BOOK 1-2

 16 - Sporty line 1 when my uncle told me to let’s go out of town and handle business out there so I said yes, you heard what Jay said red or blue a course I was wearing that red, I was the seed that planted the whole I95 🩸 until they connected to me in Bama what you know about carrying that burning on me, remember when Jay shot his brother look I can relate because I had a baby 25 one that you can fit in your shoe playing Russia roulette aimed at my cousin pulled the trigger it didn’t go off FYI point it in the other direction and pulled the trigger it went off, he stuck by my side through every night walking home with him letting him carry the snub nose 25 gangsters Brooklyn is where he from.

17 - Let’s take it back to skate key that night when kiss said replay it, we went in and ninjas crowding around me so my man and I was holding it down remember when you tried to tell someone from 33 33 on me and he said who L’S not him, yeah my reach was long, the night of the shooting my friends and I was walking I remember we had the burner in a crack in the wall, so I went and got it shots rings off and I’m about to run but I had a clear shot soon as I reach for the burner 12 sirens in a cop car was going off they were driving by, so I couldn’t pull out we ran up the block when we go up the block I let one go off in the air.

18 - I remember going to Rucker park and mase was there this time the lox and he started rapping that shit was hot had ninjas tight in the crowd, I remember coming up top from down bottom mean down south he was on the court at Rucker park playing with this basketball I stood up looked at him dead in his eyes and was like mind to mind come down south cause it’s about to get messy phone time, this time I came back home had the ox in the mouth walked threw Sólo grounds spit the ox out caught it in my hand and put it in the garbage then walked to Rucker this game was going on I sat down to watch this kid came up to me and threw up 🩸.

19 - Look at this since I have the dot on my left hand if I would’ve grabbed the gun with the left hand it would’ve to spit meaning bust off and I could’ve died but since I grab it with the right hand it gripped the gun left-hand spit right hand gripped, this the shit that I was on but I know playa everyone up top thought they ran me out of town fam sex money murder never ran and never will this 🩸 shit is gold coded like da Vinci code or the book of Eli I can’t shake this shit, while you was watching Chucky I was living that life so for all of y’all who fell back because I was sick the last Chucky where was he at thanks but no thanks.

20 - Oh yeah mainly all of those so-called friends that were fucking with me back then is friends with those apps, my guess those ninjas apps to I’m just calling it as it is, I guess I was the one that was in the wrong, what you know about having a whole Harlem not liking me, I still deal with this shit why because I’m not out here sexing these hoes or smoking and drinking, my skin is thick whoever don’t like it just be a man about y’all ninjas talking like y’all got Harlem y’all see where Harlem at, y’all ninjas talk too much or trying to impress these females, my 🩸 drop need me her mother named Aaliyah came inside of me to take my pain away in I miss you she said no more.

21 - Be and not Beyoncé how are you doing I hope everything’s ok with you, I’m not leaving so I hope you are staying with me, decisions we have to make on marriage I know y’all want that ring on y’all finger and I’m willing to do it, listen please it has to be trusted for right now let’s work hard on this company that we own, yes I speak French olie this the shit 🩸s go through, I’m trying not to be MR Freeze if you don’t know what that mean it mean in love this is why I need a 101 status no I can’t deny a 🩸 female if you’re thinking about trying to give me a son Be I’m all for it until the end of time trust.

22 - If I tell you I want to hold you tonight wrap my arms around your ass and kiss your lips baby damn I can’t wait, I see you I hope you see me, the great part is when that day comes we will be pure together, so when I go inside of you I don’t have to worry about no STD baby that’s what I’m talking about if you want me to go downtown on you it has to be pure because that’s where another man put his meat and he could’ve back door you and put it where I have to kiss your lips and if I eat come on that’s nasty to me baby, so please stay clean so I can explore your body if it’s mine keep it tight for me cause I’m keeping mines clean for you and you will have all of me test.

23 - This is to my children I want to guide y’all right don’t think because hitches play the club that y’all should do the same thing, if you want a man that will respect you get you a man with a business and work hard, don’t let a ninja trick you, trust me my children don’t need any man for anything because their father made sure while I’m here money is not a problem and when I leave this earth there will be over $500 trillion in the bank account for them, please don’t let a ninja hit you until he deserves it, you think life just as well as you giving up your goods, watch learn how I treat y’all, mothers, that’s what you should be looking for.

24 - Shit the things we talked about the last time we saw one another I know what you meant when you said no one else, talk your shit shorty the price just went up on being faithful to you, trust me I don’t want to leave here, just the thought of going to heaven and you pull out of my skin and stand side by side with me as we walk in, the love I have for you can’t be replaced trust me, love, holding you tight and I’m never letting you go anywhere, the bond that we have built over 20 years, I know you had your heart set out for this goal who am I to take it from you.

25 - I see you were able to control me and I know it took hard work because I was not a player you already knew that right, thank you for spending your life with me baby I appreciate that for real, you came inside of me when I was down and outright to pick me back up, I can’t say thank you enough, the growth that we have let know man or woman take that from us, all this talk about what she did she did nothing if she did this dot wouldn’t be rotating around my body and slashing my family trusts me, stand strong baby like you always have and never let me down when you say go home, going home it is.

26 - So this girl that came from queens NYC the first time I had her in sex contact, I hit her with the Tommy and Keisha when he had her on the bed right, we had a couple in counters after that one was at my cousins' house I did my thing that day but the day she spends the night at my house she came in the house and I was there and we smoked a couple of blunts, went inside of my room I knew I had to put it on her for sure it was an all-night thing I’m straight going to work on her after it was over she ran out the room and went in the living room and drop to the floor than I came out the room and laid down putting my hands in my shorts so she wouldn’t try to go downtown.

27 - Being that I cleanse myself in the Red Sea lady don’t get mad and I’m talking to all 🌲 of y’all, better respect my name cause it holds weight feel me, you wanna know why I’m mad cause I’m working and playtime stops going on 22 years ago, I’m not mad just getting money right now, like more said white one at skate key why was Cameron telling Mase to tell on who feel me, if it’s war then it’s war and for all of the people on the other side fuck em, loyalty is hard to come by you know but I been loyal to ninjas and if they say that's why I left you saw the 30 dirty right you know me but don’t know me.

28 - So wake and miss stick you know when we went out of state to get rid of that weight, when we got back I had to bag up 2,000 bottles you know I did that, all together I made $75,000 I know y’all was on some bull shit when I left the money at y’all house and I was calling the both of y’all phone and I got no answer for real, y’all left and brought a house and use the money to furnish y’all house and on top of that y’all came to the block after that and pulled up and I got in the car y’all brought both of my daughters to see me and then asked me did I have money I pulled out $3,000 y’all said to give it up the rest of the work I had on me I toss it then became broke.

29 - Jay z & Beyoncé made it look like her sister was mad for whatever reason then came out with on the run, you get it the plan was okay and I know how y’all put that together and made millions from it, just my thoughts if it ain’t right so be it, I know Jay z would’ve compromised our company and the company is ESCE E stand for Ellison and s stand for Shawn and c stand for Carter and e stand for Elijah, Beyoncé would’ve owned it all, so keep thinking what y’all want to be see sen staying here my thoughts that’s how Aaliyah connect to all four of us feel me.

30 - This Mr freeze shit means I’m in love only with Aaliyah how come every time it’s your birthday you know who say something new or when it’s your pass over he got something to say, whoever fuck with them fuck em, look stay off 801 mean stress and make sure you 212 with me whenever you want to talk to a female because Layla is here and if you start to rotate that dot that’s inside of you she will no right and I will be turning in my grave, so make sure when you lay down make sure it’s worth it, nowadays these hitches have hiding agenda they might want money get off that move on and get a money car park.

31 - Seeing tears coming down my baby eyes hurts me, this is why if it happens to make me feel a type of way, you know how much I love you because you have my heart, soul, brain, and flesh. After all, you came from me and your mother, I will never hurt you baby trust me, the pain I seen in your eyes, I’m just picturing the scene around you now this was a long time thing and I’m here for you, I wish I could’ve washed away your tears, my baby I know you are grown now holding you tight in my heart.

32 - So that locked down in Alabama went to this grocery store to get some wild Irish rose to steal but my friend open a box of condoms and I took some of them and I had my red flag on my pants so I was a target and had the ox in my mouth, undercover cops came after us when we left the store they grab me I spit the ox out my mouth and they cuffed me and picked up the ox, when they question me they said who open the box and I said me feel me, had to go to jail and spent two weeks their sometimes when passed October 31  2,000🩸 was in me when I got out no more sex.

33 - You hear me now I had many pieces on the chessboard In Birmingham feel me, all of them is standing still this one, my cousin came to my house and I needed her to drive me across town with this gun on me, so I can get rid of it and she did driving the right way, when I got out of the car touching down walked to my cousin house and saw my friends and little cousin and had the burner on me, he was jumping up on me and I’m like chill then I walked to this yard and laid the gun in it. This is great cause after that 12 came to my house I’m locked up, my mother had to move without the burner being in the house.

34 - Some say the ones in my life might want the sex but don’t know how to come out and say it, baby I’m tired of holding my tongue because these children are watching, this shit here stresses a man out oh my fault I should use 801 in 🩸 codes when I see y’all I don’t even know if you are ready to lay up with me baby, the temptation I have I would like to undress you, I know that I'm tight showing ass teasing a ninja, you know no more then two sucks been on my Johnson oh my bad Aaliyah caught one of my gangsters lean she drinking you know what I don’t drink anymore so have fun but you better respect me.

35 - Shorty what you want from me. She says she got a man go-ahead and be with him if you feel you can do better, should I put my player voice on, just get your ass over here, I don't say anything about you liking other men pictures. Yeah, I think I should be giving another girl my time, what have you done for me, so save the problems for someone who cares. You think you bad working with other men what if I start working with other females, what if I go on vacations with another woman lady wouldn't like that right, so stop wasting my time before this Virgin unvirgin himself.

36 - Yo let's just call it for what it is, yall had since I was 12 until 24 to get y'all shit together I had nothing, moving you know what bringing a lot of money in, they thought I ran come on with my ninjas from the hill looking at me like let's get this money, just letting y'all no I got this dot on my hand you think the rain that came down was bad if God grant me the eternal life the rain might fall and never stop. My slash goes down the person temple whoever takes me out of the game, so shorties listen it's either I'm going to sleep with someone or the dog is barking, and trust me you don't want that because the world might end.

37 - These bird brains ass hitches don’t want to give that cat up feel me listen I’m tired of tricking, this shit about to stop I rather trick at the strip club throwing single on dancers at least they’re half-naked, this chicken head doesn’t show any body parts, this shit is getting me upset to my children to listen y’all mother playing with the things that got y’all asses here oh my bad some of y’all hospital babies, so what that means, is if I leave I’m not responsible for y’all cause I didn’t co-sign y’all being here, all of that family support will stop and if I had y’all the other way y’all asses is grown so there are no more children support feel me plus when that stimulus hit they said if you owe back support you can’t get it and I got mine so what that mean more then likely you know what that means.

38 - Don't quote me cause I ain't say shit, fuck it I mine as well get rid of all these pucka ducks for real, these roosters don't want any good guy they love bad guys, I should start thinking with my Johnson and not give two shit about how a lady take it or should I say, ladies, children I know y’all saying father mean but if y'all moms give a blank how I feel they would handle sexual contact with me, but no they want things their way I got a trick for y'all when the money goes will the honey stay shit that's up in the air yeah breathe hitch, I'm tired of being Mr nice guy do you remember the good guy I'm your friend to the end right I'm about to get back on that shit.

39 - When you put this lady in a good space she will treat you like a king make sure you treat her like a queen, hold her hands when you walk with her, open the doors for her pull out the chair when you go out to eat, and let her sit down and push it in when she sits in it, tell her you to love her a lot so she can feel love, when she’s cold-warm her up with your body, lay in the bed at night with her and talk about business plans that you and she may have that is what you call brainstorming, when she cooks you do the dishes take out the garbage, you cut the grass while she makes a beautiful yard with flowers and be faithful to y’all trust me.

40 - Shorty said she wants me to pick her up some of the girl-girl things, you shorty you know I control that because when I went to heaven and hell I laid this dot on my hand the place that cleans your body, you know I’m not giving up on you so let’s play the game the right way, how about me undressing you lady which one I’m talking to both of them, whoever I sleep with and have a baby by resurrecting the God with birth, you think about me while I think about you, please don’t be stingy with the pussy you know I’m a dog and I can’t deny 🩸 so I’m yelling Damu where do we start and where is this going to end let me know now.

41 - So Nicki calls on God everything you said about Ramon taken his you know what thank you from the inside of my heart, listen if there’s one thing I know never to trust a hitch that will turn their back on you for money, don’t reach out now 5 minutes I’m not on their phone, my mind is focused on the ones that have been here from the door, I don’t mean to get into it but when I came to New York City to visit when I was out of town this girl on my block said they’re stripping come to find out one that I’m supposed to trust was a stripper so she was partying back in BMF days in Atlanta how ironic Suwoop!

42 - If I tell you there will never be another person to have my heart as you did, my children make the pain go away and their mother loving me knowing I'm hurting because I lost the person that I do this for, I'm not taking anything from my family, I'm just saying if Jesus was born with a boy and a girl inside of him, I want the love of my life to take me away from this place, I know my twin sister is good and she keeps doing things that let me know that she understands our mother loves us, the time we have on this earth we are growing up and it feels great to be here with someone like you inside of my soul.

43 - I’m here to make sure things go right with our family okay, never let anyone take from his man or woman, the fight that we put up has a lot to do with the grind and the hustle that we have, write your heart out but don’t the late night of us talking putting things together lady, I’m here now and forever or at least how long you let me be here, so don’t get sidetracked keep for your dreams if you want to write more do so, I know you have the writings from before you just proved it just lay the tracks down again, yes it will take time but to is on our side when we are doing something productive.

44 - Keep the faith you should always put them in your mind, this tacks that we are on have to continue you know what has to be done so let’s do it together I’m not looking back whoever stayed in my life thank you, this dog love that and respect you cause you could’ve felt bad and got you a new man but you didn’t and for those that did it never loved it was just lust, so carry on and do y’all cause I’m going to do me, Yo give my lady some room she bad right, please don’t let me down if we working together let’s work together alright, the pace we take we need we need to be grateful that we have a voice for the rap shit.

45 - When you see the outcome to this you will be happy, the growth that this man went through, people want you to stay in the streets no I have a home to go to and a family to provide for understanding me, I’m not giving up on this look how far this got me when the beat comes on I’m on my job so get out of my way when you put people on it’s only about what they can do for you, I been in this predicament before and kept a level head and overseen everything thank you, God, one thing about her she will push me to the max, how can move backward out here and look out for people that hang with people that crossed me ain’t no loyal people out here so the female in my life will be running this company when it opens up.

46 - Just to let people know I’m not mad at what took place, shit I knew it all along just could’ve seen it until it hit, a person like don’t like that shit but we in the streets and whatever a female have to do she will do, I’m just writing this to let know who’s in my life right now please don’t use me for money, being this way we can help one another out all the time East Side, I’m not letting these ninjas trick me out of my spot and they don’t have never but it’s like that use to be friends fuck with them and I respect that, just want people to know I do this for my family nothing more nothing less I need you.

When shit gets hot you get the burner and handle business, ride around looking for who you got beef with, fuck what ninjas think get this money, you better be willing to go all out in this game, the only way to go is to the top, you better get your shit together out here, when the money low rob and steal become a part of your everyday living, you will do anything to put food on your plate right, mask on with the baby nine full clip and one in the chamber, this is how real ninjas get down when their back is to the wall never forget that, everything looks easy from the man that has nothing point of view, he’s always down when it comes to doing anything for the money.

What do it takes for a street ninja to get out of the streets, you have to plan yeah first it was the drug game, dealing 24/7 1ave to 7ave, you know when your name is popping when the streets and jails talk about you, tell me what the fuck ninjas want from a ninja like me, yeah I walk around with that dot on my hand, damu’s get this money and stop worrying about what ninjas think about you, keep your head on getting this money, I was never the type that talk about all of the cars and clothes and jewels I got because I don’t have that, I’m from the mug where when it rains ninjas get wet, so never cross me when you speak to me about crossing me use status.

When you’re in a gang they expect you to be down for whatever, there’s some gang members that get money, as for me I put in work when I was a young solider and now I’m calling shots, there a lot of sex money murder that do positive things, take me for example I’m giving back the knowledge that was giving to me, nobody want to die at a young age, the game can and I’m going to say this again you can die from the game, you have to be head strong with two bullets one on each arm in the form of a cross, the left arm in and the right arm out and people wonder why I don’t give a fuck, play with God and Jesus if you want, in the coming of seven days.

The dark man X we did business in these streets, whoever say it’s not true ask kiss why he said the dog can’t beat it sin, who the one that put all of your favorite rappers in this game, I ain’t playing my money was put into all of these black record labels, what I has bless myself with let know man take that from us, shit get hot yeah I’m rolling with the punches that the world has thrown at me, the game don’t change it’s the same shit just a different day, getting down at any cost out here you have to pay attention to what’s going on, if one of your friends die you are supposed to strike back right, if ninjas tell that’s what they call telling and I couldn’t go out like that.

The moves ninjas make can get you in trouble, you have to grind until the day you die, looking in my eyes you see a person that will do anything to stay on top, what are you doing in these streets and selling drugs hustling everyday and everynight, trying your best to play strong if you’re trying to stay in this game, when the last days come you will know it, you never let yourself down, try to keep yourself happy maintain everything that goes on in your life, buying clothes and cars and houses yeah it’s fun but when those people come you better have bell money or else you’ll be going to black justice and nobody wants to be there, so stay positive and handle yours to the max.

When everybody comes together to get this money everybody can eat, it's good to see people putting their differences aside to grow together, everybody needs help in this game, do your thing bro can't knock the hustle, build and plan help people become wiser in this game, it helps the people in need to become more faithful to the code that anyone get money together, you take what you see and help others see what you see, HW TO BK is a good look that's what I been saying all the time, ninjas gotta put their pride to the side and learn from one another it's enough money out here for everyone you just have to be willing to get it.

Murder put your hard hat on before you step to me, yeah we running the streets don't get put in the body bag for real, ninjas think I'm playing this that gangster call right, fuck the money it's about who's real in these streets, you made your bed now lay in it, I'm laying down with no remorse feel me, take care of all that gangster shit you talk about, we got young ninjas ready to ride. Sex money murder continue to get this money, that's all I see and trust me when I get on or should I say when I open up my company a lot of people is going to be good, ghost what it hit for peeping eyesight, laid it down and the baby nine let loose anytime.

The older kids from the block was about 15teen years old and older, the younger kids from the block was 13teen years old and younger, so it started out with us going to house parties, that led to the skate key, it was about 15teen older kids and like 12 younger kids, so the first time I went was with day day and we had so much fun there, when Easter came around the year was 1996, a couple of my friends went to skate key, skate key had a lot of girls there, so as we walked in a lot of girls was looking at us, like we were the new kids there, about 8’clock the dance floor open up and me and my friends started dancing, we spread it out. You know that first day we were popping.

So everything was going good, until this one girl came up to me on the dance floor, yeah I dance with her and we exchanged phone numbers, going back to the block we went to my friend house and fell asleep, the next day we got up, we use to play up the block versus down the block in basketball, so we did that, ninjas just be hanging out, fighting with the young kids that lived on the block, the young kids was growing up real fast, half of us went to the school IS90, having beef with different race up there but you know we hold ours down.

Shit got hot for us, we going everywhere not giving a fuck about what ninjas think, my guess ninjas single me out because I was getting girls for a reason that I undressed in all of my stories, my friends and I was leaving school early to go to my other friends school to pick them up and we was cutting school to hang out with girls, some of us started smoking weed at a young age, than the bloods came to New York City in full effect in 97 everybody was turning blood, bloods was all over the city, meanwhile back on the block I had a couple of girls there but the girls was hanging out to going to parties and skate key, the girls was dancing with ninjas to girls was messing with my friends also.

In the back of my mind I had a family that I was handling business for, it’s been about 24years since I slept with anyone from New York City it’s been 21years since I slept with anyone in this whole wide world, ninjas was in their feelings was it about a girl no it was about money, we got to stay friends blood in blood out, people rolling up on me and my friends wanting to fight us, we not scared but where did the hate come from, so something happened to one of the girls and a close friend I thought a friend did it, than we got to run up on some young kid and knock him out, I told him tell your friends to come holler at us.

Later on that day they came uptown with like 75 people we in the park and they wanted to fight, so me and my friends walked out of the park and walked down the block and told 151 everybody ran up the block, we caught up to them cops came and everybody went home now we is hot as fish grease, the kid moved down south, fast forward to 2005, I came back home got on the phone with my bro and told him 142 he said he can handle that okay, it’s a lot of work that’s going to be coming in, so we started up light couple of O’s everybody started knowing we had it, money started coming in, we moved from O’s to pounds quick.

My ninjas started rapping Mobvill and Baz Set, what’s better than handling drug business and rapping, we had everybody coping from us, I was doing my thing to writing stories, soon we will have the market fucked up, our crew got next, money coming in fast drugs going out fast, every week like 30thousand, ninjas couldn’t tell my ninjas nothing, meanwhile I’m at home coming out in the day time, my ninjas handling the night side of things, we had shit locked down, block was lit at that time, everybody like brothers ninjas fight but we get right back together, up and down the block people running in and out of the block to cop work.

The person that I’m willing to spend the rest of my life with have to be a woman, that knows what she want out of life, listen do not cross me because in the long run you will need me again, karma didn’t come back to me because I did nothing wrong when I left my home, my kids was on my mind all of the time and you know that because I’m always saying my kids mean everything to me, I hope my kids understand why daddy isn’t there, trust me it’s not because I didn’t want to be there for you, it’s because God and Jesus gave me this locator on my hand and I had to follow what they had in store for me and I’m thankful for our life together.

Things don’t make to much sense when I think about it, yeah I’m in the mood for you to come see me, showing is believing that’s what people say, I’m doing everything that I can do for you, yes it’s hard taking care of you, she do not want me in these streets anymore and I’m not going to be in these streets anymore, opening up a company is what she want, how are our children going to eat in the future, can’t you see I’m trying my best baby, the work gets me tired sometimes and I’m up for now handling business for us until the day I die, I’m making up for all the wrong that I did so trust me and I’m going to trust you.

How can you pace back and forth, please tell me what you want, I’m only one man and this man has the world on his shoulders, I hope I’m touching the people that I need to touch, I need you to tell me if this is something that you want, baby what do this mean that you’re trying to find yourself, didn’t I do everything to keep this relationship on point and focus, tell me what did I do and don’t tell me, it’s because cheating is okay, I know that wasn’t right, you asked me to put souls together and that’s what I did, baby do you know how hard that was, shedding all of this blood off of my body.

I have this dark dot on my hand feels like I have a black cloud over my head and you have the light dot on your hand and you have this white cloud over your head, I know you are my angel and I’m your saint, in less then 3 more days it will be 22 years without having sex, you passed away when you were 22 years old connection, please don’t forget it will be 23 years and only 45 minutes and 23 plus 22 add up to 45 that’s 90 baby and our dot on each other as one hand come to 10, so that mean we are 100 percent in love, I never want to change up on you and have sex then she leave that starts our argument up.

So I got this call one day at my house and Aaliyah was there, the conversation went like this tomorrow we are signing the roc a fella deal are you going to be there and I said yes, I got off the phone she has this look on her face like you not opening up the company yet, so night time came and we both went to sleep and in the morning I got up she wasn’t there, so I went to get my underclothes and in my boxers draw was a letter saying meet me here at this time the same time I had the meeting which one do I choose, so a course I went to where Aaliyah told me to be at and that’s how much I loved her.

The time of my life was when she came to my school to pick me up in the car I brought her but her mother was driving it, Aaliyah mother said we are taking you home and then you’re coming with us for the weekend, remember when she said it was my car I mean your car or was she saying my call or her call either way the connection is real, who knew when times got out of hand she would report right back inside of me like I reported to her with Beyoncé if people don’t believe me then you haven’t been following the story or when the queen bee post the connection oh the connection mean so much to me.

This heart ship goes to you, the more I look listen and see things the more I’m in tune with you, the grass looks greener on the other side I bet but is it we will see, only time will tell how you move and how I’m moving, let me say this from this day forward and since you been gone I have only moved the right way trust me, my mind and body soul is for you, no I’m not comparing anyone to you but a female sure do have to come correct for me to look at them, with that being said keep covering me baby and make sure I’m comfortable outside and inside of my body double cross I’m rocking.

This isn’t a plead for you or anyone trust me, I’m on my mission and whoever not on this path with me so be it, I’m trying to leave my children a lot of investments and stocks and bonds and everything that have to do with the music I make so I have to own all of my work, the big time companies that I own please keep making powerful moves so my children will have access to it all, the plan is not to get money now and spend it but to get money now and never spend it, I haven’t touch my company money since 94 that’s 28 years without it and I found away to grind without it Aaliyah freeze my account.

You know what if I take the whole $500+ Trillion and put it in some female belly, I’m close but better off grinding for my children I can’t say this enough I love y’all, this is for the people that didn’t think I will make it, this is what you call consistency this feels great I’m able to prove for my family, this is for all of the women that went and had sex with other people nana this what Jay z said and about that foxy shit I’m glad y’all did y’all thing when y’all was in Atlanta cause knowing just made me think how can i trust a female that does not have children by me, Aaliyah knew the plan then left eye came in to close the deal, my guess strike 3 I’m out.

A man like me just have to realize that a so called good girl ain’t that bright cause they love Pookie and Ray Ray then complain about why they’re single mother with baggage trust me this is the mind state of a black women because other races look for men that is fathers and take care of their children but you can’t tell them that cause that’s what they love, this is why some black men goes to others cause y’all look for love from trash ninjas she said it herself, then when they’re old say there’s no good black men but looked over us the whole time, so do you and I wish you the best but don’t say I didn’t tell you, I don’t even want to be with a women with the train of thought.

What ninja you know that’s been in the streets but transformed into a business man like me, I’m not thinking about what other ninjas is doing because I’m stacking this company money and drug money feel me, watch how deep I get in these streets, I’m the one that send kits so beware hustling don’t stop this is New York City I don’t understand why ninjas on clubhouse talking about street shit and on IG giving up all the information 12 need to lock us up, grown as men if you like that move in silence that’s how gangster move them loud as ninjas ain’t getting that underground money, as for me I’m trying to stay in these streets.

There’s nothing I won’t do for the people that has my back out here, hitches will change up on you, they want the gangster guys that don’t take care of their children, I’m telling my family the street life isn’t for my family, we have to grow and come to the table with business, like I said it about what a female has she can miss me with that, why wait until you get 40 to look for a man but my guess y’all ain’t ready for that conversation yet, she want that fast and easy nut not a man that’s on a mission but so what I’m still in the lab writing my books, if she can’t handle that step aside feel me, ain’t no female throwing me off my square oh my bad I might be a square but I get money and a lot of black woman don’t want that.

So let’s get this out me and O and Warren was together when I went to heaven and hell, the park down south in the middle of the road is frozen so when you trying to take me to the other side, I’m going into that person that’s there feel me, when I slash him it might be hell on earth with rain so you better get your umbrellas cause it may never stop since I fell in a zone, listen children I’m not scared but trust and believe oh who care hitting the other Tonya from 152 this is ESCE so what you want baby, look at this whenever my time comes just no I’m going to be cold hearted to anyone that didn’t help me build and great to the ones that help this company or watch me in house while I was building this home.

If my love runs this deep please take care of He, I’m only here for the time being, listen the man above needed his wings and I needed mines to and my brothers needed theirs also, if we died on the cross, I’m telling my story so whoever listens to it and take heat, this is my life on paper, I’m at that age that I want to settle down look at this yes it’s been a minute since I had that connection, I’m not ashamed to say it, all that mean is I’m a man that promise his family come first in his life, I provide for mines and their mothers knows this right, I’m here thinking about all the good things that’s going to come in time, so while I’m holding on you better be holding on also.

Welcome to Harlemville I can explain I had a lot of ladies with me when I was younger,  I know when I left those people that I was at odds with were saying the ran me out of town, so the ladies that was with me thought to themselves they couldn’t be with a person that ran from beef, so guess what when I got back home I had the Harlem on lock, just growing getting this money I was waiting now that I explained what happened it was about how many blank he had, I wrote what I feel and I feel good to let people know that I was on the run, it’s crazy two of my old shorties that I thought I could trust slept with right there.

I want to see you naked in my bed, I want to release inside of you, the thought of you carrying my baby for nine months inside of your belly, you said to God you want this big plate and you got it and look at my plate it’s big also, we just have to work unconditionally for the long run, if we come together and work one day I know our minds, we will make a lot of big deal and a lot of money, I need a woman to upscale my life, like have me popping tags one that don’t mind spending on her man, one that knows we both make the money and we not letting the money make us.

Listen I’m holding you accountable for everything you do now, if she let me nut in her for show a child will be born, look at your fine ass and you cook and got businesses I look at that, please don’t rush me this cock is clean for real ain’t been touch in 22years straight day and night, imagine me with this clean one in and out of you, if I’m going down town it better be clean cause when you put your lips on this meat it’s all yours, so don’t let you wanting it now get in your way having a clean one inside of you, my 🩸 is different I can see it now I’m banging you from the back.

16 - Sporty line 1 when my uncle told me to let’s go out of town and handle business out there so I said yes, you heard what Jay said red or blue a course I was wearing that red, I was the seed that planted the whole I95 🩸 until they connected to me in Bama what you know about carrying that burning on me, remember when Jay shot his brother look I can relate because I had a baby 25 one that you can fit in your shoe playing Russia roulette aimed at my cousin pulled the trigger it didn’t go off FYI point it in the other direction and pulled the trigger it went off, he stuck by my side through every night walking home with him letting him carry the snub nose 25 gangsters Brooklyn is where he from.

17 - Let’s take it back to skate key that night when kiss said replay it, we went in and ninjas crowding around me so my man and I was holding it down remember when you tried to tell someone from 33 33 on me and he said who L’S not him, yeah my reach was long, the night of the shooting my friends and I was walking I remember we had the burner in a crack in the wall, so I went and got it shots rings off and I’m about to run but I had a clear shot soon as I reach for the burner 12 sirens in a cop car was going off they were driving by, so I couldn’t pull out we ran up the block when we go up the block I let one go off in the air.

18 - I remember going to Rucker park and mase was there this time the lox and he started rapping that shit was hot had ninjas tight in the crowd, I remember coming up top from down bottom mean down south he was on the court at Rucker park playing with this basketball I stood up looked at him dead in his eyes and was like mind to mind come down south cause it’s about to get messy phone time, this time I came back home had the ox in the mouth walked threw Sólo grounds spit the ox out caught it in my hand and put it in the garbage then walked to Rucker this game was going on I sat down to watch this kid came up to me and threw up 🩸.

19 - Look at this since I have the dot on my left hand if I would’ve grabbed the gun with the left hand it would’ve to spit meaning bust off and I could’ve died but since I grab it with the right hand it gripped the gun left-hand spit right hand gripped, this the shit that I was on but I know playa everyone up top thought they ran me out of town fam sex money murder never ran and never will this 🩸 shit is gold coded like da Vinci code or the book of Eli I can’t shake this shit, while you was watching Chucky I was living that life so for all of y’all who fell back because I was sick the last Chucky where was he at thanks but no thanks.

20 - Oh yeah mainly all of those so-called friends that were fucking with me back then is friends with those apps, my guess those ninjas apps to I’m just calling it as it is, I guess I was the one that was in the wrong, what you know about having a whole Harlem not liking me, I still deal with this shit why because I’m not out here sexing these hoes or smoking and drinking, my skin is thick whoever don’t like it just be a man about y’all ninjas talking like y’all got Harlem y’all see where Harlem at, y’all ninjas talk too much or trying to impress these females, my 🩸 drop need me her mother named Aaliyah came inside of me to take my pain away in I miss you she said no more.

21 - Be and not Beyoncé how are you doing I hope everything’s ok with you, I’m not leaving so I hope you are staying with me, decisions we have to make on marriage I know y’all want that ring on y’all finger and I’m willing to do it, listen please it has to be trusted for right now let’s work hard on this company that we own, yes I speak French olie this the shit 🩸s go through, I’m trying not to be MR Freeze if you don’t know what that mean it mean in love this is why I need a 101 status no I can’t deny a 🩸 female if you’re thinking about trying to give me a son Be I’m all for it until the end of time trust.

22 - If I tell you I want to hold you tonight wrap my arms around your ass and kiss your lips baby damn I can’t wait, I see you I hope you see me, the great part is when that day comes we will be pure together, so when I go inside of you I don’t have to worry about no STD baby that’s what I’m talking about if you want me to go downtown on you it has to be pure because that’s where another man put his meat and he could’ve back door you and put it where I have to kiss your lips and if I eat come on that’s nasty to me baby, so please stay clean so I can explore your body if it’s mine keep it tight for me cause I’m keeping mines clean for you and you will have all of me test.

23 - This is to my children I want to guide y’all right don’t think because hitches play the club that y’all should do the same thing, if you want a man that will respect you get you a man with a business and work hard, don’t let a ninja trick you, trust me my children don’t need any man for anything because their father made sure while I’m here money is not a problem and when I leave this earth there will be over $500 trillion in the bank account for them, please don’t let a ninja hit you until he deserves it, you think life just as well as you giving up your goods, watch learn how I treat y’all, mothers, that’s what you should be looking for.

24 - Shit the things we talked about the last time we saw one another I know what you meant when you said no one else, talk your shit shorty the price just went up on being faithful to you, trust me I don’t want to leave here, just the thought of going to heaven and you pull out of my skin and stand side by side with me as we walk in, the love I have for you can’t be replaced trust me, love, holding you tight and I’m never letting you go anywhere, the bond that we have built over 20 years, I know you had your heart set out for this goal who am I to take it from you.

25 - I see you were able to control me and I know it took hard work because I was not a player you already knew that right, thank you for spending your life with me baby I appreciate that for real, you came inside of me when I was down and outright to pick me back up, I can’t say thank you enough, the growth that we have let know man or woman take that from us, all this talk about what she did she did nothing if she did this dot wouldn’t be rotating around my body and slashing my family trusts me, stand strong baby like you always have and never let me down when you say go home, going home it is.

26 - So this girl that came from queens NYC the first time I had her in sex contact, I hit her with the Tommy and Keisha when he had her on the bed right, we had a couple in counters after that one was at my cousins' house I did my thing that day but the day she spends the night at my house she came in the house and I was there and we smoked a couple of blunts, went inside of my room I knew I had to put it on her for sure it was an all-night thing I’m straight going to work on her after it was over she ran out the room and went in the living room and drop to the floor than I came out the room and laid down putting my hands in my shorts so she wouldn’t try to go downtown.

27 - Being that I cleanse myself in the Red Sea lady don’t get mad and I’m talking to all 🌲 of y’all, better respect my name cause it holds weight feel me, you wanna know why I’m mad cause I’m working and playtime stops going on 22 years ago, I’m not mad just getting money right now, like more said white one at skate key why was Cameron telling Mase to tell on who feel me, if it’s war then it’s war and for all of the people on the other side fuck em, loyalty is hard to come by you know but I been loyal to ninjas and if they say that's why I left you saw the 30 dirty right you know me but don’t know me.

28 - So wake and miss stick you know when we went out of state to get rid of that weight, when we got back I had to bag up 2,000 bottles you know I did that, all together I made $75,000 I know y’all was on some bull shit when I left the money at y’all house and I was calling the both of y’all phone and I got no answer for real, y’all left and brought a house and use the money to furnish y’all house and on top of that y’all came to the block after that and pulled up and I got in the car y’all brought both of my daughters to see me and then asked me did I have money I pulled out $3,000 y’all said to give it up the rest of the work I had on me I toss it then became broke.

29 - Jay z & Beyoncé made it look like her sister was mad for whatever reason then came out with on the run, you get it the plan was okay and I know how y’all put that together and made millions from it, just my thoughts if it ain’t right so be it, I know Jay z would’ve compromised our company and the company is ESCE E stand for Ellison and s stand for Shawn and c stand for Carter and e stand for Elijah, Beyoncé would’ve owned it all, so keep thinking what y’all want to be see sen staying here my thoughts that’s how Aaliyah connect to all four of us feel me.

30 - This Mr freeze shit means I’m in love only with Aaliyah how come every time it’s your birthday you know who say something new or when it’s your pass over he got something to say, whoever fuck with them fuck em, look stay off 801 mean stress and make sure you 212 with me whenever you want to talk to a female because Layla is here and if you start to rotate that dot that’s inside of you she will no right and I will be turning in my grave, so make sure when you lay down make sure it’s worth it, nowadays these hitches have hiding agenda they might want money get off that move on and get a money car park.

31 - Seeing tears coming down my baby eyes hurts me, this is why if it happens to make me feel a type of way, you know how much I love you because you have my heart, soul, brain, and flesh. After all, you came from me and your mother, I will never hurt you baby trust me, the pain I seen in your eyes, I’m just picturing the scene around you now this was a long time thing and I’m here for you, I wish I could’ve washed away your tears, my baby I know you are grown now holding you tight in my heart.

32 - So that locked down in Alabama went to this grocery store to get some wild Irish rose to steal but my friend open a box of condoms and I took some of them and I had my red flag on my pants so I was a target and had the ox in my mouth, undercover cops came after us when we left the store they grab me I spit the ox out my mouth and they cuffed me and picked up the ox, when they question me they said who open the box and I said me feel me, had to go to jail and spent two weeks their sometimes when passed October 31  2,000🩸 was in me when I got out no more sex.

33 - You hear me now I had many pieces on the chessboard In Birmingham feel me, all of them is standing still this one, my cousin came to my house and I needed her to drive me across town with this gun on me, so I can get rid of it and she did driving the right way, when I got out of the car touching down walked to my cousin house and saw my friends and little cousin and had the burner on me, he was jumping up on me and I’m like chill then I walked to this yard and laid the gun in it. This is great cause after that 12 came to my house I’m locked up, my mother had to move without the burner being in the house.

34 - Some say the ones in my life might want the sex but don’t know how to come out and say it, baby I’m tired of holding my tongue because these children are watching, this shit here stresses a man out oh my fault I should use 801 in 🩸 codes when I see y’all I don’t even know if you are ready to lay up with me baby, the temptation I have I would like to undress you, I know that I'm tight showing ass teasing a ninja, you know no more then two sucks been on my Johnson oh my bad Aaliyah caught one of my gangsters lean she drinking you know what I don’t drink anymore so have fun but you better respect me.

35 - Shorty what you want from me. She says she got a man go-ahead and be with him if you feel you can do better, should I put my player voice on, just get your ass over here, I don't say anything about you liking other men pictures. Yeah, I think I should be giving another girl my time, what have you done for me, so save the problems for someone who cares. You think you bad working with other men what if I start working with other females, what if I go on vacations with another woman lady wouldn't like that right, so stop wasting my time before this Virgin unvirgin himself.

36 - Yo let's just call it for what it is, yall had since I was 12 until 24 to get y'all shit together I had nothing, moving you know what bringing a lot of money in, they thought I ran come on with my ninjas from the hill looking at me like let's get this money, just letting y'all no I got this dot on my hand you think the rain that came down was bad if God grant me the eternal life the rain might fall and never stop. My slash goes down the person temple whoever takes me out of the game, so shorties listen it's either I'm going to sleep with someone or the dog is barking, and trust me you don't want that because the world might end.

37 - These bird brains ass hitches don’t want to give that cat up feel me listen I’m tired of tricking, this shit about to stop I rather trick at the strip club throwing single on dancers at least they’re half-naked, this chicken head doesn’t show any body parts, this shit is getting me upset to my children to listen y’all mother playing with the things that got y’all asses here oh my bad some of y’all hospital babies, so what that means, is if I leave I’m not responsible for y’all cause I didn’t co-sign y’all being here, all of that family support will stop and if I had y’all the other way y’all asses is grown so there are no more children support feel me plus when that stimulus hit they said if you owe back support you can’t get it and I got mine so what that mean more then likely you know what that means.

38 - Don't quote me cause I ain't say shit, fuck it I mine as well get rid of all these pucka ducks for real, these roosters don't want any good guy they love bad guys, I should start thinking with my Johnson and not give two shit about how a lady take it or should I say, ladies, children I know y’all saying father mean but if y'all moms give a blank how I feel they would handle sexual contact with me, but no they want things their way I got a trick for y'all when the money goes will the honey stay shit that's up in the air yeah breathe hitch, I'm tired of being Mr nice guy do you remember the good guy I'm your friend to the end right I'm about to get back on that shit.

39 - When you put this lady in a good space she will treat you like a king make sure you treat her like a queen, hold her hands when you walk with her, open the doors for her pull out the chair when you go out to eat, and let her sit down and push it in when she sits in it, tell her you to love her a lot so she can feel love, when she’s cold-warm her up with your body, lay in the bed at night with her and talk about business plans that you and she may have that is what you call brainstorming, when she cooks you do the dishes take out the garbage, you cut the grass while she makes a beautiful yard with flowers and be faithful to y’all trust me.

40 - Shorty said she wants me to pick her up some of the girl-girl things, you shorty you know I control that because when I went to heaven and hell I laid this dot on my hand the place that cleans your body, you know I’m not giving up on you so let’s play the game the right way, how about me undressing you lady which one I’m talking to both of them, whoever I sleep with and have a baby by resurrecting the God with birth, you think about me while I think about you, please don’t be stingy with the pussy you know I’m a dog and I can’t deny 🩸 so I’m yelling Damu where do we start and where is this going to end let me know now.

41 - So Nicki calls on God everything you said about Ramon taken his you know what thank you from the inside of my heart, listen if there’s one thing I know never to trust a hitch that will turn their back on you for money, don’t reach out now 5 minutes I’m not on their phone, my mind is focused on the ones that have been here from the door, I don’t mean to get into it but when I came to New York City to visit when I was out of town this girl on my block said they’re stripping come to find out one that I’m supposed to trust was a stripper so she was partying back in BMF days in Atlanta how ironic Suwoop!

42 - If I tell you there will never be another person to have my heart as you did, my children make the pain go away and their mother loving me knowing I'm hurting because I lost the person that I do this for, I'm not taking anything from my family, I'm just saying if Jesus was born with a boy and a girl inside of him, I want the love of my life to take me away from this place, I know my twin sister is good and she keeps doing things that let me know that she understands our mother loves us, the time we have on this earth we are growing up and it feels great to be here with someone like you inside of my soul.

43 - I’m here to make sure things go right with our family okay, never let anyone take from his man or woman, the fight that we put up has a lot to do with the grind and the hustle that we have, write your heart out but don’t the late night of us talking putting things together lady, I’m here now and forever or at least how long you let me be here, so don’t get sidetracked keep for your dreams if you want to write more do so, I know you have the writings from before you just proved it just lay the tracks down again, yes it will take time but to is on our side when we are doing something productive.

44 - Keep the faith you should always put them in your mind, this tacks that we are on have to continue you know what has to be done so let’s do it together I’m not looking back whoever stayed in my life thank you, this dog love that and respect you cause you could’ve felt bad and got you a new man but you didn’t and for those that did it never loved it was just lust, so carry on and do y’all cause I’m going to do me, Yo give my lady some room she bad right, please don’t let me down if we working together let’s work together alright, the pace we take we need we need to be grateful that we have a voice for the rap shit.

45 - When you see the outcome to this you will be happy, the growth that this man went through, people want you to stay in the streets no I have a home to go to and a family to provide for understanding me, I’m not giving up on this look how far this got me when the beat comes on I’m on my job so get out of my way when you put people on it’s only about what they can do for you, I been in this predicament before and kept a level head and overseen everything thank you, God, one thing about her she will push me to the max, how can move backward out here and look out for people that hang with people that crossed me ain’t no loyal people out here so the female in my life will be running this company when it opens up.

46 - Just to let people know I’m not mad at what took place, shit I knew it all along just could’ve seen it until it hit, a person like don’t like that shit but we in the streets and whatever a female have to do she will do, I’m just writing this to let know who’s in my life right now please don’t use me for money, being this way we can help one another out all the time East Side, I’m not letting these ninjas trick me out of my spot and they don’t have never but it’s like that use to be friends fuck with them and I respect that, just want people to know I do this for my family nothing more nothing less I need you.

When shit gets hot you get the burner and handle business, ride around looking for who you got beef with, fuck what ninjas think get this money, you better be willing to go all out in this game, the only way to go is to the top, you better get your shit together out here, when the money low rob and steal become a part of your everyday living, you will do anything to put food on your plate right, mask on with the baby nine full clip and one in the chamber, this is how real ninjas get down when their back is to the wall never forget that, everything looks easy from the man that has nothing point of view, he’s always down when it comes to doing anything for the money.

What do it takes for a street ninja to get out of the streets, you have to plan yeah first it was the drug game, dealing 24/7 1ave to 7ave, you know when your name is popping when the streets and jails talk about you, tell me what the fuck ninjas want from a ninja like me, yeah I walk around with that dot on my hand, damu’s get this money and stop worrying about what ninjas think about you, keep your head on getting this money, I was never the type that talk about all of the cars and clothes and jewels I got because I don’t have that, I’m from the mug where when it rains ninjas get wet, so never cross me when you speak to me about crossing me use status.

When you’re in a gang they expect you to be down for whatever, there’s some gang members that get money, as for me I put in work when I was a young solider and now I’m calling shots, there a lot of sex money murder that do positive things, take me for example I’m giving back the knowledge that was giving to me, nobody want to die at a young age, the game can and I’m going to say this again you can die from the game, you have to be head strong with two bullets one on each arm in the form of a cross, the left arm in and the right arm out and people wonder why I don’t give a fuck, play with God and Jesus if you want, in the coming of seven days.

The dark man X we did business in these streets, whoever say it’s not true ask kiss why he said the dog can’t beat it sin, who the one that put all of your favorite rappers in this game, I ain’t playing my money was put into all of these black record labels, what I has bless myself with let know man take that from us, shit get hot yeah I’m rolling with the punches that the world has thrown at me, the game don’t change it’s the same shit just a different day, getting down at any cost out here you have to pay attention to what’s going on, if one of your friends die you are supposed to strike back right, if ninjas tell that’s what they call telling and I couldn’t go out like that.

The moves ninjas make can get you in trouble, you have to grind until the day you die, looking in my eyes you see a person that will do anything to stay on top, what are you doing in these streets and selling drugs hustling everyday and everynight, trying your best to play strong if you’re trying to stay in this game, when the last days come you will know it, you never let yourself down, try to keep yourself happy maintain everything that goes on in your life, buying clothes and cars and houses yeah it’s fun but when those people come you better have bell money or else you’ll be going to black justice and nobody wants to be there, so stay positive and handle yours to the max.

When everybody comes together to get this money everybody can eat, it's good to see people putting their differences aside to grow together, everybody needs help in this game, do your thing bro can't knock the hustle, build and plan help people become wiser in this game, it helps the people in need to become more faithful to the code that anyone get money together, you take what you see and help others see what you see, HW TO BK is a good look that's what I been saying all the time, ninjas gotta put their pride to the side and learn from one another it's enough money out here for everyone you just have to be willing to get it.

Murder put your hard hat on before you step to me, yeah we running the streets don't get put in the body bag for real, ninjas think I'm playing this that gangster call right, fuck the money it's about who's real in these streets, you made your bed now lay in it, I'm laying down with no remorse feel me, take care of all that gangster shit you talk about, we got young ninjas ready to ride. Sex money murder continue to get this money, that's all I see and trust me when I get on or should I say when I open up my company a lot of people is going to be good, ghost what it hit for peeping eyesight, laid it down and the baby nine let loose anytime.

The older kids from the block was about 15teen years old and older, the younger kids from the block was 13teen years old and younger, so it started out with us going to house parties, that led to the skate key, it was about 15teen older kids and like 12 younger kids, so the first time I went was with day day and we had so much fun there, when Easter came around the year was 1996, a couple of my friends went to skate key, skate key had a lot of girls there, so as we walked in a lot of girls was looking at us, like we were the new kids there, about 8’clock the dance floor open up and me and my friends started dancing, we spread it out. You know that first day we were popping.

So everything was going good, until this one girl came up to me on the dance floor, yeah I dance with her and we exchanged phone numbers, going back to the block we went to my friend house and fell asleep, the next day we got up, we use to play up the block versus down the block in basketball, so we did that, ninjas just be hanging out, fighting with the young kids that lived on the block, the young kids was growing up real fast, half of us went to the school IS90, having beef with different race up there but you know we hold ours down.

Shit got hot for us, we going everywhere not giving a fuck about what ninjas think, my guess ninjas single me out because I was getting girls for a reason that I undressed in all of my stories, my friends and I was leaving school early to go to my other friends school to pick them up and we was cutting school to hang out with girls, some of us started smoking weed at a young age, than the bloods came to New York City in full effect in 97 everybody was turning blood, bloods was all over the city, meanwhile back on the block I had a couple of girls there but the girls was hanging out to going to parties and skate key, the girls was dancing with ninjas to girls was messing with my friends also.

In the back of my mind I had a family that I was handling business for, it’s been about 24years since I slept with anyone from New York City it’s been 21years since I slept with anyone in this whole wide world, ninjas was in their feelings was it about a girl no it was about money, we got to stay friends blood in blood out, people rolling up on me and my friends wanting to fight us, we not scared but where did the hate come from, so something happened to one of the girls and a close friend I thought a friend did it, than we got to run up on some young kid and knock him out, I told him tell your friends to come holler at us.

Later on that day they came uptown with like 75 people we in the park and they wanted to fight, so me and my friends walked out of the park and walked down the block and told 151 everybody ran up the block, we caught up to them cops came and everybody went home now we is hot as fish grease, the kid moved down south, fast forward to 2005, I came back home got on the phone with my bro and told him 142 he said he can handle that okay, it’s a lot of work that’s going to be coming in, so we started up light couple of O’s everybody started knowing we had it, money started coming in, we moved from O’s to pounds quick.

My ninjas started rapping Mobvill and Baz Set, what’s better than handling drug business and rapping, we had everybody coping from us, I was doing my thing to writing stories, soon we will have the market fucked up, our crew got next, money coming in fast drugs going out fast, every week like 30thousand, ninjas couldn’t tell my ninjas nothing, meanwhile I’m at home coming out in the day time, my ninjas handling the night side of things, we had shit locked down, block was lit at that time, everybody like brothers ninjas fight but we get right back together, up and down the block people running in and out of the block to cop work.

The person that I’m willing to spend the rest of my life with have to be a woman, that knows what she want out of life, listen do not cross me because in the long run you will need me again, karma didn’t come back to me because I did nothing wrong when I left my home, my kids was on my mind all of the time and you know that because I’m always saying my kids mean everything to me, I hope my kids understand why daddy isn’t there, trust me it’s not because I didn’t want to be there for you, it’s because God and Jesus gave me this locator on my hand and I had to follow what they had in store for me and I’m thankful for our life together.

Things don’t make to much sense when I think about it, yeah I’m in the mood for you to come see me, showing is believing that’s what people say, I’m doing everything that I can do for you, yes it’s hard taking care of you, she do not want me in these streets anymore and I’m not going to be in these streets anymore, opening up a company is what she want, how are our children going to eat in the future, can’t you see I’m trying my best baby, the work gets me tired sometimes and I’m up for now handling business for us until the day I die, I’m making up for all the wrong that I did so trust me and I’m going to trust you.

How can you pace back and forth, please tell me what you want, I’m only one man and this man has the world on his shoulders, I hope I’m touching the people that I need to touch, I need you to tell me if this is something that you want, baby what do this mean that you’re trying to find yourself, didn’t I do everything to keep this relationship on point and focus, tell me what did I do and don’t tell me, it’s because cheating is okay, I know that wasn’t right, you asked me to put souls together and that’s what I did, baby do you know how hard that was, shedding all of this blood off of my body.

I have this dark dot on my hand feels like I have a black cloud over my head and you have the light dot on your hand and you have this white cloud over your head, I know you are my angel and I’m your saint, in less then 3 more days it will be 22 years without having sex, you passed away when you were 22 years old connection, please don’t forget it will be 23 years and only 45 minutes and 23 plus 22 add up to 45 that’s 90 baby and our dot on each other as one hand come to 10, so that mean we are 100 percent in love, I never want to change up on you and have sex then she leave that starts our argument up.

So I got this call one day at my house and Aaliyah was there, the conversation went like this tomorrow we are signing the roc a fella deal are you going to be there and I said yes, I got off the phone she has this look on her face like you not opening up the company yet, so night time came and we both went to sleep and in the morning I got up she wasn’t there, so I went to get my underclothes and in my boxers draw was a letter saying meet me here at this time the same time I had the meeting which one do I choose, so a course I went to where Aaliyah told me to be at and that’s how much I loved her.

The time of my life was when she came to my school to pick me up in the car I brought her but her mother was driving it, Aaliyah mother said we are taking you home and then you’re coming with us for the weekend, remember when she said it was my car I mean your car or was she saying my call or her call either way the connection is real, who knew when times got out of hand she would report right back inside of me like I reported to her with Beyoncé if people don’t believe me then you haven’t been following the story or when the queen bee post the connection oh the connection mean so much to me.

This heart ship goes to you, the more I look listen and see things the more I’m in tune with you, the grass looks greener on the other side I bet but is it we will see, only time will tell how you move and how I’m moving, let me say this from this day forward and since you been gone I have only moved the right way trust me, my mind and body soul is for you, no I’m not comparing anyone to you but a female sure do have to come correct for me to look at them, with that being said keep covering me baby and make sure I’m comfortable outside and inside of my body double cross I’m rocking.

This isn’t a plead for you or anyone trust me, I’m on my mission and whoever not on this path with me so be it, I’m trying to leave my children a lot of investments and stocks and bonds and everything that have to do with the music I make so I have to own all of my work, the big time companies that I own please keep making powerful moves so my children will have access to it all, the plan is not to get money now and spend it but to get money now and never spend it, I haven’t touch my company money since 94 that’s 28 years without it and I found away to grind without it Aaliyah freeze my account.

You know what if I take the whole $500+ Trillion and put it in some female belly, I’m close but better off grinding for my children I can’t say this enough I love y’all, this is for the people that didn’t think I will make it, this is what you call consistency this feels great I’m able to prove for my family, this is for all of the women that went and had sex with other people nana this what Jay z said and about that foxy shit I’m glad y’all did y’all thing when y’all was in Atlanta cause knowing just made me think how can i trust a female that does not have children by me, Aaliyah knew the plan then left eye came in to close the deal, my guess strike 3 I’m out.

A man like me just have to realize that a so called good girl ain’t that bright cause they love Pookie and Ray Ray then complain about why they’re single mother with baggage trust me this is the mind state of a black women because other races look for men that is fathers and take care of their children but you can’t tell them that cause that’s what they love, this is why some black men goes to others cause y’all look for love from trash ninjas she said it herself, then when they’re old say there’s no good black men but looked over us the whole time, so do you and I wish you the best but don’t say I didn’t tell you, I don’t even want to be with a women with the train of thought.

What ninja you know that’s been in the streets but transformed into a business man like me, I’m not thinking about what other ninjas is doing because I’m stacking this company money and drug money feel me, watch how deep I get in these streets, I’m the one that send kits so beware hustling don’t stop this is New York City I don’t understand why ninjas on clubhouse talking about street shit and on IG giving up all the information 12 need to lock us up, grown as men if you like that move in silence that’s how gangster move them loud as ninjas ain’t getting that underground money, as for me I’m trying to stay in these streets.

There’s nothing I won’t do for the people that has my back out here, hitches will change up on you, they want the gangster guys that don’t take care of their children, I’m telling my family the street life isn’t for my family, we have to grow and come to the table with business, like I said it about what a female has she can miss me with that, why wait until you get 40 to look for a man but my guess y’all ain’t ready for that conversation yet, she want that fast and easy nut not a man that’s on a mission but so what I’m still in the lab writing my books, if she can’t handle that step aside feel me, ain’t no female throwing me off my square oh my bad I might be a square but I get money and a lot of black woman don’t want that.

So let’s get this out me and O and Warren was together when I went to heaven and hell, the park down south in the middle of the road is frozen so when you trying to take me to the other side, I’m going into that person that’s there feel me, when I slash him it might be hell on earth with rain so you better get your umbrellas cause it may never stop since I fell in a zone, listen children I’m not scared but trust and believe oh who care hitting the other Tonya from 152 this is ESCE so what you want baby, look at this whenever my time comes just no I’m going to be cold hearted to anyone that didn’t help me build and great to the ones that help this company or watch me in house while I was building this home.

If my love runs this deep please take care of He, I’m only here for the time being, listen the man above needed his wings and I needed mines to and my brothers needed theirs also, if we died on the cross, I’m telling my story so whoever listens to it and take heat, this is my life on paper, I’m at that age that I want to settle down look at this yes it’s been a minute since I had that connection, I’m not ashamed to say it, all that mean is I’m a man that promise his family come first in his life, I provide for mines and their mothers knows this right, I’m here thinking about all the good things that’s going to come in time, so while I’m holding on you better be holding on also.

Welcome to Harlemville I can explain I had a lot of ladies with me when I was younger,  I know when I left those people that I was at odds with were saying the ran me out of town, so the ladies that was with me thought to themselves they couldn’t be with a person that ran from beef, so guess what when I got back home I had the Harlem on lock, just growing getting this money I was waiting now that I explained what happened it was about how many blank he had, I wrote what I feel and I feel good to let people know that I was on the run, it’s crazy two of my old shorties that I thought I could trust slept with right there.

I want to see you naked in my bed, I want to release inside of you, the thought of you carrying my baby for nine months inside of your belly, you said to God you want this big plate and you got it and look at my plate it’s big also, we just have to work unconditionally for the long run, if we come together and work one day I know our minds, we will make a lot of big deal and a lot of money, I need a woman to upscale my life, like have me popping tags one that don’t mind spending on her man, one that knows we both make the money and we not letting the money make us.

Listen I’m holding you accountable for everything you do now, if she let me nut in her for show a child will be born, look at your fine ass and you cook and got businesses I look at that, please don’t rush me this cock is clean for real ain’t been touch in 22years straight day and night, imagine me with this clean one in and out of you, if I’m going down town it better be clean cause when you put your lips on this meat it’s all yours, so don’t let you wanting it now get in your way having a clean one inside of you, my 🩸 is different I can see it now I’m banging you from the back.