BOOK 1-2

 CHAPTER 1 STREETS

        When I was using blank, it was happening when I was away from my family. That was from me being out of town. I was missing my family. I was holding my head out there, baby. My mind was hurting. After all, I did not know what was best for us at that moment because I was to control my heart and my soul when I was out there. Lying down to have sex was not part of my plans. 

    Make sure that person does not move. If he does, then put blank in him. I have to remember where I come from and not forget that we blank people. This game will not change any time soon because we will always get money; you never know what is happening in people's lives until it comes out in the open. People are saying that I am on some bullshit. Don’t listen to people that don’t know shit about these streets? They will get you to put on your blank bed. That shit isn’t happening to me. 

    I have to be on point at all times. I remember way back in the days when there were a lot of drug dealers. Most of them are dead now. I had a lot of girls by my side. Being young, it matters in their mother’s eyes. I mean, everything was going well when we were young. If you have a wish, you better keep it to yourself. It’s easy to lose everything you have. 

    Stay on top of your game. People will hate you for whatever you do. I did not want to go through that, and I will never go through that again. I lost a lot of friends when they got iced. It is a bad feeling because you don’t know what to do about people who died. I’m trying to understand how our love beats for each other. I wish you the best. Jesus had to die for us. How does this person look? I know him then put the mask on, okay. 

    I’m outside on the block, and we are all getting money, and nobody’s scared. First, murder all of them. So, we wouldn’t have to worry about them again and make sure you don’t talk about it. The more bodies, the better. He just got a lot of work. That’s why he’s not trying to help us out. That’s my man; he wouldn’t do me like that. I’ll be with my friends, and we are all trying to make it. Hard work is how that’s going to happen. Low money got us worrying because it’s hard out there, but that didn’t stop me from getting at these people.

    I was thirteen years old when I caught my first. In addition, I also noticed my second body at thirteen. Then, the older men were like, it’s time for him to get money with us. Connections were calling me for drugs. I was taking care of business. That’s what made me feel like a man. There were no hard times. Those people got no respect for me. They will set you up for money. It doesn’t matter if they are friends or family. I’m counting the blessings that I have in this game. 

    You never know when it’s your time to go. So, make sure that you do the right thing while here on Earth. I understand the Bible and that Jesus Christ saved our sins. Moses got mad, then he left and met seven sisters. It’s good to be something in this lifetime. Why are those things coming to you when you are in the middle of doing something? Who’s to say he still can’t get killed? When you are in these streets, it’s hard. 

    When you are out there hustling, getting locked up, it’s no joke. I’m going to keep moving how I am moving. They say money is power. Selling drugs out here, money may come fast. However, when it’s time to go to jail, that’s the wrong part. In 1987, I got slashed in the temple. For about seven seconds, I passed. I was almost murdered but quickly recovered from death. My mind was on my girls. Their mothers knew my time was coming, which meant everything to me.

     I just needed and wanted everyone in my life to be okay, and for that, I became a murderer in this game. Who can you trust? There’s nothing else to say. Why we are here on Earth, we have to stick together. You wanted to leave me alone because of what you heard about me. You know hell has no feeling. The best place to go is to Heaven. When two people are in love, let’s make them feel better by helping them out with their problems. People have to understand we all need help sometimes. 

    The best way to go about it is to ask for help. The time away from my family was hard. That was the reason it was hard for me. I knew being there for her would make her love me. That means the way we did what we did was not good in everybody’s eyes. That’s a terrible feeling to anybody that had to go through that. Let’s say you get in this game. Let’s say money is coming fast, and it feels good. However, you don’t know who wants to get at you. I’m with this girl going to school. When we got to the corner, she yelled out your name. I’m running back up the stairs. I got back in the house, and I saw my uncle, and I ran to the closet and grabbed the baby nine addition.

    I aimed for the temple. We did not know what was going to happen. I’m taking care of our family company. If you had to live with her, you would know how she acted. They feel like their pockets are getting lower. Nevertheless, who really cares? What are you all going to do to me? Nothing right. I’m going to show you how quickly money can stack up. We shouldn’t hurt each other because that’s the wrong thing to do, and that’s not where I want to be at. I know how they felt; you have to make that clearer to me. 

    When I think about you, I want you more. I thank God. That’s why I’m here. I miss you, baby. This is why we are together. I didn’t ask you for help, but somebody is here to help me with this music. I need help because two people making music is better than one. 

    How does the game look right now? It’s okay. Young kids are rapping about money and cars, still. I wanted to be different from them. Why did I have to go through this? Why is it that some people go to hell? I wanted to know the reason for that. My body was feeling the power of God. 

    My mind got to be in these streets. You have to have a connection with people that will murder for you. People that are not scared to go to jail for you. That’s what I need. It was nothing in the chamber or the clip. Days go by, and it’s mad heat inside the house. I’m not playin’. 

    She’s brilliant, and she believes in the Bible, and she knows about the dot that I have in my hand. We are now taking care of our kids. It’s hurting me because I had to stack for us as a family quickly. How do we know how sex, money, and murder act.

    That’s like saying your soul is a wind you can’t feel. I will like to receive that soon. We may never change the way we live. These emotions are pushing me to you, baby. I don’t know what to do. I got shit locked down on these streets, and you know that's right. My name is Sporty. The police are looking for me. Maybe they want me locked up. It’s hard to tell because I am sick. I want to thank you for these gifts that I have. I know there are people inside of my soul. Playing with status, you better get your gun because it’s a must. Pop off. It’s not going to hurt me. 

    You bust we bust; it’s nothing to it; the first thing that came to my mind was my uncle. But I’m relaxed about what happened. He knew that we were in the car, and he said, "7 up," and then I opened the car door and immediately slammed the car door shut behind me. He then popped off and noticed how badly he wanted to be a father. It’s getting good. They still don’t know their time is coming. I hope they didn’t leave me. It’s time, and everyone is gone. 

    I didn’t know how it felt to be the man in your life. Shit can’t get any better for you and me right now. I got to be in your life for life. I’m going to hold my head. I need to love you and do this for our kids. I hope so because I need to trust us as one. I did what I thought was best, and I now know the right thing to do. I will not hide from letting you protect me. It’s about us, and I can tell that you want me. Please go ahead. 

    I’m on the move, and home is where I want to be. I know the spot is getting hot. They get down for theirs. That’s how it’s supposed to be. This is the way I am. They say if I die, "Darkness will come." I’m not running from death anymore. How do those words sound? Being me is a hard job because it’s too much money out here. Family. I feel good right now. When it started, I was looking out for death. Me too, and Red was here. He stayed here for a while.

    Moe set me up with someone she knew that's on her way now. This girl was by my side. When I went out of town, my down-ass girl felt that she had to protect me, baby. I know that you have to pay for everything in this world. I’m here to make it better for us. I know it had to be done, or else I failed my family, and that’s not going to happen, feel me. I had been planning for this for a long time. So, I had to be on point; we are moving work now. I had to pop off at some of these people. 

  “Then, let her know what’s going on with you, then," he said with tears in his eyes. She’s not playing. One sister is upset because of what happened to her sister. I’m waiting for my wife to return so that we can be together in this lifetime. Maybe one day we’ll have a baby because that’s all I want from her. I know it’s hard to keep up with me, but I want her to hold onto me because I love her. I never asked for life to be like this. Who does? 

    I had to control my love because if I didn’t, that might stop the people that care about me from stopping watching. We have another child in our life, and it feels good. She introduced me to her sisters, and they started taking care of me. Good things happen to those that wait. He wouldn’t know who he was if he didn’t close it. 

    I didn’t want you to be mad at me. Watch people that you don’t let down with you. This is how you can get down how by murdering somebody. If that's not a problem, then do it now. That’s how you can get down with me. That means things are about to get harder for my family. 

    We moved off of the convent, and things became hard for us. My mind was to love you because we were together as young kids. Do you believe me? I know who you are. Females know that there’s a place that I control. Do you need me to say it? I will keep it on the low. This is for us being here. Here matters, right, baby.