BOOK 14

Starting all over again made me this way. you know how hard I had to work because you have been on this journey with me. I didn’t hold anything back telling you that I love you. I know you are watching over me. this is why I have these blessings. you are my soul protector. whatever I have you help me in a way I will never be able to explain. you did your thing keeping my head above water. whatever you saw you made sure we accomplished it. being one with ourselves makes me more of an understanding that you are here for me.

You want this and want that but don’t want to give any ass. I’m tired of these females thinking they are getting me for my money. so when I saw you you should have clutched your head into your legs, you are a pigeon incorporated. you should buy and sell your know-what. this duck thinks she’s all that. I remember having an earring in my left ear. I should rip a $ 20 bill at your ass. If you think you getting half of my money please you better find another sucker. the only thing you are going to be sucking on and that’s a lollipop.

I don’t know what I want to do but I always turn to you. you know why you keep me leveled. being in your life has always been a pleasure. you know how hopes turn into dreams. this voice in my head is telling me to keep moving forward and that’s what I am doing. She has shown me things that I didn’t expect to see or achieve. I can never move on or replace you. if I find another female it doesn’t mean she taking what yours. a body in the human flesh can’t replace your soul that’s inside of me.

I can’t seem to get rid of you. you make up the part that was left in the past. you overwhelmed me with love. yes, I remember my kids in the south. I can’t forget about y’all. I just want y’all to know I’m okay, I don’t smoke anymore. I have been clean for about 19 years. if that’s not progress I don’t know what is and it was all done for y’all. asking you where your mother at and you said to ask her. seeing me walking to take my little sister to school thanks for the ride and how can I forget asking you if you wanted to buy some extra bubble gum?

The process takes time. you have to leave it in God's hands in the Bible a righteous man will inherit the earth. my guess is this is why I have this dot on my hand. you are the love of my life. I’m trying to figure out what I can do for you. I have put up a fight and yes I’m stronger than ever. I know I can’t heal your wounds but boy am I trying to make it up to you. the only path I have taken has been the path that the man upstairs has laid out for me and I will continue to follow it but tell me if this is the path that you want to follow.

Unexpected having babies with these beautiful ladies and y’all raising them to value life and never take life for granted. moving all of the bull shit out of my life. my main focus is on my career. and never second-guessing why God put me in this position. he knew I would honor his name even in vain. no matter what people say about me. while I’m on this mission to be great. so my children can see and live a better life. what is hate I remember when it was on me and now everyone is balling but I know the truth about a lot of things that go on out here in these streets.

The song with the most base I listen to. holding your hand and walking down the block with you. I know it was premeditated about having our children but I’m thankful. I’m not taking any shots I’m talking directly to my family. you made up your mind to leave here without me because my left eye wants you. you standing tall as I follow you, what’s our next move? I’m thinking how can I shake this? if you are into popping yourself and if I’m asked how long yes I have been waiting and if you can’t meet the requirements it’s your fault.

If the day she goes to black justice is the same date that your brother says in round here and if she calls you at 8:00 in the morning please tell me what that means, today is that day but there are strong doubts about everything but who knows what’s going on? I’m thinking about chasing females again but how can I exchange her soul for someone that I don’t know? That means I will have to start over. Is it worth it who knows my guess is it will be hard to start over? She never wants to tell me what she feels but I am trying to figure it out.

Putting all of the problems behind us. so we can have a clear understanding of where we need to be. how will I approach a women nowadays because she is looking for someone with money and all of the money goes into my future? I'm not spending mine now because I have more investment to invest in. The information that you receive I hope you can take it in and make a decision from that. you are the one that I want in my life and that means all of y’all. where does a young man start how about the love is even stronger because you stayed by my side?

Is there a Heaven for a gangster? if you are a gangster I think you have to follow the guidelines that you live by for you to get into Heaven. when it’s hard to walk away but you look at your family and it incidentally changes your mind for the better. my daughter watches me 24/7 so I have to be a good role model for her. if I treat a female like a hoe. she may think that’s acceptable. if I don’t help the woman that’s in my life with her goals or beat on her. it may happen to my child. that’s why I respect females and how I treat them my child will understand that’s how she needs to be treated.

Yo gangsters pull guns to pop off on ninjas. when you are in the field you do whatever it is you have to do. everyone wants to act like they’re getting drug money. all of that gangster shit that people talk about I did it and did it well. straight strap with the wire. you may not understand because you weren’t there. I’m on the connect you know why. the connection said they don’t want my money they send shit just because and whatever they send we split down the middle. I have been in the game for about 25 years.

When I was a young man moving bricks. you can’t get caught up in all of the hype. you have to stay grounded because people will hate you and try to take off of your plate. who needs a bodyguard when I’m God's body. I’m giving this life my all. you know the rules never open your mouth about street shit. if you ask me Harlem shit people just don’t know but let me tell it. seeing people balling out of control. you want to live that drug dealer life and praise them but you don’t know the half of being in the streets. I miss the big homie and just remember he called me Simlack.

You put your life on the line for people you care about. you steal and cross people you don’t give a fuck about. The difference is you are still doing something to whoever it is you are doing it to no matter which way you look at it. you want to gang bang you want to hang on the block you want to smoke and get drunk you want to fuck bad hitches but what about wanting to be different. meaning doing something that you want to do like being faithful to yourself. building a brand making sure you do whatever it is to keep food on the table.

If standing up means fighting in this world to have a fair chance then so be it. When Jay Z said like your point guard on your favorite team. he meant AI referring to me now that I’m deep in the game. people will try to stop me from getting my just due but fuck that. this world won’t change if it wanted to because we hate ourselves. you have to stay focused on life live out your dreams and demand a better life for yourself. you can’t believe you are worth less than phenomenal achievement.

For you to be a pimp you have to have a female that's in it for you. you can’t be having these females thinking she have the upper hand. I ain’t for the bull shit. the way the game is going on you never know if this is the card you have to play. she might be watching your hand so try to cover your hand. tricking dam this shit got me thinking the whole crew on some freak shit. you can’t trust these females that’s chasing money but you did this out of the kindness of your heart. thinking about all that you did for her family.

You know earlier that call came through and I’m thankful for that but that doesn’t change my player card. you have to stay in a pimp mood because females be tripping. why you can’t buy me clothes or sneakers or diamonds? won’t you put me in a house and buy me cars, you push the whip while I sit back and relax. she’s telling me you think shit is sweet you dam right. you should be happy a player is looking at you. sexing your mind let’s keep the game tight all right. females look for one thing but why I know why the money.

If the move makes me a better man. I know someone will hate me one day. females should pay attention to females and males pay attention to males. this is what makes you a man your dedication to your family. when three souls clash on a positive note okay. you can see things you never saw before. you have to learn how to crawl before you walk right. you cry before you talk right? These are just lessons and words of wisdom. you can take it and use it to your advantage. people who you want in your life will never change your mind from being positive.

She said love is enough. when I was outside she used to call me to come and see her and then ask me am I going home to be with her. it didn’t matter what time she called I was there for her right, this changes the story what if she did this because she needed care? things like you know what. we don’t have to get into it but I remember. I’m expressing what went on but she shows something different now that she’s stable but what he gives he can take. walking in the back door but I’m leaving out of the front door.

When you find out this is what you want. if you got cash spend your money wisely. you can’t take the money to heaven with you so you might as well spend the money and make more money. you will have females watching what you are doing and if you are doing it right they want to get with you. fellas just want to get down so they can get money but a player like me need trust. so if I let you in this circle trust me you deserved it. you must open up businesses all over the world for you to corner the market. you should buy and sell that’s how you make a profit.

Creating this business isn’t easy work. staying in the lab days at a time and nights seem like it’s getting late. when it’s all said and done. I can look back and say I accomplished something that I’m proud of. why not work until the day comes when you are acknowledged for all of the good that you did for people? I can’t break it down because I want to accomplish 317 albums. I can feel it I’m almost there. I have to dedicate myself to my work. you should do the same if you knew what was good for you.

I hope you are the girl for me. you say there are so many other guys out there but tell me do they treat you like you are supposed to be treated? I never want this to end, we have to keep hope alive. please don’t disappoint me keep it tight until I get there. letting another man play grownup games with you. yes, you are on my mind all the time. I hope I have changed baby trust me. I haven’t looked at another female the way I look at you. discovering things about you that I never knew. yes, it’s an A+ in my book.

In a couple relationship, one has to watch the other one back. pride please don’t make me show that this relationship is where it needs to be. I’m pushing for this relationship to be unbelievable only God can set us up for what he has in store for us. together we walked through the hard times like a man and a woman supposed together. our life may feel like it’s going everywhere yes it is. you know I see a goddess when I look at you. what if the trick were to treat you like I was treated but being me how can you tell?

You can’t believe everything you hear and what you see find a way to ask questions about it. my emotions same as feelings of feeling hurt. I automatically go into defense because I have been in this place before. I’m not losing my cool again. the control I have comes from taking care of myself. yes, I get weak you make me feel pain, and in a good way. you should be the woman that I can depend on. you should always have someone you can depend on in your life. that’s important in a relationship. nowadays people should have someone in their corner.

Overall find someone that best suits you and the life you want to live. you should give your girl the time of day every day. you should be her go-to man before someone else takes your place. I’m so glad to be here with this family that we built. I adore this relationship that keeps us excited about the little things that count. everything doesn’t have to be so big. showing her that you are in tune with her heart. that’s all a woman is looking for trust me. the first woman that was created is in my life and I mean inside of me.

It’s like putting a puzzle together. Numbers add up days add up names say the same thing. you should be watching your children. I don’t want to call you out but I’m putting my everything in this relationship. wondering if this was true or if was it all for what she needed. including me in the life that she has yes it means the world to me. yes, I’m striving to be a better man for you. if our child says you have nothing to worry about. trust the process it will turn out the way you want it to turn out. you have to believe in your man.

You show someone else when we are by ourselves but when you are with your friends you act like you don’t want to be with me. I wonder if your friends are filling your mind with doubts about me. what I did was in the past and trust me. I never wanted to step out and it still hurt me to see you hurt. how can I make this up to you believe me I’m trying my best to comfort you. you have to be sensitive about my feelings. she said first you have to show me that you are a changed man and I said no problem.

All of these R&B songs come from the heart. the man upstairs gave me this gift. yes, I’m in it to be the best that I can be. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. let me tell you and I mean be the first to tell you. you don’t know how much you mean to me. keeping me on my toes always. you having told me how much you love me and if you say it every day thank you. I’m overwhelmed with this relationship. yes, we need to keep putting our relationship first. baby I worked my whole life to provide for our family.

If she turned her back on me because of what people said I did. I think you have better sense than that to think I’m about that life of cheating on you. if you gave me the okay to go out and have sex with other females. this feels so much better cleaning my body feels so dam spectacular now. I’m never looking back at my past. growing from here on is something that you wanted for me. the females that didn’t know any better thought I was finished but I’m a strong individual. staying positive with positive thoughts in my mind.

A second before our closing arguments. please don’t get out of character Ellison because people do not know what you went through losing your wife but guess what have I found your love by going under the world and above the world? this will never happen again. Lord says I’m one of a kind and I believe every word he has shared with me. I’m putting my best foot forward before he takes it from me and trust me that's not happening because I’m one he can trust. people lose their souls by worshiping material things.

I want to shout out all of the females who are faithful to their men. the ones who have their man back. if I go to black justice will she be there for me? I do not know if she’s the one for me. if I tell you I had to handle my business. Baby I’m going to mess with this cat for like 2 months and we are going to be straight. I know I’m not in the field anymore but boy when I was I made so much money. doing what I was doing and to the best of my ability. I had to calm down for the sake of my children. it was you either put streets first or your family first and guess what won my family.

What should our New Year's resolution be how about you staying my protector? this is what a strong Black woman does for her man and trust me I appreciate it. the more you uplift me the more I can do. thank you for standing by my side when I needed you. Baby trust me I couldn’t see anyone but you guiding me threw the situation that I was in. You turned my wrongs into rights. this is why I will never cross you. you stand for something and I will not take that from you. Baby you keep my mind on my writings and you care about how much I can write.

Spending all of this time to make up for my mistakes. you are the reason I’m apologizing to my child. as long as I’m breathing. I will make sure you are the most important person in my life. you have to understand your mother did this for me and she wanted me to be okay. so why would I disrespect her? everything that she did for me I’m grateful for her. by giving up her life to help me. I promise never to let her down and I’m keeping my word. so what does this mean I’m a widower and I’m saying this to say that I respect her.

Seeing this young lady tonight. she works and I’m sure she’s well educated. that’s what a man like me is looking for but baby I can’t shop around. you seem like the person that I can settle down with. you should always hold your head up because you are beautiful trust me. I know what I am talking about skin looks so smooth and clear. what a girl like you look for in a man. I’m sure you are dedicated to your man and if you do not have one that’s a dam shame. I can imagine men throwing their self at you because you are a woman and I’m a man with needs.

Putting you above any women that’s out there is how you should be treated. when God created you he showed his work of art because you are a masterpiece. just by looking at you, the heart feels so warm and comfortable. at first she hesitation then she gets comfortable with you her attitude changes. she looks at you differently and that’s what I wanted. you take the words right out of my mouth. how can a woman be so outstanding just by looking at you? the moment you walk close to me defines what you were looking for.

Growing as a person makes more sense than starting problems as an adult. some people have to keep shit up. if that man has grown into a man let it be. what are you trying to prove that you are gangstafied? you have to be a role model for your kids but answer me this.  how can you say something about a man that’s for God? When you just came out with a video and you are in church with the choir wearing a bandanna and you singing about drugs and guns look at it from this point of view feel me.

I think and again this is just my perspective. I think anyone that thinks if you do what you were doing at 14 to 21 years old and you are grown now there’s no growth do you agree. the intelligent speaker makes sense because if he gives up and tells the person might go to jail. when you say things like that. you are considered the bad guy so God has a plan for you. if you believe in him you will rejoice in his pain. anyone can make moves in the streets. when you apply your street life to a corporation that makes you a business man right?

This is the only way I know how things connect with you. please don’t get out of hand trust me if your body counts only one body then you're good with me. who want a female that has been all over the place. if your only body count is me then we can keep our relationship on. Do you know how many times I stepped out trust me it didn’t pass seven. if this isn’t dedication I don’t know what is. you gave me the okay to lay out of place with y’all know what erase that. I’m brand new taking a dip in the Red Sea.

Some people dress to impress right. you get money to feed your family, right? the only thing I have seen is people trying to stop me from feeding my family. when your twin comes inside of you who can stop the both of us. she holds the 16 shots and I hold the 17 together we are the greatest thing to this world. I told her not to look back and then I told her not to eat the apple because it had four blade slices. this is why I’m at this point in my life. who can we trust how about we keep following the rules that were set for us to follow?

You made me change my whole game plan. you think you are the one for me but what if I think differently. what will you do if I give up on this relationship and find someone who’s here for now? let me stop playing games because I’m in it for the long run. let me ask you are you someone that I can tell all of my secrets to and if so you lock go with me? Lord, I know my children are watching what daddy is doing and I promise never to let them down. I will find a way for us to be together but you have to meet me halfway.

Trying to show her that life is worth more than being out there. you can be whatever your heart desires. this is the way you have to think if you want the best life. let me show you and shower you with gifts, treating her like the woman that you can potentially want to marry. just imagine growing up with kids and still being able to share this life. we never had one fight or one argument. yes, this is what I call loving one another. yes, we like spending time with each other. this is what I call growing pains most respectably.

Starting from the bottom when I returned home. looking at every aspect that brings attention to me. I know I had to watch 12. you can get locked up people do talk and the talking going on can put a person behind bars but you know how people are just leave it at that you funny style ass person. what are you getting out of it people must understand street shit doesn’t need to go on the radio for the world to hear but guess who brung it up first. you try and try to stay away from people and they keep bringing you back to that state of mind.

The reason we can have so much is because we stick together as a unit. we think about what our partner wants. this providing for my family makes me feel like I’m succeeding in life. I want y’all to have the best life. yes knowing that y’all are okay. I’m digging deep inside my soul to tell you that the love I have for y’all will never change. the way you make me feel. you know where I’m going with this right? I want to hold y’all in my arms and never let y’all go. I want to let you feel my heart by showing you that I care for you.

One of the times we sat down and had a conversation. you told me to reverse psychology and this means you tell me the opposite of what you mean for instance. you tell me you don’t love me in other words you are telling me you love me. you tell me you don’t look at me like that. when you mean you love looking at me. you telling me you are not attracted to me. you also be saying like you're not meaning like yes you are. if everything you tell me means reverse psychology this is a good thing for me because I do not want to give up hope.

Substitute if she replaces me what will I do? I don’t think I can find another female as special as you. when I’m thinking something you do exactly what I am thinking. you show and tell me what’s on my mind and for that I respect you. I’m not one to brag but you are wonderful and I want the world to know you are my queen. sitting here thinking about the past it was so perfect to me. after all of these years, I’m still here with you. you want to know why because if I leave another man will have you and I can’t have that.

Foundation you build a company so your children will own it one day. this company that I have will be here for generation after generation. this is why I’m here planning so our kids will not have to worry in the future. yes, let’s take care of this right now. we can’t wait for later. we must incorporate all of the things into this company that we know. so we can guide our family in the right direction. you have to understand what I am doing yes it’s for the best and you will thank me as time passes.

Deliberately if only for one night. I’m doing this because I don’t want to break down. the females in my life I think this can get better right? you swore to be with me but if I was Born with this dot on my hand. I’m just asking if you believe that shows me how or should I say? you pass this down from one jean to the next. trust me this has nothing to do with why I’m not directly making children because when I went under murder. reaching inside of my body to heal me.

When you give someone a positive vibe you make her feel wanted by showing her things that she saw. I’m trying to think positive but if it goes left trust me another year is in count. how long are you willing to go? I’m in it until death does us part. being here with this woman helps me a lot on what women should be doing and how she should be holding me down. let’s see how far this relationship is going to go. you play your part and I will play my part. when it rains people get wet. you are the only one I have in my corner don’t cross me.

If we separated what would you do I’m saying this to tell you that this is what’s happening. I can’t go on without you making me smile and laughing at the jokes you tell me. you are always making this thing about where you have been listen women I’m handling business. let me tell you something you and I can’t be together all day but make sure you respect me. how many times do I have to tell you that? nothing is holding you here. so if you want to go, be up for the changes in your life and take chances it’s wonderful.

Do you wanna ride? all of the girls that's in my life I’m trying to take the game to a new high. I’m looking at your body and your body is getting me in the mood to take you to a hotel and undress you. if I was a pimp right I will be a po pimp. please don’t get this twisted follow my lead. watching you walk away from me, dam your ass is thick as hell. please tell me how many bodies you have. she’s telling me her body count isn’t that much. so let me guess you and your friend are down for a threesome.

So as I can see I’m going for another year. I’m putting myself in a place where I can overcome what the world has in store for a person like me. you can take the past and leave it in the past that’s exactly what I am doing. when she can’t call you but you take care of her. I need to move on I knew losing the person that my heart belongs to was going to be this hard but I have to be strong for the sake of my child. when that day comes and I move on and trust me that day is coming soon. so when you ask why you know exactly why.

Please you can’t pop off if you wanted to. your best bet stay in your place and get money. I can’t be looking over my shoulders. this young lady is built for war. you in your feelings. all of that shit you talk about I buy for you so stay in your place and play the game the way it’s supposed to be played. if she leaves let me say this if you can take her be my guess. if I walk out I’m taking everything. these females mean nothing to me. you better be curving if they get close to you it’s over and that goes for errbody!

Love u 4 life. let’s just take a second to look at one another. So you called me and said 23 and I remember the care I don’t know if the feeling is the same but I will be sure to see you tomorrow. you have to be here for me to love you and for the ones that there’s no trust you know I’m good. she helps me make up my mind on who to lie down with and I will never disrespect her. you are strong and I respect that. you have grown into a wonderful young lady from this point on be true to me.

Holding the ground that she walks on. am I wrong for comforting my women and letting them know that I care about them and the way they feel? when I first started this thing called a relationship. I couldn’t sleep because my heart wanted to be back in your life. this is the home that I have built by being patient. you know you can turn my world upside down because when I was going on without you. my heart beats for you, you should be crowned with the women of the decade because you hold me down for eternity.

There’s only so much that this woman can take me going outside to handle business because of what was done to her. when the thought came to my mind that I had to be strong and move at my pace to handle it. that’s exactly what I did, no I wasn’t ready for the war that I was about to get into but for you, it was well worth it and never forget that. the mind of a person that seen so much and the protection for her. I gave my all helping resolve the problem at hand by changing y’all soul inside of my soul. playing with y’all taking away all of the pain that you felt.

How do you visualize our relationship because I’m all for us? we have to do for this company and more importantly, trust one another but if things start to become too much on any of our partners. the other one can decide if he or she wants to walk out. if you asked me to stop listen and learn from your heart and your mind. we shouldn’t be on bad terms because of this. As I said if things get out of hand. one of us should be apart from the other because being in an unwanted relationship isn’t healthy.

If someone's Birthday match your birthday and she’s three years older than you. you want to walk through the destination and continue to move forward. I will never forget. y’all stayed by my side. when I was at the bottom but the bottom making 70thousand a trip. it was well worth it. I can remember the last time we saw one another. you said you know who I love and I took that and held it close to my heart and mind. the way you said it keeps playing over and over again in my mind.

Taking care of the economy is a hard job but my business is still fighting to bring awareness to the problems people may have in their life. my company was built on blood sweat and tears. I put this on my back to accomplish this much is a great blessing. the moves I have made were the right moves and I move for my family. the children that are mine keep the intensity of growing a family. this company will provide for us in the long run. everything takes time and with us willing to wait bring out the best in this relationship.

Clarify if I tell you I don’t want the things that can affect the way you view men. it’s because I have your best at heart okay trust me. doing things that don’t seem fit for a woman to do. I will never use my money against you for sex or use it to tell you what to do. if we are equal partners let’s stay the same. uplifting your women to want and do better. that’s all I want. you have to be this beautiful person inside and outside. if you want me to respect you.

Planning a future with your women. you have to tell her things that go on in your mind. hiding what you are doing trust me it’s a loss. if you be true that’s a win because she will trust you. if she starts playing little game look at her and ask her do she wants out and if she say no. ask her why she is playing like you don’t want to be here anymore. people say there’s someone for everyone and I thought you were that lady for me and now I’m looking at you differently because you coming into the house late at night.

When I say respect yourself. I have a mother and I will be upset if a man took advantage of her. this is why I'm here to keep you in good spirits. you don’t mind me using your thought process to write ideas down? I’m just letting y’all know I feed off of your energy. if I turn my back on you and my kids nothing good will come from that. the blessings come from doing good to others can you imagine not taking care of my family? this will be disrespectful at an all-time high.

Building this business is hard work but with the right females around me, it’s looking good and coming true. look at all we have done so far I was only 35 years old in 1998 putting 4 billion Dollars into Apple and now 19 years later it’s worth 904 billion Dollars that’s a 900 billion dollar flip. she said I can’t sleep but boy my eyes feel heavy but I have to keep working to fulfill all of the dreams I have. working from the time I get up until the time I go to sleep, putting my family first y’all mean the world to me. The max we reach with Apple is $3 trillion.

It seems like my talking falls on deaf ears because you not listening to me. the way I was raised females should be the ones taking care of me because I’m the man and in the old days. the man was the hunter, I want to bring the plan to the table. today makes 20 years I haven’t sexually touched another female praise God. letting you know when I was going through what I was going through. I wasn’t happy at all. I started to listen to what Trish was saying and being Irish of course her words mean everything to me.

Hold me and never let me go. As I said if it wasn’t for the females in my life this wouldn’t be possible. thinking back in 35 years I never ran behind another man. when it comes to having sexual contact with a female that’s great right. if I had the littlest idea that you were sleeping with someone else everything cut off. people may say why wait when there are so many females out here? this may be why I have females that are in my life who challenge me to be the best that I can be.

One day I wish for my dreams to come true. if I give my all trust me it will happen. when you see things that make you say am I right. for now I’m going to study the minds of the ladies that want to be here. if you ain’t for us move on and save us the time because my time is priceless. She asked how am I doing I said fine and yourself. I see things haven’t changed well shorty I’m doing good. I’m just looking because when you are patient. you will see who is here for you in the long run.

When you seek me with your heart great things can happen for you but it’s how much you want it. I don’t want to play in the streets. it’s safe to say I’m a family man and I respect the working class feel me, growing up in a house where the lady held us down that’s why I take up for my lady. I want you to know I’m grateful for you being the lady that I can depend on. I’m letting you know the love is real and the way I feel about you will never change. waking up with you and my mind connected feels so good to me.

If a man gives himself to God he’s not right but if he’s in the street killing other black men he’s praised right. if he has one woman and respects her he’s a punk cat but if he hoes girls out he’s a man. this is what’s wrong with the black community. like people keep taking shots at us. 20 years ago we ran Harlem and ninjas hated it. so we left it up to y’all to take care of Harlem. when he came back a month after I came back. did you ever think he was God's child because of me next time let him know where we met.

A real man is looking for a queen but it’s okay for guys to call any female a hoe or a bitch if you feel like it’s okay. I need a woman who brings something to the table looking good is okay and this is something I just listened to. you have to show your man that you are faithful and make him feel comfortable with you. your body means nothing to a man who’s looking for a soulmate. this is why I stand here and I’m not upset that we both want to take care of our business before we lay down and have sex with one another.

Ring the alarm so if you took care of someone when they needed help and she turned against you. let her go and she won’t come back it was never yours. you bet not need help again because I’m going to turn my back on you. you know that saying the boy that cried wolf. was it all about money I know but I got a trick for you. people keep saying their true but all along she was thinking about your pockets right. she may have got the money but the blessings helped grow my net worth outrageously.

Ninjas never said anything to the person that been taking shots at them right? it’s funny that ninjas want to talk I’m pretty sure straight let’s make it happen it’s all for the money. you saw that damu on my left hand in the first history OG Tye has the gun in the left hand and the blood rolled out for what? Let me get back to the word at hand God bless gunshots ninjas can get it quick. let’s see since I came back home ninjas couldn’t eat right Like Fabulous said you’ll be alright if you are present with the man roc nation calm down.

You can dance all you want too but this shit here ain’t nothing to be fucked with. ninjas talking too much about shit that happened 20 years ago. what the fuck you can't hold it in. Let’s talk someone hit my uncle up feel me and I can’t forget that. I was the one in the car with him and the one that seen him last. so please don’t tell me how I should feel ain’t nobody give a fuck back then and I was only baby nine still ready to unleash the dragon. 50/50 love, I miss you nephew will forever hold this down until I’m five feet underground.

Pretend this is your life wondering what your lady is doing. I can’t figure this out this is why I’m willing to walk away from you cause if I have to guess. you are not just mine I’m seeking for you. yes, thoughts run threw my mind. listening to myself when feelings get involved. I am a mess your love keeps me going crazy out here. looking at this life we made is a wonderful thing. I don’t want to mess it up but what am I supposed to do? when you give me so much pain but I’m keeping my composure.

Unexpected when you do not know what’s in her heart. you try to find the littlest thing to break up with her but she keeps calling you. when you have enough this is how time flies. when you are making wishes to be with her. let me tell you what I miss about you. the way she used to handle the business at hand and I never had to ask twice feel me. when she still gives you love even if she’s out working hard to put food on the table. a woman doesn’t play games when she knows what she wants and goes after it.

What if I put a freeze on y’all account? y’all are getting too comfortable with me taking care of y’all. it doesn’t matter if my pockets aren’t hurting. it’s like y’all are buying everything and I can’t get the time of day. what if it all just stops what would you do? I don’t want to hear about Look how much you have you're right this is how much I have. y’all don’t get it right but soon you will trust me. how much stuff do y’all need? am I here as a bank account because y’all haven't said anything about being in a relationship since we were kids?

The movement that I’m trying to connect with has to be good and just feel right for me. you have to keep people around you that want to see you win and that will support you in bad and good situations. people who have your back no matter what at steak trust them and they will trust you. providing work for your friends so everyone can eat and nobody feels left out of what you are trying to accomplish. if all of your friends are eating there shouldn’t be any hate and you should move as one and fuck the yes men.

Falling in love with someone isn’t on my mind because I need to focus on my career and making sure my child has everything that she wants. I have to show her that I’m here for her and a woman may get in the middle of that. what am I supposed to do when I miss her and I know her down to a tee. people want to see me fail but guess what it isn’t happening because I have faith in my God. am I God because the soul and body that I have shown me that it could be true?

The girl of your dreams can have a different plan of being with you. all of this work I put in making you the woman you are today. when that shit happened to you didn’t I go to war for you. all of this beef came from me protecting you. when I was young even people I knew went against the grain. so it’s like they rather me get murdered and the bad part is I trusted them and I’m not talking about who I used to hang with. people say karma comes around but it didn’t come back to me because I did nothing wrong.

Why do people fight for a relationship to work? when all they do is fight in a relationship. people say they’re trying to stay with one another for the children's sake but if all the children see is you and her fighting what good is that? you will be better off separating so the boy doesn’t think it’s good to hit females and the girl doesn’t think it’s good to get hit by a man. you can always co-parent with one another, being in a relationship means the two of you have to respect one another.

Ups and downs falling apart families life. one parent thinks the other one is cheating because she’s asking where’s the money going and then she says is it going on another woman. she says because it’s not paying the bills or the rent or putting food on the table. so what is a man good for that doesn’t provide for his family. that means the woman will have to go out and make ends meet by sleeping with other men or she can be a strong woman and get a job to take care of her children and get rid of that man.

When this first started I was traveling from one place to find myself and fell down and then one sister saw me and her sister was with her. She came up to me and helped me up. there was a well with water she asked me do I want something to drink and then gave me something to drink. three men came to the well and were pushing the seven sisters and then I came and protected them Sheba said you fight like a warrior and she asked me where I learned how to fight like that.

She asked me where was I from and I told her New York City. She said do you think I can come to visit you and I said sure why not. I have to tell you it’s a lot of men that are out here getting to that bag. insecure started to kick in and I’m like for what? I’m doing my thang and getting to my bag but in the back of my mind, she might be one of those females that want her cake and eat it too. if I go down on a female I’m the only one that can be entering her body. I can’t see how you can kiss a female and the next man had his thang in her mouth.