BOOK 13

                                                         CHAPTER 199

You should always want to put people in a position to win because you will need people around you that are getting money. play by the rules until you can’t play anymore feel me. grind hard never let a person stop you. you should play until you can’t play anymore. the grind doesn’t stop. people just grow and get wiser. for the most part, the mind elevates. people live by the code of the street until something happens.

I never claimed to be the hardest person on these streets. people want fame I want money. I’m not in it for the money but people that’s humble and don’t chase the money get the money. people watch what you say before plans set in and it is a problem that fast. this goes out to the triple bean you know what I mean.

East side in this mother fucker right here. getting down at any cost means you are full of thug passion getting lit is a part of riding on your enemies. street shit doesn’t stop people get at you. you get back at them. the problem is I hate people that lie, to tell the truth. I know nobody wants to die. being in charge of sex money murda is a blessing. whoever knows what that means knows that’s a hard job. people have problems and they say it’s on-site. you are willing to throw everything away because you want to prove you are gangstafied.

You have the nerve to cheat on me. you think I won’t set your ass on fire and roast your nasty ass. you think you all that she’s saying I’m not getting away with this. you can’t call the 12 so I’m going to continue to beat your ass. you think our daughter needs another man in her life. I think not who the fuck is this idiot he looks just like a punk. Aaliyah this is me coming at you. you better keep your mouth shut before I close it for you. what the fuck do you want from me this is what she said and I said it’s a little too late for that shit.

You better had came inside of me before I had thoughts that you did you know what with you know who. you saying miss you has dedicated it to me. yeah, you know right from wrong. the dot stays off of safety because of you it can release and I’m not scared to see you up in heaven. I did nothing since you been gone what about you doing me wrong. she said she did nothing and then she said if I would’ve done something you wouldn’t have the dot working on your body and soul. yeah, you're right it justifies your well-being.

So you like doing what you are doing that’s okay because ain’t a mother-blank person doing shit. you have to approach me or nothing is going down. people may say I’m blank up in the head. you better get your act together before I walk the hell out of your life. you think you are walking out with everything I have built I think not over my dead body. oh, she said we will see what are you applying. she said she don’t want to blank myself. what you have money on my head. why because I have enough songs to last over 625 years.

So this is the track I explode on. if I’m on 80 Verses in 17 days, that’s excellent for a person that loves to write songs right. you can’t lose yourself in this world because you will never find yourself. lucky me I’m one that lost himself and find myself. I never want to go through that again because it’s a bad feeling not knowing who you are. black justice I only saw it when I wanted to visit and handle this much business and not have a record. people might say that’s crazy. this is exactly what I am saying because I have a felony to give.

Hold my hand tight. this is what a man looks for in a woman. faithfulness dedication and loyalty that is what makes a man trust her. this one has been showing that even at times when she didn’t have. she let me handle business getting her back on her feet. could this be or is it the wrong idea I have? I can’t make up my mind. she needs to know this she brings me peace in my life. I like the way she stayed down for me. I’m the one that you looked for help and it wasn’t easy but God. let me make a way for us to survive.

You want me to give you what you want right? I’m sitting here watching your baby grow up your mother said when I walked down the block she was looking for me. I don’t mind doing it for you and her but what can I do? yes, I know and I feel it in my heart that she’s mine. I feel like starting here is better for me. looking at another woman I don’t want to do. I want to share my life with you, you make this young man feel so happy. you bring out the best in me. thank you for not doing things that everyone else is doing, you are on top of me handling my business.

Let me know if you have a change of heart. so I never move on because if bad was good. I will be one of the worst people in the world. If it was the correct way that means I will be the good best person in the world. you bring this person out of me for real. I never want the feelings I have for you to change. so let’s continue to love one another. I’m not thinking about separation because yes it will hurt my heart. before I let you go I’m going to put up this fight. so everyone will know what you mean to me.

                                                            CHAPTER 200

People say I’m losing my mind because I’m putting so much into you and that be the trust. I can’t see myself cheating on you. I have been in and out of this life sometimes it feels like this isn’t me. this is why Aaliyah asked 7 friends to Passover with her. if that ain’t protection I don’t know what is. just in case it goes left another 7 will take their place. so is this why I’m so proud of you? you didn’t let anyone distract you from making sure I’m good and I have proof of you being inside of someone else.

I woke up and saw you on the news. I was brokenhearted not knowing that layla was in the south same place I was at. I still can’t thank you enough for leaving her with me. I know you have more questions and I’m here to answer them. when I saw you had on a pink shirt and blue jeans and some cute little shoes. you look just like your mother and me. I can’t deny you even if I wanted to but trust that will never happen because you are my child and I take great responsibility for you. I’m willing to die for you to have the best life and nothing is going to stop me.

I’m trying to advise you that you contain her thoughts her body her soul. if Aaliyah gave birth to Layla in her body but she came inside of you. your mine as well say your body change was to be younger. I ain’t holding back shit. when you have dreams please tell me I’m in them. Aaliyah was laying down with diamonds on. you lay down reaching for a pillow but can’t find one. take this as Aaliyah laying on her back listening to music. this is where I come up with these ideas to write like this. headphones on thinking about building this business.

You never know what she’s thinking but now I know. I don’t have to move until I’m ready. yes looking for that one special lady but the wait is long but I’m willing to wait. I can’t see myself leaving the one that helped me get here. I owe it all to you. sometimes I think about going to heaven and not touching anyone because that’s what you said when you said no more. for real the queen of this castle is you so don’t worry about one dam thing because I can make this happen. Of course, I have to see lay la.

Should I get rid of all of the bad females I have in my life? I want my women into God and not one that’s out there clubbing and can’t any man tell me you have to accept it because there are some good girls out there? why are people mad I need a strong black woman because she will be a strong foundation for the children that we have, you have two children by this man or is that wrong? if I’m wrong I will put my heart back into my wife. no matter where I find myself going I will always find myself going back to you.

Looking for something that isn’t there for me. so I have to move on or is this the relationship I have been looking for? you are calling me to see her then make that come true. so I don’t have to worry about her. this is the way we communicate with one another is this the only way we can come together and be together? I’m all for it so make sure you be on your best behavior. finding one can be done with that being said I’m looking hard at every big or small place. creative writing will make women look at you differently.

Another baby is born am I supposed to be excited or wondering if? please tell me what state of mind I should have but guess what’s the kick? she names her son after my brother. this can mean the world to me. I can’t forget about this life and this life is good. thinking of bringing another child into this world. usher said she’s the most real one are you the one. let me close this conversation with the love being stronger than ever. I want to say thank you for being there for me. this life seems like it’s unreal.

Should I do or not do it’s up to you. I want you to trust me from here on. this is what she’s saying why should I be okay this is why names matter right? for sure you got it correct. if you were up to bat I know you will hit a home run. show your true color can’t wait to see shorty because it’s a blessing to have. thought you were there for me but I guess you weren’t or maybe you are. who knows there’s only one way to find out and trust me. I’m working on finding out but for now, keep your composure.

Oh, baby holds me tight never let me go. I’m right by your side forever. you make this so hard baby. you wipe your eyes you don’t have to cry anymore. how many girlfriends do I have? putting up with all of y’all. this is hard to take care of all of y’all but trusts this man is going to do what I have to do. you know how bad I’m into you. you should put this on repeat, I use to have 7 girlfriends but one opt out but I’m still strong. this is why Aaliyah had 7 girls on the plane with her. when she Passover to the other side.

I don’t think even if I wanted to hide secrets from you. I could but I will make sure that doesn’t happen. you search all over the world to find that one lady. the heart can feel pain but when it’s happy let it be happy. this thing called love doesn’t come easy, people cheat on one another every day in life. you have to have an understanding of your partner before things turn bad. I guess coming back home you were the first person I saw. so I devoted my life to you and in time I will prove it to you.

                                                                CHAPTER 201

Dying in your arms or am I just falling asleep? I’m floating all around the world if you look at it. since I went out from when I was 13 years old until 35 going on 36 March 17 out of all the ladies in the world. I only have 7hours of sexing someone else. my heart belongs to you baby I’m straight for now but if you leave and take everything I’m going to be sad. help me keep my integrity because that’s the man I am for you. you shouldn’t have to question the love I have for you. sitting here reminiscing about the old times.

I just want to comply with one another. so you can see that this man has changed before you walk out and leave me and find another man to take my place. you have me second-guessing your intentions. you should be proud of the woman you are now. sometimes I blame myself for you leaving but you stayed and gave me a second opportunity to make my wrongs rights again and I’m grateful for that. you asked me why am I holding on so tight because I never want to let you go. After all, that can be another man's treasure.

You want one thing to happen and it’s up to her if that’s going to happen. the wait is a process you have to be willing to take your time with her. you can’t rush it to happen just wait until she makes up her mind on giving you what you want. this is part of our life when we control ourselves and be able to keep calm because that’s what she may be looking for. you know things can happen just let it flow. she wants it to be the time of both of y’all life. so why force it to happen? you should keep it in your heart for now.

You have to perform when it’s that time because if you don’t she might feel like you waited all of this time and couldn’t. you have to give her everything you got so she will want to do it again and again. it’s the way you move and get her in the mood to do that gangster love. when you have a female that wants that type of love. you will have it easygoing from there on but sometimes you have to caress her and show her that you care for her. you can’t manhandle her because that will get you nowhere take my advice.

Cupid shot me with an arrow and it has taken my heart to another level because I need you in my life. people say you may only find love one time in your life. so make it right with the person that loves you back. you turned my life around. I thought no one can replace her but you have shown me that you are willing to be that special person. that I can always depend on. if this is what love feels like then I’m all for it. what does it matter who’s right or wrong? I’m not giving up on this life that we have.

Looking at every girl out here and you wonder why I want you to be the one for me. if I travel the world I want to take you with me. you never know where we will end up. so hold on and enjoy the ride. if I get locked up will you hit the block and continue my business? so you can handle the company business. will you take care of our children and remain faithful? this is why I’m not going to cheat because if times get hard for me. I know I did right by you. so there’s no reason for you to cross me.

I will take it anywhere you let me. how about we do it in the bathroom or the bedroom? we can do it in the car or at your house or a hotel. These are some of the places I’ll give it to you I’m ready whenever and wherever. I’m always on point baby. you feel me grinding on you. I remember when I was at your house Moe that waterbed got on my nerves because it felt like an ocean. the water temperature turns hot to warm and sometimes cold. this is why I had to pop it just watching all of the water leak out of the waterbed.

I told y’all soon as I got home that things were going to change for the better. I remember when the relief burns me in my right eye. mystic saw me on the block and bent down and asked me what happened. I told her I got burned in my eye and then she said are you okay and I said yeah. As I got older I remember breaking my arm in the shape of u if you don’t know what that means in blood code black and for those that don’t know what that means universal. That means everyone is under one nation under this umbrella.

What will you do with your time will you give it to me? if so I’m well worth it because I’m a stand-up kind of guy. Yes, I want to be with you, you are that part of my life that I never want to disappear because keeping you right next to me. helps me stay on my job feel me. people may ask how strong you are and I tell them stronger than some of y’all. before this life ends I want to tell you I love you. you will never understand how much I respect you. your mind I know is filled with passion and I want it to rub off on me.

Tell me what you are looking for a man that’s always in these streets or a man that takes family seriously. one that learned from the older hustlers and gangsters. but that’s not the direction I’m going in. So passing around females those are the ones that I try to stay away from and I’m not taking shots at anyone. I want her to only let me go inside. so when I enter she will scream my name if it’s mine and only mine, yeah she could be telling me it’s mine but it could be everybody’s. she knows about all of the drugs she got receipts about my whereabouts.

                                                              CHAPTER 202

Yeah being this person that wants better for himself may make people uncomfortable. forget all of the name-calling because I’m not for all of that. please Aaliyah help me continue on this path without worrying about any females. this is why you gave me yourself. so I wouldn’t have to worry about another female. In all of the problems I have people only see what we show them because you can only let fear be the problem. yeah, she’s the one yeah she covers me and yeah I love her.

My name is Noonsay getting to the bag. you can have the best heart and people will fuck over you. I saw it first hand so this is why I’m watching everything moving because if he sets you up he lives on. if you kill somebody you have to go to jail because ninjas talk. the way shit is going I can’t afford it too many people depend on me. it’s about who can stay in these streets the longest before 12 comes to pick you up. break the name down dam I’m telling you we're up and it has been a hard road, you have to break the half.

Sometimes I feel like I got the short end of the stick because I miss you. this music means everything to you this is why I’m going so hard cause I know this is what you wanted. so your thoughts will live through my pen just make sure you continue to give me things to write about. So far so good keep up the excellent work. two people making this happen is better than one, the connection we have is a connection spiritually. if I have the human being dot on my hand. this is the hand that you hold onto forever.

You should always want to put people in a position to win because you will need people around you that’s getting money. play by the rules until you can’t play anymore feel me. grind hard never let a person stop you. you should play until you can’t play anymore, the grind doesn’t stop and people just grow and get wiser. for the most part, the mind elevates. people live by the code of the street until something happens.

I never claimed to be the hardest person on these streets. people want fame I want the money. I’m not in it for the money but people that are humble and don’t chase the money get the money. people watch what you say before plans set in and it is a problem that fast. this goes out to the triple bean na mean.

East side in this mother fucker right here. getting down at any cost means you are full of thug passion getting lit is a part of riding on your enemies. street shit doesn’t stop people from getting at you. you get back at them. the problem is I hate people that lie too much and tell the truth. I know nobody wants to die. being in charge of sex money murda is a blessing. whoever knows what that means you know that’s a hard job. people have problems and they say it’s on-site. you are willing to throw everything away because you want to prove you are gangstafied.

You have the nerve to cheat on me. you think I won’t set your ass on fire and roast your nasty ass. you think you all that she’s saying I’m not getting away with this. you can’t call the 12 so I’m going to continue to beat your ass. Do you think our daughter needs another man in her life? I think not who the fuck is this idiot he looks just like a punk. Aaliyah this is me coming at you. you better keep your mouth shut before I close it for you. what the fuck do you want from me this is what she said and I said it’s a little too late for that shit.

You better have come inside of me before I had thoughts that you did you know what with you know who. you saying miss you has dedicated it to me. yeah you know right from wrong. the dot stays off of safety because of you it can release and I’m not scared to see you up in heaven. I did nothing since you have been gone what about you doing me wrong. she said she did nothing and then she said if I would’ve did something you wouldn’t have the dot working on your body and soul. yeah, you're right it justifies your well-being.

So you like doing what you are doing that’s okay because ain’t a mother-blank person doing shit. you have to approach me or nothing is going down. people may say I’m blank up in the head. you better get your act together before I walk the hell out of your life. you think you are walking out with everything I have built I think not over my dead body. oh, she said we will see what are you applying for. she said she don’t want to be a criminal herself. what you have money on my head. why because I have enough albums to last 717 years.

So this is the track I explode on. if I’m on 80 Verses in 17 days. that’s excellent for a person that loves to write songs right. you can’t lose yourself in this world because you will never find yourself. Lucky me I’m one that lost himself and found myself. I never want to go through that again because it’s a bad feeling not knowing who you are. black justice I only saw it when I wanted to visit and handle this much business and not have a record. people might say that’s crazy. this is exactly what I am saying because I have a felony to give.

                                                                CHAPTER 203

Hold my hand tight. this is what a man looks for in women. faithfulness dedication and loyalty that is what make a man trust her. this one has been showing that even at times when she didn’t have. She let me handle business getting her back on her feet. could this be or is it the wrong idea I have? I can’t make up my mind. she needs to know this she brings me peace in my life. I like the way she stayed down for me. I’m the one that you looked for help and it wasn’t easy but God. let me make a way for us to survive.

So she wants to go out and show her tail feather. so what if I decide to go to the strip club and get a lap dance? you perform and hope your ass gets wet by the rain. what you couldn’t stay in the cold. yeah, you going to give that money you paid for that whip, or is that yours, or were you just fronting for the weekend? Do you think you are going to keep spending my money out here? next time you take money out of my account or use your credit card that I pay for. you better give up something and you know what that something is no need to say it.

When she put up her life to better mine and I’m making this much impact on the world why would I leave her? if it ain’t you I’m going after Layla because that’s the only two that make my living worthwhile, I can’t believe you are willing to leave. you had me thinking you are in my life. I do everything for you and your child. am I in it for the long run it seems like time is on our side. yes, I want to ask you know what I have to say. you made life worth living for again. when we saw one another I felt like it was all worth it.

You want me to give you what you want right? I’m sitting here watching your baby grow up your mother said when I walked down the block she was looking for me. I don’t mind doing it for you and her but what can I do? yes, I know and I feel it in my heart that she’s mine. I feel like starting here is better for me. looking at another woman I don’t want to do. I want to share my life with you. you make this young man feel so happy. you bring out the best in me. thank you for not doing things that everyone else is doing. you are on top of me handling my business.

Let me know if you have a change of heart. so I never move on because if bad was good. I will be the worst person in the world If it was the correct way that means I will be the good best person in the world. you bring this person out of me for real. I never want the feelings I have for you to change. so let’s continue to love one another. I’m not thinking about separation because yes it will hurt my heart. before I let you go I’m going to put up this fight. so everyone will know what you mean to me.

People say I’m losing my mind because I’m putting so much into you and that be the trust. I can’t see myself cheating on you. I have been in and out of this life sometimes it feels like this isn’t me. this is why Aaliyah asked 7 friends to Passover with her. if that ain’t protection I don’t know what is. just in case it goes left another 7 will take their place. so is this why I’m so proud of you? you didn’t let anyone distract you from making sure I’m good and I have proof of you being inside of someone else.

I woke up and saw you on the news. I was brokenhearted not knowing that Layla was in the south same place I was at. I still can’t thank you enough for leaving her with me. I know you have more questions and I’m here to answer them when I saw you had on a pink shirt and blue jeans and some cute little shoes. you look just like your mother and me. I can’t deny you even if I wanted to but trust that will never happen because you are my child and I take great responsibility for you. I’m willing to die for you to have the best life and nothing is going to stop me.

I’m trying to advise you that you contain her thoughts her body her soul if Aaliyah gave birth to Layla in her body but she came inside of you. you mine as well say your body change was to be younger. I ain’t holding back shit. when you have dreams please tell me I’m in them. Aaliyah was laying down with diamonds on. you lay down reaching for a pillow but couldn’t find one. take this as Aaliyah laying on her back listening to music. This is where I come up with these ideas to write like this. headphones on thinking about building this business.

You never know what she’s thinking but now that I know. I don’t have to move until I’m ready. yes looking for that one special lady but the wait is long but I’m willing to wait. I can’t see myself leaving the one that helped me get here. I owe it all to you. sometimes I think about going to heaven and not touching anyone because that’s what you said when you said no more. for real the queen of this castle is you so don’t worry about one dam thing because I can make this happen of course I have to see Layla.

Should I get rid of all of the bad females I have in my life? I want my woman into God and not one that’s out there clubbing and can’t any man tell me you have to accept it because there are some good girls out there? why are people mad I need a strong black woman because she will be a strong foundation for the children that we have. you have two children by this man or is that wrong? if I’m wrong I will put my heart back with my wife. no matter where I find myself going I will always find myself going back to you.

                                                              CHAPTER 204

Looking for something that isn’t there for me. so I have to move on or is this the relationship I have been looking for? you are calling me to see her then make that come true. so I don’t have to worry about her. this is the way we communicate with one another is this the only way we can come together and be together? I’m all for it so make sure you be on your best behavior. finding one can be done with that being said I’m looking hard at every big or small place. creative writing will make women look at you differently.

Another baby is born am I supposed to be excited or wondering if? please tell me what state of mind I should have but guess what’s the kick? She names her son after my brother. this can mean the world to me. I can’t forget about this life and this life is good. thinking of bringing another child into this world. usher said she’s the realest one are you the one. let me close this conversation with the love being stronger than ever. I want to say thank you for being there for me. this life seems like it’s unreal.

Should I do or not do it’s up to you. I want you to trust me from here on. This is what she’s saying why should I, okay this is why because names matter right? For sure you got it correct. if you were up to bat I know you will hit a home run. show your true color can’t wait to see Shorty because it’s a blessing to have. thought you were there for me but I guess you weren’t or maybe you are. who knows there’s only one way to find out and trust me. I’m working on finding out but for now, keep your composure.

Oh baby hold me tight never let me go. I’m right by your side forever, you make this so hard baby. you wipe your eyes you don’t have to cry anymore. how many girlfriends do I have? Putting up with all of y’all. this is hard to take care of all of y’all but trusts this man is going to do what I have to do. you know how bad I’m into you, you should put this on repeat. I use to have 7 girlfriends but one opts out but I’m still strong. this is why Aaliyah had 7 people on the plane with her. when she Passover to the other side.

I don’t think even if I wanted to hide secrets from you. I could but I will make sure that doesn’t happen. you search all over the world to find that one lady. the heart can feel pain but when it’s happy let it be happy. this thing called love doesn’t come easy. people cheat on one another every day in life. you have to have an understanding of your partner before things turn bad. I guess coming back home you were the first person I saw. so I devoted my life to you and in time I will prove it to you.

Dying in your arms or am I just falling asleep? I’m floating all around the world if you look at it. since I went out when I was 12 years old until 41 going on 42 March 17 out all of the ladies in the world. I only have 2days of sexing someone else. my heart belongs to you baby I’m straight for now but if you leave and take everything I’m going to be sad. help me keep my integrity because that’s the man I am for you. you shouldn’t have to question the love I have for you. sitting here reminiscing about the old times.

I just want to comply with one another. so you can see that this man has changed before you walk out and leave me and find another man to take my place. you have me second-guessing your intentions. you should be proud of the woman you are now. sometimes I blame myself for you leaving but you stayed and gave me a second opportunity to make my wrongs rights again and I’m grateful for that. you asked me why am I holding on so tight because I never want to let you go. After all, that can be another man's treasure.

You want one thing to happen and it’s up to her if that’s going to happen. the wait is a process you have to be willing to take your time with her. you can’t rush it to happen just wait until she makes up her mind on giving you what you want. this is part of our life when we control ourselves and be able to keep calm because that’s what she may be looking for. you know things can happen just let it flow. She wants it to be the time of the both of y’all life. so why force it to happen, you should keep it in your heart for now.

You have to perform when it’s that time because if you don’t she might feel like you waited all of this time and couldn’t. you have to give her everything you got so she will want to do it again and again. it’s the way you move and get her in the mood to do that gangster love. when you have a female that wants that type of love. you will have it easygoing from there on but sometimes you have to caress her and show her that you care for her. you can’t manhandle her because that will get you nowhere take my advice.

Planning a future can be the best feeling in the world just by having the woman that you want to spend the rest of your life with. you have this man feeling some kind of way. I think this is the feeling you feel when a baby is born. am I rushing before it ends up not mine or in my life am I glad? I feel twisted I have to stay on the right track because you looked me in my eyes and said everything is okay. how am I supposed to get over you? when you are my protector. this smile on my face feels awesome and no one can take this feeling away from me.

                                                                CHAPTER 205

Is material things that are important in your life. what about if he stops that what will you do? if he takes everything from you because this is where he’s going with this. here and now you're not reaching out to him. shouldn’t that bother you? yeah, you might have it because of him. it looks like the only things you love are what he can give you. you can only show off for as long as he let you. while you are enjoying your life. he’s out here looking for someone to replace you and it feels like it’s coming soon because the value of he is not there.

There’s nothing like being one with yourself because people can’t tell you who you are supposed to be. nothing comes easy you have to go through hard times for good times to show. you have to be aware of your surroundings. so you can have an understanding of the way life is supposed to be. I saw ninjas with money go broke they had everything. you have to plan for your future, so your kids will be taken care of because when you go to Heaven your children have to live on and it goes down to their children.

Passing the knowledge that I have down to my children so one day they can potentially run my company one day. this is why I’m putting all of this hard work into it. you should know better than to step out because this could end everything that I work for. this is something that you have to do and that is educating our children and yourself. when I went out you went to school. so you are smart and I appreciate that. this is the reason I’m fighting for this relationship. you can’t tell me anything about my children. this is why I’m still here.

I call things as I see them. you should support the career of your woman because she’s the one that’s been giving you advice and the advice she’s been giving you made you the man you are today. I can’t imagine going one day without my children. when you hold something so close to your heart. you want nothing but the best for them. seeing you makes me a workaholic. putting in days when I’m tired just knowing that I did it that day. I’m supposed to be strong for my children. I never want to leave here.

If I had to concentrate on other things that didn’t concern you. I wouldn’t be at this place in my life. the space helped us back together because the slashes to our family wouldn’t work if you cheated on me. people may ask why am I writing songs like this. cause proving to her is the only thing I want to do. I’m trying to explain to her mother that her daughter is right here. it doesn’t matter what people may say and for the people that believe what other people say about her. trust me it isn’t true just go look at the video miss you by Aaliyah.

You have to discipline your mind. so you can accomplish things that God has set up for you. I just want to say thank you because you depended on me to say the words of yours. you have to take one step at a time. you will see improvement as times pass by and as you get older you learn from your peers. you ought to learn from one another. you take in what you have learned. so you can release it from your heart. you get familiar with what you are trying to express to others. Your word from you means a lot to people that want to listen.

What puzzles me the most is the people that didn’t believe in me. you have your whole life to live with the man that loves you. so be there for him and show him that you are a strong individual that can’t be replaced. seek with your mind for more information. so you can have the knowledge that’s needed to overcome temptation. picking the right women yeah but with you I feel like I have picked the right one. bear with me and follow your heart it will lead in the position and positive thoughts.

If I ruled the world. I will make it where our people will come together. there wouldn’t be any oppression people will live freely. our people will be one and be strong people and dedicated to our craft. our young children will be into books and not the streets. people living in a comfortable place. it wouldn’t be any problems in life. everyone will live like kings and queens. everyone that wants to work will have a job. 12 wouldn’t be on our back all of the time. hard times turned into easy times but that was just the way it would be. if I ruled the world.

People may ask how am I so far into this study. loyalty is a part of this grind, if you don’t have that you will end up with nothing. you have to stay true to yourself because you can help others advance. people may ask why am I so strong about taking care of my family because they will keep the legacy going on. so as you make this happen so they can live through you. this isn’t something that they have to do but if they want to run this company they will. putting my all into this life so my children live outstandingly.

Building with the ones you love. the conversation that we have let know one take that from us. I want in and it’s hard to be there for you. you made me whole and I praise you. when I pray I pray to you, and he let me know who I am. Is it this way for a reason yes and I’m all for it. yes, we are getting older if you didn’t have my back. you can get gone he sees everything and anyone that think differently need to find their self. when you give respect you will get respect people change every day.

                                                                 CHAPTER 206

The awkward situation in this time of my life can’t be measured in any kind of way. so I keep pushing on and on to let her know that I’m the right one for her. why can’t we resolve the things that keep us mad at one another? I’m still trying to figure out which way to go. when it comes down to it you are the one that I call on because I know you will always be there for me. you always make me feel better no matter how bad something may seem and I appreciate it. if I’m on your side you should keep me right next to you.

You are always going to find that one special place that helps you get away from the negative vibes. coming up times got hard but I had to fight let me tell you even doe times were hard. I still was seeing like 70 thousand a trip. who would think you could be down and out but still see that much? traveling back and forth from A to B handling business. this is for those that counted me out look at the way God change my situation and gave me hope again and a second chance.

She asked am I still the same and the answer is yes. you saying when you went to college I was going to high school. doesn’t that make you four years older than me? so I guess you were on point with that. I know our daughter misses you but this is starting to feel like you are walking in someone else shoes. if so I want to give that person a life that has no end. this is why eternal life is on us. I can’t stop writing to explain the reason the both of us had to exchange our bodies for someone else. if you follow everything that’s set up for you.

How long is this going to be going on? who going to approach who not me? so I guess we have to see where this goes because I’m not budging for shit a man can have children for a long time but a woman stops at a certain age right. you don’t want to wake up 40 without children right. the way you are going looks like you will be seeing that age if you leave. leave the bank books and credit cards and leave with everything you came with. She was just protecting me like she always does because she’s one of a kind.

If a woman acts like a woman she will get treated like a woman. see the problem is they think that nobody can take their place. if you know what you are headed for you will understand that I’m waiting on you because my child wants this to happen. if this goes left I’m looking for a new female. when you have everything you think it can’t end but guess what it can. sitting here looking at 2019. when she says no more you have to listen to her because she knows what’s best for you. things sure can change.

When you find out that your team of writers is working so hard. people should know by now that I am behind a lot of the things that the consumers love. I’m still trying to find myself in this mist of a world. you can’t let anyone sidetrack you. if it’s coming out of Disney you know I’m part of it. the coming of this movie shows that people enjoy what’s written by the writers and I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. my mind is telling me I have to remain focused because this is what’s feeding my family.

So if I’m looking for one that can teach me how to be a man. meaning by guiding me in the right direction. Women have more respect because she’s the one that gives birth to their sons and daughters. so why wouldn’t I respect her for that? I think I’m going in a different direction from other people because I’m conscious about how I picture my wife's life to be. usually, females like to be it when they see someone that wants a better life. you lead her in the right direction so her path will be easy and she doesn’t have to fight the demons that a man has.

You can’t just sit there and let her walk out of your life. what are you prepared to do to keep her with you? you have to show her that you love her. this is what my heart feels and I’m supposed to be the man. so what am I willing to sacrifice how about what she sacrificed for me that's my life for her to have a better life. speaking this into existence so don’t worry about the road I’m taking. everyone seems to have this look on their face and I’m asking myself why her but this is not who is. it’s just her and I have to deal with it.

You shouldn’t have to cover up for the one you love. you should just let it flow and see what happens. stepping into these conditions may make you want to change your mind about being with a man like me. I’m not changing for anyone. I hope you can deal with me the way I am and if not seeing this door is what I’m thinking about. Where do you stand with this? we have to have this conversation or just pick up the phone and let me know what you think about what I just said. if you are not too busy.

When you find out that your team of writers is working so hard. people should know by now that I am behind a lot of the things that the consumers love. I’m still trying to find myself in this mist of a world. you can’t let anyone sidetrack you. if it’s coming out of Disney you know I’m part of it. the coming of this movie shows that people enjoy what’s written by the writers and I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. my mind is telling me I have to remain focused because this is what’s feeding my family.

                                                            CHAPTER 207

So if I’m looking for one that can teach me how to be a man. meaning by guiding me in the right direction. Women have more respect because she’s the one that gives birth to their sons and daughters. so why wouldn’t I respect her for that? I think I’m going in a different direction from other people because I’m conscious about how I picture my wife's life to be. usually, females like to be it when they see someone that wants a better life. you lead her in the right direction so her path will be easy and she doesn’t have to fight the demons that a man has.

You can’t just sit there and let her walk out of your life. what are you prepared to do to keep her with you? you have to show her that you love her. this is what my heart feels and I’m supposed to be the man. so what am I willing to sacrifice how about what she sacrificed for me that's my life for her to have a better life. speaking this into existence so don’t worry about the road I’m taking. everyone seems to have this look on their face and I’m asking myself why her but this is not who is. it’s just her and I have to deal with it.

You shouldn’t have to cover up for the one you love. you should just let it flow and see what happens. stepping into these conditions may make you want to change your mind about being with a man like me. I’m not changing for anyone. I hope you can deal with me the way I am and if not seeing this door is what I’m thinking about. Where do you stand with this? we have to have this conversation or just pick up the phone and let me know what you think about what I just said. if you are not too busy.

As tomorrow approaches think about it. we are still together how many flowers do you need? since I can’t give you a flower I’m letting my heart write this song and this is what I’m giving you as a gift. you are the only one that has been here for me since the beginning of time. I know you are taking care of it. buying you something what can a man buy for his woman when she has everything? spoiled isn’t the word but I love taking on this responsibility for you. As we get older with one another boy do I love growing with you yes I do.

When she’s your significant other you will fight for her. walk the longest path and climb the tallest mountain in the world to be with her. isn’t this what Jesus did when he found God and God told him that he was the chosen one? the Bible says Jesus lived until he was 111 and he returned to his wife. when he was 80 years old. this is another sign right you keep this up you are going to get exactly what you are looking for. I don’t want to have doubts but in the back of my mind. I’m saying make me a believer.

So am I foolish because I can see what’s going on before it’s going on? I see the way I have to move and don’t do things that I can’t see to keep on the low. the decisions I have to make when I’m ready to start over but the person that’s in my life keep me comfortable. I’m addressing this right now I can have any women that I want because I’m smart and have that thing that’s called empowerment. looking at this the way I look at it to keep a man in her life she has to put up with the bull shit and I can’t take this anymore.

Lord, I just want you to hear my confession and take heat to it. no, I wasn’t always a good person. I had my demons that I was fighting. I felt like I had to get deep so I can reach the painting. the good one and fight my way back into your arms now that I’m here. I will be one you can trust, the ups and downs can be confusing, people want to see you do good but what’s in their eyes? All of my people will continue to show me the blessings that they’ve given us. you know I’m looking both ways to remain above water.

Yes, I know what today is. how can I say this you are my queen and I can’t find a better person in my life than you were in my life. you bring so much light to this dark heart. when I’m working you are always telling me how you feel. I never want this to end and I’m here for all eternity. life to live connected. yes, we have a long way to go but with patience, we can accomplish something special. I’m loving the feeling that you love me. I just want to hold you in my arms and squeeze you tight and never let go because you bring me so much joy.

I’m glad I saw you today. you made my day I’m trying to stay in my children's life. please tell me how is that going to happen because I’m willing to do anything for my children. you have to teach her how to be a woman and not one that follows behind others. let’s say you were in the streets and had different men around her she might think that’s cool but if you respect yourself she will respect herself. it’s a proven fact and the way you act will justify the way your little mama act. this is why you need to hand it to her.

What part of your life do you want to disappear nothing? I’m thankful for all that I have accomplished. you strive for what you believe in. The part of not being there for my children will never happen even in death I’m right on their right side temple. please don’t get it messed up I’m the last of a dying breed. you maintain until you have to go out there and show off but even then you make sure you stay humble because he gives and can take. this is why I’m counting my blessings. I will always give thanks to the most highest in other words praising him.

It’s close to Armageddon. we already went through Haven. so if all mount up and start tearing up the streets again. I’m not responsible for it don’t touch the one that holds the key to the damu. I’m figuring out if I have this blood drop because one way or another I feel some kind of way. God telling me to remain focused because he needs me. trust I can see why people are scared of the initiation starting back up. this time I’m not moving let’s clear something up. when it went down she came to the house and told me 12 was looking for me. so I didn’t tell them I went on the run.

You shouldn’t go looking for something because you might just find what you're looking for and you might not like it. if you have nothing to hide she said give me the password to all of your accounts and phone password. I’m saying here you go getting all in my business. why should you know that much stuff of mine because I’m your woman? you're right so I gave it to her and then she gave me hers. I wasn’t expecting that but since she did I’m grateful. if there are no secrets we have nothing to worry about true.

I just want to hold you down. so you don’t have to worry about going up to Heaven by yourself. you need the key to Jesus' heart to go to my heaven. if I showed you the dot on my hand. this is where people go when they Passover to the other side. this is something that I and you control. I’m just letting you know. the key turns Jesus' heart around and if that happens. you will enter the pearly gates and only the ones that are in my life go there and feel me. no everybody’s not welcome. so if test it is then I guess test it is. the same jeans run down from birth.