BOOK 15

Dignity you should always want to respect yourself so others respect you. if you are a female give sex to anyone who talks to you. you do not respect your body. if you are outside fighting and cursing and disrespecting others that is not ladylike. your body is very special and any man that you give your good to should love you. females give it up at the drop of a dime. so they can have money or get high and drunk. yes, your body is worth more than a one-night stand but you can’t see that.

The process when you have to realize that this can’t go on anymore. so you fall back and observe everything that has happened in my life. people may not see it the way I see it but in due time they will. I’m all I got this is for us and if I don’t trust you. I have to make up my mind on which way I want to go because it’s too much pressure on me. there’s no more holding her hand she has to be this woman that you fell in love with. As soon as I met her for the first time I fell in love and the next time we saw one another. I’m going to make it up to her.

Transpiring if that’s the case you have to be safe. that’s why I am telling you. you can’t be out there in clubs and hanging around another guy because men want sex in exchange for money and gifts and where they can put you. I’m the one you need to depend on. I do not ask for anything but respect. you should be happy with this relationship and if you are glad you are here let it be none. trying to keep you safe out here works when you listen to what I have to say and take heat to it at the end.

Audacity you have to take risks. you can’t be scared about living but you also have to understand what you do can affect what people may think about you and the way you act. if you carry yourself like a lady you will get the respect that you need. picture you out there in the streets giving it up to everyone that’s out there. put your mind and body together as for me. when I was going through that looking at me changed the way I viewed myself because my body was changing right before my eyes.

Cleanse your soul so you will have a better understanding of life. the way you should do things in your involvement in the life you want for yourself. when you think bad things are going to happen that is usually what happens but if you think positively and move with God everything you want will happen. praying tonight isn’t a bad idea all right getting down on one knee and asking him to protect you from evil. you have to leave it up to the man upstairs because that’s the only one that’s responsible for you.

Trying to keep myself clean. so when I decide to be in a relationship my better half can look at me and see that I have been waiting for her. you can’t take the first woman that you like. you have to want better for yourself. when you partner up with someone you give your all in the life you and her may want. you have to understand you need to wait for your queen. you never know where the first relationship you jump into will lead you. this is why I’m taking my time.

When you are trying your best to live your life and stay out of trouble. you will do what's in your mind but the mind has to be strong. you have to stay blessed at all times. it’s going to be a time when I close the book. let’s see if I can last until the summer. this is a fight that I’m up for and show me respect before people get notes on this microphone. I’m the best in my eyes and this mic will stay on fire feel me. when you play the game you play it to the fullest and yes I have to watch my back.

When she shows her true self and you answer it doesn’t matter how you look. I’m looking for a woman with brains. so you and I can brainstorm about the companies we want to run. the fight is on but the winning team is you and I. When you depend on me and I depend on you. I’m getting into the mood to be with you. the day we see one another only God knows. I’m looking right into your eyes. Can I read what you think that’s why I asked if you are ready.

When you come back home and you have been helping this person since you have returned. you don’t want to do what you used to do for that person. if I had a woman she should be able to handle all of the things that I need. this is making me think it’s the cross and I’m upset. how am I supposed to express myself, how could you call and tell me the things that were told to me? I’m so tired you made up your mind I want to be left alone because nothing good is coming my way.

There are girls all around the world but there’s one woman for me and she knows who she is. it just so happens I have to see her in heaven. people may ask why am I waiting for her because she did what she did for me and if it wasn’t for her. I probably wouldn’t be here right now, my life was headed in a bad direction and then she came inside of me. so I know I had to take care of her as well as me and I did just that. her mother knows the love I have for her daughter because I have shown it and I will continue to ride or die with her.

Walking this path for a long time but I’ll give up on you. I’m making my rounds getting off of this path and starting a new one. how long can I keep up with this? just in case you can’t see that it’s over because you are not here. the only reason was because Liyah wanted to see if this was okay. I guess you are on another path, so I decided to move on. I can’t be here anymore so just let me be. my blessings I’m thankful for it. he sees my tears and he’s helping me get to my next step.

So that’s a billion dollars to get the case done and you wonder why I am upset with the fact I had to pay this much. people always ask me for life lessons and I teach and you learn but that is as far as it goes from here on. trying to fall into place with life as you know it. the grind the level I have been on helps me understand who is with me. thinking about how much money that is but for a good reason so I’m not mad anymore. can’t hurt my brain thinking about this anymore.

Trying to figure out your next move can take time but the time you spend on thinking about your next move is well worth it. you have to make the moves you make count or you did the move for nothing. you put your faith in God and let him do the rest. your body only accepts what you allow in your space. leading a generation of people that don’t want to listen to good advice they will end up nowhere. you have to understand people like me have been there before so we know the outcome of the path you taking and the situation and circumstances that come with it.

What they don’t know. I need that ride-or-die female in my life. Do you mean to tell me you never kiss or put your hands on another man? I don’t believe that I’m telling you what I have been through but you have talked about your life. you can’t be all that innocent believe me I know and I’m not trying to change this up to put it on you, let me think all of the lonely nights. you never got the urge to step out on me. I’m wondering do you look at me the same way you used to look at me? I wonder when I go inside of you will it feel the same?

You auto know this man right here will be your knight and shining armor. we have been in one another lives all of our lives. finding the strength to be the man to fulfill your mind and understand your soul baby this will last forever. I can’t Imagine life without you. I’m thinking about what I'm going to say when we come together again. like what will be my first words to you? how about I love you and miss you? then start a conversation by telling you. you are always on my mind.

Discussion comes when one has an opinion and I’m guessing you have a lot to say to me. are we strong or are we weak? you and I are growing right in front of one another eyes. I’m making up for lost time and I never want to leave again. I’m going to show you that I care for you. the queen of this castle is you. when you wake up do you think about me because your mind should be connected to mine all day. how long are we going to be apart let’s connect again. I’m waiting for the day you tell me to come back into your life.

Structure you have to organize what you are doing so it will last long. you have to understand that you have to wait some time to get what you want. you have to use a graph to separate the bad from the good. study everything that you want. you have to learn life and keep your head strong. being prepared for what life shows you and you have to adapt to your surroundings. you have to know your role. this is the way I would structure my life.

Infinity to see into the future. beyond the present. what do you know about showing you're all in life and making a way for you to accomplish and pursue your dreams? let me ask this question what is it to be in a relationship with someone that don’t want to be in a relationship with you? let me know if you can tell when things start to go left or if the signs are showing at an all-time high. what should one do to move on right? this is what I mean about seeing into the future knowing where your life is headed.

Exceed by growth yes we are building and everything’s coming together for the better. when you have a lot of people on the same page you will know when the money keeps growing isn’t that what you wanted? you want to do things so your future will come without the stress of not having money. I rather work while I’m young so when I get older I can have an inheritance for my children. so I know if anything happens to me they’re going to be okay. showing my children that I’m working to better their future.

Translation as I try to explain in my own words telling you how I feel about you. you seek pain when you leave boy I know what pain feels like when you pass away. it felt like my heart died and it hasn’t been the same. I remember walking all over Birmingham Alabama until I felt our daughter was ready to see me and when I got to my destination our child was there. there’s know better feeling in the world anyone can feel the feeling that I felt. looking in your eyes you looking just like your mother.

The streets don’t love anyone you can die you can go to jail you can become broke. what I would do is keep my family first. people sell drugs this is all in the black community. people do not understand if we put our money and our minds together we will be better off. instead, we want to compete with one another. This isn’t what others died for, the use of drugs is at an all-time high. this is what people promote. you have to be strong-minded to fight for what you believe in.

I want you to know one thing I miss you. I do not want my work to come between us. everything I do I do to take care of this relationship. I know I’m not home but I’m home working. you have my full attention I think about you 24/7 every second of the day. my mind stays having conversations with your mind. so if you are in my life get with the program and talk to my soul. I put you and our life first. I’m trying to find a way for us to be secure in the future.

Real talk she thinks she did something but the blessing overpowers the hate. you looked me in my eyes and told me everything was going to be all right. this is the start of me getting my act together. I’m cool and only macing. what you want me to do keep giving mine. you think this is a game. let’s sit down and talk about what you can do for me and then maybe I will think about you and me being together. nope, I’m just playing never again. you had a lot of time to tell me that this was going on.

Sexy lovemaking out with you was so real to me and unbelievably. I want to do it again but I can’t. cumsi I’m thinking about you. I don’t know if you are in the arms of another man. I’m sitting here pouring my heart out to the family I think I have or am I delusional? part of me knows you are holding me tight but I miss being in your arms. I’m trying to wrap up these thoughts that are in my mind. are you lying in your bed right now by yourself or is someone next to you? the smile you put on my face. this is the look outside that it’s going to be a bright day.

If I take my time everything I want will come to me. you put me through so much and I’m tired of it. your soul is capable of capturing my mind body and earth. I wake up with you on my mind. let me know if you care about me. I can’t shake this feeling. I brought my love home. After all, I couldn’t be running around New York City thinking you did me wrong because I did you wrong. thinking about the children we have is one of the main reasons I get up and write. I want to tell you what I am going through in life.

When you look at the rules of being a female. this is just my guess you want to be in my life. am I playing the game the way you want me to play? you make me wait how long it has been. watching you pass me by. I’m about to change my whole life. you made me this way because you brought the gangster out of me. you acting like I was doing my thing just in case I changed you know why. fighting you to be with you I’m not doing that anymore. I’m taking a stand right now that I’m changing my whole style.

How am I supposed to reconcile with her when she’s not here anymore? The way I am going to reconcile is by taking on the responsibility of taking care of our daughter that’s what she would’ve wanted. there isn’t a doubt in my mind that she loves me and the love I have for her is unbelievable. you make me press on and write these songs about you. it isn’t over I have to keep pushing yes time is on our side in life and death. this dot will forever be yours.

I came from the gutter and surpassed anyone that was in this race with me and I’m starting from here trying to accomplish 500 verses that way I’ll be 50 more albums in that will make it 300 albums. The fight is real the battle is something I love to overcome because without dreams you have nothing. stay on your grind all day and allow no one to come between your money and happiness. it’s always hard to overcome temptation. strive to prepare yourself and hold yourself accountable for your actions.

I was so used to you being in my presence. every morning I get up thinking I’m going to see you today. all I have is these visions of you inside of my head. taking it back in the day. you were always by my side, we were inseparable now I have to love us as one I mean the both of us are moving as one. Baby that’s just my belief and if I’m wrong prove it because this dot is the locator that the man upstairs gave me and I’m faced with this dilemma every day. I’m starting over no you keep me safe, so I’m staying here.

You used to be my soulmate. I wonder if you still want that position or do you want to leave and go out hanging with your friends. while I’m getting this business off the ground. I told you I have a company that I’m trying to get back and you said won’t I start a new company and I said okay. I mean what I say. I never told you something and I didn’t keep my promise. I took it one day at a time and worked hard. I know in your mind you said if I concentrate on what I want my dreams will come true.

When I say you and I have to prepare for the future. if we are not prepared for it. how will we know that our children will be taken care of? watch me work and take the task on for the sake of our family. I don't mind telling you that I love you. I always wanted to be the bigger person and admit my wrongs. all I can think about is holding you in my arms, the work that was done shows that I had my family on my mind always.

I don't dance around the way I feel about you and you know this. people trying to take off of my plate. you want them to go ahead. the question is can you take care of all of them and if so let them be on their way? my mind is on growing up for people who put the time in with me. when I look at you I see this wonderful queen. be the beautiful young lady that your mother made you. work yes it's hard but I would rather be home with you. this is how I'm spending my life with you.

When you see me you show me the other side of you. let me ask myself why is it that you want what was mine. in the Ten Commandments AL was 7 and you was 2 and I was number 1 and you know who was number 3 and usher Noah was number 4. This is why the real pistol Pete takes over the number 2 spot. this may not be you but I speak the truth. people say if you listen to what people say about me. this shit he's telling y'all is wrong for thinking you must be hit from the blindside.

Putting my all in it. if she says the feds looking for me. why would I stay in NYC and get a shit load of time? I went on the run and when X said the feds were looking for the dawg oh he's out of town. the whole I95 was mine and I could've died because folk life and blood were at war. but guess what since I have been home both gangs have come together and it's peace. but you still want war. what are we talking about who's sexing who means nothing to me feel me? the game people play I want to live and you should too because we have children and I'm not going out without the dot blasting.

I got my hair washed and set from her. I can't get these thoughts out of my mind. if she is with someone else. being a man queen a man won't let her go for any amount of money. telling her this may seem good to me but what if she's not feeling me. then I think back she could be mined because I have been with a lot of females in my life. let's be clear all of them know about one another. I'm sure she loves me the same way I love her only time will tell. standing behind you you passing me a ticket.

This may seem hard to say by another man but I want all of the ladies in my life to know I'm not scared to tell them how I feel. this bothers me not being there in your life. the reason I'm not you know why I shouldn't have to get deep in depth with that. do you remember when people were on the corner with cars and clothes and I was just starting to get back on my feet? I'm happy you stood by my side making this family company work. look at us now I'm so proud of you for understanding I needed my wings.

She asked where was I. I was handling this business for us. I never meant to sleep with anyone. how many times do I have to explain it was all in-house? the one time I did not say it was a cross. Aaliyah felt that and put me through hell because I made a move that she didn't sanction. the good thing about it is Shorty didn't put it on me and I need to make it up to her. if the ones that are supposed to be here with other men. why not let her in my life because she has been nothing more than good to me.

If you feel I cheated so be it. getting lit but after I got locked up October 31- 2000. I never slept with another female in my life from that point on. even when I was getting faded out of town. I went deep down in my heart only to come back on top. people wanted me out of the way so they could be the ones to be on top but my strive couldn't let me fail. so I moved forward and continued with my life. In the game Don't Love You your own man will murder you for nothing. just because he doesn't like the way you move. this is what makes it hard for me to trust when I'm in this game.

It took so long to get to the top but I made it here and this is only for my family. I think y'all are the best females in my life. it looks like things have changed for the better and I just want all of y'all to be happy. I'm growing as we speak on life. I promise never to let y'all go again. the worth of a woman and a man being together will have people's attention. right in front of the hands of the beholder. I can't wait until that day comes when we will touch one another body. if I tell my woman that I love her. I don't want to be all alone when I get older.

If we are equal partners we should do for one another. if this means when you cook I wash the dishes. when you and I both work I'm working hard and you putting in work too. I look at you if you take care of me trust me I know you have a lot on your plate. I remember sleeping all alone at night but I realize what you have been through. all of that lonely night I'm sorry. I have you now and I'm never letting you go again feel me, baby. it's us never them so let's play the part of wife and husband.

I remember it had to be like 89 and this Jamaican burned me in the eye with relief. I went to the hospital the people cleaned my eye out and put a patch on my eye. so you know my birthday ain't the only way I'm patched in. This shit goes way back this kid shed a lot of blood for the team. fast forward being out of town can't say why but the feds came to the house around the time I put my kids inside of my soul. I made them wait until the next morning to get me. they bust down the door and come in with AKs and guns with silences on them one of them punches me in the face and brings me out of the apartment in cuffs.

Being caught up in these streets I got out of the place that you don't want to be. 37 and no felony so you know I got one to give. messing with me ain't good feel like I'm an outcast for real. let's see how many people turned their backs on me but I'm built for war. if it doesn't apply to you let it fly. I stay on red flue that's why the connection loves to hit me. y'all talking about bricks where at the show and tell oh you just keeping it on the low yeah right? people think just because I'm quiet that I'm soft but I don't have to say what I will do to someone.

She says she wants to ride it like a bike. I said won't you ride it like a surfboard. she said whatever you want you know you get because you're my man. I said thank you I saw this lady today and she's having a baby. I know her she is connected to bloodshed. so the chances it's mine is like 99% so this makes me feel good. this other lady said she was having a baby. the last time she said that she was just playing. I wonder if this time is different because I would be glad for us. I remember this other girl from down south called me to meet her sister. From that time on I haven’t had sex with anyone tutti.

I remember pulling up to her house. I thought we were about to spend time with us she was dressed when I and friends got to the door. her sister's boyfriend we knew. altogether it was three sisters who went out and party feel her. we got so high after that we left and we drove home high and drunk. that's when my life was moving but I had my children on my mind as you can see. tell me if you see something I don't see remember me for being with you. so did you move on let me guess I just have to find out in the future. trust me I will feel me.

So as I walk off of the block she's looking out of the window. I'm walking closer to the edge of the block. like when I come in will you scream and make my present felt? you know you haven't had sex in 30 years and as for me 24 years. if this is true I can't wait to hear you huh while I'm putting my man inside of you. when that time happens I know it will be the best feeling in the world. you are so sexy and this is why Aaliyah came inside of me, so she can feel all of y'all body. I'm pretty sure when I get inside of you her body goes inside of you dubs.

Sexing two people in one. yeah, I can live with that, if my vibration is felt over you when I'm inside of you. what about the slashes coming down your temple when I'm inside of you? what about the cross moving around in a circle and me moving up and down and side to side? dam this here talking about it is getting me hot I'm on fire. just because you lasted 7 days are you trying to make a statement with me because of what you did? Are you sick I'm sick we both have a cold. stay o50 for me. imagine me pulling up on you or you playing me close on a car between my legs.

Yo, I remember meeting this girl down south but she was from NYC Queens to be exact. I hollered at her and she gave me her number. the first time I went to her house, she lived in the center point. that was the best part of Birmingham to live in. and my team and I rode there in an old car. my cuz had the gun on him. when we pulled up I got out and walked to the door. walking all over the grass. she met me halfway came to the car and got in. so we could drive back to Grasselli Park. when we started riding she pulled out the cutest 25-shit small pocket size.

When I came home to visit this girl was with two boys and her friend was coming out of the building she hugged me but she got in the car with the boys. they could've been their boyfriends who knows? if girls are supposed to be with me. mess with people from the side that say they want war with me. I'm not sexing any of them. so you can but before matter a fact. I want them to do it so I can get the money that they're using. leave the credit card bank books and leave with everything you came with.

What are you up to? I remember you in my house and you said you are not that pretty and I said I don't mind. now look at you so sexy. flawless you know shit will go down when it's 100's of Trillion in our life. that's what Aaliyah said so I think you should have her back. putting pieces together she said make it back in one piece right. I need this girl in my life for real real life. she got DR in her. body sit stacked looking at her makes me want her more. I'm on my way so get ready for me to pull up. you better have your hat on before I send you a four-page letter.

She said try again so when y'all say not now. yeah, I get mad but I know it's worth it. so I'm in it until everything's completed feel me. she said she woke up like this. I'm saying I'm trying to see what it hit for can you throw it back? when I was out of town I played basketball on the court. she went into the bathroom to change. you know I went in the female bathroom with her. looking at that ass it's fat I knew I can hit it from that point on. guess what I did so why left eye pass away 4 Aaliyah passed away 8. Do you think that would cut the wood in half?  

Everyone in NYC always says we are this and that. what about all of the telling people are doing? other states are looking at us like yeah they guys used to have it but no more because I let clowns take over what we were building. what happened to the stand-up men? I remember when females were with me from place to place people didn't like that. OK, y'all females gas them guys upright and look at Harlem. all of this talks about how much money we have and how we are the most fly people on earth. let's be real people are struggling in Harlem. so let's keep it real.

Y'all have and for the females that was okay with them saying they had the kid on the run. I don't care if you are friends with their boyfriends. since you turned y'all back on me move on. a lot of people are signing to my label but if y'all didn't need my company you know when it happened. Y'all were saying blank the kid but was still coping work from the kid. if someone said it was not true when I came home things changed right. when people ask why I'm not hanging with people because I'm trying to stay in the streets longer for my family. so if you mess with people that were giving me their blank to kiss back to y'all.

Should I let go because I can't take this anymore? I want to know what we are going to do in this relationship. you keep telling me that you want me more than I want you. you can't believe that haven't I shown you the love I have for you. In the past, I played myself but everything was in-house. if you ask me how many girls I kiss. I will tell you about 7 in 26 years. you want this and I mean the truth. this is what I'm giving you so be here. I'm telling you how this went wrong but I kept my composure threw it all.

Y'all still haven't said one thing that y'all have done. this must mean I was the only one out and about. I know some people were out and about. I'm not thinking about them. it was the right thing to do at that time. I'm changing my mind because I'm one with myself. I got this under control. I know I said I want all of the females that are in my life to come without having sex with anyone but me. I'm a firm believer of that, what should I do if y'all come touched? I'm trying my best to pick the ones that didn't change up on me. I want people that stand by me.

I remember when the old Harlem was getting money. you couldn't stop us yeah people got killed but it was all part of the game. my uncle was one of the people that lost their life. this is why I'm the way I am today, I can't forget it. we are from Harlem uptown baby we make bos. when I was in the South they showed this young man respect. how many people can say they did their thing in the South? if ninjas run their mouths right we are in it just like everyone else. people telling me to fall back but I can't because this is me thinking about if my uncle was here.

If ninjas want to get down and dirty. I just hope the dot that I have contains the rain. so yeah it might fall and if it does it will fall for eternal life. people don't want to put the guns down. I know I have to move carefully if I want to last in this game. there are cameras everywhere on these streets. so why would people commit crimes and can't get away with it? make sure when you hustle you watch your back because the jack boys are out. I let one loose to show I'm not that person to play with because this is the old Harlem.

Do you want me because I want you, what's it going to be?  the love rushes to my head. I know I have to control both heads because women might cross me. so I'm taking care of myself until it's over and you give that love to me. you want me to splurge on you because you are my lady and you should get whatever you want out of me. yeah, I'm trying to hold my head out here. forgive me if I look at you like I love you looking in my eyes and you see this love look like. how will we come together and have sexual contact? Yes, I'm waiting because I know the females in my life will love me much better.

For the first time in a long time. some females in my life should be faithful and haven't had sex with anyone all of their lives. you have to make up your mind. is this somewhere you want to be? thank you if I haven't said it enough because I love the way you take care of me. growing up with y'all is so wonderful to me. I feel it in my heart, why are you setting out our women? you shouldn't want to share the women you have sex with because other men it's no telling where they have been. this is why I need the ladies in my life to be loyal.

I can feel it in the air. when you are out of town and get sick. you play it off as if that's why you are acting the way you act. so people wouldn't want to get close to you. the females that were down there wouldn't want to talk to me. for the ones that stayed down with me from down south thank you. I had to play like I was crazy because I had to make it seem like the sickest that I had was bad and I couldn't tame myself. people were dying every day out there. I knew I had to be on the same page as the people that were out there.

Smoking drinking and hanging out was an everyday and night thing. I never had sex and I ought to say why because I knew I had to come back home to y'all. if I had come back home used family would have looked at me differently right? I knew I couldn't have that right. just imagine that happening I would be messed up right? looking at everyone I'm with mad at me. I couldn't feel that type of pain in my life. so coming home like this clean helped me be in my family life. I never want to let y'all go anywhere. y'all are the love of my life and I will never have to go through that again feel me.

What are your women worth baby why ask that question? when you know I think the world of you. the time I was away you felt lonely and I understand but if you were with me. when I was a child you know what type of kid I was. All of the blood I shredded out of my body. the plan was for me to get my wings but you couldn't see that. don't tell me that you didn't know that. all of the signs to the music you listened to said what I was going through right. I left signs up until I went out and handled my business right.

The same signs I left she's leaving me now. so I have to pay attention to them. if she says that she wants me. she better come to me without the cheating because I can't take that and I know what she said about I'm the only one she has in her corner. dawg good when it rains people get wet. how much we are talking about. She said she wanted it all and I'm going to make sure it happened while I'm here on this earth. you build with her and show her things that she never saw before. she will love you more if you keep her first in your life. this goes out to all of y'all I'm just saying it as one because we are all one with one another.

I want to take care of my kids because this is what a man do. as long as I'm able to take care of them. even if I fall you won't because I have set this up for you to have so don't worry about anything. When I look in your eyes I see the future and you know where I am at. mother said one day you will have to come to me and I'm waiting for that day. I promise God, Jesus if he brings women into my life. I will be obedient and listen to what you have to say. I want more for y'all so stick around and let me work and handle this business. that's on the table so you will be cared for. your wish is my command.

The heart wants what the heart wants and that's y'all for real. I know it's looking up but we have to keep praying for a better day. don't let me go on without you walking by my side. when I saw you today walking in front of you. I had to cross the street because you were behind me and my back was pointed to you. I knew crossing the street you would be on the side of me. even if it's across the street and when you get to your destination. you will walk threw me because I just was walking straight and you will be walking down the block. 

I went down south because my grandmother passed away. it was alright but I'm a city kid. so after that my mother stayed down south and I went back to the city. saw this girl she came into the park and this other girl came inside of the park. biggie said you on the bench and that's where I was at with her and I laid down and lifted. saying Aaliyah but Shorty didn't catch it. so after that, I moved down south. People started knowing me for playing basketball. this one kid my sister let him in my house and he took my PlayStation then found out it was mine and gave it back.

We used to be out at night my little cousin Warren always wanted to hold the burner. when we used to walk back to the house. I guess he felt protected, so I let him carry it on him. I remember one time I went and cop an ounce for blank. Jake pulled up in the park because my friend was smoking. they made them put the blunt out but I didn't move because I had the ounce in my back pocket. my mother was up this little hill in the park watching me like saying don't move and I didn't. after Jake left I went to her and gave her an ounce of sweat.

I remember me telling you I'm going to mess with this cat for 2months. you said why and I said because I have to give us time to wait for one another. 2months came and I'm walking down the block and in my mind. I heard you say it's 2 months and I quickly ran to the house and picked up the phone and called you. you answered the phone and we talked. you said you had to paint with many colors. I know when I first saw you both of us were wearing red. what does this mean baby we were a match in heaven.

I remember when I was on the train with Mel and E-low. my cousin was on the train it was a girl cousin and I started cursing. why because I wanted my cousin to say why are you cumsi. when we got off the train all of us got off on 145st. she called me over to her and said I'm telling your mother that you curse. that's my little undercover joke for you to let you know I'm good. I will handle this for our family. I'm finding my way back and now I'm here. when I was in the south my older cousin was down south because she lived there. her sister and our child yes she's a girl, called me and said no more sex. 

I remember with my male cousin at the grocery store and I got in the shopping cart. when we went to pay for the food two sisters were paying for their food and their mother was with them, it's others and I mean down south. Teflon hi are you and your friend doing? do I miss y'all the answer is yes because you showed me love when I was out of town. lemon when we were in class you looked at me like you wanted me to talk to you. when school was out you walked passed me and I asked you for your number and you said give me yours. I had a beeper and I gave you my contact.

Sitting right there with your sexy ass body. Baby you listening to my brother because you thinking about his little brother right? I know all of your life you never saw me and the only way is by pictures and that is the way I see you. think about if you have never had sex before but you have two kids. this is how you know Jesus was born from the Holy Spirit. her man never had sex with her until after I was born. that's why Kiss said my kids were born out of sin because I went under murder and came back to life for our children.

I know you put your all into me. this is the gift you get when you let me lead. I'm not going to let y'all down. this shit is hard but I'm fighting for our family can't you see that. I want someone special, this is not going to get easier feel me. the fight was hard and now the battle begins. so put your all into me. at the end of the road, you will see that I'm the perfect one for y'all. how do you come to a man at this age he does not know what you have been through. so his guard is up for a reason. how can I trust you when I left the other side was popping.

Aaliyah said letters better be taken care of and for the show said it today and it's taken care of. what's the next move we are going to make the numbers go up? I want your body on mine. thank you for hitting me this morning you are well aware that I'm looking at you. One day let's get side by side and you riding on me. tell me do you like it from the back or do you prefer me to look into your eyes? you should know I will never hold anything over your head. unless I'm releasing all over your face you are mine.

Seeing you today as I wait for the bus. Are you getting off the train baby you are one in a million. this is how you show me that you love me. I can't manhandle you because a woman needs to be treated like a lady. times may get hard baby that was in the past even then you never missed out on a meal. I kept you dressed right a roof over your head right and food in your tummy. you have my full attention baby all I ask for is for you to have my back because it's wolves out here and I'm trying to maintain out here for us baby. 

This goes to show how strong y'all are as a woman. I'm so sorry for making y'all cry this is held over my head every day. this is why I got out there and handled the business that's at hand. please don't get it misconstrued. the faith is in us as a couple right? So we shouldn't let ourselves down. the plan I had goes this way are you willing to ride with me? God made it hard for me to get back in your life. I'm old and I still can't just throw our life together. he said if ghetto stays in the studio long enough things will go right and that's what I did.

Don't get picked off blanking with this old head. yeah, it feels good to make it to this age. I need young chicks to keep me young. I need older females to keep my mind on the right path. guns do pop but who will get hit not me and if that does happen God bless the cross. the dot will play out of the baby nine. the Bible in my hand so what you want to do. God bless the child that can hold his own. follow nobody in this life of mine. the game shit yeah it's hard but you can't tell because that's the street code but I guess it doesn't apply.

When you play hard things may play a big part in your life. creep ninjas want the kid hit up and I'm not talking about gang gang. what I mean is you can be a friend and still want the kid hit up. when shit came out that people close to me were aiming for me to get hit. when you know you can't trust ninjas and females out and about with ninjas that you don't trust blank them. let's get this money CO always told me to hold my head. this is the conversation we talked about in the car. never let a ninja or a hitch take you off your grind for real.

Look me in my eyes and tell me you didn't cross me. not many can do that and if you can do it. you've been around people who wanted the kid alive right? what's wrong with the world a man that wants to help people and over and over again people turned their backs on me. why because people couldn't let me lead the pack but were willing to let others lead the pack. when people say why are you not clubbing with us or smoking with us or staying out late with us. if you want your business to succeed you have to work even when you don't want to work, the grind doesn't stop.

When I was slipping people laughed at me. now getting back on my feet people look at me like why me because I put the hard work in it. from the first time I started, I knew if I put my all into this game the game would put its all into me. the tears I cry are from my uncle not being here. when I was the last one to see him, he knew I would never give up. the streets ain't what they used to be because a lot of people are telling this shit has been going on. people praise the ninjas that die but not the shooter. y'all ninjas will never know how a real ninja feels.

Good seeing you today baby girl. the way I miss you without ever being with you. that's love and I hold you close to my heart. when you first saw me you were looking at my green beads right. From that point on you had your eyes open for me. let me say this I had my eyes open for you too baby. if you think I'm going to cheat change your mind because that's not going to happen. you never know what you are going to get until you get it. we can sit here and play the blame game and who did what. you know I never crossed you because you are the ones that this grown man wants.

You want to ask me a question but that ponytail is crazy long but it looks good on you. you are so cute and your body looks wonderful. I can't wait until you let me get next to you. thank you for being here if not I'm not saying that to say this I promise to love you. this game we played back in the day. guess what their days are over only one day out of 41 years. if that ain't faithful baby I don't know what is. I said ante up and you dress in beige. so I know that's a go from here on. I will respect you I'm trying to keep you happy.

The question you should ask yourself is how long we have been faithful to one another. That there should hold a lot of weight. when I can't be in the bed next to you. the only thing I have is talking in my mind. females are more emotional men are less emotional. so you can control your feelings more. when it comes to having sex. trust me I don't want to let you go. even when I have to work I always talk to you at this time of night. I do this because I want to fulfill whatever your heart desires.

Putting this life back together. the only thing you have to do is say you are ready and I'm ready when you are. you want me to take the hard way and finish owning everything about our company. I am sure miss being next to you. think about it I never saw you but the love we have for one another. let me know man take this from me and I promise not to let another woman take me from you. I'm deep in thought because your love shows me so much. This time I will love you hard with every breath in my body trust the process, your love is so sweet.

You can't make me feel like this is my doing. okay yes, this is by far the worst feeling in the world. let me say enlighten things. whoever was with me thanked you and didn't use me for money. I can not do this anymore. if y'all say that I'm the one y'all want. I have to man up and move on. yo, this doesn't make me mad I'm working that is what's important to me. you will be mad when you know that I'm never coming back. if you helped me thank you if you didn't or went with other men blank you.

What if you see me what will you do? I might say hi to you because I think you are cute. we've been talking in the mind for a long time, if not that's on me for real. when I feel like laying down with someone trust me I will but for now, I'm working to make my company the best company in the world. you shouldn't let me down and if I let you down my fault. who cares about your feelings? this goes out to females who use a man for what he can give them. you are not a stand-up female you get down differently and I mean that.

Being here for this long feels so wonderful to me. my life has been the same for this long. I want you in my life. at night I’m holding my pillow tight wishing it was you. I can’t wait until we break one another bodies how much longer am I going to wait baby until you say you are ready to make love to me? you are my queen you know that right? I’m big on family so stick with me. I can’t express how much I love you.

I got it when you used the blow dryer to blow dry the bottom part of my body. yes, I want to go down on you too. I can’t wait until that day comes. I’m doing everything in my power to make that happen. you are the queen that I was talking about when I said you love me like I love you. She said yes sure baby that’s what I like to hear. I want to undress you and I promise to take care of you for the rest of your life. as long as I’m able baby. this is why I’m fighting for our family to be better baby okay?

Past time by doing something that you like out here. trusting a female is hard for me. you like this and like that what more can I do for you? battling thoughts in my mind feel me. the grind doesn’t stop so keep pushing on. write this is what I like to do. remember when you had females but they went on about their business. so if I try to talk to another female it shouldn’t be a problem right. if you talk to a girl and she does not want to talk to you and then go out with other men dub her right or she dubs you keep getting money.

You have made it this far without people. so keep grinding and making things happen for yourself. pay attention to what’s going on in life. if you do not want to look back to the ones that went on about their business. you do not have to understand. people will try to talk to your girl if you are hitting other ninja girls don’t be mad if another ninja hits your girl. what if you are worrying about another male girl your girl might be out here sexing another ninja so be careful.

The reason I’m upset is not because I’m mad It’s Just Because I did this shit without help. writing every day and every night. I worked my Blank off To get where I’m at right now. you say these are my shooters as an og you sending your young men to jail. instead of helping them out and giving them the game. you are poisoning these young men. if you don’t respect that you don’t respect anything. Teach them the game different from what you had to go through. they want money and want the girls you trying to live through them.

One Fourth you get in this game to make money and the game could be you handle handling business the right way. you do not always have to put yourself in bad situations out here. you stand y’all and fight for what you believe in. There are so many ways to get money. when you are close to 40 years old you do not want to get locked up. the devil is a lie you listen to God and Follow his son Jesus. you made your bed now you have to lay in it.

Time will only tell how you fight out here. you could be on the good side or the bad side of things. it’s up to you which one you choose to fight for. I’m not saying you can’t have fun but you have to know your limit. just in case the Feds run in your spot you know who’s on your side and who won’t tell. aim for more in life just don’t settle for anything out here. people die every day out here that could be you. so I think you should play it safe before something happens to you. the fight shouldn’t be us as blacks killing one another.

Who was doing the telling fam like you said? the bell rings and it’s Shorty telling me that the boys were looking for me which is one main reason I went out of town. if people close to you become friends with people that hate on me. I can’t forget about the store so I guess you are both sisters right? ain’t know hard feelings yeah you were like my brother. when we were kids everyone out there was trying to sex everyone out there. let’s just say I’m more clean and have fewer bodies on me don’t take that out of context.

What’s the sense of gaining the world and losing your soul in the process? you want money but what are you willing to do for it? tell these young kids gang bang when we should be banging for good and not evil. this is like my two personalities talking to me. the first one is satan on the left shoulder telling me to do me and the second one is Jesus telling me to be smart. which one will I listen to a course the good one forever? 

When you live to do right righteousness will follow you. I do not need a female that’s in the club all of the time. I do not need one that’s showing her ass all of the time. if I like girls like that it will teach my daughters that it’s okay for her to do that. I’m a father and life is what I want to show my children that you can be smart and find a man that’s smart like you. The game teaches us and I mean our children that it’s okay for our females to have partner after partner it’s gold so protect it, okay children?

Yes, I want to hold you love you care for you. U got it bad I remember when I gave you my hat after you did my hair and I also remember when I went to the store to get groceries for you and it was snowing outside and I took off my boots when I walked inside of your apartment. I remember you coming home from a long day to do my hair. you said you needed to open the curtain because it was dark inside of the house. you climbing all over me on the sofa. this sofa at my house is where I caught the triple five down my temple. 

I’m a man first and you are a woman second because God created man and then woman. guess what God had to have a mother so what does that make you. are you here if I came to earth after Aaliyah's 4-leaf clover? I have nine lives and then she went back home to heaven so that means she’s next to Jesus and that also means. I have to find her did I find her again in this same life that she once lived? tell me do I go inside of you when I pass over and then we both go to heaven and I’m sleeping inside of her period?

If you ride the 5 and do not have a 1on1. you can’t deny 5 so why do so many females think I’m going to lay up with them? if you did your thing when I was out of town. so be it yeah I was out of town getting money. I have to see who’s with me because I know if I rush and lay up with someone it better be a jelly roll oh no pigeon. you asked me how am I going to get around with you on my bus pass right. if you get the chance to lay up with me I can change your whole life trust me. I’m not touching my money right now so be patient. 

This shit ain’t for everyone so get out now. this is what my mind is saying to me. the growth with a woman and not someone always out and about. let me get off that I see everything trust me. lay this down like you know how to feel me. the game doesn’t last forever and I know that. so while I’m here I’m going to get as much as I can get out of the streets. a lot of people don’t want to see you win.

So when I was out of town my guess was every time she came into town. People were hanging out with people that had something to do with me getting set up. When she was out of town she was hanging out right I got you. This is just some more things that took place in my life. When chicks write on your wall he had some contact with her but why dwell on that? I put my life on the line for my family and I’m thankful y’all stayed by my side. I’m just getting this off of my chest and you don’t have to ever see me again and trust me I won’t be a metaphor replacement is a must to all.

Don’t be mad at the player, be mad at the game right? I remember walking past 148st in St Nick and someone was out there shooting a video and I walked up. gave him a pound and then left then he came out with the video saying something that happened when I first came back home. I’m just expressing my life in the right order with what he said but you know what I could see it was never love. I didn’t care if or what was going on when I wasn’t up top. We all played around not so much me but you get my point. All of the saying what will happen to me why would I want to slip if it’s any beef see me in the light not behind me in the dark.

I can’t panic now because people are looking at me and what I am doing. Just by telling the way things should go now means what’s out and about but I’m home working on my company. So when people ask why I am not outside this is why. The power of words runs through my mind every day. I just don’t want people like the connection to look at me differently. People that work with or for my company thank you a lot. Yes, I miss my family if I could be there right now I would drop everything I am doing and leave to be with them. God first Family second I’m third on a scale of 1to10. Before anything got out of hand, damaged goods were never for me to understand.

Where this started I put a post saying I was going to use my hair getting done to speak to her right. So I called and got her number and we texted and she said that she would do my hair in braids. The first time we spoke to one another in a sense meant she was in a face-to-face meeting. She is a smart woman trust me I know by the way she speaks. She speaks educated and that is great because with someone who’s educated, you can bounce ideas off of one another. So fast forward to now seeing if she still does hair waiting on a response from her it will be nice to see her again. I think if I get my hair done three times a month by her and once washed and blown out I will be great.

Growing up looking back at whatever I did or who helped me that’s not here anymore. People will use what they did for you but forget about what you did for them. When I came back home y’all knew the rest right. I’m not saying that everyone doesn't like me, some do and some don’t. Why are you mad because when I came back home. I was broke and people were friends with me and then when the spot opened up people had words to say about me. People didn't shake my hand. The more money the more people don’t like you but will run to the spot for money. What’s the before and after now people running to my company to get signed.

I remember calling this female so I could send her daughter a gift for Christmas. She took too long to answer and when I texted her again to tell her never mind she responded and said she was on the plane. Lying ass female see I’m writing this without calling you a Pigeon oh no I just said it and what are you going to do. She thinks I’m supposed to keep sending pizza down south. This bird got the nerve but I’ll tell you what if you get married everything stops. You got me on the phone saying something about bushes. You should have said blank, feel me don’t get on my bad side and tell my sisters we love them. Oh yes, girl we are talking to you. Remember that MD trick you said?

You want me but who needs you? If two people connected to her and it was Jesus Christ. Take the name and body, soul, spirit, and flesh. I’m so into you because she gave me the okay by saying zoom the picture in close. Am I right that you want to be my lover? When you had your son you came downstairs so I could see your son. Now I’m wondering if he’s mine for real. Yeah, you see far into me until I stop you from looking inside of my soul. You the dot drops from your cat and it drops from the dot that I have on my hand and as soon it touches air it disappears. Can you handle never sleeping inside of the eternal light life? 

Let me break down how my and her minds connect. So on this day if I’m not mistaken. I’m riding home and in my mind, I heard her say she wanted me to text her and ask her if she had clothes for Easter. So I texted her and asked her if there was anything she needed for Easter and she replied yes some Jordan I said how much they cost and she said $150 and I said text me when you wake up tomorrow and she said okay. Bleek said that around here the boss came through at 8:00 and she texted me exactly at 8:00. So I got up and made a trip to her and gave her $150 and she texted me and said she got the Jordan’s and a shirt and thankfully said thank you for your welcome. 

Another scenario I’m going to take her through is four of her birthdays. The first one I was walking down the block and her mother said that day was her birthday and someone was selling a chain that had Jesus Christ on it and I gave her the money for that. The next one her birthday came and her mother said she wanted to buy some Timberland slippers and I gave her the money for them. The next birthday she called me and she asked me if I could buy her a birthday cake and I said when I get downtown. When I got downtown she didn’t answer the phone I missed that birthday. So about three years after that her birthday came and I called and asked her if she had money she said no so I went to her house and gave her some money.

So let me clear this up if any female had children by me and feel she is going to put me on child support. She can’t claim child support after the checks come in. Yeah, so you better take care of that now. Please don’t say I didn’t tell you tru tru. You understand what I just said so don’t come for me after this is done. I’m dodging a lot of people so bye-bye to all you groupies and gold diggers. I’m getting to my cash. Let's just say there's no limit on what I would do to keep you out of my pockets. I remember Miguel and I were on the stairs and she came up and asked him to buy her a pizza and he said Sporty brought me the pizza. I had a lot of money in my pocket so before she asked me I got up and left. What are you doing?

Shorty used to call me when she was going downhill. Ma said she woke up and asked do she have $5 for something to eat. So her mother called me and asked me while I was at work and I said I’m walking downtown right now to bring you the money. When I got there she was walking from getting her food. She called me with that story a couple of times. Then I told her mother that I was writing a book and she said she wanted to read it. So finally when I gave it to her she said her daughter wanted to read it and then she gave me her number I texted her and asked her if she wanted to read it and she said yes. Bottom line she hit me for over a quarter of a million. She had the nerve to get mad about $20 but owed me $165. If I take you to court to get my money as soon as you get on the stand did you ask him for a loan, yes case is closed.

Let me test this out if I said girls were coming to my house to be with me. Now B it’s nice to know but let me ask you if your kids are mine because I think it might be. I remember someone coming to me at my house and said I know I don’t look like what. I said yes we can lay down and have sex and now I look at you I hope it was you. Why does nobody know who your baby's father is? If it was me I would’ve come out and said it’s my children. So yes that got me thinking what I am saying is true. Maybe the relationship that they said you were in was for your career right? You were only 15teen when you got pregnant and at that time I was having kids. So if this is true, thank you for your bravery in coming to my house and asking me to make love to you.

I remember riding down south on the passenger side of my cousin's car and we were riding fast two girls were on the other side of the street and I told him to make a Uturn and he did. We pulled up to them and I got out of the car. You know what kept playing in my mind was TLC scrub so I was talking to them and I put my game on and got one of the numbers. I remember coming back home to NYC and I was in the park dressed and messed up then this girl called Poppy over to her and he came and told me she wanted me to come to talk to her and her name was Champagne. So I talked to her and got her number. Both of them looked good to me. Tell me how I’m not supposed to remember all of the ladies that enter my life. Whoever is still here for me. thank you.

Beauty I remember you were the one at skate key with your two friends. When I went to Summer Jam in Birmingham I kept walking around the stadium and I was dressed messed up and you stopped me in front of all of those people to see how I was doing thank you. Tiana I remember at the movie and I started talking to you and this other girl I remember when I first saw her and tried to talk to her. She said she had a boyfriend years later. I went to the movie and saw her and got her number and I had my Looney Tunes jean jacket on. Hi Tiffany, how can I forget you and your friend? Thank you for giving me a chance. I remember in one of the stores in Birmingham and your friend was there my cousin and I were yelling in the store to get her attention. Mr-Freeze!

Studying your body is all I want to do. I can make love to you. I just want to know how you feel about me next to you. You know how to present yourself. I can’t get over your body. I don’t know what to do here. I am telling you everything about me but what do I know about you? You sure know how to make me feel tonight I want to be your sex partner shorty tell me if you will like that. A lot of thoughts run through my mind. So tell me if you’re into me. Sure I can tell you I’m the man for you but baby wait a minute let me show you why you’re here. The only thing on my mind is undressing you. I’m still faithful to you so don’t get know ideas about cheating on me.

If you are a grown man or woman. You should start planning for the next 40 years of your life. How do you still want to take a trip and pleasure a man? If he’s not claiming you this might be what she’s on. If so I have to stand strong like the G that I am and wait for that special lady. Damn, I miss you but you said no more and this is what I am doing. Baby tell me who you want me to lie down with please give me a sign. Yes, I can wait longer but make sure you send me someone who will love me like you loved me. These nights I get lonely but I’m working it out for the sake of our child. So don’t forget to bless me with someone just like you.

The more I take my time, the more things I can get done. You know you’re on my mind. This is the way I look at you. you and her are my mother add another one God, Jesus, and Christ. Sea baby when I open the red sea that was my cum inside of the three of y’all. What do you say about that I’m making it work please tell me you see me working every day and every night for our family. I remember I was at her house and she asked me if it was cold outside. I know what that means you have a crush on me right? My hand started moving. I can’t wait to get in between your legs. I can feel you from here so please don’t make me wait that long. Okay, you should point me in the right direction. You grab my piece and place it inside of you which means you’re letting me enter your body.

She said she wants it more and more deeper and deeper. How far should I go? You know I never ate cats. The only thing I ate was panties with no face skin. Yeah, so what female will make me go down on them? You have to be someone that I love. Baby, you have to go down on me because the only thing I had was on and off one time. Can you believe it never happened to me and I never gave it out? I never passed seven times with one female; it was either seven seconds or seven times but never lasted more than 45 minutes. You should know X said what these hitches want from me. You might as well say I still have Similac milk on my breath and wet behind the ears.

No, no ain’t no putting your cat on my mustache. I’m not showing off in whips but my company business is outstanding. If a girl like me showed me then she always has me on her mind I sure hope so. Something's left to be unsaid but I don’t want my family to think I’m holding anything back. One the pool I also almost drowned and bathed two times. How do I get out of this situation right now? Imagine me walking from 25 to 45 but a dark path and nothing but woods. Okay, I’m bringing up Woods I had to tie this up so she will know it was never a cross oh no I mean Status. What do you know about being shot with a Bebe rifle shotgun and paying them five dollars to drive you home? I hope that I can clear up the two incidents that happened to me.

I remember going to a ponyboy house and this young lady used to be there. I hope everything is okay with you because I’m thinking about you tonight. You used to come out of the room and I waited for you to come out of the room. You want that title baby you know I want you as my woman. I’m sorry for the night trust me it didn’t last over 45 minutes. I’m talking to you the way you showed me you’re with me. You always showed me in many ways. I can’t control my feelings because your body looks so sexy. This is a man telling you how wonderful you are. I want to time when you release so I can release at the same time double time do you think we can handle this? She asked if our connection was the same and I said yes it would be baby.

Get your mail so you can cruise in seven forget the lies. Life does go on from being away from the seven but guess what you can exchange another seven inside of you for real yeah this is what I am talking about. You made your life right because you never did anything wrong. You showed signs when you were with a female whoever followed them there was still with you and who wasn't was gone. A woman will throw you signs. It's up to you to follow them and she has shown me signs. Two things for certain she named both of her children names after my family members. So yes I should take heat to that and show her that I care.

So I was on the road to the south. How can you say I told and when I returned I found myself on 161 in the Bronx at the courthouse? Luckily I got one year probation so that means no contact with 12. I remember I had the dice in my hand and was about to roll them but I remembered if I came in contact with 12 I had time. So I dropped the dice and walked away from the dice game. Plus a couple of girls on the block shit depended on me so going to black justice white grief couldn't happen. So I had to play it safe until I got off probation. I remember smoking in the park and 12 came up to me and Cream searched me and then pulled me to the car and asked me my name was blank what did I do you guessed it. That’s when the feds were looking for me.

So now you see it for yourself and in this life of mine. I went through a lot of ups and downs but I remained strong for the sake of my children. I will always fight for a better life for them. Please don’t play my downfall because the losses I took made me the man I am today. Some females stayed and some left look at me now damn I’m thinking how can you leave me here by myself to figure this life out. I wish you would’ve lived and you and I handled our business together. I guess what you thought and people you thought would be here but guess what they’re not and I'm happy cause this is the last chance to lock who comes inside of you and me. So I know you are saying for me to keep pressing on.

I know baby it’s better to have a man that’s here with you in time of need, I know a lot of females walked out on me because of what they thought they had but I’m faithful to the ones that stayed. Baby thank you for telling me that you love me and I’m telling you right now let’s look into the future. I’m holding you tight in my heart and mind now that we can’t see one another. I’m sure you love me and you are sure I love you. I can’t wait until we have sex with one another face to face body to body. This time take it to learn about yourself because if you can’t love yourself how can you love someone else? You should tap in with your inner self because that’s your reflection and I have no problem looking in the mirror while she's riding in the truck with someone else. I'm strong so I guess yes it’s over. 

The question is how many men ran inside of you because I want one without miles on her? If you are my age you can’t be used because I want that thing when I can get it. If you've been here with me from day one I know you're fresh baby. I’m not used so you have to match me. I don’t care how good you look. Women want the men that always play games but I’m a real man and if you can’t see that shame on you. I want to know if you played me for a fool because I think it might be true. So how are you going to prove to me that that’s not the case? I just know when I enter inside of you. You better hit me with that, oh and it better be tight. I hope I am not going deep sea diving inside of you baby keep it right.

In trust and belief, she said your middle name right? How are these songs hitting so close to my house? I remember when Blue Ivy was born the same day I called you and asked you to do my hair before I took off from getting my hair done at the beginning of December. You got locked up on the 16th. You and your sister walked into the room and Mother said her name asking me if I knew her and I said hi. You got down on one knee and asked me the question and I looked at you and you sat down on the sofa and I eased between your legs and started getting my hair done. I remember after that one day you were doing my hair and I was between your legs again and you put that cat on my neck and placed your tits on my head.

I just want to touch her body again. You left me with this chip on my shoulders. I am trying to understand what the devil and Jesus are saying but let me tell you they’re fighting inside of me. You went out of your way to show me that you care. Please tell me when I was on the bus and you hit the corner on 145 and you were dressed up. I remember when I was on the stoop and you walked passed and said hi and I didn’t respond. Are you mad? I’m trying to make this work for the sake of our children believe me. I guess what a man wants he has to wait for it. You know what I’m willing to wait forever just don’t have me dying by myself. The light that she shines on me will never go out until we meet again for now.

I remember my friends and I. When we were in Birmingham we were in the park and one of my friends had a pitbull and the dog-god started chasing one of my friends and had him cornered and he jumped on the gate. I also remember one night it was late at night and this van pulled up to the park we got a little scared and we ran into the backyard. I remember this kid started shooting paintballs at us. We heard the clip but didn’t see any paint he could’ve played like he was shooting it out. I remember this dog-god I had run into a red ant house and this female that I was with ran over there and grabbed the dog-god and sprayed him with water good looking. I remember this female was looking for her 25 that she let me use and I told her to go to my house it’s in the closet it wasn't I left her a baby picture of me.

I remember one of my friends was going to a party and he told his mother to drive to the house I was staying at. So he can get the 25 snub nose, not the shoe size that Shorty let me hold. The way I got the 25 snub nose I had the 38 long nose but couldn’t carry it around so I had to exchange it to fit in my pocket. When I got my hands on it I had it wherever I was going just in case I needed to use it for real. I was out there on some real shit yes I lost a couple of friends and family members. I remember shit like this because it’s embedded in my heart. Are you talking about guns hit double I did what else do y’all want from me? I used to walk around with the OX in my mouth. My friends and I knew how to use the triple five.

Can you tell me if you love the way I handle business? What about me giving you what you want? Listen to me you can have all that I’m able to give you. Tell me if I have to watch you because there’s a lot of men out here. Please don’t take this out of context because I wish you would lay beside me cheating. There it is you always fighting me I don’t want to fight with you. She always wants it her way and you better change your ways. This man might walk out on you because you have shown your true colors. I’m so stressed out because you want the world. I know I told you that you can do it all but give me time. I’m one man making a way for you to be a spoiled bear with me. You are my baby and I love you.

You do things that the world wants you to do. You handle business as you should make your mark in this game. You have to accomplish what it is that you set out to accomplish. Just stay headstrong out here and stay focused on the task at hand. Life has its ups and downs, right? The best part of life is waking up and having a chance to do good and right by others. Pace and follow the rules of the game always. They fight the battle and hard times and great times.

Sorting out problems can be hard. Why take shots at me is it because females wanted me no that can’t be it because you got them. Look at what I just said who gives a blank about you or them? It was never about what happened that night. The only thing was me using my fist and the triple five meant nothing to me again and whoever didn't like it. We are stronger now my ninja they can’t get me off my game plan so go ahead about what you and females got to go through in life. I’m focused on my company.

You are trying to put everything on your back and trust me it’s not easy to feel me. I thank God I can provide every day for my family. Please this means the world to me. When I see people that are in my life smile. Brace yourself fool I’m connecting what I said earlier listen and watch this in grown man bars. I’ll say this again I’m trying my best not to go behind another man and if I do it has to be someone clean enough for me to enter her body because bodies are everything to me. So I have to control my body because that’s what Layla wants.

Close your ears if you do not want to hear the truth about this thing called life. People are in it. I'm working on my company so my company can be the best that it can be and live up to its potential. So grind hard and work for what you want out of life. Digging on you that change will happen because if it’s not locked. Oh yeah South Shorty from East and if she has the same birthday as me and she has the same as her and she doesn't mean anything, the connection locks back to you two. You got to triple-cross me, baby.

Why is it that he’s dropping the album? I will tell you because it connects to me. When I saw her with the baby I was sleeping in the bed and she pulled up with her friend and her baby. I’m like in my mind is she mine because I wanted that? I got up and went to the radio and played you think it’s a game until the thangs pop out. She left and said she was coming back. I put on some shorts and I had a white beater on looking good for her. She told my sister to go with her to the store where she was driving her car. Am I on blood drop? I'm telling you this means the world to me.

Your faith is in my hands. We grow, we learn from one another. This is the way life is supposed to be. I’m holding her tight because she has helped me out so much. She’s telling me to keep grinding. You will only look for people that look out for you. You are supposed to be around people that want to see you elevated and people that support you. When this company opens, all of the ladies that are in my life will be running it. I know how smart y’all are so when y’all are ready just let me know and we can open it up right now ESCE will always be there for our family.

If you mine, be mine what you know about the dice game. I’m all in it so don’t think I’m giving up on my company. I fell in love with the hustle. I don’t put my company or money over my family. My family knows they come first trust me. The drug game won’t get you anywhere but if you are moving $400 billion a year. So far I made $16 trillion and $600 billion. So why would I give up on my hustle? You play this until it’s over. You can be strong one day and weak the next day. This is how we roll. You want to see me flossing right but blank that gets the money and stays low.

Money won’t stop the company won’t stop but females in your life will leave. When you are trying to accomplish your goal. Trust me never look back is what one of the females that I used to deal with said to me. I respect that cause I’m not looking back. Anything that happened in my life happened for a reason. I remember pleading with her not to leave me. I remember I came back to New York City and called her when she came uptown. When I looked her in her eyes I could tell that she cheated on me. I also remember her telling me she had sex with her boyfriend three times. I remember the same conversation she asked me what was I doing and I said boxing movin’ on by mya.

I remember passing my cousin the wire because I had nowhere to put it. Then I started putting it under the cushion on the sofa that I was sleeping on. I remember this girl drove to my block down south and told me to come to her house. This is what one of my cousins told me when she went to the girl's car. So we went to her house. The girl's mother wasn’t there and she was with her Godbrother and she asked did we had weed. We said yeah so we started rolling up in an optimal leaf. So we started getting high but the funny thing was that she didn’t hold a conversation with me. After we finished smoking we were leaving and her mother came home and said hi to us and we said hi to her.

The cushion is where the wire was under me. When I found out Aaliyah died in a plane crash. It took me seven days. On the seventh day, I grabbed the wire went into the room, and put it to my left eye. I thought about Layla and I couldn’t pull the trigger and 8months after that left eye died both of them came inside of me and trusted me both of them were straight. I take care of both of them. The dot that I have in my hand can move the world and if it were in someone else hand it will probably be used for evil. So Jesus and God knew where to put the locator. That means they’re watching me and what I do. I’ve been on this path for 24 years of straight grind mode and it will not stop me. You are supposed to support those who support you.

When I asked you were you alright with it meaning sexing you. When you come out of the room from getting out of the shower. You said yeah so make sure you keep your promise because every promise I made to you I kept. You and I used to talk on the phone from Christmas until your sister and I started seeing one another and just me taking care of her. I asked you if you were trying to have another baby and you said yeah. I remember you asking me if I stayed with my mother and I said yeah and I’m still here. The reason is that my father did 32 years in black justice. I couldn’t let another man probably hit my mother or mistreat her not on my watch and now that he’s out. I’m still building for our family okay? I don’t talk big money and like I’m all that. I just handle the business that I’ve set up.

So what happened at the hotel like 30 of my friends went with me there. We walked on the balcony and went to the room she was down in the pool with her friend and then she and her friend came upstairs. I was on the bed and her other friend was saying it’s too many of us there. So we said that we were going to leave. She came behind me and she and I were sitting on the stairs and it looked like she wanted to cry and then I left. I want to know before I say or touch anyone of y’all what happened when y’all went to the hotel with him and people that were down with the bad boy. Better yet I don’t want to know and if you say because of sex I was 10 years old when you went you were 15. Can’t bury the hatchet.

When Jay Z said you can’t turn a bad girl good. Once she was bad she gone forever. I’m at this female house and her mother said Nelly is calling the house for her. So I guess you slept with him right why tell me something like that knowing I’m going to hold it over your head? One day her mother said one of the Jagged Edge members gave her a bracelet. So you were out and about this shit don’t hurt it’s just turned me into a beast feel me. This female that I want to be with her mother called me today and said she was going to call me back. I know what that means when it rains don’t cross her because she got my back. Thank you for checking back in. It means the world to me. I know how much y’all mean to me this life we live together sounding this out. 

I never touched her the only way I got close to touching her. When I bought those Jordan I went to her house and asked her when she finished doing my hair can I see which ones she brought and she said okay. So when she finished doing my hair she went and got them passing me one of them then I said they’re nice and she said thank you. When I passed one back to her she walked down the hallway I said did you see the ones that just came out and she said yeah that’s the two in one I want them. So like two weeks after that I was lying down she texted me and she needs a bill paid and she needs $165 for it. I said can you do my hair she said yes. I went to her house when she finished doing my hair. I gave her $165 then the next week she came to the park with another pair of Jordans.

Why would she have the corner of her eyes on me? I think she was talking about when I just saw her and she was walking down the block and I was walking towards her crossing the street. You don’t have to worry about what I am doing. I’m asking you this with good intentions. What are you doing? Are you faithful to me? The mind must know and the body must feel what’s going on with you. Let me ask you something: did you cross me or are you on Status? I’ve been waiting 16 years to find out and it is not the hard way. Put all of your cards on the table so I know what kind of hand you are playing with and what I have to deal with before things get out of hand. Your sexy body should only want me because my body only wants you and I’m talking to whoever’s in my life.

God has blessed me with this talent and I’m going to keep pushing for it to work. The grind people can’t see the hard times I went through. People are outside partying while I’m in the house in the lab right? The gross of a company has to be leveled by the person who wants to own his business out here. Writing yes it’s hard but the time you take getting to where you want to be is a blessing. Please maintain the company and continue to work the best you can. Things are not going unnoticed. You’re supposed to plan and strive for the better in life. We as a people have to look at our brothers and sisters to see where we went wrong for the win. Control your faith and there's nothing wrong with listening to an old head.  

I haven’t seen my sister's children in how long. That’s like a father not seeing his children for months. I bet her older sister is having a ball down south. You find things out by engaging in conversation. Being smart is something that I had to learn on my own but I did it on my own. Knowledge is power and you should always want to excel in life because that’s the best way to live your life. High standards and understanding that your livelihood should mean everything to me. Watch what is said because I can take heat to it. So let me guess when I sent it down there it’s for everybody even if what you’re saying isn’t true why keep saying it? I’m about to knock both of y’all out keep playing with me. Trying to find Ellison's fiance keeps pushing my mother's blanking buttons.

When you apply pressure things come out well. When you lack understanding you’ll never find yourself. This shit that I write comes from the heart and things that I've been through in my life. In this life of mine people have died close friends people I called my brothers and people asked me why am I so cautious. I dread light but I’m powerful out here words that I say reach far. I have to build a nation for my children. If you don’t see what I am doing is right then keep doing what you are doing. I can’t be going on 40 and still doing things that I did when I was a teen. It’s called growth staying out all night when I have a family to go home to and talk to whether it’s in my mind maybe true or on the phone but together we can overcome this.

Teardrop and closed caskets so Shorty came to see me and he was like she looks good. The next month her friend came to the block with the same kid who was trying to talk to my girl. She had a gold Lexus I used to sleep with her but when the money was up she was good with me but when money stopped coming in she left. She and her friends are the seven sisters they couldn't see past the grind but I did. The mind of a man who wants to accomplish his goal will do whatever it is to make his company work. Check it. I don’t want any of them because it’s like when I was out of town handling the business that my wife wanted me to handle. Aaliyah, do you trust them? I don’t know that’s like 40% yeah it’s hard to decide let me make this easy for you to move on to the next level.

When I look at things this way I see things for what they are. Looking up to who and for what these young kids need guidance in their life. Battling the odds when you see yourself fighting for what you want. People will not see your passion when you're down but when you're up want to be around you. You need to show me that you were there from the beginning. If you ask me, follow the rules and live by them. Passive aggressive never I’m in my lane. If I can get to 45 without touching anyone that’s a blessing because active females will be used and I will have the opportunity to find one that’s fresh. What you bring to the table by working now is great you’ll see.

I remember walking into Capital One Bank on 145 and she was inside getting some money. My guess is she was cashing a check right great for her. I walked in and she had this look on her face like I’m good and the look I had on my face was I know. As I went to pay my credit card bill by the time I finished and when I started walking out of the bank the teller hurried up and gave her an envelope with the money in it. So I walked out of the door and she was walking right behind me and of course, I held the door for her and she didn’t even say thank you. I went left and she went straight up the block you know I had to peep her mind connection. 

So she’s pulling me back and I’m tight but if this is for us it will last. You know I love you but some things you just don’t do. When you have Jay-Z and Beyonce saying things about you to let you know that they’re with us. If you do not understand what’s going on right now it’s because I saw something that I shouldn't have seen. What am I supposed to think about that then you trying to cover it up telling me you are good but good can mean you left or are you on my good side? I keep trying to leave you alone before I get hurt. This is why I want to bring you know who back and not give a blank about what a female feels. You better be holding me down.

I don’t get you running around town doing your blank that I’m going to get on some bullshit. If you know then why is Jay Z talking about you and taking shots at you if this is not true? You will get nothing from me if you think you are the baddest chick in the world. This is for the females that think I’m going to be with you again because you have to be clean before I lay up with you. The part of this plot is I’m trying my best not to have another man inside of her because I had sex with his girl not happening. You think you know it all if things get out of control I will be walking out if you have sex and have another child by another man that’s on you.

You know what a dog needs. If she ain’t that leave her alone cause Aaliyah holds me down. You say this and do what I am supposed to think. You try and try to fill her shoes but her shoes are hard to fill because she gets down no matter what. The streets miss you and for those who try to downplay what my company does to uplift their company and females get down with them you know what I’m saying. If they take out of my mouth they’re taking out of your mouth right or wrong. Yeah, I’m taking shots you come in yelling who is that and she said my name. When the pressure is on, don't forget that because I won’t let you trust me. You live and you learn life is a lesson and I’m the teacher. This is how you succeed in life. You should prepare for the worst just in case it goes left.

Jay Z what are you working on cause if you working on something it has to be big like B.I.G. The company has not ended so let’s plan this out and take heat to the streets about the black men getting murdered in these streets. Please don’t use my company to boost yours. They know who and what I’m talking about. Yeah, you say one thing and do another. This is business in the lab why not tell your people talking about it and stop handling their business oh yeah money doesn’t stop. This is for people that don’t know what's going on with me and my friends meaning you stop and watch what the outcome will be in these streets. If your friends ain’t on the same page that you are, you have to move on, and if chicks are with other people do you and take care of the money because when you have money chicks will come.

Being that I’ve made mistakes you have seen passed that and I love you for that. When I say I want another child and hopefully it’s a son. You called and said trust me I will try to make that happen thank you from the heart. This is why I love you because you not only follow what Aaliyah left but you act the same way when she was here. You do things just like her never let her leave you because you know it will hurt all of us. You are telling me you have three kids by me right and trying to make a fourth one in time better yet when you are ready I’m ready. You called and checked up on me to make sure I’m great and this is one of the main reasons I do what I can do for your whole family.

The closer I want to get to you. The way I saw you when I came back home from that long trip out of town walking across the street to where you were. Walking up to you kissing your cheek to tell you I didn’t cheat and I’m here to answer all of the questions you may have inside of your mind, heart, and body. You said never miss my lips and I said okay you make up one half of my mother inside of Jesus Christ. Looking in your eyes for the first time in a long time you washed my hair meaning crying for me with all of the water on my face. You know I’m here until death does us apart never cross me let’s keep it in Status forever. You do so much for me and all I want to do is love you.

Hi, and you know who I am talking to. I saw a lot of females today and all of them looked like they have a beautiful mind and the heart of gold and talk with a little fierceness. The words I have in my mind are that our life is lived together as one. The love I have for this young lady you make me feel so into life. I’m thinking how life would be if I didn’t come home and y’all had to deal with this world as it is right now. So think about how I am dealing with this life without Aaliyah for those that don’t believe where is the trust in my hand? You deal with things one day at a time so you can handle everything that comes your way. I know that you love me. You show me by doing things that are on my mind.

Karma came back to me because I used to tell the older females that they were not getting any sex from me. I used to tell them over my dying body and now the younger ladies telling me I can’t get no pussy for real. I got something for all of y’all you think y’all going to get back at me with that but I got a trick for y’all asses. All y’all want is the money I have but what if I take that off the table I bet then y’all will hop on this meat. I’m tight that I’m in the middle of this relationship. I have girls older and younger than me. So I have to be more careful. You know I’m going to start hanging money over y’all head until I get some sex or brains which one you want to do and y’all better swallow. 

Ma as far as I remember you were the best to me. You did everything for me I remember when I was going to Disneyland with my Godmother and I was at her sister's place and you lived one building away and I noticed and asked her was you going with us and she said no, I think she caught an attitude with me because while we were there I asked her to cut my steak and she said mad you can’t cut it. 

Skip taking them on great adventures. I also remember when I was at the house with you and all of your friends and one of your friends walked by and got some water and the tears were rolling down my cheeks and she asked what was wrong with me guess what. Then she went in the room with you and told you and you must have said go get him she came and got me and then you said you might have to let me go. I’m at convent ave and my mother told me you had a baby son and in wanksta he’s in the video and my son looks just like me and one day you put both of my girls by you on the phone thank you.

This goes to show how God works baby girl and I call you baby girl cause that’s what everyone called your mother and now that she is in another person's body bear with us. Life will have its ups and downs when I saw you two weeks after that I went to Heaven and Hell if your mother cheated on me it wouldn’t have happened trust me. Being that your mother birth to me without having sex with any man I dropped from the sky and landed inside of her. So if she had sex it wouldn’t have happened okay. It automatically went inside of the young lady before me. Showing you a better life and for me to remain faithful to my family is something that I am doing because I love y’all for real.

I’m dumb tight. This bird kept asking me to buy pizza for her and her children. This chicken head ain’t give me nothing yet but I sent it to Atlanta and I’m in New York City. This shit is getting me fed up cause she thinks she's slick. All I know she bet not cause I’m going to cut all ties for real. I know I said I wasn’t going to be tricking players blank up too. This better be an investment for that cat or if not you can go to hell and I’m going to heaven. That’s the switch up or we can meet halfway and we are now on Earth. If the cat whacks you’re going to be on your way to the next person. That cat better be on freeze right until I get my mojo back.

I remember when we had that conversation about parting ways. I called you and you said you were going to a party I know in Usher U Got It Bad Chill said the part about listening and trusting you is alright. I told you things that we both understand and you told me things that I also understand. You make up the other half of me and I will respect you until you show me otherwise baby. In the coming seven days, you became this woman that I can rely on. You know the way I say things you get it just as well as I get when you say things that we are supposed to read more into right. If you love me I love you right back. 

What about her walking out of your life? This is the shit I’m talking about. She always has the bad in her heart. I do not want a woman who has been with other men. Why am I like this I know the type of man I am and I want the best out of that woman. I've played the game down to a tee so I’m not letting my guard down. Any females that get me should be happy because I’m clean. I'm saying this to say this come clean cause I’m giving you the best of me. It’s like everyone’s in the matrix because everyone is sleeping with everyone and I have to stay away from that. It's 1 a.m.

If I was born threw a woman and no man had sex with her this is why I know so much about a woman. So just let me handle the love that I share with you. You can try to act like you don’t know what it is. I’m holding you tight so one day I can have sex with you oh I mean make love to you. So act like you care for me and I’m not just saying that hypothetically. She may call me daddy and this is the way she greets me. I’m thinking to myself how am I going to have sex with all of the females that’s in my life? I’m going to first go inside each one of them in and out until I put my love inside of all of them. Next thing start from number one and bust their ass baby are you down with it? say hey.

I can’t take this anymore you say I’m the love of your life but I don’t see it or feel it. Yeah, I’m in the streets handling business out here for us so we can have everything that you and I want. When she says she wants to buy this and that she just charges it to my account with no questions asked. This is all I wanted to do for us. I know one thing: her body better be loyal because I was loyal to you. If she got the strength to leave me for no reason at all she always wanted to walk out. This is the sign of a woman that doesn't know what she wants so maybe I should go.

I’m not asking anyone to believe me but if you see the plays they’re setting up with my company money when I was down and out I couldn’t depend on anyone when I couldn’t eat talking about when I was out of town when things hit the fan shit people turned their backs on me. When I post this amount of money they counter connects with an amount of money saying I should pay this. what about the people who claim they’re getting money but the world wants to depend on me? Like is it just about what my company can do for people? where’s the support for what I do but people sure do take handouts no pun intended. we traded care for care when Ma opened up the door.

She says she loves me, yeah right you do your best to get me upset. This fighting shit is getting out of control. You throwing things all around the house thinking I was out there cheating on you, I said I never cheated why can’t you believe me, baby? You’re all I want to be with you’re my wife understand that do I have to say it some more so you can understand? Come here let me undress you right now and go downtown for the first time because my mouth never did cat to mouth so that means I’ve never tasted a female love but she has to be clean.

You’re all I think about I know my friends tell me she can’t be trusted. I think if she is not here then I’m not taking care of her. The females in my life have my money and have to take a lie detector test on the first of the year and the middle of the year just to make sure she is not cheating and if so my money will stop. that’s why I’m not worrying about who doing what with whom. My work is on my mind and for the children that mothers are here thank you so much because you could’ve been anywhere but you choose to be here with me. I know things were hard but look at us now I’m never leaving again just so y’all know I got my wings and I know y’all know that.

She loves me or she loves me not. let’s get down to the bottom of this. you can’t have it both ways you have to pick one. I’m not talking about who lives you’re going to be in. Let’s talk about when a woman hit the wall because. At her younger age, she was picking the wrong men. now she will do whatever for a good man. meanwhile, a man who’s getting older is a good man money is getting bigger so he has options. being a great man and female that he wanted back then didn’t look at him. saying he’s not a gangster why do women want those problems when she needs to be a God-fearing woman?

The plan wasn’t to cheat but to do what God and Jesus put on my hand. I’m sorry for the way I treated you. You know you mean the world to me. I’m not looking for another woman because of the things you did for me. How can I explain this to you? When I was out of town I’m glad you sent my daughter down there the whole time she was watching over me. I left my house on the Aspen trails in Birmingham and I was supposed to walk to where I used to hang out but the detour took over and I walked to the end of the road. It was like a football field and then walked back but from a deep spot in my heart. When I got to my destination at the barber shop and beauty salon Layla walked in and went to the back to get her hair done. That made me stand by what her mother and I said about two weeks later I slashed her. I will never leave your side trust me.

Looking at you from across the street. You wanna know why I’m in conversation with you? You know, the look on your face. Make me want to slide up on you. Yes, I want to hold you at night and never let you go because you made me this man. You want to know what keeps running through my mind. I got up early one day and you were dressed with short clothes on and yes I was going to work. When I got home you were home and then you walked out of the door and walked to some guy's car looking like that could’ve been your man at that time and that’s why.

What if God set up for me to lose the females that used to be in my life? When I was younger I guess he showed me the new way to walk and I’m glad I watched and learned from the best of him. You know I learned so much from you as you led me on this path. I don’t feel any emotions from back in the day cause I have moved on and it’s so wonderful. This new beginning for me and the new ladies in my life thank you for showing me love I haven’t felt in a long time and trust me I know Aaliyah is watching over me. They say you used to be the man back in high school. That’s the wrong statement cause I was a little boy opening up businesses makes me the man I am today.

She said make love enough and I said how she said you must be a shame and I said for what I never cross you she said please use status and I said okay. Yeah, I’m looking and doing my homework on who to be with because a lot of females play games. If you claim to be grown do grow things and stop beating around the bush. Oh, so you don’t want people to see us together or let them know we're in the bed together. This must be the reason you’re not giving me any love. How long am I supposed to wait for you? I’m a man and trust me I have feelings so you better put a pep in your step. You see that little curveball I pitched at you.

This person said something about me telling Yeah right people that's in the streets listen. If something goes down and the female's sister comes to your house and says they are looking for you. That means 12 right so I got up and moved down south so they could not ask me any questions right I’m going to say that I knew nothing was okay. Please don’t be a sucker and try to turn Harlem against me oh that’s what he’s doing. Let’s say this when y’all got y’all first pack where did y’all get it from? So let’s be clear about that. I’m not here to say that like I’m like that but let’s be honest not from your family. I have no problem but ninja salty because people's business stopped when I got back home. 

It’s so hard to trust females because of what other men can offer them. I know my money is in my company but I’m thinking about the future because it will be needed then. I’m not rushing anyone to be with me and for the females that were with me back in the day and stayed with me thank you. Some not all you know the saying out with the old and in with new both parties probably saying that meaning I and them. If I keep my head in these books it will pay off in time. I had to go to school because when we were together young I stopped to take care of y’all so bear with me ladies.

She said you trying to prove something to me. I’m trying to get this money if you can’t see that be humble with this shit. I’m trying to take care of my women I saw you today and you look great. I guess that curveball came threw you know how I feel shorty. I’m trying to keep my cool before this young man who’s trapped in my body comes out and starts making money moves. the game won’t change if you let the money get to you. you can lose everything you have if you don’t be careful. my timeline see into the future.

Why you can’t see that I’ve given you everything I have? you walked away from me ready to fight over damn near nothing the way you give me the cold shoulder. the hold time you’re doing your things hiding but I see you. how should I take this I wanna lift this weight off of me. you tell me I’m the only one you want but I can’t stand here and think you’re only for me. the women that’s in my life hold me down and want for nothing. climbing to the top of the mountain so I can see everyone for what they’re worth keep friends close.

Baby tell me if my heart is closed into your life. I want nothing but the best for you. You only see what you want to see. A man can be faithful to you and you know it but you refuse to trust me. I’m so lonely I’m praying for better days. I’m getting a call from my friends telling me let’s hang out and party but I’m like I have work on the line. I’m doing other things like getting ready to go to school and continuing to work at the job that pays me. You look at people and they know that the females in my life love me right, it better be yes. I want to believe you, you keep me going in circles thinking if you’re by my side.

I’m not biased when Shorty went out people saw that they were hanging with other people when that happened right? Yeah, she went to a hotel party with a bad boy right because big up pistol Pete thank you for holding me down like a real brother is supposed to do. Even after that Uncle Clyde had a video shoot and people from my hood came she had to tell her and she told them right. I’m just writing my books whatever went on in my life. More or less when the slashes happened my mother got slashed too. This is what drove me over the top. People wonder why I’m like this 50 cent the same way people did you they did me.

You make me so horny you make this man want to get in between those legs. if I say have my blood drop why are you playing. I can make you feel good tonight. hold on to me for the rest of your life. I want to show you how much I care about you, do you feel me like I feel you? we can get in the shower together or you just let me run you a warm bubble bath. listen I can’t control my mind when I think about you. I think this is going to be the night she gives her cookie to me. the question is am I going downtown the answer is yeah as long as you’re clean.

Tell me how to handle you because you’re a woman that every man wants. I want you to be with me cause you showed me so much love. you should show me how you feel inside of you. I’m so happy you chose me to be your man. I can’t wait until your body is touching my body. So get off of that bull shit. you play me I will play you. how many times do I have to tell you to be my queen? you shouldn’t let another man inside of you. you blamed me for all of the things that you go through.

The way these girls act I’m going to get caught up with one of them. Listen this one girl told me she will not have me out here looking bad. I said females can’t be trusted because all of them want one thing and that’s money. I want one that is willing to build with me. You have your way all of the time and I just want it my way one time. Do I think I’m going to get set up soon yeah the way I’m at home at night all alone hurts but I know Aaliyah lost her life to help my life out. If this comes out I will be ready all I know is I have been clean for 24 years with known woman contact.

When I see you with that look on your face that I’m doing you wrong. please jump the gun because I have a cheating mind so deal with it. you know what will make me faithful to you. you need to give your body to me right now. you seem so tense can I rub your body she said Yeah and I started rubbing on her skin. you want me to be your one and only. I can see that right now cause you have been that stand-up woman for me. you look like something is on your mind go ahead and let it out so we can fix the problem at hand.

Yo, I played this shit out great but this chick that I helped out a lot. I guess the money was what she wanted and as I think about it she probably moved on to the next guy. I’m on the run again and can't help to think the feds are watching me and she is not even saying shit to me. She better be planning for her future. I'm glad she is good now no thanks to me. When she needed me I was there for her but I don’t know if she’s with me. I’m going to tell y'all all of the dates add up to her so I might be overthinking this one if so I’m glad she is with me. I can’t settle because that might get me caught. Yeah, I’m playing Rock the Boat blanking for me is what Aaliyah said.

You make me wanna change my life and be at home with you and feel your body. You should feel me getting up in the morning, you fixing me something to eat in a sex outfit. I can’t help but look at you. You should wear that two-piece with the robe on. I want to get you out of that. You have your toes and fingers done. Looking as good as you look I want to go downtown and please you. You have colored lipstick on and your hair is long and beautiful. I just made up my mind I hope you’re bringing a lot of females into my life for me to have. You’re always with other ladies and y’all be spending the night with one another. I just need to be there with y’all for real so can you make that happen?

Matilda the house goes when you are with someone you have to respect them. I just don’t know what to believe about you. You think I’m bad but I’m getting money and you talk about being a baby mother if you’re my baby mother. You will be taking care of me pulling out the magnum. One verse dead them all you pushing this music and I respect your style you got flow I will pull the dough out. Please listen to these bars. I will be waiting for the next bars you recite. Keeping up the great work on these streets is hard because if I get locked up will you stay down or move on to the next one? I respect you so much I’m going to give you the utmost respect from me.

Magnum, two choices right, good thing your auntie Dj Jazzy Joyce came to see me on the bridge telling me that you on the show was just for the show. I could name 101 reasons you should be the mother of my baby. I’m a good man to get to know and when you get here I will let you pick my brain. So you can find out how I think out here. Rule number one never let your guard down stay fighting. It’s always business, never personal. If he or she cheats or uses you for money take the game for what it is and move on. I had to learn that the hard way but I never stopped pushing my dream because in the future a lot of this is going to change and you need a man that can adapt.

You need to know that I’m on this paper chasing so in the future my family will have money. this is the beginning of the end game I can’t stand this hitch who did what she did but I know how the game goes anything for her daughter to get money when her chips were down. I’m not going to dwell on that for so long I’m switching over when the game seems like it can’t get any better I told blank her friends and she is sleeping with one another. She hit me last night in bed with friends, I hope this is good for me but bring the ones that you’re in a sexual way.

I’m saying a note to myself watch your back while you're out here. You can’t trust the streets females will cross you over money and you have to live by the terms of the game. Maybe it’s the get back come on Sin take the game how it’s supposed to go. You know your mind is moving on, look at the way the future is going. So don’t get upset about anything, keep grinding before you find yourself losing behind a chick. You dig deep in your mind and handle business out here you should live your life to the fullest but I can’t because 12 is following me all day long.

If you live by the gun you die by the gun that’s my model. I know it’s a lot of money out here first you have to learn how to bag up then you get money. If you believe that then you’re a fool trapped in this game just in case people try to get rid of me. I don’t sleep too much. I did that street shit nowadays. I just want to fall back and take care of my company and live the right way. So if you are following this path that I’m on watch us grow as one. If you ain’t out this kiddle my bloodline is something else. So if you have children by me think about their future and if you don’t you’re faithful to me. You will still have if not the person that holds me down be Aaliyah.

Watch how I take hold of this shit. If I let you on my page what will come from it? Yeah, you look good and sexy but one thing keeps running through my mind. You dance around theory on top of me. Comedy is funny. I want you now. Your body looks like you can take me inside of you. One more thing girls always play games and I’m a grown man with a lot to offer you. So play your cards right is it the ace of spades oh you’re a jokester mean while I’m a gangster. Let me make this short. You show me how you move on top of this joystick. You can have whatever I have but you have to prove to me that you’re faithful.

I’m not here for my name to ring bells but it does so deal with it. You make up one-half of me, the game get it right, you can die from this game. That’s why you have to watch everyone that brings harm to you. If you ain’t with me then you're against me. I have been there before when people ask for handouts and then change up on me it’s nothing new to me. God protect me for real you’re all I need. We just touch down. It's all around the world. I don’t own the copyright to this song, I’m going to talk to your girl like an itchy man. It’s blanked up and my blood starts to flame up when it gets cold outside 99 problems and a blank ain’t one.

Lay I know that you are saying in your mind don’t be with anyone until I see you first. I know that we are willing to go to Heaven with your mother with this dot on my hand means so much to me. I’m here listening to one in a million right now. This is for all the ones that believe him and I’m telling y’all you have to have kids by me or been here all of your life without sexual contact with anyone. This is something that Aaliyah and I talked about when we had that conversation. So why would I let her down trust me she is the love of my life. So do y’all cause if it’s up to me I will stay a virgin for the rest of my life.

You share so much information with your family. I’m writing to let them know how I feel if one should leave then so be it. My money is on my mind, anything other than that has to play the back and I get it. So I shouldn’t have to worry about people taking from me. I know when I lay up with someone she will love me. I’m trying to reach the thinkers. So keep playing hard and when time makes up for all the work you have done it will pay off one day. I will have this company to recite when it’s time so for now I will continue to work on my books and dropping music because I know when I’m not here my children will have generational wealth.

How am I supposed to trust females when they’re always playing this way and it isn’t right? You know I have to put on my playa gear and move the way I’m moving. I think the money won’t bring the ladies and I hope it doesn't because I want to finish my studies by myself. You can say that thang is the best but you have to understand when I went inside of Aaliyah it didn't get any better than that trust me. She made females yes I’m saying she’s the mother nature of this earth. The woman was first born she had to be born to Jesus just think about if I had this dot on my hand and it fell from the sky and landed inside of her and she never had sex yes a virgin and birth three.

You have to get down and dirty when playing in the streets. I just want to make a way for me to eat and for me to get older in life. Knowledge is power and I understand that now trust me. If people can’t see where you’re going they need to get off the ship right now before they bring you to the bottom of the ocean. I stand corrected on this one: people say you grind with your friends then all of a sudden money comes into play and people act like you weren't the one. Yeah, people change and I respect that but why change when money gets into play? You look for people to support you and they don’t not about my feelings just remember this.

As I gather my thoughts you just have to understand everyone ain’t with you. I bet my life on it when people that set the spot up get out people will fuck with them. Shit are you willing to die for yours? Yes, I am my brother's keeper. This ninja got a big ego and that’s why shit doesn't happen for him just putting it out into the universal. Yeah, I have to wait my time this shit ain’t about this chick they said it was over money I never got money with ninjas so I guess it was about these chicks. I got an army ready to go to war for me. This blood shit ain’t for everyone some people get in it for the wrong reasons meanwhile it’s heartache and pain.

When I was in the streets you had my back and now I feel so alone. I have to up my game but check it. I'm not looking for some chick to use me for money. This is what they look for when we should be building together but I guess you're out with other guys. I’m so strong because you have given me the strength to move ahead. This time matters no time. I can’t wait until I get to heaven with you. This is why I’m handling this business because you wanted this. I know you’re looking down on me and I’m saying one day I will hug you again and I can’t wait to hold you in my arms. You are all I need.

So hey, you know who I’m talking about. In IS90 this one Latin chick looked good and dressed her ass off. She always looked at me like she wanted me. I'm over here in my mind saying wait until we get older. She had a crew and all of them looked great. They used to call my name and tell my brother I said what’s good. The money is on for life she used to ROC a ponytail and always had every pair of Jordans on I can tell her family had money. I just hope she has children by me. You know she went to the hospital to have kids for yours truly. 

This is the best part of my life. I’m holding this here down with no questions asked, you are super real if you play with Gangsters. You learn a lot of shit that matters. You have to cope with being real cause real ninjas are outnumbered by fake ninjas. You say this is why you want to get out of the streets and I will tell whoever wants to get in this game to fall back because it’s not like it used to be. You have to read the game and read it well.

When shit gets hot you get the burner and handle business. ride around looking for who you have beef with. fuck what ninjas think get this money. you better be willing to go all out in this game. the only way to go is to the top. you better get your shit together out here. when the money low rob and steal become a part of your everyday living. you will do anything to put food on your plate right? mask on with the baby nine full clip and one in the chamber. this is how real ninjas get down when their back is to the wall never forget that. everything looks easy from the man who has nothing point of view. he’s always down when it comes to doing anything for the money.

What does it take for a street ninja to get out of the streets? you have to plan yeah first it was the drug game. dealing 24/7 1ave to 7ave. you know when your name is popping up when the streets and jails talk about you. tell me what the fuck ninjas want from a ninja like me, yeah I walk around with that dot on my hand. Damn get this money and stop worrying about what ninjas think about you. keep your head on getting this money. I was never the type that talked about all of the cars and clothes and jewels I got because I don’t have that. I’m from the mug where when it rains ninjas get wet. so never cross me when you speak to me about crossing me use status.

When you’re in a gang they expect you to be down for whatever. some gang members get money. As for me, I put in work when I was a young soldier and now I’m calling shots. there are a lot of sex money murders that do positive things. take me for example I’m giving back the knowledge that was given to me. nobody wants to die at a young age. the game can and I’m going to say this again you can die from the game. you have to be headstrong with two bullets one on each arm in the form of a cross. the left arm in and the right arm out and people wonder why I don’t give a fuck. play with God and Jesus if you want. in the coming seven days.

The dark man X we did business in these streets. whoever says it’s not true ask Kiss why he said the dog can’t beat its sin. Who is the one that put all of your favorite rappers in this game? I ain’t playing my money was put into all of these black record labels. what I have blessed myself with let know man take that from us. shit get hot yeah I’m rolling with the punches that the world has thrown at me. the game doesn’t change it’s the same shit just a different day. getting down at any cost out here you have to pay attention to what’s going on. if one of your friends dies you are supposed to strike back right. if ninjas tell that’s what they call telling and I couldn’t go out like that.

The moves ninjas make can get you in trouble. you have to grind until the day you die. looking in my eyes you see a person that will do anything to stay on top. what are you doing in these streets and selling drugs hustling every day and every night? trying your best to play strong if you’re trying to stay in this game. when the last days come you will know it. you never let yourself down, try to keep yourself happy maintain everything that goes on in your life. buying clothes and cars and houses yeah it’s fun but when those people come you better have the money or else you’ll be going to black justice and nobody wants to be there. so stay positive and handle yours to the max.

When everybody comes together to get this money everybody can eat. it's good to see people putting their differences aside to grow together. everybody needs help in this game. do your thing bro can't knock the hustle. build and plan help people become wiser in this game. it helps people in need to become more faithful to the code that anyone can get the money together. you take what you see and help others see what you see. HW TO BK is a good look that's what I have been saying all the time. ninjas gotta put their pride aside and learn from one another There's enough money out here for everyone you just have to be willing to get it.

Murder put your hard hat on before you step too me. yeah, we running the streets don't get put in the body bag for real. ninjas think I'm playing this gangster call right? fuck the money it's about who's real in these streets. you made your bed now lay in it. I'm lying down with no remorse feel me. take care of all that gangster shit you talk about. we got young ninjas ready to ride. Sex money murder continues to get this money. that's all I see and trust me when I get on or should I say when I open up my company a lot of people are going to be good. ghost what it hit for peeping eyesight, laid it down and the baby nine let loose anytime.

The older kids from the block were about 15 years old and older. the younger kids from the block were 13 years old and younger. so it started with us going to house parties. that led to the skate key. it was about 15 older kids and like 12 younger kids. so the first time I went was with Day and we had so much fun there. when Easter came around the year was 1996. a couple of my friends went to Skate Key. Skate Key had a lot of girls there. so as we walked in a lot of girls were looking at us. like we were the new kids there. At about 8 o’clock, the dance floor opened up and my friends started dancing. we spread it out. You know that first day we were popping.

So everything was going well. until this one girl came up to me on the dance floor. yeah, I danced with her and we exchanged phone numbers. going back to the block we went to my friend's house and fell asleep. the next day we got up, we used to play up the block versus down the block in basketball. so we did that ninjas just hanging out. fighting with the young kids who lived on the block. the young kids were growing up fast. half of us went to the school IS90. having beef with different races up there but you know we hold ours down.

Shit got hot for us. we going everywhere not giving a fuck about what ninjas think. my guess is ninjas singled me out because I was getting girls for a reason I undressed in all of my stories. my friends and I were leaving school early to go to my other friend's school to pick them up and we were cutting school to hang out with girls. some of us started smoking weed at a young age. Then the blood came to New York City in full effect in 97 everybody was turning blood. blood was all over the city. meanwhile, back on the block, I had a couple of girls there but the girls were hanging out going to parties, and skating key. the girls were dancing with ninjas to girls were messing with my friends also.

In the back of my mind, I had a family that I was handling business for. it’s been about 26 years since I slept with anyone from New York City it’s been 24 years since I slept with anyone in this whole wide world. ninjas was in their feelings was it about a girl no it was about money. we got to stay friends blood in blood out. people rolling up on me and my friends wanting to fight us. we are not scared but where did the hate come from? so something happened to one of the girls and a close friend I thought a friend did it. then we got to run up on some young kid and knock him out. I told him to tell his friends to come and holler at us.

Later on that day, they came uptown with like 75 people in the park and they wanted to fight. so me and my friends walked out of the park walked down the block and told 151 everybody ran up the block. we caught up to them cops came and everybody went home now we are hot as fish grease. the kid moved down south fast forward to 2004. I came back home got on the phone with my bro and told him 142 he said he could handle that okay. it’s a lot of work that’s going to be coming in. so we started up a light couple of O’s everybody started knowing we had it. money started coming in, we moved from O’s to pounds quickly.

This is the game of death who is ready for whatever comes with the game. you find people who will ride or die with you. the mic doesn’t stop you just get better at what you do in this game. you see what you want to see and accomplish what you want to accomplish. this game has winners and losers it’s all about how you play this game. the money won’t stop you have to plan your moves carefully and stay on your grind for real. this is the beginning so stand out and motivate others to do the same as you.

Let’s talk business for the rest of the year and make sure you don’t get out of your bag so keep getting money. people overcome many things in this gang. gangsters live by one rule never talk to 12 and stand tall. I want to shower you with gifts. you live and you learn from your mistakes. so keep your head up and never get caught without it. Do you know how Harlem gets down please move to the left irreplaceable you share your talent with people on the same moves you make from here and get money.

She wants what she can get but falls back. that’s the way the ball bounces and you just have to live with it. excuse me lady I hope you don’t cross me. you wrote a book about me right that means you were studying my life story right? you’re into a lot of things right and I’m proud of you. this goes out to everyone that’s getting this money with me. let’s keep getting this money we will finish this together and never let anyone move us from the lives that we share. when you grow together good things will happen for us trust me and make sure we stay faithful to you.

Sincere what’s up baby? if I was with all of the girls I think I’m with how. I know money in my pockets full right. she told me she got my back you know get down like sincere. you heard what I said right. so you better respect me before all hell starts to freeze over you think you can’t get fucked up that’s me going inside of you right. this is the case of a man that wants more from his females is that wrong I don’t think so. do something or fall back it’s like y’all on that Beyoncé shit girls rule the world I ain’t mad at y’all women was I first or Mother Nature.

When I write something in my book I feed off who I want to talk about lady.  you might change up right but if you don’t that’s what's up. Do you think you can’t see now wait until you see me balling and you not with me. my bad you know I’m just playing right. hang on I’m on the move because you and my bills not going to pay themselves right. I know you got your own money put that up and let me handle this money. everything going inside of your account, spare me for now my mind was just reading can’t control that feeling.

Oh now she is with a man and she thinks she can get everything she wants. what if I fall off will you hit the books for me and put money on my books? when I came to the belief that she was riding with me. I can’t shake this it might be a setup for real. you know I have to watch what I say down and dirty by myself right so the feds have no case. this is just rap don’t get wrapped up. she said if she gets wrapped it’s on me damn I haven’t thrown the excuse me on you yet. what’s taking so long she said wait I’m like damn wait how long.

Let me get to the real.  this is the last time people can claim who they are in my life. the next life I be in claim new females never forget that. so just back here waiting my time to claim people. if you don’t have the slashes so be it. if all she was looking for was me thank you for her Miss Lady. this damu shit is the best. I’m not saying I’m banging it just feels great to live a part of this nation. my nation has my tongue and my dogs have my back. I’m only looking for a female pit bull you know a red nose.

You never know what the streets have for you.  so keep a close mouth before you get hit up. the last time you got in beef with people you held your head up. you should respect the gangsters and murderers. so play your part while being in this game. I can hold mines down until this shit is over and the company is open. just imagine when it goes public and people will be able to invest in the stock. you know it’s going to shoot straight up right? this is why I’m not talking about speaking in codes.

So Tokyo I played this song and you put on your red dress for your birthday. tell me is that a sign that you want me? I’m sitting here listening to my, my, my, and lady you went today to get some perfume the connection y’all give me thank you. She knows who I am talking about showing her legs I can’t wait baby by the way beautiful performance. what about you just today bought a new car and she said it’s the big one so that means it’s top-shelf. what about you Jaz are you down tell me if it’s a go because I want all that I can get from my ladies.

You will find a way from this world and anything she wants she can get. I have a question am I your man? this shit keeps beating me in the head with the bull shit. I can’t get these feelings outta my head. she said she wanted to be my superwoman and I responded yes you can. the way the game goes you need a woman to lead you to victory. I can help you out and make life easier so hold me tight, she said she want a man to love her. I will do my deeds and show you how we handle this business. so let’s work and stay true to one another.

You look so beautiful and I know you’re bold and ass fat and face pretty and long hair. so I posted a superwoman and a lady posted a supernatural book that she was reading. I told you the connection was coming can I get an amen? what if they turn their back’s on me no complaints she said she would never walk out. I hear you but do I hear you she said and I said I do. the way you rap talking about what a man wants from you. plan for the future if you have a man that has a plan wait for him to get things right that means you can plan with him on sight we have sex again in the night.

People may ask me why am I writing slow sexy songs. when you find a path you stick with it. if my heart is on being in a relationship with whoever she may be. I peep shit out just know you reap what you sow. this time I have for myself I’m learning how to be a better man to y’all. so when it’s our time to get in a relationship we have all parts covered. you know you’re doing the right thing. if y’all want me keep that cat close cause I’m a man on a mission to be great. I don’t know how long this is going to be but if we wait I promise we will have everything that we need in this world.

With so many problems in NYC yeah this is going to rattle a little bone I see y’all on a flight have fun. I can’t smoke cause my mind is bugging but I can get drunk fall back and get money. She said I can get high oh yeah you can get faded so I can throw that thang on her. I asked her do she swallowed she said yeah and then asked me do I ate I said eat food yeah she said no I mean cat. I said it has to be clean I can’t be putting my mouth where another man put his meat and nut it in you that’s just nasty Biggie Smalls said 16 check it, Aaliyah.

When I say I’m sorry for all that I put y’all through even the new females in my life. both mean the world to me I did y’all wrong but look out of 41 years I only had a sexual relationship 1 day in my entire life. you know I will make sure you have all of the accessories you need. I don’t want you to walk out of my life and I don’t want me to walk out of y’all life. just think about it I have written so much and not one bad thought in my writings. so there should lies trustworthy on my part what about y’all part I’m not counting y’all out yeah some left but they have to deal with the streets just say it they’re for the streets I need a home.

She’s taking pics in her night fit in all of that red looks great on you. cool-aid is my favorite color and I know that’s your favorite color. I’m trying to find out if you’re here for all eternity baby be mine. can’t you tell I’m trying my best to provide for us. I’m one man with a lot of ladies she let me lead not you following me but on the side of me. I’m your king so be my queen I just want to hold you in my arms right now. I can’t wait I’m just working so one day I can buy a $500 million house with like 1,000 rooms in it just imagine all y’all walking around in spandex shorts and a top like you had on this night on Damu.

What’s the plan that you made you have all of this time to plan for your future. I will put the money behind you so anything you dream about accomplishing you can go ahead and do it. this is the time we get us right what we eat doesn’t make anyone shit. so let’s understand that we are in this together you show your true feelings when you’re up and life has blessed you. I feel like you know what I want and I know what you want hold my hand and put your hand on my heart watch one another heartbeats.

Show out and make sure you show up when your game is tight. you have to look out for them hoes we don’t love them hoes. soon I will have one female get in my bed and let’s just say have fun with me. I can see it now skin to skin but look at this better yet read this in the winter I might have to tell someone to make me a suit because that’s when my skin catches hot spots. you know the easy access in the front what if the gun is cocked. how will she feel only in the summer we can do body-to-body naked right so read what I write and follow instructions.

How will a man be if she is playing a game? my focus is downtown tell me what about me and you getting down to business. yeah, I’m calling all of the females that one day I can see myself laying up with, or should I say laying down with. let’s say Oh Blank used to be the oh one that helped this shit. the move on is better to find out now that it was about paper you know the boy that cried wolf. tell Shorty that you hang with I’m down for whatever as long as they’re clean. I’m thinking about back shots damn then you suck these N.U .T. S.

First off I never asked anyone in my past that’s supposed to be there for me for nothing. shit y’all never gave me nothing, so how can y’all think this was for us or I think I’m all that because I’ve worked my ass off for my company. As far as my friends the only ones that gave me anything were Cutz and Link since I’ve been back in New York City. so I don’t have to do anything for people, you can’t possibly think I’m not the man that I used to be. you think I did this to stay the same and it’s usually the people that were in your life that changed because of your success.

Sincere I'm the one that wants all the smoke. I’m getting all this money and I’m tired of the bull shit I’m ready to slide upon a chick and get her number and do what man and woman do you got me. feel like going back to my player ways feel I stop thinking about her. tell Jay Z this company is a pain in the ass for real I’m getting tired of reading and writing these stories. I’m good but not that good I can get the money that my company has, this shit makes no sense I am the Red Cross.

Yeah, you forgot that I’m in here you talking all that bull shit you run behind one bitch out here and my daughter watching what you’re doing out here. you bet not take out her mouth you feel me. I’ll tear this shit down do not play with me. I came inside of you for building for us not some chick you in your feelings about what. who gives a fuck if they fuck whoever whichever chick. what they don’t make me shit you better respect me you no my name is Aaliyah don’t get it fucked up.

Look inside my soul she holds all the weight for real. that is what I have been telling you don’t worry about no females. I’m not tired of playing you no stroking as you said. I walk with you and you walk with me. I don’t want one of these females to have a baby by you and then want child support or have sex then leave you and that means you hurt me. I’m sorry for saying what I was saying you know I’m never leaving and I will continue to watch over Layla, okay no problem baby keep your head in this book.

I’m trying to let you know how much I love you, you are my lady I’m head over heels for you. I don’t want to cheat on you because if we grow together we will have the world at the palms of our hands. please tell me that this is something you want. the Red Robin Hood you make me look at life differently because yes I want a family by you. you say you want a family that’s black love we’ll give you a chance. I will show you how much I care for you. just think about what we can do in this lifetime. I never did anything for you to put me in that box and if you see past beyond life baby be mine.

Sister my twin Beyoncé it’s like I’m ready to start a family soon how will you and Jay like to be an auntie and uncle because y’all made me an uncle? in the movie you made for Lion King, you had a dot spot flying from heaven going down to earth.  if you remember when we were coming to earth together and said let me guide this dot to the right woman and that woman was Aaliyah. this is why we have one another and Mother is looking down on us for real. the plan I know we have to continue it but damn I need to find a wife not need but would like one to take care of me and bear my children.

You hear me now I had many pieces on the chessboard In Birmingham feel me. all of them are standing still this one, my cousin came to my house and I needed her to drive me across town with this gun on me. so I could get rid of it and she did driving the right way, when I got out of the car touched down walked to my cousin's house saw my friends and little cousin, and had the burner on me. he was jumping up on me and I was like chill then I walked to this yard and laid the gun in it. This is great cause after that 12 came to my house I was locked up. my mother had to move without the burner in the house.

Yo, let's just call it what it is. yall had since I was 12 until 24 to get y'all shit together I had nothing. moving you know what bringing a lot of money in. They thought I ran come on with my ninjas from the hill looking at me like let's get this money. just letting y'all no I got this dot on my hand you think the rain that came down was bad if God grants me eternal life the rain might fall and never stop. My slash goes down the person's temple whoever takes me out of the game. so shorties listen it's either I'm going to sleep with someone or the dog is barking and trust me you don't want that because the world might end.

Yo, my number in my contacts if you were for real, I want to get you, wet baby. you know I will just be playing with you. I'm not giving up on our love you talking all that when I throw it on you. you going to be climbing wall to wall yelling sporty stop hitting me like that while we sweat. you say you need to keep your hair tight don't start me you know I'm that ninja my third leg at the bottom of your clitoris. you know me rubbing that G Spot you play your cards right I might go downtown on you make sure you cum clean so my mouth is in a good condition feel me you nuttin in my mouth baby I'm nasty and crazy about you. you wanna know something back shots?

One thing is the birds chirping looking at me like I'm supposed to do everything for y'all. I told you once before you were about to be out of a good guy. The lady with all that fake hair and fake ass let's see how long it takes this female to get it. I wouldn't have sex with a Johnson that's the nastiest person in the world. talking about having a baby hitch go find a man who's willing to trick 'cause I had it up to here with this shit. One thing about me if y'all ain't clean and I mean never had anybody, Johnson. this hitch wants money cars clothes and houses this shit has taken a toll on me. this is the last time I'm going to tell y'all to suck and swallow.

I can’t wait for you to touch me and hold my body to body with you. you haven’t touched me in over 30 years come on this is what we are doing yes I get it trust. I had to build up the trust so that way I could have all of y’all without y’all thinking I’m not a right baby but why does it feel so good? I’m just thinking about when I get their home yes children. yes, and especially the mothers of my children I love y’all. you put up this wall and I understand where it came from I told y’all that my children will take over this company one day what I am doing to build it up so that way my children just have to close deals.

So one night I and friends down south wanted to go joyriding. so we blank this car and we were riding around and the car started smoking we couldn’t get out of the car because of the smoke then we found a way to unlock the door thank God cause we could’ve died. then this kid we knew said we need some oil and we started driving to the gas station and got some oil and went riding to Blank and then the cops came flying behind us and the person that was driving made them chase us. So my friend hanging out of the roof I had the ox in my mouth I spit it out and jumped out of the car and was trying to find my way home pulled up to this store this man saw me I told him my cousin's name he gave me change I called Shante and she came and got me.

Yo, so I'm with my friends we are on our way to this school could have been John Jay. I had a water gun and saw this girl and she was with her friends. I pulled it out and she said don't wet me. so I continued to walk down the block another group of girls passed I wet this one then we talked and she gave me her number and said you just passed my sister, later on, this day I went home and had the number in my pocket. Aaliyah and Scruff were home Aaliyah checked my pocket and found the number and then called the girl and told her she was my daughter and told her to come up to my house when she and Scruff came back in the house scruff poured cold water on me sex my man.

Loyalty starts with a man and woman trusting one another, nowadays females will use a man for money and a man will use a woman for sex right okay. why do I have to pay child support if our relationship doesn’t work? I think when the child is with me I should be responsible for her or him when they’re with me. shorty wants money because she gave me sex not love because if it was love she wouldn’t use me for money shorty you wait and see. the game is fucked up this is why I need that test to make sure you’ve been faithful to me or else your ass is gone.

Sporty line 1 when my uncle told me to let’s go out of town and handle business out there so I said yes. you heard what Jay said red or blue of course I was wearing that red. I was the seed that planted the whole I95 🩸 until they connected to me in Bama what do you know about carrying that burner on me? remember when Jay shot his brother look I can relate because I had a baby 25 one that you can fit in your shoe playing Russia roulette aimed at my cousin pulled the trigger it didn’t go off FYI point it in the other direction and pulled the trigger it went off. he stuck by my side through every night walking home with him letting him carry the snub nose 25 gangsters Brooklyn is where he from.

Let’s take it back to Skate Key that night when Kiss said to replay it. we went in and ninjas crowded around me so my man and I were holding it down remember when you tried to tell someone from 33 33 on me and he said who's L’s not him. yeah, my reach was long. The night of the shooting my friends and I were walking I remember we had the burner in a crack in the wall. so I went and got it shots rang off and I was about to run but I had a clear shot soon as I reached for the burner 12 sirens in a cop car were going off they were driving by. so I couldn’t pull out we ran up the block when we got up the block I let one go off in the air.

I remember going to Rucker Park and Mase was there this time the Lox and he started rapping that shit was hot and had ninjas tight in the crowd. I remember coming up top from down bottom mean down south he was on the court at Rucker Park playing with this basketball I stood up looked at him dead in his eyes and was like mind to mind come down south cause it’s about to get messy phone time. this time I came back home had the ox in the mouth walked threw Sólo grounds spit the ox out caught it in my hand and put it in the garbage then walked to Rucker this game was going on I sat down to watch this kid came up to me and threw up 🩸.

Look at this since I have the dot on my left hand.  if I had grabbed the gun with the left hand it would’ve spit meaning bust off and I could’ve died but since I grabbed it with the right hand it gripped the gun left hand spit right hand gripped. this is the shit that I was on but I know Playa everyone up top thought they ran me out of town fam sex money murder never ran and never will this 🩸 shit is gold-coded like da Vinci code or the book of Eli I can’t shake this shit. while you were watching Chucky I was living that life so for all of y’all who fell back because I was sick the last Chucky where was he at thanks but no thanks.

Oh yeah, mainly all of those so-called friends that were fucking with me back then are friends with those that didn't like me. my guess is those Ninjas to I’m just calling it as it is. I guess I was the one that was in the wrong, what do you know about having a whole Harlem not liking me? I still deal with this shit why because I’m not out here sexing these hoes or smoking and drinking. my skin is thick whoever doesn’t like it just be a man about y’all ninjas talking like y’all got Harlem y’all see where Harlem at. y’all ninjas talk too much or try to impress these females. my 🩸 drop needed me her mother Aaliyah came inside of me to take my pain away I miss you she said no more.

Be and not Beyoncé how are you doing I hope everything’s ok with you. I’m not leaving so I hope you are staying with me, decisions we have to make on marriage I know y’all want that ring on y’all finger and I’m willing to do it. listen please it has to be trusted for right now let’s work hard on this company that we own. yes, I speak French olie this is the shit 🩸s go through. I’m trying not to be MR Freeze if you don’t know what that means it means in love this is why I need a 101 status no I can’t deny a 🩸 female if you’re thinking about trying to give me a son Be I’m all for it until the end of time trust.

If I tell you I want to hold you tonight wrap my arms around your ass and kiss your lips baby damn I can’t wait. I see you I hope you see me. the great part is when that day comes we will be pure together. so when I go inside of you I don’t have to worry about no STD baby that’s what I’m talking about if you want me to go downtown on you it has to be pure because that’s where another man put his meat and he could’ve back door you and put it where I have to kiss your lips and if I eat come on that’s nasty to me baby. so please stay clean so I can explore your body if it’s mine keep it tight for me cause I’m keeping mine clean for you and you will have all of me tested.

This is to my children I want to guide y’all right don’t think because hitches play the club that y’all should do the same thing. if you want a man that will respect you get you a man with a business and work hard. Don’t let a ninja trick you. trust me my children don’t need any man for anything because their father made sure while I’m here money is not a problem and when I leave this earth there will be over $500 trillion in the bank account for them. please don’t let a ninja hit you until he deserves it. you think life is just as well as you giving up your goods. watch and learn how I treat y’all, mothers, that’s what you should be looking for.

Shit the things we talked about the last time we saw one another I know what you meant when you said no one else talks your shit shorty the price just went up on being faithful to you. trust me I don’t want to leave here. just the thought of going to heaven and you pulling out of my skin and standing side by side with me as we walk in the love I have for you can’t be replaced trust me, love, holding you tight and I’m never letting you go anywhere. the bond that we have built over 20 years. I know you had your heart set on this goal who am I to take it from you?

I see you were able to control me and I know it took hard work because I was not a player you already knew that right? thank you for spending your life with me baby I appreciate that for real. you came inside of me when I was down and outright to pick me back up. I can’t say thank you enough. the growth that we have let know man or woman take that from us. all this talk about what she did she did nothing if she did this dot wouldn’t be rotating around my body and slashing my family trusts me. stand strong baby like you always have and never let me down when you say go home and go home it is.

So this girl came from Queens NYC the first time I had her in sexual contact. I hit her with the Tommy and Keisha when he had her on the bed right. we had a couple in counters after that one was at my cousin's house I did my thing that day but the day she spent the night at my house she came in the house and I was there and we smoked a couple of blunts. went inside my room I knew I had to put it on her for sure it was an all-night thing I was straight going to work on her after it was over she ran out of the room and went into the living room and dropped to the floor then I came out the room and laid down putting my hands in my shorts so she wouldn’t try to go downtown.

Being that I cleanse myself in the Red Sea lady don’t get mad and I’m talking to all three of y’all. better respect my name cause it holds weight feel me. you wanna know why I’m mad I’m working and playtime stopped going on 25 years ago. I’m not mad just getting money right now like more said the white one at Skate Key why was Cameron telling Mase to tell on who felt me? if it’s war then it’s war and for all of the people on the other side fuck them. loyalty is hard to come by you know but I have been loyal to ninjas and if they say that's why I left you saw the 30 dirty right you know me but don’t know me.

So wake and miss stick you know when we went out of state to get rid of that weight. when we got back I had to bag up 2,000 bottles you know I did that. Altogether I made $75,000 I know y’all was on some bull shit when I left the money at y’all house and I was calling both of y’all phones and I got no answer for real. y’all left and brought a house and use the money to furnish y’all house and on top of that y’all came to the block after that and pulled up and I got in the car y’all brought both of my daughters to see me and then asked me did I have money I pulled out $3,000 y’all said to give it up the rest of the work I had on me I toss it then became broke.

Jay Z & Beyoncé made it look like her sister was mad for whatever reason then came out with on the run. you get it the plan was okay and I know how y’all put that together and made millions from it. just my thoughts if it ain’t right so be it. I know Jay Z would’ve compromised our company and the company is ESCE E stands for Ellison S stands for Shawn and c stands for Carter and E stands for Elijah, Beyoncé would’ve owned it all. so keep thinking about what y’all want to be see since staying here my thoughts that’s how Aaliyah connects to all four of us feel me.

This Mr freeze shit means I’m in love only with Aaliyah how come every time it’s your birthday you know who says something new or when it’s your pass over he got something to say whoever fuck with them fuck them. look stay off 801 mean stress and make sure you 212 with me whenever you want to talk to a female because Layla is here and if you start to rotate that dot that’s inside of you she will no right and I will be turning in my grave. so make sure when you lay down make sure it’s worth it. nowadays these hitches have hiding agenda they might want money get off that move on and get a money car park.

Seeing tears coming down my baby's eyes hurts me. this is why if it happens to make me feel a type of way. you know how much I love you because you have my heart, soul, brain, and flesh. After all, you came from me and your mother. I will never hurt you baby trust me. the pain I saw in your eyes. I’m just picturing the scene around you now this was a long-time thing and I’m here for you. I wish I could’ve washed away your tears. my baby I know you are grown now holding you tight in my heart.

So that locked down in Alabama went to this grocery store to get some wild Irish rose to steal but my friend opened a box of condoms and I took some of them I had my red flag on my pants so I was a target and had the ox in my mouth. undercover cops came after us when we left the store they grabbed me I spit the ox out my mouth and they cuffed me and picked up the ox. when they questioned me they said who opened the box and I said me feel me. had to go to jail and spent two weeks their sometimes when passed October 31  2,000🩸 was in me when I got out no more sex.

These bird brains ass hitches don’t want to give that cat up feel me listen I’m tired of tricking. this shit is about to stop I rather trick at the strip club throwing single-on dancers at least they’re half-naked. this chicken head doesn’t show any body parts. this shit is getting me upset to my children to listen y’all mother playing with the things that got y’all asses here oh my bad some of y’all hospital babies. so what that means, is if I leave I’m not responsible for y’all cause I didn’t co-sign y’all being here. all of that family support will stop and if I had y’all the other way y’all asses be grown so there are no more children support feel me plus when that stimulus hit they said if you owe back support you can’t get it and I got mine so what that mean more then likely you know what that means.

Don't quote me 'cause I ain't say shit. fuck it I mine as well get rid of all these pucka ducks for real. these roosters don't want any good guy they love bad guys. I should start thinking with my Johnson and not give two shit about how a lady takes it or should I say, ladies, children I know y’all saying father mean but if y'all moms give a blank how I feel they would handle sexual contact with me. but no they want things their way I got a trick for y'all when the money goes will the honey stay shit that's up in the air yeah breathe hitch. I'm tired of being Mr Nice Guy do you remember the good guy I'm your friend to the end right I'm about to get back on that shit.

When you put this lady in a good space she will treat you like a king make sure you treat her like a queen. hold her hands when you walk with her. open the doors for her pull out the chair when you go out to eat and let her sit down and push it in when she sits in it. tell her you love her a lot so she can feel love. when she’s cold-warm her up with your body lay in the bed at night with her and talk about business plans that you and she may have that is what you call brainstorming. when she cooks you do the dishes and take out the garbage. you cut the grass while she makes a beautiful yard with flowers and be faithful to y’all trust me.

Shorty said she wanted me to pick her up some of the girl-girl things. you shorty you know I control that because when I went to heaven and hell I laid this dot on my hand the place that cleans your body. you know I’m not giving up on you so let’s play the game the right way. how about me undressing you lady which one I’m talking to both of them. whoever I sleep with and have a baby by resurrecting the God with birth. you think about me while I think about you, please don’t be stingy with the pussy you know I’m a dog and I can’t deny 🩸 so I’m yelling Damu where do we start and where is this going to end let me know now.