BOOK 1-2

Starting from the bottom when I returned home, looking at every aspect that bring attention to me, I know I had to watch 12, you can get locked up people do talk and the talking going on can put a person behind bars but you know how people are just leave it at that you funny style ass person, what are you getting out of it people must understand street shit don’t need to go on the radio for the world to hear but guess who brung it up first, you try and try to stay away from people and they keep bringing you back to that state of mind.

The reason we are able to have so much is because we stick together as a unit, we think about what our partner wants, this providing for my family makes me feel like I’m succeeding in life, I want y’all to have the best life, yes knowing that y’all are okay, I’m digging deep inside of my soul to tell you that the love I have for y’all will never change, the way you make me feel, you know where I’m going with this right, I want to hold y’all in my arms and never letting y’all go, I want to let you feel my heart by showing you that I care for you.

One of the times we sat down and had a conversation, you told me reverse psychology and this mean you tell me the opposite of what you mean for instance, you tell me you don’t love me in others words you are telling me you love me, you tell me you don’t look at me like that, when you really mean you love looking at me, you telling me you are not attracted to me, you also be saying like your not meaning like yes you are, if everything you tell me mean reverse psychology this is a good thing for me because I do not want to give up hope.

Substitute if she replace me what will I do, I don’t think I can find another female as special as you, when I’m thinking something you do exactly what I am thinking, you show and tell me what’s on my mind and for that I respect you, I’m not one to brag but you are wonderful and I want the world to know you are my queen, sitting here thinking about the past it was so perfect to me, after all of these years I’m still here with you, you want to know why because if I leave another man will have you and I can’t have that.

Foundation you build a company so your children will own it one day, this company that I have will be here for generation after generation, this is why I’m here planning so our kids will not have to worry in the future, yes let’s take care of this right now, we can’t wait for later, we must incorporate all of the things into this company that we know, so we can guide our family in the right direction, you have to understand what I am doing yes it’s for the best and you will thank me as time pass.

Deliberately if only for one night, I’m doing this because I don’t want to break down, the females in my life I think this can get better right, you swore to be with me but if I was Born with this dot on my hand, I’m just asking if you believe that show me how or should I say, you pass this down from one jean to the next, trust me this has nothing to do with why I’m not directly making children because when I went under murder, reaching inside of my body to heal me.

When you give someone a positive vibe and you make her feel wanted by showing her things that she never seen, I’m trying to think positive but if it go left trust me another year is in count, how long are you willing to go, I’m in it until death do us apart, being here with this women helps me a lot on what a women should be doing and how she should be holding me down, let’s see how far this relationship is going to go, you play your part and I will play my part, when it rain people get wet, you the only one I got in my corner don’t cross me.

If we separated what will you do and I’m saying this to tell you that this is what’s happening, I can’t go on without you making me smile and laughing at the jokes you tell me, you are always making this thing about where you been listen women I’m handling business, let me tell you something you and I can’t be together all day but make sure you respect me, how many times I have to tell you that, there’s nothing holding you here, so if you want to go, be up for the changes in your life and take chances it’s wonderful.

Do you wanna ride, all of the girls that's in my life I’m trying to take the game to a knew high, I’m looking at your body and your body is getting me in the mood to take you to a hotel and undress you, if I was a pimp right I will be a po pimp, please don’t get this twisted follow my lead, watching you walk away from me, dam your ass is thick as hell, please tell me how many bodies you got, she’s telling me her body count ain’t that much, so let me guess you and your friend is down for a threesome.

So as I can see I’m going for another year, I’m putting myself into a place where I can overcome what the world has in store for a person like me, you can take the past and leave it in the past that’s exactly what I am doing, when she can’t call you but you take care of her, I need to move on if I knew losing the person that my heart belong too was going to be this hard but I have to be strong for the sake of my child, when that day come and I move on and trust me that day is coming soon, so when you ask why you know exactly why.

Please you can’t pop off if you wanted too, your best bet stay in your place and get money, I can’t be looking over my shoulders, this young lady built for war, you in your feelings, all of that shit you talk about I buy for you so stay in your place and play the game the way it’s supposed to be played, if she leave let me say this if you can take her be my guess, if I walk out I’m taking everything, these females mean nothing by me, you better be curving if they get close to you it’s over and that go for errbody!

Love u 4 life, let’s just take a second to look at one another, so you called me and said 23 and I remember the care and I really don’t know if the feeling is the same but I will be sure to see you tomorrow, you have to be her for me to love you and for the ones that there’s no trust you no I’m good, she helps me make up my mind on who to lay down with and I will never disrespect her, you are strong and I respect that, you have grown into a wonderful young lady from this point on be true to me.

Holding the ground that she walks on, am I wrong for comforting my women and letting them know that I care about them and the way they feel, when I first started this thing called a relationship, I couldn’t sleep because my heart wanted to be back in your life, this is the home that I have built being patient, you know you can turn my world upside down because when I was going on without you, my heart beats for you, you should be crown with the women of the decade because you hold me down for eternity.

There’s only so much that this women can take me going outside to handle business because what was done to her, when the thought came to my mind that I had to be strong and move at my pace to handle it, that’s exactly what I did, no I wasn’t ready for the war that I was about to get into but for you it was well worth it and never forget that, the mind of a person that seen so much and the protection for her, I gave my all helping resolve the problem at hand with changing y’all soul inside of my soul, playing with y’all taking away all of the pain that you felt.

How do you visualize our relationship because I’m all for us, we have to do for this company and more importantly trust one another but if things start to become to much on anyone of our part, the other one can decide if he or she want to walk out, if you asked me to stop listen and learn to your heart and your mind, we shouldn’t be on bad terms because of this, like I said if things get out of hand, one of us should apart from the other because being in an unwanted relationship isn’t healthy.

If someone Birthday match your birthday and she’s three years older then you, you want to walk through the destination and continue to move forward, I will never forget, y’all stayed by my side, when I was at the bottom but the bottom making 70thousand a trip, it was well worth it, I can remember the last time we seen one another, you said you know who I love and I took that and held it close to my heart and mind, the way you said it keeps playing over and over again in my mind.

Taking care of the economy is a hard job but my business is still fighting to bring awareness to the problems people may have in their life, my company was built on blood sweat and tears, I put this on my back to accomplish this much is a great blessing, the moves I have made was the right moves and I move for my family, the children that’s mines keep the intensity growing a family, this company will provide for us in the long run, everything takes time and with us willing to wait bring out the best in this relationship.

Clarify if I tell you I don’t want the things that can have an affect on the way you view men, it’s because I have your best at heart okay trust me, doing things that doesn’t seem fit for a women to do, I will never use my money against you for sex or use it to tell you what to do, if we are equal partners let’s stay the same, uplifting your women to want and do better, that’s all I want, you have to be this beautiful person inside and outside, if you want me to respect you.

Planning a future with your women, you have to tell her things that goes on in your mind, hiding what you are doing trust me it’s a loss, if you be true that’s a win because she will trust you, if she start playing little game look at her and ask her do she want out and if she say no, ask her why are you playing like you don’t want to be here anymore, people say there’s someone for everyone and I thought you were that lady for me and now I’m looking at you differently because you coming in the house late at night.

When I mean respect yourself, I have a mother and I will be upset if a man took advantage of her, this is why I'm here to keep you in good spirits, you don’t mind me using your thought process to use in writing ideas down, I’m just letting y’all know I feed off of your energy, if I turn my back on you and my kids nothing good will come from that, the blessings come from doing good to others can you imagine not taking care of my family, this will be disrespect at an all time high.