and her birthday are four days apart and I'm talking in older girls' terms. then jay z and Beyonce had twins in the same month as y'all. if you do the math her 7 years 11 equals the twins 7-18, right now you are due that month and aiming for what day connection.

It seems to be easy loving you because you are my queen. why do you think be and jay make sure the connection to us is valid? I'm sure that this is cogent in our case. both of y'all have to understand what you did for me. I would've been a man outside smoking and drinking and partying a lot but I'm not because of y'all thank you. if I didn't say it before I just want y'all to know the meaning of a true friendship that we have grown to have. let no one take it from us because it means so much to me.

                                                            CHAPTER 178

Tell me when I'm going through withdrawal. this is what you are supposed to do. follow me as you did going out I can't get with that but you don't know better. I see you see something you like. so tell me who's in your life because in my life is my partner. the question is whether we accept applications or not. what's your resume if entering come it has to be clean for some time because my child looks for that. I hope you like what you see when you look at me. a businesswoman is always the best feel me.

You shouldn't live by the rules that other people created because those rules aren't set for you. you grind so your children can have. I told mother I had to save this month right? it's not that I don't want to do but right now I'm not able to do it. the plan I have will show sooner than you think so don't get mad and I know we are just playing a game with one another. having I been there all of the time I have known you. so why should it change now? I'm not going anywhere as long as you are here for me too.

So by now, I'm quite sure mother has told you what I told her, and if so it can happen right. I'm still going to be there. she's telling me I have nothing to worry about right? put yourself in my place and see how it feels. I hope this is the right thing for you to do. mother saying she's naming the baby right and she says I will feel comfortable with the name right but what is feeling comfortable with a name if I'm trying to be sure that it is? this shit got me up in arms because of the different feeling I'm feeling.

Let's see the money get put up. whoever shows what they got can because they worked for it. this shit is for people that are God's body. people trying to be rich but I'm wealthy feel me and I'm still getting it. trust me I'm going to make sure my friends eat off of this plate. we can all get money but let's go back to who you are supposed to trust about the bodies that others have from people from the hill. this is why I'm up in arms and everybody's cool with it. what about the people from others saying people's names that had something to do with it?

The reason why girls get their period is that I have this dot in my hand. so to those that are here with me. for me to light a light on Jesus' body feel so good to me. an eternal light will be flashing over us for the rest of our life. when we get to heaven the light will remotely connect that's the difference between the word but who cares. yeah, I'm willing to go all out for the loves of my life. this family thing I didn't think I was ready for it but it grew on me. There are steps that I had to take so bear with me shorty.

Up in flames, this blood shit ain't for everyone. if you weren't in it when the real people had it. this is for the real people saying they touch my shorty. Aaliyah feels me before I dash I'm going to make my presence known get me. I remember when I walk to 162 you were up there with your crew and I came up there past you the brown paper bag with crack bottles in it. then I and X walked up the block. think I'm playing that's where mars connect was living feel me. I'm just saying hi baby because I haven't spoken to you in a while.

You never know how the game is going to play out. so you have to be on your p’s and q’s. you can’t miss the point that she laid out for you. when you are trying to get in touch with me make sure you hit me up. I know you told mother to call me where’s your heart at. I know you are trying to get me to come down south. I’m thinking about meeting the family but first, she has to let me know that she’s with me. only time will tell this is why I’m taking so long for that to happen. it has nothing to do with me being scared.

You do one thing one day and another thing another day. it all depends on how you are feeling because it can go either way with your feelings. putting down for the city because it’s up to us to keep the streets real. you may not think the way I think because you live a different life. you're more into us being together right I’m with that from this day forward I’m all yours. so don’t hide found out that you did stay here thank you. the more you get closer to me the more the love gets real. finding out that you feel the same way I feel is good.

How much can a young man take from you? when you know you do bull shit. yes, this is the stomping grounds of people that get money. this shit can go up and down from here on. you better be on point cause if not you can get dismissed. leading a team that's murderers. my team will never fold because when your boss leads the team the right way. money will come in because you do your best to stay away from problems. you can get busy by any means. the way shipment comes over here the only way is by death. I'm not going back to black justice.

When you are caught between right and wrong which way do you go? I'm going the right way so my children will have me in their life. anyone can get picked off but fucking with me the baby nine will go into the air and slash the person that wants beef and then rain will start to pour. this is one of the seven deadly sins. so be ready because as long as I got him watching me. who can tell me differently I'm one with the higher power. the first thing I do when I wake up. if my children are up I'm straight slashing them.

                                                             CHAPTER 179

I just got confirmation that you were three-way in me. you shouldn't be listening to my conversation because you might hear something that you do not want to hear. you were wondering if I was going to get upset no I'm not because when I asked the next day. I got the phone call saying what I asked so I'm good with you. you ought to know how I move out here in these streets right? you want me to continue to take care of you. show respect for yourself like you always have because that is what attracted me to you.

Seeing what I have seen. it has to be true that you are having another child. how am I supposed to take this? what I have seen of course. the question is being a father is it me questioning this? which way do I look this time because this is hard? I'm not saying this to say not again but more so. if it comes to it and mother asks me to help out. this will bother me because how am I supposed to know? if this is my child. sometimes I feel like just dismissing myself from this situation. if this is mine I'm the happiest man on earth but who knows?

So mother just hit me to tell me that you are having another baby. from me writing what I wrote last night and her letting me know it is true. I promise to do what I have to do for you and I will not let you down. I’m pushing the thing that I told mother understand me. so now I’m fighting for three rights and one and one and one ain’t that status. making way for us to be in good graces with the man upstairs. we have to move as one and make sure we do for one another. I know I have to step my game up.

You have to get your life together for you to move into the future. this is something that has to happen for the sake of the child that you are giving birth to. you seem to know what you are doing because if you didn’t. you wouldn’t be having more children. you should always let me know what moves you are making. from that post that you said. so you think you are a bad one. I’m sitting here wondering what name you will be naming your daughter and you are having her around your birthday never touched her.

Let's not get into what I'm willing to do. let's talk about what I have to do. some people say I'm not obligated to do for you but I am and trust me I will. you wait so long that you forget what you are waiting for. your mother said at the end you will get what you want. I just hope it comes to me clean and with respect for herself and never let anyone else inside of her. it does not seem like your sister is upset that's always a good sign in my case. preparing yeah it's hard but I'm willing to sacrifice it for you.

So the question is do you believe I'm your father because that is important to me? I have been here since you were a young girl. you use to walk up the block and walk into every building and walk outside not going inside the building. I remember when you were with your auntie. you and she crossed the street and you ran to me and then I walked you to the store and bought you something from the store. one day I saw you with your uncle and you ran to me and asked me for the first time did I have any money and I asked you how much and you said I don't know and I gave you three dollars.

Yes, I have to be in at a certain time. yes, I stay close to my family. I want to spend how much time I can spend with my family because it can all get taken away from me. so when I write about street shit I'm just going by what's going on. you have to use your brains to be in the streets. you can't use force because that will get people looking at you. you can't be buying all of them cars and jewels and buying houses and fronting with all of those females. what I don't do trust me my wives are doing and my children are good that's all that matters to me.

Creating the game in your mind. you have to play the way it’s planned out in your mind. my thoughts run as far back as I can remember and ideas are still coming to my mind. the way you show how real you are. you have to battle what stops you from being the best that you can be. the way you take to the streets and the way the streets take to you feel wonderful. if you are doing your thing out here. you put your best forward because you never know what you can accomplish.

This is the theme of this verse. if you believe that you are going to win you will. you have to have a support team behind you and that's what I am trying to be to you. I just want to support your dreams and help you with the goals you are trying to achieve in life. what more can you want from a person that tries hard to keep his or her okay? the more important thing is what are you willing to do to support your partner. you have to be right by her side at all times and she has to be right by your side.

If I had to do this all over. people wouldn't say that I ran picture that. I was their mind in my own business and people wanted to hate what I and my crew was doing. y'all had all of that fly shit and I had nothing and shorty still wanted me and not y'all. it ain't about what you have it's about what type of person you are and they knew I was a real one. this shit is just playing in my mind I'm still hustling for mine and I'm doing very well. everyone's trying to get in a game that I run feel me.

                                                               CHAPTER 180

When Mase said I should've worn three rubbers just in case one pop. he said he had 10 friends one was down south guess who he was talking about me? Stacy said she had bam er misses down south moving weight. if it's fuck me it's fuck you, if people want to know facts ask me. it's all about phone time white one from skate key. you get over it but you will never forget and I know people that were close to me have turned their back on me. I guess the loyalty is with them but so on I can't dwell over it.

If you see something you want go after it. you do not want to lose what's on your mind. when you face off with someone about things that should've been taken care of. you know the way you first said my name on the phone but before that. I came to your house and one of your friends said that's your boyfriend and you said don't play. back to you on the phone doing my hair another one of your friends said you doing your boo's hair and you said don't play again.

I'm not jinxing you but is there something you want to tell me if so tell me now because I can't wait know more. when you bring life into this world. you are supposed to take the necessary steps to provide for yourself and your children right. when we talked on the phone you said you wanted another child right? so what's taking you so long because you're not getting any younger. it will be a nice time for you to have another child with me.

So if I want to be with you. I didn't know she was talking about you and yes and yes we are together because naming his son after a name that I know. I'm in the middle of the cross and my two brothers one on one side and the other one on the other side. I know last time I said his first name but it's the last name. when I came to see y'all you were cooking. I wonder why you wanted to see me because you weren't showing but now you have a little one. I can only imagine how the father feels about having a new child.

I'm still trying to find out what you named our child. all I know is he looks like me. so that means he's finer than an MF right? them two running the streets when they get older, they will have all of the girls because their father still is a player but not a cheater. all of his females know about one another and play on players. I see you over there looking at me thinking about what about my son. you ran to the back when you saw me come out of the room. he is the same color I am so that's a plus right? if so I'm thankful for our son.

So I guess I will convert it back to you. when I sent you the rough draft of my work. you told me I will have to use characters in the stories and that's exactly what I did. every time you came to the city I move further in my studies right. I was letting you know that I'm here and yes I can handle writing these books. this company means just as much to me as to you right? so why wouldn't I put my all into it? walking to work seeing you asking you that question will you come to see me and you replied what was so special then. do you forgive me?

Problematic finding out the woman that you love cheated on you. what will you do walk out or try to fix it for me I'll walk out because cheating didn't come from me. it came from you letting me handle business for 16 years old with 4 baby mothers. yeah, when I was living in new jersey it was on grove street. you had to take the path train two stops from chamber street. just to let you know I do it ain't nothing new to me. building wealth so my children will have. y'all can keep spending up looking into the future for my children.

This blood was built through OG Tye and that is me, you can't change the way I think about some people claiming blood yeah, and still going to war for what I believe feel me got that sex money murda running streets. people say we were the first one flagging in these streets. all of this blank shit people talk about but ain't doing it. saying they will break a brick but never did it. my blank money is longer than y'all rap money and I'm talking about being a boss but still handling these streets shit. who says they did that. when they touch down it's all about blood.

I know my family is sleeping right now in New York City. I want to let them know I'm still up working to care for them. the way their man is supposed to. work doesn't stop you have to let your mind take control. this is the way you will last in this game. it doesn't mean you are doing badly but you have to take baby steps to take big steps later on in your life. you can't dance with the devil what who scared before I do I have to know son. people have a change of heart about that. I don't know how when shit hit the fan. I take that to heart.

I took care of what I was supposed to take care of. now that y’all are up I’m making this my plead to you. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed because I broke day working. I have to let my mind lead me where it’s going. I always want to put the work in. the plan is to make sure this life we are happy. I can’t change the past but I can evolve for us. you know what I’m thinking when I’m thinking about it. you show your true color being blood in New York City. you are supposed to pretend you are in these streets but not.

                                                          CHAPTER 181

People may not see the pain that I'm going threw when I'm going threw it. I know my family understands how hard this is working all types of nights. this is for us and I'm not giving up on us because I want this to work. when you look at me and I look at you and see that everything's okay. that makes me feel good that I'm able to provide for you. my whole world the air I inhale. the words I speak show me that you understand what I'm working on because you are still here for me.

Hi, baby, my name is l's and I'm from Harlem. people say we are the most fly people on this earth. yeah we get fly and get money, we show off for the ladies, and a lot of females like our swag feel me. yeah we buy cars and live in big houses, yeah we club almost every night getting drunk and smoking weed but I need a shorty that's not into that. one that wants to be home because all I want to do is go to work and come home to my family. when that time comes I will have all of y'all in one house. I'm going to have the best time of my life.

You think about what doesn't move so fast because it can be the downgrade to your life. if you want this man here with you. you have to act right we shouldn't have this conversation right now unless you want to. who are you thinking about it better be me because I'm thinking about you? I haven't felt that thing in a long time and I can't wait to get inside of you. your body's calling me I can feel it trust me it's almost time for us to connect. give it a little more time we have to get it right.

You got the bubbles we can pop something. I'm glad you are happy with the company you own because women should always want to better themselves in this world. what you do you love to do so continue to do what you love to do understand me. if we reach for the highest place we will find him but some people say he's so far above no he's right here with you believe me. I know because I witness his power first hand and trust me he is great. if he believes you are working toward a dream he will bless you.

Check it out now this game we play can’t anybody play like my team. yeah, I have people from all over the world that’s ready to put that pain in. if it comes to it we are not backing down from 12. code of the streets you never tell open your mouth no matter what. you take business as a business come because people that are in this game will be there for you. well, at least it use to be like that back in the day. you never know how it is today. so you keep people that are in it with you good.

Can’t see can’t hear no evil. the devil is working every day. you have to want what’s yours and how are you going to get it. it’s up to you the way you move shows how good of a person you are. you can believe what you want to believe but see sin staying right here. you move like you never move before. you have to show up all day and never sleep on the next move you make. cause it could be your best move. you have to stay on top of your game always to protect yourself out here.

If you can't see how far you want to be. you need to look harder because your gift is right in front of you. never let anyone tell you that you can't do what your heart is set on. half the battle is staying focused and the other half is applying pressure to what you want. you have to make me a believer in these streets because people co-sign you. as one of the most real people to ever do it. the game please don't get lost in it because it's hard to find yourself back together but guess what I did and I'm grateful for that.

When you get to a certain age your mind gets wiser and you start to see things that were different from when you were young. people call that mind developing and everyone should have that when they get older. you start to see a lot of things you did when you were younger that were bad. you can correct them by teaching younger children not to go down that path. it's all about uplifting our children. so they won't make the same mistakes that we made. guiding the next group of children and not misleading them.

When you want someone to love you for you. you will do outstanding things for her to notice you on your behalf things just don't change. if you want this like I want this let's fight for it. as long as you are okay I feel good about the way I treat you and the way you treat me let it reciprocate. I hope the feeling is mutual because if I'm the only one that loves what do you call that? showing helping to organize my life to prepare you for life. There are some of the things I wanted to do with my time understand me.

When I was trying to run the streets with my thugs. phone call after phone call. asking me where am I and if can I come dish something off to you. I was like why not because she's my lady and she asks me when am I going home. I know she won't want anything to happen to me. so I listen to her because a man lady knows what's best for me. I remember you walking across the street laughing at me was that a sign of you feeling me? you ask me if I come outside and I'm telling you not that much. I'm communicating thru this song.

                                                            CHAPTER 182

So now I'm sitting here wondering when are you coming home. I'm sitting here writing songs for you. trying to help comfort me while you are gone. this isn't a feeling that I like to feel not at all. I just want you to keep it real with me. so I will know if you are with me or not. this is all that's on my mind. when can we travel the world when you are ready? I will open up this company when you are ready. I plan on never disappointing you because a man wants his lady to have faith that this relationship is somewhere she needs to be.

When I came to your house. you lay down you telling me to hold you down? baby, I have been holding you down from the first day I saw you. I remember you calling me asking her to ask me to give you 15 dollars but I knew it was for you because I had to bring it to you. after that you ask him can you do my hair at his house and he said yeah. you called me and asked her to call me to see if I need my hair done. then she called me and asked me and I said yeah. I got a wash in set and came to the house and you did my hair.

The pressure is on because I'm starting to see bags under my eyes. I know that's from working hard but Godly. I can feel my eyes getting heavy. all day I feel like my eyes want to close even when I'm outside. I'm not getting the proper sleep and no it's not y'all fault because I like working and putting this family on my back. when you love to work you want to work all day and night. you will get good results and I want to continue to write about our life what y'all need to do is continue to give me ideas.

She sick she doesn't even talk like that. I remember when you use to come into the park and stand right where I can see you. you knew exactly what you were doing and I knew that you were getting older and wiser. then you started being over on the other side of the park and then when I started to be in your life. you stop coming to the park in all. if I round up how many times you came to the park since then. out of 7 years, it has been about 15 times. that right there shows me that you respect me.

A lot of ninjas are backtracking y'all stories. y'all ninjas don't want to do that time but fuck that if one gets got the other one gets got too. the question who is willing to die for this shit. everybody had something to say and now I see y'all ninjas don't want any part of that. this is the shit I'm talking about for mine I'm willing to die feel me because when you walk these MF streets. you stand up but a lot of people got tails between their legs. people, it's cool but shit I thought it was gangster just a week ago and you ain't going to do shit.

I'm still wondering who had my uncle alright because it is on my mind. when you know he's watching you but tell me this if this man said they had business together and two hit from different blocks tell me why. this shit won't rest I'm thinking about it a lot feel me. you find out what it is when my dog touches down, people that mess with the feds I know you can't touch them because you will get a lot of time. who can respect that sometimes I feel like my uncle is inside of me because Lazarus was raised from the dead and Jesus was raised from the dead too? what's the connection when I heard the shots I just went to sleep and woke up in u form.

Respect loyalty trust is all of the things you find in good women. the foundation of a happy family is breathtaking. you find out who is on your side by saying no sometimes and if they get mad their just there for what you can do for them. you should always value your family because you don’t know when something can happen to one of them. a stand-up guy is hard to find. choose your friends wisely because people's action shows who they are. try to stay out of the way because grown men don’t get into problems. the only problem that should be attended to is your children.

You had to be down from the beginning. my ninjas are still my ninjas but if you would've seen what happened. you would be thinking differently from the way you are thinking now. the picture says a thousand words. if it wasn't that then it would've been all good but it was the other way. you shouldn't come when it's built trying to fit in with what's going on. this is just me explaining and I'm thankful for what was done for me, in the beginning, it was yes then the streets hit you and you started hanging out okay.

One day inside my childhood my heart died from that day forward it's like I've been out of control because of you. imagine this you walk out all of the problems I have because of what happened to you was it over a chick no it was over dough but we have to stay friends blood out blood in. this shit is upsetting to witness this shit going on. I'm not the smartest guy in the world but I sure know bull shit when I see it. this is my flag and I'm willing to die to put it back in its proper order. when there were codes to being blood.

You wonder why the dog is gone because this gangster shit is for everybody and there's no hating because whoever works in the music business work for me. we have to get back to the essence of rap and be ourselves. young men look at what's going on. you have mixed feeling about what you are and people saying this is okay. I started this blood shit trust I'm the founder of this blood shit. if it was back in the day people wouldn't be able to bang like that feel me. let's tell the truth outsiders looking inside.