BOOK 3

                                                CHAPTER 37 > MUSIC 1

    The drug game is not always the same. Many people are telling the 12 on them to get involved. I am trying to turn my business into a corporation. That is how I am washing my money who worked for ten years as a doctor. That is where the money was coming from. I look forward to the dog coming out of the cage. I have worked for my people. I know from where they came. I would not say that until they prevent the money from coming in. This is the shit that's down there. Fighting for the bigger picture, I always said that.

    It would be best if you were on your best behavior. You do all of the things that get me hot. I cannot help but get myself undressed. Will you take off your clothes, both of us without clothes on. The paint on our bodies takes all these pictures for us to remember this time. This makes sense, but I am willing to do this for you. How many colors do you love or fall in love with? My favorite colors will always be red or green. Colors are seen as full of grace; the only way is for the sake of money. Kings are willing to do everything for you. You have to let it come to you.

    I want to climb on top of you. It is because of how your body moves whenever you see me. I hope that I have responded to all your thoughts. As you can see, there is nothing I have ever kept hidden from you. You are my queen. So act like it. You make me feel like you are what I need. Everything we have been through with this young man is loyal. Why are things so hard for us to get back together? I will contact you for something to watch. You wiggle your ass and move from side to side. Because of how you move, we could have kids. The only way to do that is to love me.

    When you were out of town trying to handle business, this girl from gangster paradise came down south. She knew what she was doing. She was trying to get a young ninja out of his game. As if sex would keep me from looking after my family. I knew the game and knew it well. It was seven or nothing in a 45-minute run. Getting caught up in that did not mean anything to me. Once you had found your girl, you would do whatever you could for her. Coming back was a must because you wanted to show that you were here for her. I was not confused about this shit. The game was still highly doubtful. If she was 100 percent, she would be good to me.

    I was traveling in and out of the states. I made it hard. Nevertheless, I was handling my business out there to get this shit right. When you would be deep in these streets, you might ask how much coke a young ninja needs. It was all that I could get from the connection. I was handling business for so long. The connection told me that I had not needed to send money. Now, what you know about getting bricks on the muscle causes. You had been a real ninja all of your life and fucking with damu’s. It would not fail because I got to hold it down for my beloved when I was in these streets. The feds wanted the kid.

    I hope these hitches have their money. It is because I am not coming out until I need to. I do not give a fuck. Sitting here, I look at everything that goes on. However, I am not ready to start this business. Maybe I will wait until I am ready. Have I said 2028, which means I am going to be 46? This game cannot respect a ninja until you find one that does not want a party. Other races of women are working females who are at home with their kids. Please do not say it is me because all they want to do is hang out one day with one child. That is a lie and never forget it. These girls are having sex with everybody. I can not imagine that I am running after another man. Nevertheless, these hitches are constantly popping their sex.

    There is no way a young man can win when there are many differences between men and women. You can hope for the best but is that something you want. The changes I need to make in my life can be so hard. Nevertheless, I am willing to do it very soon. You know that I take care of everyone. At least, I try my best. A female is going to do what a female wants to do. You cannot stop that. Money is always fair. Perhaps I can speak against it. I grind and hustle for everything I own. It is because I will be damn if I let anyone take that from me. It is already complicated as it is. There is no need to make it harder.

    You always want to live your life in the right way. You can direct a person to where you want them to be. Nevertheless, that is not always what a person wants. Many things have to change. One of them is whomever I am involved with. These days, women use men for what they can do with them. Taking care of a woman is something I am willing to do. Even so, not the one who wants everything and gives nothing. This has to be a 50/50 relationship if this relationship is going to work. This will probably be the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. However, I cannot walk out as long as my daughter has everything she likes. She will get it.

    When you select a few, many will follow. If you are a good leader, your soldier cannot be fucked with. Everything you learn is for a reason. Try to remain focused through all of the bullshit. Keep holding on. Take one day at a time. You have to know how to balance yourself, which means work time, playtime, and business time. Nobody and I mean nobody, will take care of your business as you do. Would you like your business to do the best it can? So stay on your grind. Many things will happen to you in the future.

    When you learn a lesson, you should carry that lesson with you for the rest of your life. Being in the streets always has its pros and cons. Trying to stay basic can be complicated. Nevertheless, there is much on the line. People take others for granted all the time. Trying to live someone else's life is not correct. Trying to keep this company above water can be so hard. The best thing for me to do is block out all of the negative thinking. I bet others are not, but what is wrong with us. Nobody knows how to strengthen themselves.

    That is how you like to be next to one another. It is hard to be without you. How can we meet again, holding your hands at night during the discussion? The game does not change. It already has so many changes that we have to go through. Only if one knew how she feels, the thought of changing up makes me feel so wonderful. The last time we talked, about how our love can be much more. When you get to know somebody, you keep them around you. The game has changed. Women are the ones with the most oversized pockets. Who knows if I do or not.

    When do you ask yourself what your female always does? Maybe it is time for you to move on if she is partying with other men. Hanging out all night in clubs, or is she that woman who respects herself. It all depends on what kind of life she wants. I cannot allow women to do whatever they want. Nevertheless, I prefer them to respect one another. That is the kind of woman I am looking for. I know that motherhood is a difficult job. Moreover, they also look after our beautiful children. Sons mean everything to me. Keep up the good work, ladies. Good men always appreciate it.

    Let me stop playing. You know that you mean everything to me. I do not know whether I should start clubbing or partying, or hanging out with my friends. What I would like to do is to keep working. Make that business the best it can be. I do my best to avoid worrying about what a woman does. I know you do not waste your time. I want to make sure that we both want that. If you want anything else, you can always get out of here. I am not saying this to make you angry. I am trying to figure out where our relationship is right now.

    How can I make sure both of us have the best life we always wanted? You can take your time. It would be best if you tried to handle the business at hand. You strive for what you believe in. You do not let someone force you to do something that you do not want to do. You should always keep your head up. There are other ways you and your family can take care of yourself. Make sure you take your time, do not rush, and pace yourself. Eventually, things are going to happen. Stay true to your family. Please be sure to think about your family before you do something terrible because it will hurt your family.

    When you have a woman in mind, life may still go to the left. It's up to you whether you want to make it right with her. You buy flowers, cards, candy, clothes, diamonds, and houses. If you are not faithful, those do not mean anything. A woman wants a man who can be passionate. The one who takes her to lunch or a movie. Everything above means everything because it is the thought that counts as love. You have something special with your wife, and do not ever take it for granted.

    Sweetheart, the moment of my life was when I was with you, the thought of giving upon us. I cannot get it off my mind. How would I make you stay in my life? We need one another. I cannot go on without you in my life. Everyone says that she cheats. Whom am I supposed to believe? You make me so sick and happy at the same time. Call me if you need anything. I will be there for the long run. Trust me to hold back for the future of your life. We protect ourselves. I have to ask if you want to walk out.

    Once you left, you broke my heart. You took the kids, and the kids are my world. What do I have to do to be part of your life? I miss you so much, baby. Do you mind if we talk? She said, not at the moment. What did I get myself into now? I know it will be hard to be forgiven. I know the kids are missing me, too. How does life go on without you by my side? I got nothing but memories of crying at night. It hurt me so much. Nevertheless, I know I need to get up and become the man that you loved.

    Come back to my life. Yes, I want to make it happen. How are you doing in your relationship? I guess she had it up to here with me cheating. No one knows about my cheating. I am still trying to be a better man for you. Yes, I made that bed, and I am going to bed there without you. I am supposed to be with you right now. I am afraid this is unfair. My body feels different because of trust going inside of someone else. My dots are connected to you after giving you eternal life. I do not want to hurt another person because you make me feel special. I cannot deny that.

    Females are doing their thing. I wish you would never let me down. I hold you so high above the ground. This is why I choose you to be with me. Every call I receive from you, I know what you will say before you say it. All you need to do is call me, and I will be here. Again, we can start being a family. Nobody makes me feel that way except you. You are the center of my attention. When I walk, you walk. When I speak, you speak too. That is the type of girl I need in my life. The only life I have left to live. I also have eternal life. Then yes, I shall be back on earth. In 3,017, with my head held high. Then I have to find some other girl.

    It all depends on you whether a woman can destroy you or not. Let her do it, or let her be loyal to you. It is the shit that I hate. My grandmother said never to use this word. I am miserable without you in all my life. I want to know if it puts an end to our relationship. I cannot keep this up. I want to know if you will take me back. We have been through ups and downs. It is hard and painful and feels like death. Yes, I am here to hear from you. Let us talk about that and try one more time.

                                                        CHAPTER 38

    The idea of settling in can be tricky for someone who has never had an affair with a girl. I let her know that I am not ready. She replies to me about what I am waiting for. I say that we have a lifetime to live together. Why do we need to be so rushed? She says that we are not getting any younger. As time passes, we are only getting older. So why can't we settle down now? The thought of being tied down to one woman can be so hard. I do not want you to go through every cheating that a man can do to a woman if she is not ready to settle down.

    I am trying to put the words together to explain my thought to understand your necessity in my life. I am trying to balance the time so that we may spend it together. This effort ensures that we are both connected in all sorts of ways. We are helping each other to stay on the same path. We also try always to be mindful of what is essential in life. Such as sharing, complementarity, and mutual support for our partner's needs. I am taking time out to talk things through. Be attentive to everything that happens in our life. These little things contribute so much more to a relationship.

    How can anyone be strong in everything that happens in my life? You have to be strong if you want your life to continue on the right track. You do not always find someone you care about. So it would help if you took your time with the proper relationship that you have with that person. If she means everything to you, let her know that. Doing things that she has never done to herself in a strong relationship means trusting your life between you and her. Try to remain focused on trust. Everything else will fall into place.

    It has been so long since we talked. I miss every word that you use to tell me. You handled many things for me. I know your soul is still here on this earth. We both care about our little girl, Layla. I hope you hear what I have to say. I love you so much. I cannot wait until I see you again. I am looking for another mother for you. It was tough, but for the sake of watching this girl. Maybe she wants that responsibility. It takes a lot to raise a child. I wonder if she is up for the challenge-15 years since it was rocking the boat. Tomorrow will be15 years, and I will be 15 years old. On the days of the season, we worked so hard to make things right that it means 45. What do these hitches want?

    Gershom was the first child of Moses. Eliezer was the second son. Could he possibly have two male souls within him? Yes, he did. The diamond on his hand depicts the world for him, the love of his life. Am I the divine body? What kind of power do I have? I can remember playing in your soul for three and a half years. Let me rid myself of that. The vibrations we had, I wish I could pick them up. I know the slashes are still going on. On the seventeenth slash, the cross goes on your back and tells me why I cannot feel it. Maybe because I do not have the right temple and sex, my soul slashes it.

    My mind is made up. I want to go to heaven faithful unless there is a girl that can change my mind. I know Layla needs me. She and I want to see you. The wait is real without you. I need you by my side. I want to hear you say that you love me. I never touched anyone since you have gone above. It feels like the 13 ghosts how you used to talk to me back in the days. I miss that. I hope you understand what I am going through. I am trying to continue life without you. If no one believes me, how are these words coming together then?

    You need to know that times have changed in our lives. It has changed for the better. Why does it take so long for us to understand that we need to be together? It will take us a long time to accomplish all that we wish to accomplish. It should not take so much time to conquer the world. I need the right woman with me by taking our time to get to know us better. I know how to protect my partner at all times. I need everything to remain faithful. It is something I would love to do to show you that I care about you.

    When it is all or nothing, you do the first thing that comes to your mind. Many people expect you to do the best you can. People want to see that you are doing better than in the past. People do not always want the wrong elements of a person to show up. You can do well in an awkward situation. It depends on how you handle it when you have it. Lots of people take the bad one with the good one. That is good, but what if there is nothing terrible in the situation? Everything can’t be good all of the time. That is what life is all about.

    When you want somebody, what do you do if they go on to something else? You find a way to get up and go on without her. The good thing about knowing other women is that you have the advantage over everything you experience. You wonder if I find the girl I love or do her thing with other men. Am I left in the dark? The way people play it is hard to figure it out. It is hard for you to fall out of love when you want something to work. Just stand there and take whatever you need.

    What else can I tell you that time without you is the hardest part of our relationship? I want to dig deeper when you speak of me. Have you said to your friends that you want me? Can we dance all night? I would never let you leave without telling you that I love you. I want to get in my groove, seeing you. You know what I feel like doing to you, babe. Please do not go anywhere. I cling to what is mine, kissing and loving your body, separating me from having said that. My heart knows how I feel when I stand beside you.

    The pages I take from the book of God, or should I say the Bible, are many that you need to make. When you are under God’s watch, you cannot let him down. You have to live by His rules. It is easy to do when you want to live a healthy life. Every day matters when one is older. You learn so much when you are honest. The truth is the best way to live daily life. This will help you navigate this difficult period. Never let anybody take your joy from you. Please stand up and face whatever it is you did.

    Well, where do we start? I will let you know when one of us slept with anyone else. Noah passed away with six friends. The seventh came from her. Let me break this down. This means that it is open for seven more to come within me. I know you got a baby, wondering who the father of your baby is. I am not saying this to upset anybody. It is the way the story goes. You and your sisters know how you feel about things. Yes, I love you. Thanks for having another child that I can call mine.

    Jadakiss gave up that joint after he got all that money. How many keys are arriving in the US? I do not give a fuck what ninjas think. It would be best if you fell back. That is what you are talking about. Nevertheless, you say this to me for what. I would continue to get that money if you were not aware that this is the best way to connect with people. I am running this business. He is telling me to stay on my job and to stay focused. When you get the connection cocaine, pay them what they requested. Never leave the connection hanging. I never robbed the connection. That is why I have what I want from these people. Please do not go out of your way. Nevertheless, you get your money, take it.

    She says it is either better or worse. Why do I believe anything that she tells me? The only way to ensure this happens is to do the right thing all the time, but not sometimes. You have to believe in what you do to make that work. Doing the best you can consistently demonstrate the good in what you do. Take things step by step, day by day, and hour by hour. Then everything will get better. All right, I promise it. There is no need to explain what is understood.

    Even when you think things will go wrong, you stay on the right path no matter what happens. You have to learn from your mistakes. You do so by making many mistakes. That is a part of life. It is one thing to be afraid and the other to be courageous. It is up to you to choose the person you want to be. Jesus, get me away from this pain if you do not give me the strength to move on. I miss all of you who are not with us anymore. The way she does things makes me want to do it. You seem to be my only hope that this has been going on forever. What do I have to do to make it up to you?

    Women cheat most of the time. Those who think differently are crazies. That is why I never give my heart to anybody. She never gave me that look. I will tell the one that betrayed me. This day will come when I stop working for you. If that is not one thing, that is something else. There are a lot of cute girls on the web. The only thing is how do I talk to all of them. When you think about me, do you think about dating? Babe, I am here thinking of changing the entire seven.

    The way you make me feel is more of a feeling. I do not ever want to leave this place. What part of the game goes everything because I own the address at hand. Whoever is with me, I will have everything when the time comes. When this shit goes down, the ladies in my life will take care of it. Hi, center the seven is my daughter because if you can have the key to my life. Being Hebrew means that the point of Moses is open due to what my soul partner has done for me.

    The way life is designed, people need each other more to support each other. Self-assertion is a daily reality. You have to want the best out there. I have to focus on my family, the ones that are here for me. When you help others, blessings will always come your way. That is why I make it suitable. People say karma goes around and comes back around. I do my best not to hurt others to keep karma coming back to me. I want to live my life the best way possible. It means taking care of other people.

    It is only one way to live, and that is the right way. Getting whatever I want is an understatement. Accomplishing everything I want now is something I have to work hard on. Nobody is going to give me anything. If I want something, I have to fight for it. It is all about patience. You have to work on it every day of your life to achieve your goals. Yes, you have to put money and hard work into it. That is the only way you are going to succeed here. You have to get a strong team behind you and go straight to work.

    The person inside of you means everything to me. Baby, how can we both help each other more? That had been the moment in my life. However, there is only one me and many of you. I always speak from my heart. Please do not lose everything you have achieved over some bullshit. You decide how you will respond. I expect you to respond in the best possible manner. All happened for a reason. God brings the right people into your life when you will need them most. All this time, you must wait to find one of the many ladies to enter your life and be loyal to you.

                                                           CHAPTER 39

    How can someone you love be the same who hurts you, ladies? There are many girls out there. I see them all the time, but no one compares them to you. I need somebody to be the owner of that business with me. He who knows how to handle business. A person who fights for what she believes in. Are you that person? I have no idea. You must show me that you are the one who is meant for me. Then you will be my girlfriend, the best friend of a man. I am going to be held back when times get better and times get tough. Working with the same person you love might be a hell of a break.

    Do not allow time to pass. At the same time, I am doing great. I know you are doing great for yourself. When we are close to one another, my heart stands still with our love.  An increasing fear is on my plate. This man stood up and became all that you could want. You cannot avoid each other all your life. If you want something that bad, maybe it is not there for you. Since you are here for her, you may ask me what is happening in my mind. Baby, it is about you and me getting back together.

    It would be helpful for you to be prepared for all that life has in store for you. Nevertheless, you were not. So you have to live life out until it changes and gets better. That is a lot to learn from the game when you miss somebody—knowing that she lives through you. How can you make your life easier? She will tell me at the appropriate time. How long will you have to wait? It is becoming out of control. I am grateful to God for blessing me with this point on my hand. My family asked me if I could get through the rain or not. Maybe it’s all up to Jesus.                                                                         

    The more I think of you, the more I become upset. It is because you walked out of my life. That is all I am talking about. I never thought about that when I hurt you. I am nothing without your love. You are the love of my life. I am trying to keep it together for the sake of our kids. I want you back in my life. Trust me. It is not easy living this life as you did for me. It is exciting to go to bed alone. I look forward to having you back in my life. My mind is fucked up. So I get confused over everything in the world.

    If I had one wish, what would it be? I want to bring back someone in particular who was in my life. Without her, none of this matters to me. Never seeing her again can be challenging. Knowing that someone can take her place helps to alleviate pain. In other words, it makes me feel better to continue with what we call life. Just looking at this, it looks like our family has got a bright future. I should not have to take from you to give to another person. That is not the way I get down. When you work hard, accomplishments come with it.

    Baby, I am here with you forever in the world of life itself. I need you to cover me and hold me tight. You shine as the stars, moonlight at night. Our relationship must be sound for better or for worse. I am thinking of you at the moment. Still, now, I cannot picture my life without you by my side. I am fighting all those temptations that life has within it. I feel like I am lying next to you talking about our lives. I miss you so much. Our child understands how important you are to me. Hopefully, this young lady wants to step up and take over being your mother. Let us agree.

    I want to give you everything about myself. Do you want me to give it all to you? In the bed, I want to rock the bed from front to back and side to side. All this love goes to you. This is how it started. I met her at the strip club, throwing all of my money at her. The lap dance was unique. Yes, I rocked the rock. Did you feel it in my pant? You kissed me on the neck. Now, after going back to bed, my hands were over your body, holding your thick thighs. Your ass was phat. However, you stay on my mind 24/7. I dream about it the whole night.

    The thought of moving forward with her helps to strengthen a person. A woman makes a man strong. He can deal with whatever life throws at him. You cannot change the world. Nonetheless, if you change yourself, you have done your work. Being able to engage in whatever you want to do and do it powerfully. It takes a lot out of a man. A female will guide you in the right direction. She can help you be that strong, like a powerful black man you need to be out here.

    The best part of life is waking up to you. We barely get upset with one another. We barely fight with each other anymore. I do not know why that happened. Let me guess that I have stopped cheating. I stopped hanging out all night. I am more into this relationship than I am in the streets nowadays. It is more painful seeing you go through what I put you through. It is not as crazy as you think. I take care of everything I should have done long ago. I do not want to see you cry anymore.

    My world is turning upside down. You are supposed to protect me, as I protect you. I promise to get myself right. I have to do the right thing on the right path. Honey, trust me when I tell you that I love you. I have a human heart. I feel good about being in your life. Let us start over. A new beginning might be the best way to continue this relationship. The reason I let out all my feelings is that I care about you. It is impressive. Yes, I enjoy long walks in the park. Coming home to a home-cooked meal makes a man feel special.

    I am back to this gangster shit. Falling in love with anything makes you look foolish. If you do not want those guns to go off, relax. I am writing this to tell the young men. It is not the right path. You do not want to spend the rest of your life in black justice. However, speedy Cash is not always good. A ninja-like me likes to have slower money. You will get the bailout money. Waiting for a good time to tell the streets is no longer what they used to be. The ninjas are going to be locked up fast. How is that, unless you are a teller. The ninjas have been asking me since the beginning. Why am I not out here on these streets with them? I need to say more.

    As soon as you realize you need some time alone. I mean, your trust in someone goes away. The idea is to keep someone who does not want to be in a relationship with your wounds. You have to stay positive through all the shit. It is always good to accomplish your goals with someone, not knowing where things would end. It is the same as knowing hope. Times can get hard trying to figure out what you want out of life. As long as you stay strong enough to follow your heart, it should all work out.

    Stand right there, that's where the light hits your body. When you called it off. The light got darker. My ups turned into downs, baby is there a little hope for us. When you see me do you see the man that's in your life for eternity. Yes, baby let's make this last forever. I will get up no matter what time it is, gets up to come to your rescue, that's what a man does for his lady, no matter what she's going through. The only way I'm not coming to your site is if you are cheating on me, falling out of love may be hard but if this relationship isn't meant to work so be it.

    The life we live brings me to this question, how many girls I got to go through before I find the right one. That I can give my all too, growing up with a lot on my plate. Showing that I can be a man, whether we get married or just a couple it doesn't matter to me. When my heart beats hopefully it's connected to your heartbeat. Elijah the best is yet to come trust me, in my own way I would like to say I'm sorry for all that was done to you, as I sit here listening to music while playing with my life. Please God keep me in your prayers.

    When your heart is in a bad situation, how can you get the heart out of that? I remember being with girls back in the days, it was too many trying to keep all of them safe. I'm talking about when I live on 151. Please I don't get it, coming out to play because of what happened to you, going from house to house to be with all of y’all, hanging out oh God I miss that. Being a teenager and everything stopped, I'm trying to keep sane for the sake of this relationship, holding my head high up in the sky. Looking inside the clouds.

    The best days are yet to come. Being patient means the world in a relationship. When you try so hard to make it work. The two people that are in this relationship fight for it to work, all day every day but it's falling apart. How can you and her keep it on the right track? You never know what to expect from the women that you hold tight, thinking about all of the shit. I went through to be in your life, the number one rule is trust. If you have that everything else falls into place. When you are having a bad day you never take it out on the person that's in this relationship with you.

    The belly of the beast. When you make the type of moves that this young man makes, you can call yourself a murderer, S.M.M. Until the day this man rests up. Have you ever wondered why blood wants to lay five feet underground? This dot on my hand is five popping, making moves like never before. When you have a lot of connections you get what you want from the connection. Please don't ask me why I'm still in these streets, yeah I'm trying to get out but it takes time. I'm willing to wait for that day to come, but for now, catch me handling business never forget that.

    When you put your all into something. It may not go the way you want it, but sometimes it crosses my mind, hanging out with my friends. Who knows I might meet a girl that's a friend. Work all day and no play can take a toll on you. Sometimes it leaves a man 801 for those that don't know what that means stress. When it comes down to it I miss you. Trying to find someone to replace you is so hard. Maybe going out I can find one or are all girls chasing the money. You can never tell because of what you see on a day-to-day basis. When you settle down after a while. The breakup comes and she wants everything.

    Cocaine is about to come over here. So be ready I'm telling y’all get money. Never watch what other ninjas are doing, stack your pockets. My mind makes moves like never before, just because I'm not in the streets doesn't mean the people that work for me can't hear me when you are home, yes working so my business can go far. Imagine what I could do if I wanted to open my own company. There's a lot of shady shit going on, I have to fall back and observe everything and then I will determine who can get down with me.

    Moving around handling business. I sent the cross just now. Whoever felt that I'm going to keep in touch with our life. This connection that we shared means the world to me. 4-page letter four-leaf clover needs I say anymore. The dots that shorty send threw my body, she over here slashing me as I write this verse. The feeling she gives me, throwing up 031 yes it went through. Nowadays you gotta watch ninjas close, and never let your day1's down. We got this money, everybody moving in their kind of way, soldiers to the fullest.

                                                                CHAPTER 40

    When she hangs around murderers all day, she becomes that ride-or-die chick, willing to do whatever her man needs. That's what I had in you, you always held me down for real, thugs move strong enough to take over the world with the right shorty anything can happen. She knows right from wrong, she has been in this game for a long time. A ninja never wants to close that chapter of his life, even when we made moves that could've gotten us in trouble. She didn't give a fuck that's what I love about her and she's a stand-up shorty for real.

    When she handles her business even when you're not there. She never let up, if she's not here let me go to heaven in peace. So she strips looking at that body undressing. If you respect me I'll respect you. Please do not go behind my back and do you who gives a fuck, knowing Layla got me in her corner until the day I die. I built this because this was something that the both of us wanted right, now you do what I know don't cheat.

    So ninjas claim they're patched in. My birthday is Saint Patrick's Day. So I'm always patched in, damu until the day I die. War for you that's what I'm listening to right now. the game redrum 187 on ninjas that's not down with the movement. When you are in these streets, the only thing that comes with that is black justice or death. I'm trying to get out of the game, but never give up on my roots, da blood shit S.M.M. Giving your all never let your ninjas down. You remind me of this young man that has nothing to lose in this game.

    Let's make this night the night of our life. Eastside all the time follow me, baby I will never let you down trust me, get with the program. So she owes me everything we don't have to get into details. The rules of this game we play, it's murder death kill. What about that money, never let go without me by her side like the father she never had. Miss you until I see you again. While you get high I'm popping the bottle, can't get high but damn sure can get faded yes that’s the type of shit I'm on.

    Let's take this further and tell me what you want out of this conversation. We talked about all of the things that you and I want to do. My ninjas asking me why I'm laid up, trust me it's better than being out with all of those females. I have my little crew that gets down with me. She handles everything that needs to be handled, that's the type of woman I need in my life. Let's take our time now, I need to rush it, hanging around you is all I want to do. I want to see how you get down, that's what she said, baby no problem.

    You and I can do us for once, imagine us on the freeway you behind the wheel oh God Jay Z said Jesus grab the wheel. Rolling around the world with me, ain't nobody going to touch you. I'm teaching you everything that's in my mind. This is what my life is like, let's not go back into the days, let's stay in the future, how the blood and folks connected. One going down south and the other one moving up east. The clash between the two sides came together because of me.

    Step up the way people treat you. When you can do it for them. Does she love you or is there something I missed, how can you say there's a known game that you can't play? So many people make up things, never take someone for granted. All the money in the world, one day I'm going to open up my company and when that happens, everything will be better for all of those girls that wouldn't give me the time of day. I feel your faith is in God's hands. The only person I got to impress is him, he knows I'm doing my job.

    I think I need to go back to that young man, that didn't give a fuck what a chick thinks. About how many chicks he's messing with and feels no remorse about anything. You try and try to be there, this is how it goes either I'm going to lay down with someone one day or I'm going to heaven with my baby. Please don't get caught up in this bull shit, that's out there be headstrong, never let up, and keep getting money. Maybe you have to take from them to show how important you are to them.

    This is the beginning until the end of time, that p stands for Piru, play 1600 always. You will never catch me without it. The game is full of ninjas that are walking with that 1600. My 1600 is on the left side of my hand. This must be the way it goes when you handle business in this game, never get caught up with 1600 on you. When shit gets hot you are forced to use 1600. 1600 can put ninjas underground for sure, it can also get you a lot of time if you get caught with 1600. You got to stay on the low.

    Playing sides in a situation, never turns out for the good, having one girl trust me it's better than having so many. I need one in my life, being a player means nothing to my baby girl, asks me do I miss you. The answer is yeah but I know every night I go to sleep, knowing you are okay that's all that matters to me. I can't imagine how it is to live without your mother, just imagine your father living without his wife. The person that understands me. The pain that we feel as one is enough to fulfill a thousand of us.

    When you spend most of your time with the lady that's in your life. I'm not letting females get to me. I need money, that's all that's on my mind, it ain't hard, to tell the truth about her, she did everything for me. Putting up her life to help me out, people do not understand this was our plan from the beginning. Sending a girl down south to get at me, while she was in the city hanging out with you know who, that's why I don't fuck with ninjas. She played it well, the song I miss you, she said no more, we followed the rules that were set for us trust me.

    Look who decided to talk to me. You have talked to me for a while. I miss both of y'all very much. When I talk I try to talk so everybody can understand what I am saying. The more we get into the winter hopefully I can express my feelings through the winter. I'm trying to write until I can't write anymore. I thank God for the way he let me express my mind. These writings give me a platform to showcase my talent. I'm always writing different ideas that come to my mind. So my family knows what I'm thinking.

    Battling the outcome of a relationship that does not want to stay together, can be so hard at times. Follow the rules of the game people play in a relationship. First, you fall in love with a woman and you take her out. You show her that you can be the best man in the whole wide world. You help her get on her feet and she gives you all of the attention that you need. One thing for sure remains faithful in this relationship. Being in love a lot of people cannot talk about it. The way I see it, you can't go around sleeping with everybody.

    Opportunity comes when you have good people in your corner, never let someone take your joy. Enjoy your life to the fullest, a lot of time you guide yourself into a good situation. Being out here I learned a lot from the streets. Someone that covers you all the time has the best heart. You should want to learn and follow in his footsteps. Everybody lives this life with known worries, she handled my business all of the time. The way she stood up and became this woman makes me so proud of her. Always trying to look out for others.

    When you look out for one another, how can you accept all of the things that people do to you? I want to be rich before I die, holding mine down to the fullest, never letting my family down. You mean everything to me. I wish we could go out together. The way she gets upset looks so good. Planning for our future. So we can have all of the things that we dreamed about. The thought of having you next to me is all I want. Building so our kids want for nothing. At this time in life, we need to help each other.

    Inheritance is passed down from other family members, that's what I'm working on. So I can pass something down to my children, yes it is a fight to own my own business, hard work is one of the main reasons I'm doing this. So I can show others that it isn't that hard. You got to believe in yourself. I want what's best for you. I started this from nothing and accomplished so much. I can't let myself or my family down. You strive for what you believe in, it's simple to stay dedicated to your craft, having more than one business means there's faith.

    When passing something down to my children. I have to work extra hard, being a father to my children they look at me to have their back and I try my best never to let them down. What I'm working on can and will be here until the earth is over. Owning the biggest company in the world has its pros and cons. Everybody that hangs with me, one day we will have everything that we need. When all of my friends can move out of the hood but never forget where we came from, that's the important part.

    What's so easy is the way he treats you or reacts to you. The only thing a man wants to do is show love to his woman and for her to be faithful to him, having second thoughts about this relationship. There are so many other girls in this world, stepping out on her or him and stepping out on you can be so hard. When Jesus restored the blind man's sight and now the man sees everything. Walking out of something that was never meant for you or holding on to an unhappy relationship can be painful. Keeping God first in the eyes of the beholder.

    Performance is a gift that everyone that wants to be a singer has. You have to level your life and take your time with what you want to do. When the day comes and my music gets out so the world can hear. I want to be a songwriter. In other words, a ghostwriter, being behind the scenes corrects me if I'm wrong. I can handle more business that way, taking care of business now while I'm young is a good look. So when I get older I can have something to look forward to, it's all about growing up and standing for your future.

    I have a passion for music and all that believed in me thank you. I love writing this is something I was brought up in. Creating songs from the blank pages, that now grow into verses to a track, that's the beauty of making music. You will never understand if you’re not a true artist. You have to make people believe what you are saying, some people live that life, and others make that life up. I can't talk about money and jewels and cars and clothes because I have none of that, but I can talk to you about not having that now because you are stacking until you get old.

                                                           CHAPTER 41

    When you put your all on the line, that means you care about what's at stake. Follow the guidelines so everything you dream about comes true. First, you have to love what you do, so you will be able to do it every day. Pressure will be on you, the question is can you handle that. Controlling all that comes your way is a sign of dedication. You have to be smart in this game or you will get cheated. I'm writing so when I go to these labels, they can't come to me with short money because I know my worth.

    I got y'all until the day I left this earth. When you are at a club and you got this look on your face, like that's the type of shorty I want, knowing she wants everything that a woman likes. The way she looks at me. When she tells me she loves me. I hope you are not doing this for the money, all the ladies in my life. Whatever I can do, trust me I will do. I never want to hear it's over that will hurt my heart. From the beginning of time, all of y'all showed me that y’all cared and the kids always looked like they were okay and I'm grateful for that.

    Song cried when we were kids, we did everything together. I remember having a dance contest. The good part of that we always lost but we felt like we were the winners, being at the apollo dancing with all of the love we had for each other. Children of color back in 91 learning as growing up went well. The best part of being with friends and family. We never let anything get to us as kids. We did it for each other. Whenever you have, looking up to someone is a good look because you get to know how the person thinks, until things change.

    This young man from 151, as a kid wanted to be a rapper. the first time he got his shot on stage to perform, let's go back to how it first started. running the streets at 13, he met a lot of girls off of his block. everybody was messing with everybody. He had a couple of girls. He started going to skate keys the first Sunday in April. That's Easter, everything started there. All of the girls from all over New York City were there. So the first time I went there. We had fun and then I started going every weekend. Meeting girls there dancing was my fault for hanging out all types of nights.

    I and my friends were turning up. I was getting phone numbers, others didn't like that. I didn't have money, the same clothes almost every weekend. Staying with my friends staying away from my home because I had family problems my grandmother was sick. Thanks to all that stayed by my side. Things did get hot, something happened. I'm forced to move down south, wondering what my girlfriends are doing. I couldn't think that much about it, cause I'm out of town getting money, in and out of town missing my family. Taking trips in and out of town, thinking about you can't you tell that's all that was on my mind during phone time.

    Sorting out every problem you have can be hard. Pacing yourself can be hard. If you keep a level head in due time things will start to happen. Planning your thoughts carefully, that's how you understand more. Please don't set trips because of what you can't accomplish. What's in your future? have you done something that means good to others. My family has my attention. When I put I put my all into what I want, holding on to a dream will get me upset. You have to strive for your dreams to come true.

    When you want someone in your life, it seems like you will do anything to keep that person in your life. Baby let me take your hands and dance with you all night. Your body next to my body gets me hot like fire. I'm not trying to cool off because it's getting cold and you next to me will keep me hot. Watch what you say to me before you find yourself by yourself, making moves on her to get noticed. That's the first time I used that word and it felt good, up and coming females need to have a head on their shoulders.

    Backing your plan with all that you learn from the game, keep in mind that you're mine. The eye contact that we had when we first saw each other, baby my soulmate is up above me. She keeps me headstrong, she never lets me down, baby how strong are you. I know how strong I am, through all of these writings saying what's on my mind, is it worth the wait, keep me guessing. I know it looks like I know but I don't baby. Keep me in your prayers God got me because I'm God's Body, Jesus watches my every step and Moses knows Noah heaven sent from above.

    When you are down with me. You are down forever right. The best way to describe you, the best thing that ever happened to me. You take the cake but I know I can't have my cake and eat it too, getting nasty at times, sexing your body all night in the bed, kissing all over you, going deep inside of you, listening to some slow soft music. The wall bumping you can hear all over the house. The way you laugh and talk, she knows what she's doing, rubbing my back. I'm loving this conversation. there is a connection.

    I'm looking around at everything God created. The best thing he could've made was the human race, getting to know someone feels so good to me. I want her to be my everything and I'm going to give my all in this relationship, making a move on her the feeling you get when she says yes she loves you, never look back on the outcome on this day in time, showing her there are good times at the end of the tunnel. The road we had to walk to get here makes me the man I am today and the lady that's in my life always reminds me of that.

    What makes a man a man without a strong woman behind him. You never want to be alone with the one person in your life. When you make it your business to take care of her. I know the little things matter like a simple card on her Birthday, not every girl wants diamonds. Holding a woman and not a little girl, age ain't nothing but a number. All I know is you do better when you have your partner beside you, having all of the right answers to all of the questions that she asked can be hard. You try to tell her the uplifting thoughts that you have.

    Son, I zone the gun when ninjas move like they want beef. Scared of what y'all better be happy I'm not in these streets anymore. The connection wants me to sit back so the cocaine keeps coming in. I asked a minute ago nobody said anything about the shipmen. If you keep your money straight you get what you want out of the game. Never fall back just let ninjas think that's what you do, get money take money Pac and big would be laughing at these ninjas in this rap game. When you put some substance in your raps. You find yourself touching people.

    When people say things that mean nothing. You sit back and laugh about it. When her keyword was so you say boo. Never look back I have so much to look forward to. thank you to all of y'all that stick with me. I know it was hard with all of the bull shit going on. yes I know there are other ninjas out here. you kept me close to your heart, that's the first time I used that word, give me a second chance. I won't let you down trust me, it's a sight to see, let's keep it tight with this relationship.

    How hard it is to fall in love when women have children with a man who will not be a father to his child. I would never do this to you. Baby, my children mean everything to me. Their heart, body, spirit, and soul are half yours, and the other is mine. Just the thought of not being there can be so hard. That is why I try not to get into trouble. So I can see my children grow and become young men and women. Some day they have kids. I try to ensure that my kids have everything they need.

    I am making sure I make the love I have for this young lady to you. When you get high on life, people always try to take it from you. I am not having it before I let them take it from me. Hell in the world cannot wait to go to heaven. I know I am sitting right beside Jesus because my little one has a place for me. I can always rely on her because I believe in her. The one I do not care about anymore. The world turns when she smiles. The earth lights up. When she goes to bed, it is dark outside. When she wakes up, the birds sing.

 

    Can you stand against the rain, Baby? Without you, life is meaningless. Stay with me and let me know how much you love me. It is because of you that I live this life of faithfulness. Please, do not walk away from me. Stay with me, whether it is good times or bad times. I do not want to get wet. The umbrella is always a nice look because it is right here, whether you know it or not. You have made my day when I see you in my eyes. It can get better. You need to understand that I am doing my best to care for you and our children.

 

    I wondered what she could be doing. Lord, why did you take someone close to me? I used to watch her grow up when she was a kid. We played together. We did everything together. However, I remember us in the house on 151 convent avenue shouting at one another. I ran out of the house, and you ran behind me. I crossed the street. You crossed the same street too. Across the street was a dirt yard, and I climb up on the dirt. You were on the other side of it. Then I picked up a brick and threw it on the other side where you were. It just missed your head. Those were the days.

 

    Calling to you, Lord. Please make sure you come up with a plan for me. When I was in OT, I remember praying for you. Please get me out of this situation. I promise to be somebody you can trust. Please guide me in the right direction. I will do everything in my power to overcome it. I will follow your mind, the spirit you had in me, and look where it led me. I admire you because of what you gave me. This is sure for my family. The way you send the prayers, I will show my family that there is a God and a Jesus for everything I know. All of them are the same people, just different personalities.

 

    037 means that when a dog fights, all dogs fight. Be ready to enter 031. Happy birthday to my natural rights. We learned so much from one another. Never let our life die in the hands of another person. We are one nation under the same unity. How can you say you are not under my set, SMM? When we get down at any time, my second gang is all hoods. I know I rose in the ranks so fast because I did what I was asked to do. Going out of town scared me. Nevertheless, I was willing to do whatever it took to be a part of my nation, even if I got slashed when I was five straight down my right temple.

 

    The most influential people in my life are my children. I would die for all of y’all happiness. That is why I work so hard to ensure you do not go through what I went through. I want to make sure that whatever you want to be there for you and your mother. I want never to let you down. Working long nights can be so hard, but I am prepared to put mine in it. Taking care of all of you worries me as I did to all of your mothers. My words are clear. It is evident that the next day, 18 years ago, I was in black justice. I pledge myself to bring my family home.

                                                            CHAPTER 42

    Come closer to me so that I can tell you that you are mine. I want people to know how much I love you. How long do we have to keep it hidden? I want everyone to know. I know you like my music the way it makes you think. The way you’re in the mood to listen to what I’ve written, never let anybody tell you that I’m not faithful. That’s what this is all about. These writings tell me that you love me as well. I won’t wait forever to hear that, baby. I love you. Thank you. We got rid of it. Come and listen to me? Can you hear anything I know?

 

    I am not looking for those that cross me. As long as I have got you in my life, you are everything. I need to trust myself. So if it is hard to understand, I am only going after those who have been here for me. This can be a family, and that is it. It does not have to be a relationship. Trust me. You will not get upset. I will find another young lady to be in my life. What about your friends? She will come inside of me. She is already inside of me, and I am sticking to my guns on this. I do not need the headache. I have never been with someone who was not family. Nevertheless, I am willing to do it.

 

    Whom do you know more accurately than me? These fucking ninjas are talking about why I left the city. I took measures to deal with all the drugs that were coming into this country. I think I made myself clear. Ninjas get attacked. It is not peaceful. That is why I have to watch you all ninjas and hitches. Sorry for not getting over it. I cannot understand you. You got hit up, Jamie got hit up, coo-coo got hit up. We are acting as we fuck with ninjas. Who was making all of the killings? Ninjas got the nerve to fuck with ninjas from where. Oh yeah, gangsters know whom I am talking about, right.

 

    Only God knows where I am going to end up. While I am here, I must first keep my family and my company. I am so far above with this writing. I have to keep pushing through all of the bull shit. I will never let anyone take my life away from me. I do all this for my children, making sure they are okay. I am all right with that. This is from your man, remember how long we were together. Should I remind you what happened when we were children? The only thing I remember is being with you.

 

    What are you escaping? When the man who loves you is here, you know, do not allow me in. It can be the downfall that we have. The baby enters my life and strengthens me because the power comes from a powerful woman. I will not run out of things when you help your man. He realizes you are ready to comfort him. In the view of today, I love you so much. Yes, it is just R&B. Know the pressure, hold me affectionately. Being here makes me feel good about everything I have missed. Being here makes me feel comfortable for all the time I have missed.

    This is the last night I will tell you that working hard is the only way to improve this life. We must move as one, look after one another. You are my pain and happiness. You cannot have both. Trust me. I tried it. You have to pick and choose. Yes, it is getting cold outside. Being under you makes me feel good. When I say I am thirsty, it does not mean I want water. It means I want love from you in my life. The way things are going is pleasant. Thanks for coming into my life. You showed me plenty of things.

 

    This can happen to anyone. What is love with a person who wants sex? I am trying to keep my cool. Please look into my eyes. Do not walk away from everything in the world. This is life. In this way, I am feeling you. You make me feel like changing my entire strategy. It is fourth-quarter time. We go to the first quarter soon. I am doing this over and over again. I feel like I am running out of time because you are not part of my life. Looking at you, undressing you with my mind. Who knows what the man upstairs has for us as a couple.

 

    Tell me what you want to do to me. After that, I will tell you what I want to do to you. Riding in my whip with the wind blowing through your hair, hearing Donell Jones shorty look at me. What can I do for you? You make half of me. It is a beautiful body. The thoughts that are crossing my mind right now, no man should think of it. When she left the car, she got that look. We arrived at the restaurant for a meal. All I am thinking about is how this conversation is going to go all night. She is beautiful.

 

    I do what I have to do for you. Where am I supposed to start? This music is about you and me. So my children can have something to look forward to. I am not perfect, but I try. It is an essential part of our relationship. Covering you is what I am trying to do. That is why I am working so hard. Yes, I may be here playing with many women, but that is not my cup of tea. I need someone who is actually about being in a life together. When you fall off, the ones that stick by your side are those who care about you.

    Running does not mean anything when you are not running to someone who cares about you. Many thoughts run through my mind all the time. What will you do about what you think? What do you say we do something good for everyone else? That is where your blessing comes from. Take your time, listen and watch very closely. Taking and letting go of what you have learned helps you a lot with what you are trying to achieve in life. Everyone does the same. You must ensure that everything is implemented.

    Whom you care about in this lifetime. He is supposed to be the most critical person in your life. Coming up with this conclusion is so tricky because it is like the girl you want. You try to sing her songs, hoping to win her over so you can spend the rest of your life with her. These are all part of the game. You do what has supposed to be done. I want to grace the world with prayer. I have this gift from God. I am living up to it, leaving my mind free. Whatever I think may come out. So everyone can read and hear what is going on.

    This can happen to anyone. What is love with a person who wants sex? I am trying to keep my cool. Please look into my eyes. Do not walk away from everything in the world. This is life. In this way, I am feeling you. You make me feel like changing my entire strategy. It is fourth-quarter time. We go to the first quarter soon. I am doing this over and over again. I feel like I am running out of time because you are not part of my life. Looking at you, undressing you with my mind. Who knows what the man upstairs has for us as a couple.

 

    Tell me what you want to do to me. After that, I will tell you what I want to do to you. Riding in my whip with the wind blowing through your hair, hearing a Donell Jones shorty look at me. What can I do for you? You make half of me. It is a beautiful body. The thoughts that are crossing my mind right now, no man should think of it. When she left the car, she got that look. We arrived at the restaurant for a meal. All I am thinking about is how this conversation is going to go all night. She is beautiful.

 

    I do what I have to do for you. Where am I supposed to start? This music is about you and me. So my children can have something to look forward to. I am not perfect, but I try. It is an essential part of our relationship. Covering you is what I am trying to do. That is why I am working so hard. Yes, I may be here playing with many women, but that is not my cup of tea. I need someone who is actually about being in a life together. When you fall off, the ones that stick by your side are those who care about you.

    Running does not mean anything when you are not running to someone who cares about you. Many thoughts run through my mind all the time. What will you do about what you think? What do you say we do something good for everyone else? That is where your blessing comes from. Take your time, listen and watch very closely. Taking and letting go of what you have learned helps you a lot with what you are trying to achieve in life. Everyone does the same. You must ensure that everything is implemented.

    Whom you care about in this lifetime. He is supposed to be the most critical person in your life. Coming up with this conclusion is so tricky because it is like the girl you want. You try to sing her songs, hoping to win her over so you can spend the rest of your life with her. These are all part of the game. You do what has supposed to be done. I want to grace the world with prayer. I have this gift from God. I am living up to it, leaving my mind free. Whatever I think may come out. So everyone can read and hear what is going on.

     In this game, you should know who is with you and who is not. Let us take away all of the money. What do you have to do here on earth? What about other people who can do the right thing? It should not all be a matter of money. You need to take what you know and apply it in different ways. I remember all those nights, thinking about whether I should go home or not. If I had been assassinated, who would have given a fuck, strap yes triple five yes. I never left the house without it. If people want war, I will give it to them. Never doubt that others provoke the fall of others as well.

 

    Straight out of the east side, go over there and watch what you say to people. Making these types of moves. I do not know how much time I am going to get if I get locked up. People are telling me when you were young. You had much heart and got to the business, covering up much shit. When you are dealing with the drug market, you cannot talk. That is all I see nowadays. This shit does not make me or break me, three-hit in front of the house for what? This shit got people’s names right on it until this day. I could not understand why, but I know why now.

 

    Shit like this does not get out. Let us keep it to ourselves before one time come after us. All of my shit going down as one of the best that ever did it, fuck that do not let anything go everything must come to light, which can be trusted out here, after all, this gangster shit people did for what, when telling becomes a habit to many people, you try and try to get out of these streets. However, the streets keep calling you and calling you, so fuck that get money, and handle business the right way. That is what many people look for in you.

 

    No one sees evil, and no one hears evil. What has the game given to you? Give me a break. Never let a person take from your plate unless they are your friends. You and your friends undoubtedly eat together. I cannot die yet because I have so much more to do here on these streets, like giving back to people who do not have it. I told you the source of your blessing. You have to be straightforward with this game. Nevertheless, stay focused on what you are doing here before somebody takes it from you.

                                                        CHAPTER 43

 

    Going back to the business, look at what you are doing and take steps. Yeah, many people want war. I cannot help it. First, you perform like you are in a rap group. Harlem has many people whom I respect. Nevertheless, it also has people I do not respect, popping a person then letting 16 shots in his body. I am far from a pussy, a matter of fact: a yellow back but not me. Growing up with that thing called the UBN, we settle for nothing to gain the world. Many people are scared of us. We are not here to spark fear in people’s hearts.

 

    Control what you think, not what everybody else thinks about you. This is absolute shit. Only real people know who they are. You must stand and get your own when dealing with the streets. When we ride on our enemies, yes, I have many enemies. However, I am dealing with the pressure involved. Hope for what is best for you. You cannot make everybody happy. Try to make the person you care about feel as good as possible by staying out of the streets. What do you need to take a gun to make it look like you are a gangster? Gangsters are getting football numbers sent to black justice.

 

    When we first met, you asked me about my job. I am working hard to get us out of here. I do not tolerate an oversight that is always in the affairs of others. You can play the game, too. Follow the path and fall in line. Moreover, you and me in bed, taking care of the business. It is in your head, telling people it is a Harlem thing if shorty comes up with me. You cannot be in these streets.

 

    Know yourselves, and be sure to put God before anything. Everyone needs to wake up. Time is against us as we all know it. Believe in our ideas to be something. Do not allow anyone to tell you that you cannot do this. Fate depends on your goals. As the saying goes, I think you need to plan your destiny. Yes, it takes time. Everything takes time. How can one accomplish their goals if people do not put all their time into what they are doing? As you learn more about yourself, your goals become more tangible. Have faith in yourself at all times.

 

    I try to remain strong, but it is not very easy. This is for all of the people that get the money. The game is not the same. Keep one eye open at all times. Doing well does not mean others are doing wrong. Understand that this means you are doing your job. You must keep pushing to stack. None of this changes for me. Never let the streets gain the upper hand over you. Making powerful moves now is all I want to hear. Find me handling this game as if I was in a corporation.

    Flying to the highest point a man can reach requires considerable planning. Everything must be put together to accomplish what you are trying to accomplish. You will make every effort to achieve your goals correctly. How would you like to take a book and read my stories? When you are put in a position to do well, others always want to lower you. They might say that is not going to happen or that it does not sound right. However, in your heart, you know how it sounds. Keep up on what you want to do in life.

 

    Now I have reached that point where I have 17 more verses after it. Right now, I am on 300. It is a great feeling to accomplish this in my life. When you put your all into what you are doing, God will bless you. Nevertheless, you have to accept His blessings with open arms. This is not for everybody. I want you to hear what I am saying. You do more when you want a person in your life. It is hard to be in a faithful relationship nowadays. I am just playing. If you love somebody, you will be faithful to each other.

 

    It is funny how you can have everything when you are popping. It is downhill from here on until I finish getting this money. I do not know why people thought sex was going to stop me from getting this money. They sent everything to me. I hit the streets at 13 years old. All of you had 21 years to get it right. I came back into town when I was 23, and I started rapping again. All I see is people acting as if they rap. How I outperformed everyone in that rap game, staying focused in the lab, watching where it got me. I am thankful for that.  

 

    When you look at the woman who is with me, you know she is my heart. The money adds up to the love you give me. I wonder if she is mine or will she be in my life for life. Everything is covered as I promised you, holding you in my arms. So we have the impression that couples talk about what cannot be replaced. They watch your badass go up the block and walk along the block. We must remain united and never allow someone to take our lives from us. Trust is the most significant power you can have in life.   

 

    Baby, when I said I cheated, it was a result of what happened to you. I feel it deep in my thoughts. Have I made up for it? You know that day is watching all the blood behind you. You hurt my heart. You cannot let somebody see blood. This is where my heart is dead. I put my life on the line. One way or another, you would feel better about what happened. She is telling me to straighten up now. We have the company completed. Our conversation was everything to me. There is no way I am going to let you down. Now, we have to embrace the past.

 

    You know I am here forever. The thought of losing somebody is so near and dear to my heart. God forbid something happens to one of us again. I know we will have each other back as we did when things were tough. As you probably know, something is happening to me. That is why I need you to help me. Nobody will look after me like you. Look me in the eye and tell me you no longer want to be here. Nevertheless, you cannot do it. This means you want to be here. I can look you in the eye and tell you that I love you. Keep in mind what we have been through.

 

    You are down for me, right. She wants me to save something. Then she will take care of everything else. Give me a place to stay, cash in my account, and buy me clothes and sneakers. I think she wants what is best for me. Baby, I am trying not to let you down. You mean everything to me. My life would not be that significant. Sharing the exact anniversary as I do, means that the connection in our life is the same. I always knew you are the one that watched over me. The thought of letting you out of my life is something I am not going to let happen midway.

 

    I hold this particular spot in my life for you. You are the one whom I want to be with. Come on, bring it back and forth. Let us stop the fighting. What are we going to get out of it? We should make the best of this moment in our lives. I try my best to keep you happy. Nevertheless, I guess my best was not enough. Let me know what it is that you want from me. It is challenging to keep doing this. When I enter the house, you ask me who I have been with. I am telling you that I am working. Bills are not going to pay themselves. Then she asked me if there was any other woman, and I said no.

 

    When it is wartime, it is wartime. I hope my friends understand I had to move down south to handle some business, meaning street life getting much money. Getting money since I was a young kid. Trust me. I cannot fall back now. I got to keep pushing on while the money was stacking up, saving up for the bigger picture. Why hate what you cannot understand. Everybody wants fame. Nevertheless, I want the money. Stay in tune with what’s going on in this life we lead. Be the rock of this game that we play, and bring more opportunities.

 

    You may change it, but it is for the best baby. The way you move makes me think you are the only one of your kind. The longer we wait, the more we get to know each other. Trying to make me the best for you. Our minds are connected, lying every night discussing our future. It is only from more than one perspective. How do you keep up with the family business? I am doing everything in my power to make it work. Long distances minds stay together forever. I know she is watching down on me.

 

    Harlem is one big playground. I am from the battlegrounds, where we get shit popping real quick. You want me to wait a minute. However, I cannot do that because of all of this drug money. I am tired of people talking about how many guns they get. When they never stop anything, speaking of the amount of cocaine they have. Whoever hit me with $50 million lost them in El Chapo. I had been connected. I just took over my father’s hustle and turned it into an empire. I still have drugs for the ones that do not know. When kiss said 80 bricks which you think he was talking about me, that is who.

 

    I cannot see anything happening to my friends. Please do not cop the fifth on my account. What you see is what you get. My brother gave up sex and made money slap. However, being an individual, I know that this is a war. This cannot be denied. Yes, when you are at work, anything can come for what it is worth. Take care of your own to the maximum. Never look backward about what has been done. Make peace unless somebody in your family bleeds. Yes, that is how it happened. In my crazy rapper voice, tell them what you are crazy for. That is why I am mad, nothing more, nothing less.

 

    In this game, it is possible to win or lose. It depends on your playing style. At the end, who cares about right and wrong? This game is not about making all the money. When money comes, hatred comes. It is necessary to remain faithful to oneself in this game. If you make it, you look out for your friends. Do your best to keep an eye on just about everything that happens to you. Be humble, take your time, and never hurry. Hard work always works for me. Your eyesight has to remain strong. Yes, you can pull through it.

 

    Wondering where you are? Making music all day and all night can be so tough on me. Waking up with you by my side helps me so much. Coming from a stressful relationship with other women, I do not ever want to get out of my comfort zone again. That is why I need you in my life. Being the man I am, I have to keep a strong head and keep both of them where they are supposed to be. Being different from everyone else makes me stand out, giving me the woman of my dreams. If he can do it, so can I. Writing r&b songs helps me express how I feel.

 

    If we settle, then maybe I will let you work for me. What do you think you are working for? Who am I to come up with this money? I want to do all when you get locked up for a while. It is difficult to adjust to street life again when you are away from the city for a long time. New York is a tough place to fit in. I have to get back on track. You and your friends are all together and get that money.  Never turn away from me because the same people you see on the way up are the same people you see on the way down.

                                                           CHAPTER 44

 

    Crew love when putting all of this music together. All the money comes from waiting and planning. You cannot get into everything. I know all of these albums will support my daughters and sons. If the name of Aaliyah ends with ah and the name of Ellison ends over it, you take Noah and see what it boils down to when you reply. She says to spell it backward, and it spells Noah. Just in case anyone would question what I am writing, we knew what we were doing. We were managing the business, no matter what people think of it, continuing to grind.

 

    This gangster shit that people talk about. Running these streets is a hard job. I remember when I got the triple five straight down my temple, feeling all of the blood rushing out of my head. Trust the kid to know how death feels. Coming back to earth felt good. Now I am here. I have so much to do, blank where the hell is you. Look, I just woke you up. Yeah, I am making a better way for us to live, watching the eye contact and turning around only to see you. We should never bump heads on whose cheating on each other.

 

    When you cannot tell where your mind is going. Nevertheless, I am waiting on my time. You have to be built for this shit. A lot of moves people make help others out. The game does not change. You have to be low-key at all times. People get knocked off for the littlest things. Make sure the moves you make count for everyone to eat off of this plate that you made. Shorty keeps telling me that she wants to be with me. Who knows what she is getting at? Were you there when I was fucked up? I do not think so. So why should I let her eat off of this plate with me?

 

    Family, where are we at right now? This love of being in a relationship with one another surprised me. I did not know it would have lasted this long. Nevertheless, I am grateful for the time, young or old times chances. We can say we are one. The dreams we have are only getting done because we fight for what we want out of life. Being assertive is enough for the biggest fights. Small things should not matter. We should always understand where one is coming from, despite the flaws that we had in the past. I love it when forgiveness is the world above us. That is where Jesus lays, and tomorrow is promised.

 

    When you want someone, you will do anything for that person. However, could it be accurate what she said to me in the back of my mind? How am I supposed to believe you? The way she let me know everything about her life. I am taking all of this information in yes follow the way she acts, if she wants you she will let me know, thou shall not act up the baby she growing up, yes I am here until otherwise or is it true falling for you, might be the best thing for me, trying to figure this out is hard as hell or should I say heaven, it all depends on where I am going.

    The fact of having the world on my shoulders shows how strong I am. Please remain faithful to me. I will also be faithful to you. Life is so tough when everything was downhill. Now I am trying to get back on my feet. Yes, I am working hard as ever. Being at the bottom was stressful. However, I remain sane to keep this young man’s head up. How do you know what pressure feels like? Everything will come to light when you have never fought for anything you believe in, including God’s grace. When you lose your heart to a cheating partner, you take action to bring your heart back as one.

 

    It is all or nothing. Tell me what you bring to the table. What am I thankful for. My kids have the best life, building together as a family. You are one in me. We move together. We take care of what needs to be taken care of all the time. I cannot imagine my life without you next to me. One day putting that ring on your finger, everything looks up from here. The thought of loving you does not exist anymore. I cannot live my life with someone else. It is all about trust. As I stepped into this verse, hoping my family and friends are okay. At the beginning of time, I am not looking for anyone but my heart. She is not here anymore. I miss her with all of my heart. Her soul is telling me this r&b is going to kill award shows. If I had one wish, it would be to bring you back to me.

 

    My heart feels empty. Nevertheless, the only thing I am holding onto is the daughter that you gave me. I asked her if she was all right. When I walked away from her before I left, I knocked on the wall and knocked seven times. Slashed her two weeks later. Now when I wake up, she feels me. I want to say thank you for being the strong black woman that I needed in my life. You allow me to believe in life in its most potent form. The way you make me feel all the time, bringing me closer to you without worries, you are the love of my life for real. You covered everything I’ve been tested with, growing up as days transformed into weeks and years.

 

    I will not go forward when this loving thing happens. I do not know how far that would take us. Nevertheless, with a bit of help from God, we can do anything, write my life into a book telling everything I have been through. I must say you stuck by me in hard times when I thought I would never be the same. Things are looking up for us. I owe you the world. What do you do for someone that’s been in your corner all of your life? You make them feel special. Yes, I am waiting until I am ready to lay down with someone.

 

    I am not rushing into anything. You talk about what I used to do. It was not like minding my own business. Being together makes you a lot better. You also lead me on the right path. Thanks, my baby. You make me feel so desired when we both go out. We only do one thing together that can stop us. You look at all the females. I look at all the ninjas. You are the only person I see out there. We are in the best of us.

 

    I am tired of you spending all of my money, giving you everything that you want. How much does a young man take? You are always in the club dancing. I want a good girl. Yes, I understand you need to date a girl. You empty me. You demand money from me. I am talking about this shit right now. If I say no, I do not have it, so you want to get angry at me. What do you want me to do? I want simple stuff, like a birthday card. When was the last time you gave me anything? I cannot remember. I am ready to sign the papers when you have lovers and friends. I am trying to get away from my friends to come to see you.

 

    So we can hang out. She is on my back about coming to see her. Where are you? I am not coming far to see you. Oh, you are inside of the house. Okay, I am on my way over there. Hold on tight. Give me a minute to get there. I do not mean to sound impatient. Nevertheless, you have to promise. You always bring old shit for me. Can we not move forward in the future as if we are a new couple? When it is cold, it is known as the season of cuffing. Whoever was with me last summer is the only one I am cuffing up to. You do your job. I will handle my job. That is the way to make you happy. You are the only one I am concerned about. All year round, do not get it twisted. Other females will love to be in your place.

 

    You are my queen. Hold on, how many people want you? I want to ensure that you are the only one with me. I love you with all of his heart, growing up. It all started when we were kids, playing together at the park and going on ice cream dates. You did everything for me. I am the only man that has this much respect for you. You did a great job. I am thankful for that. Now we are older. Where do we go from here? Maybe we get down and do the grown and sexy with each other. I feel in this body that you are the best, with you at my side. I can enjoy this time that we spend together.

 

    It is all about timing. You hold these amazing women by the hand. Let her know that you love her, making her day go by so quickly. Something she will never forget, keeping her close to you. Whatever she wants, she can have. Simple things count the most. I understand that we should take small steps in our relationship. We are supposed to be at the top right now. What are you waiting for? I am only a phone call away. No matter what you want, I can do my best to make this happen. She asked if I can make every day feel like it will never end. Yes, I can make every day feel like it will never end.

 

    What does it look like for a kid? I will tell you it looks like the only way to go is up. If you never had a course, you will not know how to act when you get money. Yes, I got a lot of money. However, money does not make me. The grind made me who I am today. This life will stick with me until eternity is over. It means never, and the little things do count. She shows me that all of the time. That is why I love her for being the roc of my family. She always knows what to do. How I feel about a situation, right? Thank you.

    Macing on the block with two shorties. Yes, you know that I am getting on my feet. Thank you for coming to holler at me. I am sitting here, but I never forget where I came from. You move, and then I will move. Mac, some time ago, she was hanging out with me. How did you feel? I hope to live together with two babies, a boy, and a girl. Yes, I love them. By the way, how are they doing? I hope everything swells. Making a baby means nothing. You have to take care of your children and the mother of your children. For you to be a man, right? Yes, it does.

 

    I want to give you everything you want, but this is gonna take time. Can you wait until this happens? I will ensure that you are the only girl I love. To take its place is excellent shoes to fill. I know you are growing up, and otherwise, why use it? I am here because of everything you need to help. Singing this song to you makes me feel better. I cannot forget about you either. Both of you mean the world to me. What is next? They say, well, I will tell you, giving my heart to someone means the trust is there.

 

    I am doing the most when I say you are my queen. The world is big. There are many girls in it, but my family means everything to me. You have been down with me from the beginning. I am not saying it is over. I am saying the love is more robust, being with you. I wish for the day we can connect. I am telling you my story. The chapter is so long that I am doing what is best for us. All of the nights we were apart, you stayed faithful to me. Is there any woman you know who can say that her man was faithful to her as well?

 

    When I look into your heart, I hope you are not playing me for money. I will give you whatever it is that you dream of. I want you to be my first in a long time. I am not thinking about talking to anybody but you. Ladies do things for money, like hanging out. Nevertheless, who gives a fuck, as long as I have you. Knowing I will see you one day, I hold this special place in my life. If I give someone everything, then our daughter will see me start over. Never think like that. I wish I can see you one day, but it is not possible. Sometimes I wish you could have stayed with me and did not care.

 

    Do you know this man? Yes, I do know him. What is his name status? What is he doing here. That is my boyfriend, daddy. Do you love him? Yes, I do love him. Please treat my child well because I love her. He said that he loves her too. Is he going to wait until your mother comes home? Yes, he will? You want me to meet your mother. Yes, I do. You have just met my father. So why wouldn’t I let you meet my mother?

                                                         CHAPTER 45

 

    Her father said she would like you not to worry about it. Her mother comes home. She asked, who is this. Her child replied this is my boyfriend. She said for real. Yes, mother, she said he looks nice. I like him a lot, mother. She said to him to treat my child well. I am going to treat your child the way that she needs to be treated, okay. She means everything to me. Moreover, you know that right. Yes, I do.

    My mother told me that girls need to be treated like queens. She said yes, she did. I work hard every day. I do not smoke, but I drink a little bit. I want a nice girl. So my children have a nice mother. Yes, she is nice because that is the way I brought her up to be. I do not want to get married. Then she starts acting differently. Why can’t it be easy to find someone whom you can love? You have to watch whom you have sex with within this life because you can catch HI V.

 

    That is why I only want to have sex with you and only you.  Well, she just said she wanted to be loved. I know that her faith is in my hands. So why Would I let her down? I love her so much, and I will do anything for her. My heart goes out to her family. Let me tell you something, my love. I will never leave you. Baby, do you understand?

 

    Sell all of these drugs when got the connect call. You have that bag so that all the drugs get over here. I have been doing this since 98, in and out of town, getting dum money. Yeah, I have shown ninjas how to get to the bag, doing this for a long time. I am never looking back or telling on whom that shit ninjas know about. That is why all of my writings are going to the copyright office. I got nothing to hide. What are they going to lock me up for? Whatever they want to know look it up in congress.

 

    The time we are not together, why push me away from you? You know how hard it is about to get out here. My plans were always for the future. I had to plan if I want to last in this game. I pray my family continues to be blessed. Lord knows we need it, the thought of being by myself. Nevertheless, I know I have to work, regardless if she is with me or not. I have to take care of my life and my daughter’s life. Yes, I love her. Yes, I care for her. However, if that is not what she wants, I have to move on and go on about my business.

    You bring the best out of me. She speaks of men who fight and spend all their money on women. I have to tell her that I am not that kind of person. My money only goes to those who are part of my life forever. She says that she can be a part of them. I tell you that you are trying to play with me. She says yes, I am. However, it is the truth about being with you. I say, okay. You have to prove it to me. She says that she would do that. Then I say that you can start kissing me on the cheek when she moves in and put one on me. I have made contact with her. As she comes to kiss me, I turn around and kiss her lips.

 

    I just want to say how much I care about you. When you fall profoundly in love with your woman, being with other women all the time is not for you. She helps me make up my mind. That is why I am with you, watching your sexy ass. Ladies, tell your man it’s worthwhile and stay by his side forever. Men defend women’s cause in the long run. You will understand what I am saying. Tell her why you love her. If it takes forever to let her know, you look in the eyes, with this expression on your face, like I love you.

 

    I do not want to let you go. However, if it is something that you want, I cannot stop you from being happy. When you look at me, what do you see? Let me tell you a hard-working man over here. Times are getting hard for everyone out there. That is why I built this company for us as one. Yes, please help me run it. I stop going to school so that you can have an education. In contrast, I run these streets and do not be with different ladies. Just handling street shit. Yes, it was much money to be made. I have been carrying this new baby around the whole time.

 

    You are my Lil freak. Take off your clothes and get on the bed. She asks, why are you rushing me? I do not have all night. She wants to know what we are drinking. I reply, something light. Again, she asks whether I smoke or not? I reply no. She asks whether I can roll up and get high. I reply to her be my guess to get faded. I am thinking to myself that this night would be going to be one to remember. So she starts getting high, but I start drinking with her. I am thinking to myself. I am going to throw it on her. Then she starts getting undressed.

 

    You got your eyes on me while I got my eyes on you. She said, “this is the night that I give myself to you.” I was like, yes, in my mind. Let me start from the beginning when we were at the club. There were many people there. The conversation was going like this, how old were you? I was old enough to put you in a mood to do what adults do. I took her by the arms and told her to let us get out of here, and went back to my place. I got some more questions for you. Were you single? If you were, would you love to be my girlfriend and me your boyfriend?

 

    You let us quit with the small talk. Ninjas get popped every day be as it is. I am not going out like that. I have to maintain respect for the streets and never let anyone take that from me. I am traveling out of town. Yeah, I made moves. The ninjas speak of those who run outside. I am willing to handle my business. I will never let my uncle down. He told me to handle mine to the max. You know SMM is one of the strongest gangs out there. Yeah, it looks like everything is falling into place with me. The more complicated you become, the less you learn from the differences.

 

    When gangsters report to you because you write stuff they have been through. Then everybody has a story to tell. So here is my story. I hope you will get something by reading my life which I have put here in this paper. It will be best to stay strong in those streets because you can die or go to black justice. No one wants any of that. You have to move on from your past and continue to fight for your future. It is hard to overcome things that happened to you. This is the type of man I am. I stand up for everything that I want. God has blessed me with this life I am going through.

 

    Out of town worked for me, and now it was for me to get back to New York city and handle new business up there. First, I had to go to jail, but not before I passed Some work off to start my business. Seeing that I had kids up here made me work harder. The business started Picking up, and money was coming in. I had a job, and playing inside our Children’s souls made me feel like I was doing everything right at that time.

 

    I am not going to worry about what people have to say about me. I know I am a good man. Sometimes that is what a female looks for. When you are stressed that a man is cheating on you, it is not a relationship. I am sorry for what has happened to you. I love you and your sister, including all seven of you that Aaliyah left with. I thank her for being there for me. Never tell what we know about these streets out here.

 

    Whatever you do, make sure you follow the instructions and directions that apply to you. Holding onto something that always wants to leave you. This is what you should do when you are in a situation that you do not understand. Fall back and take your time. Keep your head upright at all times. You should move like you know the streets backward and forwards. You should apply the street life to your business life. You have to watch everything you do and make sure you can trust whoever you do business with. Make sure you apply this to your everyday life.

    What are you battling? The faith that women remain unique, but you may say one thing and do another. I hope you decide where you want to be if I get upset and start yelling or shouting at you. I know I need to leave and cool off. After all, my anger gets the best of me. The way she makes me feel, I have to calm down before we start fighting. I cannot go to the Black Court because I am fighting with this woman, knowing she is the love of my life. I know I should always be respectful of her.

 

    The assignment of life keeps those in need of closeness to you. Friends are supposed to protect you when you are down. If everyone goes to heaven and paradise is in my hand, thanks to those stuck by my side. When I feel depressed, I respect the lady with my heart. Yes, times are getting better. You and I must trust her to grant her the benefit of the doubt. Having this transport to heaven, knowing eternal life plays again and again in our souls.

 

    The more you get to know each other, the more you can love another person. Do you agree with that, or do you disagree? Which one is it? Let me know if you are trying to fight for someone that already left you. You must go ahead and find someone who will love you. The heart can get better at times. Why does everything need to be about you and not me? If you walk out now, never come back. It is because I am down and out. When I had everything, you were cheering me on. Now you do not love me anymore.

 

    From the first time I touch weed, de low showed me what that was. That, there I took everything to hand at the same time being a boss. Fuck that ninjas get murdered every day. You cannot run from that. You got to love it if Rocafella was not mine when I came back home, everything stops. My pockets got more significant than before. I was handling business ninja-like. I had the top gangsters handling my business. We cornered the market in a minute. Is nobody not going to breathe? A lot had changed since this kid got back home right.

 

    When she wants the world, you do everything in your power to give it to her. Yes, I am faithful to you, while I question whether she is faithful to me. It is because both women and men can mislead. Let us change that pattern and talk about it amongst ourselves. I am saying this about our relationship. Growing up with you by my side helps me understand what kind of woman I am dealing with. Yes, my heart is heavy. My eyes are full of tears. Other females mean nothing to me because I want you in my life. Didn’t we plan for this to happen? Yes, we did.

                                                             CHAPTER 46

 

    Throwing shade on anyone means you are jealous of them. I cannot count everybody else’s pockets. I’m worried about my money, which is all. I have to stay above water. When you are on top of other people, you want to feel it. I try to keep my head up when I think of it. I have been getting money. That is the reason I am so way ahead of myself. Stay positive no matter what comes out of you. You were put here to take over the world. I see your plan. It is going very well.

 

    She shows how strong a woman can be. She shows her man how she cares about him. The stronger the woman is, the stronger her man gets. Nobody knows what the future holds for us. All we can do is pray for our life. Baby, you made me drop my heart on you. I am not afraid of telling you how I feel. A man needs to tell his woman the way he feels. That is why the dark relationship is not so healthy. Make each other strong by sharing everything about one another.

 

    Who is popping? Everybody stands in the way. Then let me break that shit because women have the game, too. They got a guy who thinks one thing when it is something else. The trust never throws words like that. Be respectful of your life and manage things according to your feelings. I do not believe in bullshit, friends, lovers. Yes, it is what she is saying. When you break everything, it is hard to find the right woman. You do whatever it takes to keep her happy. Eventually, she will show you how much she cares about you.

 

    Fighting for what, a great relationship. How complicated is it? You want to do it because she wants you to do it when God gives you a taste. What have you found for yourself to overcome the test? I learned a lesson when I went elsewhere. My life means everything to me. Being on those streets, I will give you the game. Treat your woman like a queen. Tell her you do need to love her and make sure she feels it and understands it. Let her know that she is so unique to you. If she leaves, how can you move on? Growing up as children make confidence stronger.

 

    Get down or lay down. Put you in a place where you have to use a gun. It can get you a long time in black justice because selling drugs can get you a long time in black justice. I am trying to take another route, but being on these streets is hard. People will take from you. They will set you up even if they are friends with you. Then they try to talk to you even if you know it. I give credit when credit is due. Harlem is the place where I am from. However, right now, I reside in the Bronx. Peace to all of my blood getting this money. Never let yourself down.

    It is so much that I am fighting for it. I am not going to ask who is in my corner. If I have to look at everything you do to know, you have the best of me. That means other things are happening. Money has nothing to do with it. Hustling is the way I would put it. Ladies and gentlemen, comment on everything if I start over and see that little boy I missed. The only thing I would see is red when I think about Layla, Let her know one take-off of her plate. Her father has laid out for her to the end of time.

 

    The belly of the beast. I am not going down that road. When you come, you come after being correct. Alternatively, else this relationship will not last. I know all of my albums will support my daughters. I have to keep moving in order to take care of them. I do not want you to ask me for anything. If there is anything that daddy can do, ask me. Whenever you want to talk, just hit me up. People say the mind is a terrible thing to waste. My mind is connected to hers. It always will be. Everything I have done, I have done for you.

 

    Growing up is a part of life. The way I have faith is everything I need. You take what you can get. I get what I can take, no force playing the game like I am supposed to. The hardest part about growing up is that sometimes you have to cut people off. The only thing people want in this world is money. Money does not make the world go around. People make the world go around. Yes, I want to take my time. Everything has to be on point if we continue this life that we have. Everyone wants a role model in their life.

 

    The wait only makes us stronger in loving one another. The girl of your dreams will come true. Being in her life makes me feel like the earth spins on and on. The created part of my life, sharing with somebody else, showing her that I am not only in love with her. Nevertheless, she is my world. I worship the ground she walks on. The mother of my children carries the children for nine months. This point is close to my thumb, which makes it the ninth finger. Or should I say ten commandments, conquering life with you makes us stronger?

 

    If one of us falls off, will the other one hold the other one up? You are the queen of the castle. It is the only thing that is missing. You left your footwear out of control. Look how you have grown up. You make my little world complete. I am pleased that it is not incomplete. We talked about the expectations of life. You have it all. It was my primary objective. Taking care of yourself makes me entirely, and you are all right. You were patient and ready to wait and hear what I had to say. Now everything is perfect.

 

    The heart, mind, spirit, soul, flesh, and body love you and never let her go. I cannot control myself around her. You make up your mind. Let us assume that we are together, the thoughts of the young man must feel. Yes, I look up to you. You have shown me so much. You cannot control whom you love. Baby, tell me if this relationship will last forever. I cannot help walking around with my head down. I have to pick my head up. Are you my downfall, or are you lifting me?

 

    She keeps telling me to hang out there. You may guess what I have told her. I have to tell her what I usually tell someone whom I want. I go after her. She says, how does she know what I want? However, I see the love in your eyes. Please do not make me look like a fool. Yes, I want to wake up to you every morning. I also want to go to sleep at night, with you by my side, growing old with each other. Yes, I think that is what you want too. Am I right? Yes, you are, but how do you know I want to spend the rest of my life with you? Are you sure?

 

    Let us sit down and have this conversation about where we are going. Yes, she will ride or die with me. You never know where your life is going. You keep those in your life close to you. We take it easy, but we stick together. When we face each other, you say something else. Let us see if you are who I need you to be. The times are on our side, riding with your man with your back and up and down. You should have seen the look on his face when I told him I loved him. How strongly do I have to be? Never move fast. Take everything slowly.

 

    You put her first. Do you have any idea how much you feel my heart? When I am on these streets, she is in charge of the family. If I catch a case, will you stay with me? The answer was yes. That is what I like to hear. Never give my love to any other person. If I am down, will you stand me up, help me get a job until I get back on my feet? Many females do this. When the shit hit the fan, the woman you were off-hook and finds herself a baller. Then she says something about you. Nevertheless, I have not heard any of the women looking for gold when everything is in place.

 

    What are the odds of you getting money, having this dot on my hand? If a person tries to murder me, my soul does not trust a mother fucker. If my soul goes inside of you, then slashes you. After that, the rain started. Trust me when I say it can happen. Seven deadly sins and three souls are on the street. That is why I have to be a strap when the game does not change. Ninjas feel like you cannot do it. You stick to your guns 16 in the clip and 1 in the chamber. Leave her alone as she handles her business next to her man like she is supposed to do.

 

    The more you understand your partner, the more you understand the kind of life you and she will live. You stay in touch with her, follow her, and hear what she’s saying. She’s the person I care about most in my life. Walking away may be challenging. I hope she never runs away from me. What do you know about being faithful to each other? Everything takes time. It will be best if you take time on many things, like trusting each other, and never fighting while yelling at each other. You love your wife from the bottom of your heart and take time out of your relationship. Patience is the key.

 

    The most beautiful moment in my life is with you. I do not do anything other than take care of you. The love I feel for you is indisputable, much more respect for you. It should not be that hard to show you how much I love you holding all of this in my mind. Trust me. I do not want to fall in love or fall in love with the streets. Nevertheless, I have fallen in love. I have to choose. I need women to take care of me. It will be better to tell me when I mess up. You are not sure what I am talking about. I want to remain in a family at any cost.

 

    When you make significant moves, everything looks irresistible to you. You have to dig deep inside of yourself. I am one of those people who wait until everything is ready. The plan is to get together someday. Yes, it does hurt to be away from you. Time is only getting better as time goes on. I am not weak. The power of the people should reflect what is occurring in our lives. As we make changes over time, you and I should understand that the most significant moment of our lives should be today. Hold hands wrapped around the neck, wait for a plan and stand.

    Living life beyond what you can imagine feels so good. Planning for your future is lovely. Actions always speak louder than words. Make sure you do what is right here on these streets so that no one can question you. Understanding the street code by listening to where I am going. I want to be honest with you. People do not follow these so-called street codes. Try to stay away from the bullshit, and try to provide for your family. That is it. Make an intelligent investment, build a brand, and do something with your life so that your kids can have a bright future. Understand that you can make good decisions or poor ones. It is up to you.

 

    My time is now, not later. The time you spend with me is forever. You know that my heart is in your hands. I do not know what makes you such a particular person in my life. Twenty-two years ago, you were sixteen years old. Then your birthday fell on a Monday. I knew my illness was all because of you. So I placed my heart to you. You always looked out for me. Yes, I wanted to continue this relationship with each other, growing up with you by my side. Besides that, you were watching over me. I knew you were my angel. Bless you. I am thankful.

 

    I cannot wait for you anymore. Maybe I should leave. I am walking out of the door. I do not need to be with you anymore. Who cares? I do not need you in my life anymore. You bring the worst out of me. It is my day to take a stand. You force to experience many things. I am not looking back. God tells me to move on and forget the old days. We are constantly fighting and yelling at one another. You are making me nervous. You are always in my business. I need space to grow. So I think letting you go is best for me.

 

    The chances are likely that nothing has changed. What do you want from a young man like me? Please do not talk back. That makes me angry. Are you in the mood for round one? You never know what you will get out of me. It is not a game you play with a person who feels. I do not care what you say, but respect me. Let us get down and dirty. Your mouth is what makes me fall out of love with you. Let us not confuse this with something unique and make it happen all the time. So please stop with your mouth and get back to me.

    You are my world. How can I call you my wife, the world that we are? There are plenty of ups and downs. I think we are in this position because of me. We both wanted to look after those streets, and manage the business. Yes, I could have been killed. Yes, I was supposed to be unique. Yes, it was challenging, different, and dangerous. Being there for you was the one thing I was thinking about. Yes, I believe you are the most amazing women in the world to control a man like me. Yes, I have left the street. You make me want to be home with you.

 

    I woke up in the morning happy as fuck because it is my birthday. I am trying to figure out what I am going to do today. Everybody is calling me to wish me a happy birthday. I am 36 years old, but I still feel young. I want to go out on my birthday, but my family and friends planned a birthday party. There will have food and music there. I know that my girlfriend is going to be present at my birthday party.

 

    The first thing I did was get myself a line for my hair to look great for her. Then I went to get myself an outfit so that I would look nice for her. I went and got myself some sneakers. After all of that, I went to get myself something to eat. My family always looked out for me the way I looked out for them. I knew there would be many gifts at the party. I hope somebody bought me a phone. That was what I expected out of every gift.

                                                        CHAPTER 47

    You must be very hopeful about this life. If you want bad things to happen to you, you will live like this all the time. You do not want better days because you keep doing bad things. I do not live like this every day of my life. That is just the wrong way to live. You know that I love the females in my life. I know when I was out of town. You were worried about me and what I was doing there. You also ran our business, not just mine. I know it was hell for you. I know my coming home is important to you.

     I tried my best to stay safe out there. Nevertheless, some people wanted me alive. Some people wanted to rob me. I was playing it how it went. I wanted you to know that I loved you a lot. My family did not understand that it was what they put me through. It made many people stop talking to me. Sometimes I wished my family never let me go. I wished my father never got locked up. I thought if my father was here. My life might have been better. I would have had my company from the beginning of time. Nobody would have taken it from me. I was hoping my family would know that this was difficult for me.

 

    When people do not want to fuck me because of the way I handle my affairs. I mean, I love these people. Nevertheless, only a few people show me love in return. I do not know why I cannot be angry with anybody. You have to understand this game can make you or break you. Which one do you choose? I have come back to build a school so that more kids can learn. I like doing things like that for kids. Giving back is essential to me. That is why I am doing everything in my power. I know my father is proud of me, although he cannot see what I am doing.

 

    I promise to get my father out of prison. Even if it kills me. I will get him out of there. My brothers and I are going to go with our parents. We are supposed to own everything. However, fuck it. It is coming to us. Trust me because I know that. Drugs and the dealers are having a hard time. They will set you up. I am telling you, I have had it up to this point with this bullshit. Those types of people hustle backward. Nevertheless, you cannot tell them anything. Some people hustled hard. I cannot knock them because they are getting their money. They act like I am supposed to be scared of them. You do not know whoever tries to bully me. If they bully me, they will also be bullied.

 

    I have so much to gain. People often lose their fire for the game. My wife who shares this life with me is behind me as she has always been right there for me. I love when she tells me that I can do anything. The power of forgiveness is vital when you love somebody that much. We have to be strong now. Never let anyone come between us again. I know my mother loves you a lot. I do not want anything to happen to you. If you want to see better days, you better be calm before somebody hits that ass up. I do not know why these kids act like they are problematic when they are yellowbacks. They are looking for death. They have not yet to find it, but they will soon feel me.

 

    Be sure to hold your head before someone blows you up. I will let you know my gun is not working. I kept the gun for the rest of my life. When I moved out, it was hard. However, I have not screwed it up. That money use to call me all the time. That is why I hustle. I cannot let this money change me. It is what many people do when they get the money. They think they can do whatever they want. The pressure is on me. It makes me wonder why. It is because the ladies in my life know I will handle this. I can no longer turn my back. I have to keep pushing until my dreams come true.

 

    This is how it is not supposed to come out as a woman. Be a man, get up and get a job to take care of your family. I want to have as many kids as I can. As men, we do not want to say much of what we say to you. These girls have everything but a man in their life.  Then one day, God sends them one man. They are thankful for that. This man is strong. And one of the females knows that I am a saint.

 

    Set a date at any given date, and you will be in control of your life. I wonder what we are fighting for when it leads to death. Being hot these days is punishable by death because HIV can get her. Everything we anticipate seems to be happening. Growing up every day makes me grow old in my mind. That means raising in a family if you have a family. Make it the best moment for your children.

 

    I will do that. You do not have to remind me. It is coming to a time when I am going to be in these children’s life. Trust me. I cannot wait till that day comes when you and I get together and raise this family. What does that have to do with someone living within me? Ensure that cases are handled in all ways. I get to keep my happiness as a businessman. Plan for the future means whatever the outcome is.

 

    This business deal is on the table. Will I take it and run with it or not. Who knows what I would do. If you were in my place, what will you do? I think I made the right choice. I am helping the business out by writing short stories and owning essential companies. I am not going to watch my life go by me. I will live for my death. That is how the kid gets to work. You cannot compare me to them because my knowledge is different.

    I had to work for everything that belongs to me in the world. Friends come when money shows, but where were they when I was grinding. In one class, I watch older dealers sell these drugs, wondering how much money they make. You better be taking your time with these guys right now. I remember that time you came to me. My uncle Clyde was riding a dirt bike. I blew up that car and gave you my ring for your hand in marriage.

 

    I do not fight with many things at the same time because I am not that kind of person. I love spending my time on one thing at a time. Nevertheless, work comes so fast. Understand everything as it goes. It is not a problem. Nevertheless, it makes it more complicated. I have been through everything like a man can take from these streets. I cannot give up now because it comes to a point in my life where it only gets better and better for me.  I keep my head high.

 

    I wonder where my heavens are. It is because I do what Jesus wants me to do. Then I suppose I am going where his soul is with my family. I love you better than anybody else. You know that the last person you sleep with in your life is the person you will sleep with when you go to heaven. This is why I do not say too much about sexual relations. At the same time, I tell my family to stay with me.

 

    What does someone send from heaven? They call it heaven-sent. I know this must be a lovely space. I know Jesus has chosen me to take care of his affairs here on earth. Somebody has to do it. Why is he not a sportsman? When you first start going to school, you meet different girls. Then you fall in love with them. They are also falling in love with you. You can learn many different things. What you learn, you may want to go in that field of work.

 

    When I came home, I knew I could make some moves for us. Life goes on and on. It is what you are doing. If people understand the right thing, then God will bless them in several ways. Baby, I know that nobody can take care of me the way you can. Ladies, I want to be a part of your life. Well, you know I want to marry you. It is the only way we can be together. Baby, I want to show you how much I care. This blood shit is a strong movement back. They want sex, money, and murder to go out of town. So he can lock 101 status blood codes. That is what I did. They are taking a breath of fresh air down these streets.

 

    I want to be alone with her so that we can talk about our problems. Suppose you want me to love you. You have to give yourself time and take care of these kids. Talking to you means everything to me. I am telling you, you are not all by yourself. I will have people out of your house ready to kill you. My people are not playing. They want the dough that you have. You better come out before it gets messy. I mean, bodies are going to drop.

 

    It is like Jesus has given me a gift that does not make me like him. However, I have learned that my soul makes me believe in him. It is as if the devil is in me in many respects. What I am trying to say is they are fighting inside me. This is the way you make money. You have to save money. Then You will have a lot of money to spend. They will try to take from you. This is what I have to do. I have to get down to the top. Suppose my last days were to come. It should be with my family. I have a love of my life within me. Her children live with us as mother and father. This way, we can protect all of you as one.

 

    I am a drug lord. I am not proud of it. I know people’s death is a part Of it. There are many drugs and money. This is the custom. Quick money is not always good. You have to be in these streets. You must keep an eye on your back at all times. Things that happen in my neighborhood are crazy because they act the way they want me alive. They are hustling every day to run away from the police. I am at the bottom, but they know I got it. I am on the low, but they know I have got it.

 

    This little kid got with many families. He did not want in the family business. He wanted to start his own business. Moreover, he wanted to become a writer. So he started writing. He hustled real hard to own his company. It was doing well. We both knew I could shoot one of you if I had to. That was a part of the game we were in. Part of my life had been in this game for an extended period. I tried to keep the other part of my life with my family.

    I have to turn over a new leaf. Pray for my life to be more challenging. People say that God gives His most challenging battles to His strongest soldier. Now I am looking back. I have committed sins in my lifetime. Perhaps it will surface sex that is related to whom. Talk about those days are over. I stand here like a man, loving this life. Only God knows when it will turn into something worse. The ladies let me believe that I am finished. I am a strong man. I hope you understand that now. You cannot stop me from taking care of my family. You are just going to have to take my life. There is nothing I would not do for them. They are the love of my life. 

                                                              CHAPTER 48

 

    The pain of being in the house and not facing my family is immense. To see my family doing well, I look forward to being a part of my children’s life. I want to tell you that I think of you every day. I hope you understand that your father works and thinks of you. Remember what I have said about keeping your head up. I want you to know that there are no days when I do not think of you. Is it not great to know when we meet for the first time? We have not been a family together in such a long time.

 

    We cannot let this time pass. I remember the Jan sports book bag, with all of the string hanging on it. This is how I like you and miss you. I am aware that my children are being looked after. I am here with my girlfriend, Baby. The love of my life always holds me back. When we see each other, it will be a lot of love, hugs, and kisses. When the game starts again, we will have plenty of time. Just thinking about all my boys and girls. They are reasonable and make me happy.

 

    This is how the story goes. It is about who is the hardest in these streets must keep their eyes open. The game is horrible for people who do not know the game. She will have people on their bullshit. You never know what the game has in store for you. So let me get this right. The cross means status, and the dot means 16 in the clip and 1 in the chamber. Know this blood shit so I can be with you. So the dot means Damu. It will help if you get ready for what Jesus has in store for you. You asked if I could handle the rain?

 

    It is that gangster thing you are expecting. Get low at any time and manage a business that needs to be handled. Never let the game make you. Try to remain faithful to all the people you sleep with. Moreover, you are never to let up on the streets. Make sure you always follow the rules of the game. Make sure you stay one step above everyone else. This is Harlem shits you have been talking about. Why wait to get that money when you are down on those streets. It will help if you operate the microphone for yourself. Spit out that piece of shit that gangsters can identify with.

 

    When you live by the gun, you will die by the gun. The street side is not safe. This goes out to all of my Damu. When you make something else to eat, this is underground shit. Play hard or come home like I do, knowing the game is real. There is nothing sweet about these streets. Nowadays, if you hustle, you have to use your brains. You cannot slip. If you do, try to get right back up. This is what happens when you consider money. You are willing to do whatever you have to do to get that money. You have to stay humble.

    You have to be in. When you deal with these streets. You have to hold your head high, there's no way in hell you can slack. People say the game does not love you, But it all depends on who's on your team, you have to play fair and balance yourself for your good. This is the shit that everybody talks about: How many mistakes are you going to make? You have to be real and live life to the fullest. It's a whole lot you have to learn about this game and one thing you have to learn is to keep your mouth shut.

    How can I help you with what you are trying to do? Everything needs to come from the heart. Keep your promises especially when promised people keep when you tell someone you are going to do something. Make sure you help people that are in need. When you help others out good things come back to you. The more you help out, The more people will respect you, This time around I plan on helping a lot of people in need of help. It's time to straighten up my act and be more responsible for my actions. Make moves smart and respect others, It will make you a better man.

    This blood shit is a strong movement to be in. We all want sex and we all want money and we are all yelling murder. When you are in this gang shit you have to understand that you can die from it, That's a rule that you are a part of. Having this blood you must stay on 050. You have to know what this blood shit is about; We always keep our head up and never let it bow down. The more we stay in this game, The more money we can make. You just have to relax. Number one rule never let the streets get to you. At no time and everything that comes with the game is a must, That's just the way the game goes.

    It's all about the game. Why wouldn't I run, Only Lord knows how many more people have to get killed, We need to start taking action for what we do out here, Put down the guns and fight it out. Too many young black lives are dying. We need to start helping each other out, That's the only way we are going to own some shit out here. We need to build one another up, Holding our heads out here on these streets, Kids dying every other day isn't right. Until we get our shit together there's no way we are going to overcome.

    Let it be known, If it's on, Then it's on. I can't understand what you want from me. This murder death kills Treetop and fruit toppers. Everybody wants to be down with this shit, Whether you rock the red or the blue or the black universe. We should know to be 5050 love. You know these young kids are bulletproof, This is the way we roll, We still need each other if we come together as one. We can get more money instead of banging on one another. I stay on point, Oh know I mean 050, Codes. I know we shouldn't let anyone break them, Understand the rules feel me.

    I don't know how you move. As for me, I'm moving the right way, 0016 212 with my family, Living on the edge. I don't want to fall off. Get down whenever it's called for. I'm just older so I move calmly. When it's time to turn up trust me I will turn up, I'm on the low for now. Been there done that like Dr. Dre said, ‘much love to the west side, UBN, If you don't like me giving it up to the family, This Damu shit started in 93, That's the time I hit the streets. Much love running from that black justice, Shout out to all my family behind that Gwall.

    It's hard to smile in the future, Let's take it back to 94. I have been handling business on these streets. When I moved down south, Who thought it was all good. Trust me, It wasn't. That's why the folks moved up the east and blood moved south. Copyright everything so I'm not hiding anything, You saw that movement so you can imagine what I went through. Kids this is when you tell me to hold my head up, Mr. Freeze when I fall in love, 036 only you know that I can't deny you. As a matter of fact, I got my 101 Status here and the misses handle hers with no doubt.

    Let's get something straight, I learned not to talk too much. Handle what's in these streets; Thou shall not snitch, Fuck it get it? Money, Who gang bang nowadays, Red nose pits kill at will never forget that, If I can control the body of the man upstairs, You and I both know I been in the game for a long long time now, I can't understand why people that never ran the streets, Talk about drug dealers. Am I saying I'm moving work? No, I'm saying that, We have to stay true to the game. Everybody must move at the same pace.

    Who knew you can be a gangster and a snitch at the same time? If you know my handle you know I did that street life. Now I'm trying to get this money. With that being said, Get this money no matter, Whatever you have to do. When I wake up this is all that's on my mind. Never let these females change my thought process. DMX said your shorty can't eat books, You're my man, and I know that was just a movie, She can go to school to get her education and become a successful businesswoman. While her father handles his business.

    I know I had that look on my face. Trust me nothing happened. /now I ask you did you, This is all I know is I love you, She knows who I am talking about. I have to get a grip on this life. We cannot let anybody come between us. We have to start at being friends and then lovers come from that. If you cheated, Let it be none. Yes, I want you back. Do you want me back? I'm patched in, Green for soul and money. Looking back at you, I'm always packing tricks. Cone you move too much don't start something you can't finish, That's just a warning.

    To play this game, You have to understand what's at stake, This is the way I connect with you, Let's ride into the future. I just want to take this time to say thank you, For being there for me. I know you didn't have to wait all of this time. Trust me I'm thankful for this life we have together with each other. I'm trying to explain all that's on my mind. Stand next to me, Not in front of me and not in the back of me. When I make a move you move with me, I will never take a step without you walking with me right here.

    It has always been about you, You are my world and I can't live without you, in my life just the thought of not having you with me, We have been through everything you can imagine in this world. Let's continue to make this work. The only thing that's for sure is there are men and women in this world and sex is the only thing we have in common, I just want my kids in my life forever, I'm not giving up on our love. Let's take this time just to look at each other and thank God for our life.

    Yes, let's load up when we find these kids. We let that thing off, Who playing with any of y'all people, That's how battlegrounds get down. It will be a 1090 fucking with us. You talking let's 212 with them never. This is a war you started. Now we are going to finish it. So 183rd ya heard and he said what's good. You have to watch how a murderer moves, You know I stay on 050, I'm not slipping so watch yourself out chea. You get down and I get down, May the best man win and move to the top.

    When you are deep in these streets, When you use force it's not going to get you anywhere. Big-time drug dealers said you have to be low, Meaning no flashing cars no flashing jewelry no flashing money. The girls can get you in trouble; the power of the cat. That's what Boy George said. That's what he would've had did differently, That's why I don't chase the money nor the females. If she is with you take care of her, Staying low, for now, Why take the high road when you saw everybody that took the road failed.

    Busting this slug, That's what you want right? Ma, This shit is getting hard. You know this road looks like it's almost over. Only he who works hard can accomplish more for himself, Feel me? 44 long nose cause chaos. I told you I can't let you down round here. Stay on 050, Feel me? Conversation check money I don't think you wanted as bad as I wanted it. You telling me to keep my head in this book. This is all I know, Green treetop, that's the name of one of the top gangs that got roots on the west coast.

                                                            CHAPTER 49

    This shit goes hard. Uncle Nephew got you until I'm locked up, I don't get wet when it rains. Keep it 100 with me at all times east side. This is what Mack build the UBN for, So y'all can dress like this and talk like this, Well I'm going to talk like this and walk like that in my DMX voice. When you see me you also see three the hard way. Know bullshit, I live by the codes of the streets, This gangster shit comes and goes. It depends on how long you hold your shit down.

    When you are hard to kill, Just sitting here wondering will the dot go off. Blank it try me, The game doesn't change for anybody. Free the real goons this goes out to all of my blood doing time. I wish you could be here with us, Traveling around the world. If it’s ain't one thing then it's the next thing. I haven't asked my company for money for about 25 years. That's what you call grinding. Just imagine if I was spending my money, Who could stop me?

    I made it to the top of my mission. Whoever wants to get down with me, please don't cross me. You know I'm marked for life. Handling our business as I said, You know I couldn't give up. Why let up, When I know my mind is at its strongest point in life. Just think when this started, I didn't know where writing was going to lead me in life. It looks like it paid off. You have to have a lot of faith If you are going to succeed in this game. Shorty looking like she tight.

    This is how I undress you, My baby. It has been too long, But the kid is still here for you. I miss you and my family so much, Oh boy, Here we go again time is ticking. Can't wait to see what's up in heaven, Just meeting you at heaven's gates will and always will be a blessing, Sometimes I feel like waiting for that date, There's nobody like you and that's what my heart believes. I just want to cause havoc, But I know I have to be nice. If she was here I know my job would be taking care of her.

    The more the fire burn, The more I can't cool off. I hope there's light at the end of the tunnel. Meanwhile, this path has put me in a place where, That there's known return, I just hope you are walking this path with me. I don't want to go my separate ways, It's hard to say but if we have to break up, I will be alright. It's a lot of females out here but there's only one for me. How can we overcome the fact that we love each other? Oh, I'm twisted about mixed feelings. I just have to know before it gets any deeper.

    Step up to you, With a lot on my shoulders. This is how hard it is for someone to enter my life. What about a man putting up a wall, So a female can't enter because he thinks all females are the same? They chase money when I just want to take care of one. I feel you all over the place, Just when I thought it can't get any worse. I just remember when we were kids. I know we can't go back to those days, But boy I miss it. How can we start over together and still love each other, Like we never parted ways?

    The mind-heart knows felt, Everybody has flaws. I want to move inside of Jesus' body, So I can be in peace, I think I need my savior in my life. I know my job isn't done, I have so much more to do, Baby. It's like you are holding on to me. Why my focus isn't therefore we as one together make two, The idea of not being with you hurt so much. This gift I have makes up for your missing days, As the days pass, It's hard but easy at the same time, Just guard me against the evil ways life has in it.

    Nights turned into days, and Bad days turned into good. You have to stay positive in life, That's the only way you are going to get your blessings. The thought of losing you, I still can't believe it's true baby. You had a promising future, I still remember the conversation we had before you left my house. You said baby do you and I will be there for you. Thinking it's my fault that you are not here today, Life couldn't be harder for me. Let's not be selfish, It's harder for you.

    If I holler at you, Just make sure I calm down, Before you leave me. Why do you stay on my case? All of the anger in the world, Only makes us upset with each other. Let's not fight we have to stick together. When times are bad, You know the old saying when the road gets rough, These feelings are all over my body all day, Hope you are happy valentine's day, Make this day about us, This is just a gift. I hope it makes you feel happy, Even though my present will always be here for our family.

    Everybody knows where I'm from. I take what I did to the grave. You can't ever say I talk to jake. People get popped messing with sincere battlegrounds. Don't talk to rats, The game that we are in, Dogs know blood handles their business. You can't be half-balling, You need to know your place in these streets. With that being said I stay mac in, This goes out to my Damu, Yeah we live to the max, We are not to be played with, Even when you are at the top of the game. Never let up.

    This is the shit you don't want to hear. How can you hide from what people say about you, Just gets this money? I can't fall because that's not in my blood. You have to make the money don't let the money make you. That's what some people do. Same people you see when you are going up, You see when you are coming down, So do good business and respect everybody you come across. Don't get this shit fucked up. Little behold this is battlegrounds and I get down for this shit until I die the hearts of men.

    Your body has my mind going on and on, About making love to you, Can't you tell the way I act When I see you. Hold on baby, This love can't be replaced with someone else. When I was out of town, My mind thought about what I am going to do to you. I know you would like to mind, Just the thought of us breaking up isn't right. You know why. This may be hard to say because I miss you. Can't believe it but I know in time we will be together, Trust and believe.

    How can you be a street person, That's not trying to get out of the streets. This shit I'm in makes a man like me, Want to get out of the game. When that happens it just happens. I’m not going to force it to come, Like I said earlier I just have to wait it out, trust, and believe it's coming to me. With me not asking any questions about where my life is headed, I just have to take it one day at a time. When you are dealing with this street life.

    Dogs do a lot for the real street family. Blood is what I live by. I know I can't get caught up with these young boys in these streets. I live by a pop-off code, We popped off when we were young. These little gangsters give it up, You need live wires with you, That get down at any time. Locked up we have to just stop that and be smart. We all want money, We all want fame, We all want street creds, But I have to think about the bigger picture and that is being here for my family.

     Formation when you get in line. You want G fives to wherever you want to go, I can make that happen in due time. You want to front for the world, Why I just want the time of day in my life, Where I can just reflect on all of this time we spent together. Bama, It's real gangsters out there. You might say why to ask me, Cause I was out there with crazy as country Bama's. It's fun and dangerous at the same time. You can learn a lot from down south.

    Just cause I love my people, Blood my family, and Streetlife so I'm all in. I got to make it out some kind of way, Just because I'm not in the streets, But I still got my people in these hoods that don't give a fuck. Blood in blood out. Hanging around the family makes me feel good about the life I was in, a Gangster paradise. Where is the set trip at? I know shorty that's why people that I run with can't stand y'all. Sent her down south what sex hit who up thinking the kid was going to be 801.

    Value yourself because there's always somebody looking at what you do. The mind, The thoughts, The crimes and the jail cells, The people and the kids are watching what older people do. That's where they learn from. We cannot hide from our responsibility as grown folks. Try not to let anybody bring you down, Keep moving forward in life and, If you fall get right back up and try again. Always have faith in what God has in store for you.

    Every little move I make, I want you moving with me, Holding on for dear life; Actions speak louder than words. I'm just here thinking about who can I trust. When I was away from you, Just remain here with me, This is where I want us to be. Knowing that we can grow together. R&B is what I am on, But if all that I say comes true with someone, I'll be more than happy. People fight for a lot of things. The thought of not being with you, Without you, is hard baby, But you stayed right in my heart.

    When you wake up, I want to be right next to you, Touching that body. You have been on my mind all day. How can we make love right now, Just as a man wanting to do what's right, Do I have to say more? Maybe you understand what I am talking about. All night making you feel good, What position do you like? From the front or the back? Who is playing the top or maybe we can take turns? You and I inside of each other, Makes the night go right. Then we wake up in the morning next to each other.

    Baby this may be hard to say, But when I saw you for the first time, Thoughts were running through my mind, On how can I step to you, And tell you my name. Blank it, I can't let this shorty pass by, So I step to her and said, “Hi baby, What's your name?” She said, “sex,” I said, “what’s that a clue on what I want to do to you? She said, “all men are the same, And they only want one thing.” I said, “I know this sounds like a game, But I am looking for someone I can build with. Do you think that girl is you? May, I have your number? She said yes.

                                                                CHAPTER 50

    This must be heaven on earth. When I'm with you, I can't imagine myself without you baby. Seeing you in the club dancing on that pole, Making that ass clap with, Everyman looking at you, But me I got one thing on my mind: How can I get you home tonight with me? Throwing all of those single-dollar bills at you. This can be so passionate to me, When you grind on me like that. She got me feeling her. I hope she wants me as I want her. Before the night is over, How can I get you on my ride?

    You are always playing games with me and I'm not playing because I'm trying to get you home with me. We can go on vacation. Notice I use the ‘s’ on vacation, We can travel to anywhere you want to go. Unlimited miles so don't worry because it's all on me. It's a shame the way your body looks, Stepping out of the shower with your body dripping wet, This is hard to watch, Maybe next time I can get in the shower with you. Baby don't hold back let's do everything your mind wants to do. You don't have to hide your thoughts.

    The motherless child can be so incapable of doing love things, ‘cause he doesn't know how to treat a woman, But when you're raised by a woman, You know how to treat your queen. Taking care of a woman, Comes with knowing the games being played. You have to be honest with each other, As a man, you, Have to know right from wrong. You have to take your time with the women. Couldn't wait to tell you how much I love you. Blank you back to sleep, How can we make this more intense with our body touching? Writing love letters?

    Starting this conversation, Means we have a lot to talk about. When are we going to be together? I'm a smart man and I hope you are a smart woman, The closer we get, The more my feelings start. My faith never ends, This is a test of how we treat one another. How can you be so damn sexy? Let's never part from one another. How loud do I have to get to prove I want you? This is God's plan, These emotions that I have for you. I am yelling because I can't be quiet.

    Bring your sexy ass here, So we can talk about anything that's on your mind, You stay on my case about the money. I agree you like to keep me focused, The long nights writing while being tired. Baby. Can I give you the world? I know this is a big deal. Do not let me forget that you are also the rock of this family; Taking care of the children, getting them up for school, Cooking and cleaning, and making sure they are smart. It must be a hard job, I can make moves knowing the kids are cared for, So let's keep this on the right path.

    You can talk a good one but can you back it up? Killers move in silence, They get things done, That need to be handled on these streets. How can you feel no remorse for the other side? People live, People die, While I'm here I'm going to get this money. Streetlife keeps calling me. This shit isn't a game. People live by this game. A lot of people locked up from the game. The only way you get out is jail or dead and it's fucked up to say, Being in the game keeps me on my P's and q's, Cause I know I could be here one day and gone the next day.

    Popping off means you are in the mix, With all of this shit going on in the world. People get popped every day, You have to move carefully out here, Make sure you watch your back, Go head to head with people, No bitch shit, Stand your ground, Here we go again hold your head up, Don't disrespect me, I'm just telling you, Cause if you hold your head down, It isn't any good. Your ass will get picked off, So keep that in mind, If you want to live long enough to see your children grow.

    Battlegrounds are where gangsters live. The love I have for my friends, We get down whenever there's a problem, We handled it asap with kids that want war, Since the war continues, Come on knowing more blood needs to be shed. I understand junk town ghost town gangster paradise and da jungle, We all want one thing and that's to get money, People can't eat if we can't come together. The connection we have in New York City with, All of these big-time companies, With this rap shit we are supposed to be on the top.

    Decisions we make can help us in life. We have to have a strong impact on our life and the life of others. I'm just one that's a monk a whole lot of people depend on each other. We are all supposed to do for each other when times are hard, We all make mistakes in life, and We also have to learn from them and make things right. Being an artist is something I love to do, Making music the way the beat comes in and the lyrics impact the song.

    Down south let's get to business. They play AK choppers, I had the 38 special and then I had the 25 and had the 25 snub nose. Ox stayed in the mouth, Don't get that close to me. Triple five and willing to use it. Sex, One question. How did you spit yours out the mouth and caught it with the left hand and snip me? I guess when you’re raised by a blood 036 learn the right way to handle business, Mr freeze you the only one, I played that code for you and you have gone, It's so easy to say you right chea.

    I remember all of the spots I was at when I was in the south? Danger zone beware the kid get down. Just because I wasn't running with my friends in junk town, Don't think I was soft handling business. Everybody plays out of town, Getting money until I'm gone. How do you figure I'm not the same person, I was when I was young? I just got a worse only way to stop me. Red light, Greenlight, If you are down with me, We are close enough to do everything that life has to offer me, Streets keep calling me, My ears to the streets.

    Game respect game. How can you play me, When I'm in this game just to get what I can get out of it. White flag and it's never going to change. This shit doesn't get to me. Baby, who do you want? Can I be your one and only? For my ladies out of town that's with me, If I use 5007 would you understand what I am trying to say to you, Outside contact that's what it means, This is the first knowledge. Everybody's claiming to understand the rules. Is this what Mack created? Read more into it.

    I Apologize for mixing messages. Whoever felt some kinda way. What I did wasn't meant to hurt you, But when the people status you, Know your every move it's hard to get in trouble. Okay, I got out of trouble haven, Can come again if you think I'm playing. No females are involved, Only men gangsters can't play with murderers. Okay, So let’s say I go out that's what's on some of y'all minds. I get it if I was out there these writings wouldn't be on this paper blood call.

    Yo, Let's get this shit popping. Who's with me in these streets? It's all over here feel me. The game fucked up, Feel me? When you are handling the drug business, You can't fuck with me. This that shit that gangsters want to hear. Playing that music that my ninjas like to listen to. Get out of your feelings and get this money. That's what all of these other ninjas doing, the streets play for keeps. Don't let anyone take from you, Hold your shit down to the fullest, Keep it real with ninjas that you fuck with, Make sure everybody is good.

    This might cause people to dislike me, Harlem changed up why we can't get back to the music like it was in 98. That's the music I grew up on. Don't call me a hater because I run all of this music shit. ESCE just to let you know, The mind state of these rappers is crazy, My blood pressure is building, I grew up on 2pac, DMX, BIGGIE, NAS, JAYZ, And the LOX, That's the music that inspired me. What's in the bank I can cover? The 456 damn E.LOW is gone that's just insurance that anybody can pass. I have to stay on my toes.

    Promise when times get hard, Baby, I just want you by my side. Aside from all of the fighting, That we went through, It's just showing how much love we have for each other. This comes from my heart, As we grow up it's getting easy, Taking care of you, The plan that we have let's continue to work on. Never let anyone take that from us. Yes, it can get painful without you, It's so long I wonder if I can continue to go on. It sounds like this is going to work out for the best, Now that we are in time, Look at the outcome, We are stronger than ever.

    When she wants to spend time with you, You give it to her. If she wants to watch the game with you, You let her. Going out? Take her with you. When you go shopping, Buy her what she wants. The first time you meet the woman of your dreams, You treat her like that every day. Never change upon giving her the love that she needs. You got to take your time with this woman. Taking her out to eat or to the movies or taking her to the park, Whatever you like to do you include her.

    Get money when you balling out of control, Who can stop you. Why are you asking me questions about other females? Do you see me with them? How about you look at yourself? What are you doing fucking everything walking? That's why I'm not messing with anyone right. My mind is on this money. If your man bank account is thick, Trick on who. You did that for a reason, I leave it in God's hands. Look, What I got all of these blessings. The next step is for me to go to the top, do Trips, and do shows.

    It's always something more to a relationship, How can I understand how you feel? Nobody knows what you are thinking. If you tell me, maybe I can do what's right. Being one, Does it start with you telling me what you are feeling? You always say it's a problem being with me when I should be in your heart and mind at all times. This word called trust should be all we know about. It is the strongest point and we should use it when we address each other. Just let me be yours and you only mine.

    How long is this road? It must be a long walk. If you put your heart into being faithful, Anything can come from that. Why do you want to play games? When we are growing up, The reason you have me by your side, Remember it's that I want to be here. What's your point of view on our life as of now? I want to be with you for life. This is not an ordinary woman, She wants everything that I can give her. It's up to me to help her dreams come true, This is how we are supposed to treat each other.

                                                                CHAPTER 51

    You should make me happy, When I'm sad or if a problem happens. The key to a healthy relationship is building each other confidence, If we decide to move on will you stop thinking about me? You know I had a lot on my shoulders, Let's take our time. I say this for a reason, Do you remember all of the times we had fights and then made up, You know how hard it is in the life we share. If you promise to hold me down, I'm going to do right by you. There's nothing in this world, that would make me trade in my hands.

    Am I in your future? Let me know now. Stop all the playing with that body, Baby. How can we get this started? It's all up to you. This should tell you I'm ready to see you. How long one should wait without you, If it was up to me we will be together right now, It's all about you baby, When hard times come into our life you always got my back. That's what I like about you, Any other chick would've bailed out on me, You are the one I call if I need something, So why would I turn my back on you, When you are my ride or die?

    When you left you took my heart. I'm asking you to bring it back to me. You moved so far away from me, Only thing we have is me sexing your mind. Every day, I see you always want me to take my time. How can I take my time with those legs up to your lips? This shit is bothering me. You always ask me for money, I give you everything you want, What about you taking care of some of my sexual needs? This is the way we can start making the place hot, It doesn't take much to get me in the mood.

    Do you love me, Baby? Let's take our time. All I want is for you to yell out my name. Me making love to you, Sexing you up. If you want this like I want this, How long you are going to make me wait? This is only the beginning of our journey. Let's wake up next to each other every day, okay? Please don't change upon me. How can I feel on that ass? With all these things running through my mind on what I want to do to you, Growing old from a young age, Can't wait until I get you on top of me. I'm a red nose pit.

    Baby, The things in the past, Don't mean I'm that man now? I have grown up. Trust me it's hard being with you. You know I'm here until you say you don't want to be with me anymore. If I had any women to pick to be with on earth, You are who I would pick baby. Understand I'm down for you. Undressing you, Climbing in the bed with you, Come on baby be mine for life. How can I go on without you? Let's dance all night long like it's the last dance that we get together.

    You made it clear that you don't want me. Baby, can we talk about this? I'm not giving up on you, I need to be with you. I want to see you and hold you and never let you go. I'm pouring my heart into you. Just because I'm not writing gangster music that doesn't mean I'm not, Letting my females know how I feel about them. You always said I was doing you wrong. Now that I'm not doing anything you want me to go back to the old me? Or is that just something that I think baby?

    I can't wait until you are ready for me to be your man. Baby, How do you know when you're ready to be mine? The pressure of losing you hurts. Let's get on this now, On how we want to live our life, Let's play this game together, So both of us can handle the work that's in front of us. Let's never let each other down. At no point telling one another, that it's over unless we mean it.

    Money became a problem when I was 12. I started going out, Hanging out with my friends turning shit up. I had a lot of girlfriends, and Parties while my wife was at home, I'm trying to make this time go faster. There's a rule and she understands that now. I left home at 12 until I turn 30 what rule is that? 18 years of pain going through a lot of problems, Jesus was a carpenter.

 

    There's this little boy that feels pain from not being with his family because he's sick, I think they didn't want to be a part of my life because of that. If you are reading this you know where Empire came from. I built this company from the ground up, and I had a lot of thoughts on how to come up with these writings. I was a little kid without my father, Not because he didn't want to be there.

    Let's make this day a special day, Mark this down in my calendar to always repeat this day, Being faithful. Do you hear me? I'm talking to all of y'all. I don't wanna be a player. I need one girl. If I'm able to have all of the girls I dream about, Then let it be, I'm not mad. I'm glad this was the night we understand each other. We know it's hard to be without being together. Just imagine us connecting, It's going to be real and the love is going to be there. I can't wait any longer, We need to make that happen soon.

    You are on my mind a lot baby. Where could we meet on the low? The reason I do not say anything when I see you baby is that I want you by myself. This man here, Shouldn't kiss and tell. I keep shit like that to myself. It's only for me to know what we did and who I did it with. Catch my heart in your arms because it hurts. The thought of being away from you this long is a big problem. I have to get my head together if this relationship is going to last, What's your outcome inside of you. 

    I have to pray that we make it to fathers day, I don't mean to take anything from your day. Let's think about this. How can I show you how much I care about you? Let this day go down in history, I made it another year being faithful to you. That goes to show what a real man does for his ladies. A stand-up type of guy. That’s so hard to do, When you love someone as much as I love you, I know everything takes time and we have to get our shit together, If we are going to be in your life.

    Yes, Let's get back to this loving. You are my world. I just want to be by your side. Days turn into nights. One more day being apart from you, I can't take it. We can be together in this thing called life, Enjoying each other's company. We can't be upset about today; I hope you are having a wonderful time this Mother's Day. I'm calling out to all the mothers that take care of their children, You can also have a life too. I just want you to put your kids first because they need that woman's touch.

    Missing the days, That's just the days in the past, Let’s look into the future, It's always something come on what's wrong now. Baby, Wait don't get upset. Didn’t I handle that? I was willing to go out like a true soldier. Nothing was going to stop me from fixing this. Now that you and I go through what we go through, We have to watch each other back But manage to look forward. Let’s move at a slow pace or faster than usual, It's always something come on what's wrong ain't we handling it the right way.

    The way you made me, That's because I have to be this way. Nobody going to stop me from what I am doing, We have to make plans for the day when we get under each other, Let’s set a date, Baby. What if I want to stay single forever? Ellison or until I get married. There's no way we can't come to a common ground When we see each other. I have thoughts of talking to you. Baby, do you agree with me continuing these writings? This is how I express myself to you. Faithful, That's a strong word, We have to live in peace and control our emotions for the sake of our children.

    I made mistakes baby you know I'm on the right path. Only if you would follow this path I'm on, You are always talking about your mine. How can I tell when there are things that I think? Yes, My mind always zones out, There are so many men in this world. Therefore, You should know there are a lot of ladies out here too. How do we know that we belong together if we don't try to do the right thing? My heart has a special place for you, My kids are growing up and this family that I have I don't want to lose it.

    Never seeing you again, Can be hard. I can't have that in my life, You need to know something. I'm here, But are you going to do what it takes to keep me in your life? When you love someone that much you will do anything for that person. This is the time I tell you are my rib, Your soul mate only a step away. Do you walk past the line or walk away from me?  The one that was there when I had nothing, Stayed with me. Now that I'm on my feet, She can have anything she wants. I'm talking to all of the ladies that are in my life, Stand strong.

    I don't know how my life is going to end, Baby can we come to an understanding? Know others but me and you. We are going to go through ups and downs. Baby, Let me undress you with my love, How can you follow the man upstairs? I only want to be with you. The pain is there from me being out of town but guess what I'm back home with you and my family. I love being a poet, For the love of the game, Let's stay strong and beware of people with negative thoughts, We have to love this life and live it to the fullest.

    Don’t forget it, You know who runs this relationship? Baby, I know you know, I have to get out of my feelings and get on my job. This is the place I live with you together. Watch what you do out here. Before your shorty leave you and be with me, How does that look like me and you on a date at night or out to eat, Who's going to make the first move baby, That's all I'm asking. You move then only then I'll move, Who knew you knew your ace, So we are on that subject what place am I at.

    Tell your friends who's first. I try not to get myself in trouble, A threesome is always a man's fantasy, Just the thought of 2 women making love to me. I know it feels sexy as hell. God can you bless me with a woman that knows what she wants from a man. I don't need to be going back and forth with her about the way she acts, Because I know how mad you can make a girl get. Back to the basics how are you doing, Do you have a boyfriend, What's your name, and can I get your number no games.

                                                           CHAPTER 52

    When the time is right, we will make love again. When we were separated, it might have been for the best. How long can you go? Until death does us apart, or should I say in eternal life? That means here on earth and in heaven. We cannot ever cross each other. One minute you want me, and another minute you do not want me. Which one is it? I need to know because I do not get any younger. Just the idea of that heartbreaking friendship and lovers. At a time when you realize you want her more than she wants you. What do I do?

    Get your guns. Let me get this money balling out of control. Making you sick, you should just get with me. This music shit was one of the best. I am never going to fall off. The only way is by the gun. Nevertheless, who wants to kill me? Everybody likes me because I am sweet. How can you spin off in that whip? This is that battlegrounds shit. Money will not stop me. How can you play hard? When you are soft as hell, I miss my uncle. He knows I got him. Who knows, his nephew would be on the top of this game. Watch out for Jake.

    My family always comes first in my life. When you are quiet, not a lot happens. When you are in front of everything, then much stuff happens. I want beautiful cars, just like people play. People talk too much. So I have to keep my friends close. So when this rap shit takes off, we can make much money. I never hated anyone in my life. I am from sugar hill. You know how we get down. Yeah, She hit my line. Yes, you can if that is what you want to do. I cannot complain.

    Now I got that off my chest. Back to business bloodbath, you manage yours while in the field. I do not know what a man thinks of you as Hundred thousand did. Did it hurt you? Let us see you drop. People use guns to kill people. When we need to use our minds, we can do better. Gangsters have hearts like Battlegrounds. I wonder if her record company got called Black Ground. Did I have something to do with that? The money is right and ready to go to war.

    The day after, I turn on the water, ready to go to war for what I believe in. There is no way I am going to fail. This was when I had to stand up and do nothing to realize what we did. I kept thinking, how will I get out of this mess I got myself into, baby. I know it is going to be complicated. Faith played a significant part in my life. I had everything. It is hard to mend a broken heart.

    Just thinking of an unhealthy obsession with the girl of your dream, She might scream and act out, or it might just be the way she calls for attention. I do not see myself being a sideperson or having a girlfriend, and she has a sideman. All of the little things started happening. Like going out and staying out all night, baby. My phone was dead. That is all the signs of a cheating female. That goes to show how much you mean to her. Fuck that. I have to protect myself because of one slip. I can lose everything.

 

    I have got to be the one you hold at night. We cannot get upset about little things that do not matter. We should move forward and take our time. Baby, you do not know how I feel. I am telling you to make me the happiest man in the world. I am just here to make your life easy and give you everything you want. As a young girl, what did you dream about? I want to know to try to make that come true. Growing up as this beautiful woman you have become shows your man cares because you look so good.

 

    What do you think about me and our time together when you love someone else? I suppose that means it is familiar here. It is okay with me. I want you to know there will never be another man who will treat you like I did. Now, as I look for another woman in my life, I think about how I should get into a shorty. I have so much to give, meaning loving and caring for her. I am not supposed to let this go. I want to be that man for you and take care of all responsibilities.

 

    You know you mean everything to me. I do not want to go on without you in my life. The man upstairs wanted me to go through this. So the man, I would not have to go through it. God knew that I was a strong man, and I lived up to his expectations. It was painful going through all of the bloodshed that my body had to endure. Nevertheless, I am here to tell my story, and I live through it all. This is what made me a man. Knowing that I did this all for you and nothing means more to know I got my wings.

 

    How about when a man is fed up with all of the partying and going out with his friends. Are you worth all of this pain? It only means nights are going to get lonely. I am handling our business and keeping this company running smoothly. I have to stay focused on my dreams. Set goals and accomplishments will come. I have to keep my head in this book. If I want my future secured, all hard work will pay off in time. I cannot let anyone sidetrack me from doing what I was put here on earth to do.

    Make sure you are careful because a woman can hurt you more than ever. Ladies, a man can hurt you too. I just want a partner in this relationship. So we can take care of one another, knowing how hard it is to find a woman. First, you should trust your partner if you want that relationship to work. Lies only make it hard to trust. Trust is supposed to be an essential part of our lives. Why can’t we be on the same page? Are you playing me for a fool? A woman comes a dime a dozen. So make sure you play your part, or someone else will.

 

    You always want to be around different men every day. Calm down. This is just R&B talking to my wife. You are so far away from me. Yes, I wonder if you are out there with another man. I can imagine how many guys come to you. Asking you to be with them. I know this is not about the money because I have a lot of that. This may be about 22 years ago. I am still trying to make it right. How can I make it right if you are not trying to work with me? As you can see, I never did anything because karma is in my favor.

 

    It is just the thought of you with someone else. Yeah, we are in the hood. This is my writing going out to you. Baby, this gangster shit means nothing without you by my side. This is how I get down in these streets. Hold your head. You are pretty. This is expected to happen. You told me the game does not last forever. If there is only you in my life, I would be happy. You are a sure keeper. When I look in your eyes, I see the world on earth. We can walk through the park holding a bottle of champagne. Blessed to be with you, make it last. 

 

    How many kids are going to be born by me? What is your sex appeal baby,? Now, are you on my back, honey? Why is it the call for me? We have to stop playing this game. When can me and you touch bases? About the time we had, you cannot face it, but that is fine. I will never cry over a girl. Understand that. When my player cards play an essential role in the number of women in me, make a note of your number. Can I have the time of day? I need a woman who understands me and the way I think.

 

    Many young black lives are dying from HIV. Please protect yourself from this. Ellison, or just let it be. That is a son of a bitch. Just some thoughts for you to think about. I am just giving my family the heads up about this disease. You can wait until the right women come along when you are sure. It will be best if you have mine. Do not let anyone force pressure on you. Just know you are a woman and should take your time. We are men, and we also need to take our time with relations.

 

    By kissing you all over your body, you take that girl as your wife? Yes, I do never letting you go. I vow to take care of you and all of the things you need in this world. You and I are talking about the life we want when we get older. I am trying so hard to make that come true. It is hard as hell, but there is nothing more valuable than you in my life. You got me yelling CY it ends. It is just a little something New York City has that we should pay attention to. This cannot be life. This cannot be love without me next to you.

 

    So, time will only tell how long we will be with each other. Yes, it has been a long time since we were together. Do not go listening to your friends. I am here. Grab those words out of your mouth before you say something you will regret. Think before you open your mouth. Yes, I am using my mind. Yes, it is better to wait for someone you love, even if it takes forever. You know me, and I know you. It means that our souls are connected in far more ways.

    Where should I be at? Right next to you. Do not forget the world is yours, the whole earth. Please do not let yourself get upset about little things that have to know the meaning. Make sure you praise God. Let him know he is the most crucial person in your life. Then comes your boyfriend or girlfriend. What goes up must come down. When you pray, he hears you. He knows who is good and who is terrible. That is the way he operates. What I say is just words from him. God is watching over me. So my life can be better.

 

    Let us get shit popping. When it is for you, you have to prepare for war. Anybody can get murdered to keep that wire with you at all-time East Side. I am a part of this drug shit. I cannot see myself going to black justice know time soon. It’s not about who has got more money. I am trying to stay here on these streets. Fuck, who does not like it. This has to stop being out here with no money. When I would get old, I want the money at that time. While I was young, I tried to stack. This shit can get complicated at times. 

 

    Where the hell is she? It is that piece of shit I am talking about. How can I get you in bed this night? Who is holding you down? Understand the rules 183, you heard? What is popping this sex, money, murder shit? Yeah, the kid blazing to the day I die hands-on Damu, the left side got the wire on it. Will it fire? Who knows, keep yours next to you at all times. I hold my city high from NYC so that it does not trap. We are in these streets around the corner with the work for us. Moreover, a greater quantity is in the apartment.

                                                             CHAPTER 53

 

    If this is the way, we will act over this bullshit. When will you know that we can start being one home? It is already hard as hell. She now knows what she is doing to get a player faithful. What about the time we spent back in the day. I am into some young joint, Wondering if they want me. The way I want them, We are battling being together. I hate shouting, but yelling is the only way I can get to you. My heart is heavy about losing time. It has been a while since we saw each other. I know you are handling your business.

 

    If I start going out, maybe I can find somebody to be in my life. I am not by myself. My baby is here with me. What are you saying to me? You do not want me anymore. This might be why you distance yourself from me. Alternatively, is it me thinking about you, and you think about me. Let us do it now. I cannot wait no longer. Where do we go from here? How about you let that long-distance come to a close when you deal with a woman who has a good head on her shoulder and wants nothing.

 

    I’m not listening to anyone. She has more than many you men. Just the thought of balling with you, money blew on anything you want. Whatever you see, it is yours. You can pick and choose, as the world is in your hands. I am not holding anything back. I am telling you how it is. Get low for what stays high while I drink. Catch the Holy Ghost. I am so proud of my family. We stay strong because we have each other back. That is always a good sign of respecting one another.

    Dead presidents, everybody wants money but does not want to work. Me, my ninjas, and I will get this money one way or another. We are all trying to eat off of this plate by any means. My ninjas are handling business from back in the day. Making moves as we had to make them. We were not going forward knowing bullshit. Staying on top of our game. This is the way hustlers hold their ground. Being from the battlegrounds, it was much money back then when we had it. Do not get it fucked up. We still make moves. The moves we do know we have to be careful about for many reasons.

 

    The city is mine. Why does everyone want to know about what has happened? Everybody talks about the old-time drug dealers. Follow your rules. Ninjas are not living that life. How can you say they would have respected you. The game is different ninjas were not telling. Take care of the game you play. Stop talking about drugs if you are not selling them. It is all about the truth. If you are living that life, then you can talk about it. Nevertheless, if you have not sold drugs for more than seven years, talk about what you are doing. You are breeding young ninjas with no knowledge of the game. That can get them life live in black justice.

    He talked about it if you get the money. That is a lot of money. Fuck it, keep it trill. If you want something, you get off your ass and get it. If you cannot get money in New York City, it does not matter. You are right. I am sick in the head. Ninjas do not realize who is to be fuck with and who is not. Yes, we can bring back haven. I do not think you want that to Pick up a pistol, Pete. At the end of the day, we are a money gang. That is why I am always in my green bees. I respect where this blood shit came from.

    Song Cry, I know it hurts to go through what you had to endure. We are on a known path. That cannot be broken until we see each other. Yes, I am going to keep this life up. It is not what you do. It is whom you know. This shit hurts my heart. Going on without a partnership, I thought it was better or worse. When you move with good intentions, good things happen. It is the same idea I had of setting up a new business. The old company can be yours without any questions being asked after the fact.

 

    Come back in one piece, ten months 317 verses. Now that is what I call on my job. Ten albums with ten tracks get it. Seventeen verses left one day up ill, do it? I would like to go with my dogs hanging out all night. Nevertheless, when your shorty inside of you, Elijah, You cannot tell me. You do not get it. I am not saying any names. Ninjas might get offended. It was not my call. I’ll say the name every time I pass in a week shit.

    Warning the setup all of you did was good, but it did not work. I am still handling this business. If you are in the game, you have to stay above water. Money makes a good person bad. The devil is always working. I am trying to stay off of that level. This shit is not for many people. If you made it, you had to be on top of your business. Never let anybody take anything from you. Watch those that are with you for your money. They are the kind of people who hate to see you win and make sure you stay grounded on these streets.

 

    One more chance who is right or who is wrong. Let us get off that bullshit and move on. Yes, it has the best effect on others. Talking about who left who, I’m here for now. For now, do not get comfortable things do happen. If we break up, I am good, are you? There are many females in this world. I am working on how I can sleep with all of them. That is what men think about every day. However, being a nasty chick can be dangerous because many men try to sleep with those types of women. I need the ones that are faithful to me.

 

    Big Poppa, why do you think I am saving myself for the right one. I do not wish that on anybody. Come on. You have to protect yourself. If I lay down with someone, I must know your status first. Everybody is sleeping with each other. The only thing in this world is women and men. Sex is the most desirable thing. Yes, I understand that. You have to strap up. Be careful with those clubs where everyone is screaming at each other. I am trying to get this money. Sex can come later on in life. I am not missing anything. You are inside one girl, or you are inside all of them.

    Hypnotize to match the pressure you have gone through with the time of your life. Fuck is floating like Lil Kim. That is that old-school shit. Who wants to get at me. Watch your back Sincere, Follow the rules of the game I always told you. Been fly with an available money stack for when your kids grow up. You are supposed to stack for them. How can I get myself out of this shit? Never let a female trap me. I learned from the best, thick-assed bank account. Did you hear me? If not, will I repeat it bank account?

    I am concerned about monetary matters. Yes, I want to be rich. Being rich takes hard work. I cannot fall off this money has to last for the rest of my life, my children’s life, and my grandkid’s life. When you have a lot of money, people hate you. That is always a problem when you have more than the average person has. Buying nice cars, If you get money make sure your crew gets the money. If everybody flies, you cannot stop at one of the better people. We live life to the fullest, and we can never let any other crew take that from us.

 

    Always been in love with you all of those nights. You thought I was out there undressing other females. Maybe or maybe not, I have never gone beyond my comfort zone. Trust me when I say you are the love of my life. Stopping on 10/31/2000 because I knew I had to come back home and look you in the face. When you saw me, I could look you straight in the eye as though nothing had happened. That was because nothing was wrong. I was doing everything right now, and I was there for the long run. Baby, we were both with each other.

 

    I can make it look good after coming home from a long day of work. Has your bubble bath been nice and warm? Dinner cooked rose paddles all over the bed. With a bottle of Alize, Just to get you in the mood. Throwing on some slow jams, Whispering sweet conversation in your ear. Make our way to the bed after all of that is done. Lying you on the roses, Popping that bottle us getting faded. You know what comes after that. If that is possible, baby, I am romancing you, holding you in my arms all night.

 

    All of those fucking nights without you, I know what I was doing. I have one question what were you doing. Is there anything I need to know? Are you hanging out on all types of nights? I cannot imagine the worst, but I have these ideas that you were in other faces. Look in my eyes and tell me if it is not valid. If it is true, go on about your business. We can never be again. I know it is hard to say. As time passed, our friendship, fell apart and I understand why. It was not nice of me to go out and do what I heard.

    Am I on the move with other females. You can lose the perfect woman that you have at home. For one of those females, that can cause headaches. So you better know what you are cheating on because another man will come and lift her off her feet. That is how you can lose a good woman. I have to get to know you first before taking all of the steps. Time is everything you have to get to know me. She or he might not be a match for one another. Slow down choosing a woman, or you will be shopping around.

 

    If you cheat, I am gone. For the simple fact, you are the mother of my children. I am not having you going around the world having sex with other men. Who takes care of you. I am saying that to say this. If it was not for me, where would you be? I need a girl going half on everything that we get, one that works hard and accomplishes her own goals. When we are together, we can build on love and business. I do not want to watch out for some girl who uses me for my money.

    If you start from the bottom, there is nowhere to go but to the top. Baby is holding on in my mind, not knowing if you want me. Let us not waste any time waiting on one another. How do you think I am moving the right way a course. I want you as my one and only. This is coming from my heart. Do you love me the way I love you? Let us get back on track with this loving each other. This should not be that hard to come together and have a relationship. So we cannot let anybody break us up.

 

    When you fall back, that is when all of the bullshit starts happening. If you are going to play this game, you must be handy. You cannot lack at all in this game. Damn, I hate looking over my shoulders. It just might be my sixth sense. Take a breath. Please do not hold it in. Letting everything out at one time can be challenging. You have to take your time. I hate talking, but not reasonably, just not talking, with whatever you are trying to explain. Make a move. This baby nine will go off. Thanks to my shorty. I have no fear, only ambition. 

                                                          CHAPTER 54

 

    Bomb First is about our black men. Nevertheless, it is also about black women losing their husbands to guns and death. Every day, we see our killing each other, let alone others killing us. We have to come together and take a stand. Many unarmed men are killed, let alone black women in jail cells. If we get together and stand as one, We can take our lives back. It is all about a mindset. We have to be strong in our inner selves and do the rest. What is the plan you asking me? Start by owning our shit, Being smart with our money. When it is getting harder, we stand up and unite. These are a few things that need to change. It is much hate on our skin. Some of us hate ourselves, and that is where it starts from. If we love ourselves, We can do more as a whole. I repeat that we will accomplish more as a whole.

    Money, power, and respect are what we are fighting for on the streets behind our backs. When you are out there, fuck what other ninjas think handle my business. The day I rest, I shall be in paradise. For now, get money. You are always there. A woman does just what her man sells that he cannot say. Being deep, you get many connections wanting to give you what you want. With this, there are many feds I can make things happen. Nevertheless, I am resting for now. It is all or nothing, you know, the boy that cried wolf.

 

    And the idea of losing in life can be a pain. That is why I try my best to stay on the right path. Yes, it is getting hard. How much do you need in your life? Time is only getting harder. It is like everybody is out for themselves. I need a team around me to handle business that I cannot handle. Everyone brings different things to the table. With that being said, there are many different ways to get this money. So our company can be the most robust in the world. I did my part building from here.

 

    What is time if you spend it wisely? You can accomplish so much. I thought this was about us. If you ask me a question, I will give you my answer. I have to keep hope alive. I cannot let anyone take that from me. Yes, it is hard. When you spend time with me, do you think you are wasting your time? I dream big, not like an ordinary human being. This company means everything to me. I thank God for all that he has blessed me with. When you have so much more to go, you take away to continue to do good. You cannot get sidetracked.

 

    It is a lot to take in. However, the way you see things cannot be correct. I love you now if we can be together. This mind is all yours. If you make a mistake, it is okay. I am telling you I am looking for a woman to be with me. I want to find someone to be my wife. I cannot put up with lying and cheating. Let me know before walking out if you want to be with me. I know you are a strong woman. These eyes are looking at you. There are so many females out there, but I need one to make me happy.

 

    I am letting us see how far this relationship will last. The best part of a relationship is trust. When you trust someone, you have all of the respect for that person. Baby, I am trying the best that I can do. I am not letting you know that Noah’s in there forever. Every day, it determines who you are. The way you present yourself makes all the other differences in which type of woman you will get. Climbing is problematic because it has been a long journey. I’m putting blood, sweat, and tears into this. What does it take for us to agree that we love each other? 

    Maybe I have to step my game up. Where are you putting me? Being underneath each other every day is complicated. We mine as well apart from one another. The game already has a lot of females and guys. The part about listening and trust I get. However, I do not understand the game of cheating. I am only 40 years old. I can live without whatever they want from you till I am 46. When you say I cheat, I do not cheat anymore. Also, I am waiting to see my daughter make sure she is okay.

 

    It is hard to take the thought of a woman cheating on me. You probably cannot mislead me. The way the story goes is all up to you. I am up. When you love someone, you trust that female. How can I say this? Let us go from here and never look back at the wrongdoing. It is up to you whether we stay stuck in the past or not. I damn near gave up everything. The thought of leaving you by yourself hurts me. What happened is that I am going on 23 years, and I have never cheated.

 

    When you move this much work. You have to have your business copyrighted. Please help me out when this shit gets deep, and money gets low time to get a job. The only reason money got low is because I had to write these albums. I am getting back on my job shit in a minute. Trust me. We have to get the job done. Yeah, I had to fall back to stack that additional money. Make sure you follow me. It will get to the point where I can get no rest again. You and I both know that waiting is worth it.

 

    Having enough love is always a problem. It is the curse of a woman that has everything that she wants. My mind cannot take this without your love. Just think about the fights that we put up with. I cannot see or talk to you. I hope I have a son. Everybody moves on their own. When we move together, I am not trying to get into that with you. How many wrongs and rights do we suffer? I like when we do the right thing. We will have whatever we want. Nevertheless, it is up to us to stay together.

 

    I cannot compete with another man. I stay in my lane and be myself. This wise man told me that if she loves you, She will be there for you at any given time. The hope of your love is knocking on my door. Yes, you may come in. Do you need time to take off your clothes? What music should I play, baby? The way we are interconnected, you have always been my world. This man is waiting on you to say yes, you are ready for me. My heart feels good about this. So please do not change upon me.

    I am still in love with you. If you are my girl, tell me what runs through my mind. I am speaking my mind about the past. Mines is not right, but I stepped out for a reason. Jesus needs me for him, and I have this locator on me. Yes, it follows me around. That is why I could not control all of my steps. I followed the path that he had for me. I’m not abandoning us because you give us what you want. I shall not be forsaken. I give it all to you. I hope you continue to bless me and keep me in your prayer. I will find my true love one day.

 

    I cannot believe ninjas that do not put real music in the game, making a ninja-like. I feel wrong about this thing called hip hop. Excuse me. I’m from the 80S cannot understand one word that these ninjas be saying. Let us bring back the essence of rap. It is the crap that makes me not want to go out. I feel so out of place. Yeah, the worth of rap is dead and Nas said it the best. Let us get to this money. I hate that mines are much bigger than any ninja out there. Hold my head. Yes, the industry talks about drugs that they are not selling. Stop it five.

 

    A week ago, when you find ninjas who tell stories, I talk about that real shit. Being on the top, I do not think so. I’m still grinding with my ninjas like we got nothing. Fuck cars, Houses, and clothes. We have to stay focused on what we want. I got a vision of making zillions. Who can stop me? A single-way black justice or death. I’m praying either way. Do not come my way. Stay on your job. It is not one man above the crew. We are all getting this money. Following the rules to a tee, who can stop us. Nobody if we all keep our heads together.

    You feel free to do what you want in my way. You are not in a partnership with me. You handle your business, and I will handle mine. You are cute but not that damn cute. Sexy, I’m waiting on you. What are you doing sitting there bullshitting? You better speak up if you want something. Oh, I remember saying to you that a shut mouth feeds. How about you open your mouth to me. It is all or nothing right. I cannot see. You want me to look right at you, right. Nevertheless, I keep holding back. I do not know what is wrong with me.

 

    This club is about love. It is taking everything for me not to give up on this. You feel on me, and I’m feeling on you. Baby, when we are ready to come together and take our time with this. First, you cannot talk to anyone. If that is hard, get out now. Body moving from left to right, up and down. It is hard not to see what you are doing. Let me look at you long and hard. Now that you got me up this morning. Are you fixing me some breakfast? I do appreciate you doing that for me. Let me make it up to you. I’m just a phone call away.

    John, what is the first thing you think about? When you are in these streets, it is all up to you about how you go about this life. Gotta get this money so I would not have anything to worry about. Ninjas say you make it look easy. Nevertheless, trust me, it is not. You have to put in much work. Everything you do determines who you are. East to the south, how do you know what a gangster does. I’m a person here, and I’m trying to be here for the long run. It is not about who got the most money.

 

    It all boils to this. Are you going to be mine? Can’t you see it is so hard? The way we fight in my mind, or should we go our separate ways. You are saying I am wrong, but you are the one doing wrong. Sometimes, I feel like packing my things and getting out of this relationship. I want a woman, and that is all for me. Everybody is cheating in my mind. You can say what you want. It is the way I think, or can you prove me wrong. I suppose I shall soon discover whether this life we share is eternal.

 

    If I give my love to someone else, I will not return to you. There are many females out there. Sometimes I get the feeling I need one of those. So I can start a family with her. Baby, the way you look is good. I am looking for one that trusts me. As time goes on, I am figuring things out. The more time it takes, the more the girls find another man. If we were together, therefore, you would cheat. I miss you, baby, your mother, the love of my life. When I get in the bed with a woman, I promise to take it slow. Baby, would you be mine? 

    It feels so good that it will be a sight to see when we come together. We like each other, and nothing will stop that from happening. What is on your mind? The way you come across as a strong woman, everybody thinks it is long status. That means I have an 036 with me. She holds me down, and she’s always been there for me. She never let me down. I cannot hold this in about how you make me feel. The thought of settling down is complex, but I am willing to do it. I never liked a woman as I like you. Let us keep in touch.

                                                             CHAPTER 55

 

    You get your shit together before I leave you by yourself. What do you do for me? Okay, you are the mother of my children. How would you like to romance me, take me to dinner or a concert? Are you concerned about the way this relationship is going? It is going left to right. We need to be on the same page. In the mind of a faithful man, you will only find one in a million. Please do not pretend that you love me if not walk out. Many people play this game expecting to get something out of it, not me.

    What is the right way to approach a woman? This is the time I move upon you. Can we talk about this? We need to come to an understanding that may be good or bad. My heart is decisive when it comes down to choosing a female. Yeah, shawty is terrible. However, can she handle a man like me? I am trying to keep my cool and not lose my mind over a woman. We all do a little bullshit in our life. When you feel this woman, you care for her. Never let anyone talk to her smart. I put everything on the line about what I am looking for.

 

    Why stop what you do while you can make so much money. The game has many ninjas in it for their families. It is hard but fuck it handle it. You have to be in tune with life. The way ninjas move, everybody tries to stay away from the streets. It is all up to us how we handle the pressure of the game. That is the way you have to handle it like a man. Take the steps as a man. When ninjas get picked off, you cannot say shit. Whom do you follow in this game? You have to love what you are doing.

    Who wants to know what respectable ninjas do. This blood shit that’s in me sex money murder is good. I am trying to hold it down for brother. I know he did that gangster shit to the fullest. It is all about the movement ESCE. What I need to ask you is, do you agree? You better fall back when you talk to me. It is a game that you cannot win. So, it is only one way that this game has for you. It is either death or black justice. I do not want to get in the middle of either one. So I have to hold my head.

 

    When the road gets rough. You try to make this right. That is what I am doing to get things right with my ladies. How can we change the outcome of this relationship? Baby, do you hear me? The saying goes, it is not you; it is me. The bottom line is who is responsible for our mistakes. It is like I am trying to keep up with you. I am pouring my heart into you. The way things look is not suitable for us. What are your thoughts on our life? Are we together or not. I cannot take this anymore. We have to come to an understanding.

    I am growing so much, and I love it. Please make up your mind not to let me stay with you. Baby, let me know how you feel before I walk out and start over. Can you tell me what makes you a woman and what makes me a man? I have to be strong for the sake of both of us.

    This young kid wanted to be a rapper. He started at a young age, listening to all excellent rappers. He sees that it is money in the rap game. It is either this or dealing drugs. Nevertheless, he began by writing poems that rapidly turned into raps. It was his dream to become an artist. He also writes R&B songs. He stayed on his grind. He never let anyone tell him that he could not do it. He stayed focused.

 

    When riding, what is the clue to being a ninja from Harlem? I still got the streets going crazy. I’m not on it like that, but I want to get this money. I cannot take the bullshit. My shorty is telling me to stay out of the streets. Yes, I have to listen to what she says because she knows right from wrong. Who wants to ball. Everybody is getting their money. I am not watching anybody’s pockets. I am trying to get as many out of it as possible. I know I am moving my business into the company. This means I cannot do what I used to do.

 

    When you look at me, do you see me as a Ninja? That is trying to handle this rap shit. Watch how I take hold of this shit. Those are the words from the great X. When we get to where we are? Do not ever allow a ninja to tell you what to do. When money is low, you get on a real grind. Only time will tell how much you can stack. The worse thing that you can do is fall off. Keep your head in this book. I keep reaching trying to get to my goal, which is for me to get to 1 thousand verses. After that remaining 96, it is the rap that makes me feel like I am back in the day.

 

    I greet Aaliyah, indicating the ninety being in this way. Yes, I have been in this way for a long time. How can you play the role of a murderer? You cannot trust that many ninjas or females. You have to be humble. This is the way I live my life in this game. Let me know how many ninjas can go to heaven with me. Lord, am I trustworthy? Your blessing is much appreciated. It is hell on earth because there is no way for a young man to make money. It is always something that gets in the way. You better count your blessings.

 

    2 of America’s most wanted, It is better to run the streets together. Nobody can stop us. We have to move as one. I am glad you came inside of me. This way, we can watch ninjas and hitches. Please do not forget to hold down what you said you would hold down. You want to know what that is right. No, I do not think so. Look at the rules. The cream gets the money. If you did not get it, it would take forever to explain it. Just ride with me, and I will lead you in the right direction. Trust me. You cannot go wrong.

    Lay your sexy body in my bed. Let me ask you if you want to talk the whole night or make the bedrock. This will be the last time I am going to tell you. I can make love to you all day. Afternoon, evening, and it started in the night. That is staying in bed all 24/7. The only time you get out of the bed is to make me something to eat, and I am talking food. Please do not get it twisted. I am not going down so stay up top. Baby, tell me what makes you feel comfortable. This goes out to all the females with their shit together.

 

    When someone dies can be so hard. You have to stand up and find courage. I remember when I almost died. Just getting out of that hospital bed, I went back to my family. You never asked me how I felt. However, it is all right now. I have to tell you I am strong. God gives his most challenging battle to his strongest soldiers. Yeah, being sick hurts, but I am not letting it get to me. Being one with Jesus, Divine got my back, and the Lord holds me in his arms. I promise I am going to do my part.

 

    Why you just cannot listen. I want you and only you. You have been down with me from the very beginning. It is hard to call it quits. You cannot hurt my heart. Whatever you want me to do, I will do. I am here waiting for your love. It is up to you, or should I say us. The way you make me feel, I feel fantastic. Can we hang out in the park with these flowers? So you know how I feel about you. When you do good to one person, you must be the one God sent out of heaven.

 

    When I first heard this shit. When I get bored with this nonsense, I try to follow a hustler’s way when they let him out. Handle his business. You cannot understand what I am going through. When this shit first started, I thought this would not go through. Nevertheless, guess what I am living proof that anything can happen. I am making the right moves, right? She stays holding me down. When she believes in something, I make things happen. My lady knows that I will do anything for her.

 

    I am block to block with this shit and state to state with this shit. A gangster looks like a gangster when he handles his to the max. I cannot sex anything right because my shorty wants me to hustle harder. Yeah, she keeps me on my job. I see shit is getting deep. Everybody knows this is the way the streets made me. I am not a bad guy. Stay on this. Never let anything stop me. Getting this money is something that I like to do. 036, are you with me? When it happens 037, Understand 031, Ninjas yellowback.

    All the time, where would I be. Suppose this thing called life was not a part of my life. It is the best way to explain. When you take me to eat, do not call me anything but a working man. Time seems so long. It all depends on what you do with your time. Movements are enough to justify what you will do later in life. Never let anybody take that from you. You know you have someone waiting on you when you get to heaven. When times seem unbearable, keep me next to you. I promise to protect you.

 

    Although we fight with one another. I am ready to walk out and live my own life. You want all of this shit. Money is hard to get. When you are on these streets, let us make this night the best night of your life. Baby, can’t you see I cannot make up my mind. All of these females do not do anything for me. When you’re a young ninja getting that money, it is not everything right in my mind. Your body next to me now is on my mind. When we get in the mood, You know Noah crossed the 7seas. That is the mess I am in.

 

    How can you say you want me. Why don’t I trust you because you’re just doing your thing? I am trying to stack this money. When I started living with my wife, you think Be and Hova were on the run. Noah, together, there is nothing we cannot handle. I miss running the streets with you, and I know you want me in the lab. When you used to come to see me, my eyes used to light up. Like the 4th of July baby do not stop me. It is hard to imagine taking another woman’s clothes off. I know who is in trouble, and it is not you or me, okay.

 

    I see everyone looking at you. When the party is over, who are you going home with? I want to party with my friends telling me to hang out with them, and working my ass off to provide for my family. I see you are enjoying yourself there. Where is your man? From the way their body moves, all of these girls are looking for me to start with them. Paper comes first before any lady because my soul mate got me handling her business. I cannot complain. Females run through ninjas, as well as ninjas run through hitches.

                                                             CHAPTER 56

 

    Many females step into a relationship. Then they get beat up, but I understand that you like it. So go out and do your thing. Soon cannot wait to open up my company. The woman will have everything she wants, which means she is my half. So excited to be in your life one day. I need someone to help me run this company. It is up to you if this is something you want. I am still young. So, I am not ready to get involved in a relationship until I grow old. Only then do I move into settling down.

    When you see me, do you see a ninja who does not know how to conduct himself? The way you make me feel, I miss you, my better half. Do not leave me. The game is intended to be played to the maximum. When you out here in these streets by yourself, I miss you. However, I know you are in heaven. I am racing to get there. Time is ticking, but I have not laid down yet. You are my rib. I want to be honest because I do not trust these girls. Everything that we went through, I miss my heart. You have been gone for a long time now.

 

    Listen to the way the beat comes in. This goes out to the ladies around the world. I can share my heart with you about how you make me feel. I have to be careful because girls change up on me so fast. I am looking for a woman with me but not for my money. I need to know that you love me, baby. I know who has my back. It’s too bad she’s gone, but as long as I have that point on my hand. I am never letting you go. You did this just to watch over me. So I would not need another girl in my life. She cannot have sex, and neither will I.

 

    Work when I am ready. I will let you know the thought of going to heaven without touching anyone. Going there with you clean, when the man upstairs asked me whether I crossed you or not. I can honestly say that I know I did not. I got everlasting life. If I have sex with someone, I bet I slash your temple. That is what I hold in my life. Laying down my dots plays over and over again. Just think about that feeling. I did not say 1 in the chamber and 16 in the clip for nothing.

 

    Blood Red is all up to the dog. Whoever wants it may have it. Gangsters can get killed too. I have been on these streets. When you kill, you cannot sleep. This is the game you choose to be in. When do you want it? When you move in silence, ninjas do not understand why. This is the way I was brought up to be. I cannot fall back. I got to keep pushing until the game is over. I guess that is how I get down. Fuck what a ninja thinks. I’ll do it till I get underground. I will stand firm.

 

    Blood Red, the gang is separated from some street junk. Please do not get it twisted. My ninjas handle their business in these streets. The way we play is no match for you ninjas. Hold mine down for real, sex, money, murder. Do not get this shit fucked up. Nobody can turn me in when a dog walks around these streets alone. Can nobody turn me in? If I got to go to black justice, it is because of me. This shit feels like the late 90’s early 2000. When you approach a ninja-like me, I hope you put on your waistcoat because I have mine. Baby nine let loose.

    I just run through your mind because you run through my mind. Baby, can we upscale our relationship? Let us go beyond what the world can imagine. How do you see me? Am I someone you want to build a relationship with, holding you in my arms? Are you covered because of me? It is all up to you where we stand. Do not make this out to be about you. It is about both of us. Please do not be selfish like it is only you.

 

    You have to know how a girl plays. Females cheat a lot. You know girls run games on their men. They are still looking for a man who has full pockets. All you want to do is buy houses, cars, and clothes. The man is supposed to make money. She should pay for the way she acts but not spend all of my money. What if he stopped tricking you? Then what would you do? My guess, is she going to sleep with the next man, my girls not having it.

 

    Whom do you want, baby? Please tell me. You cannot let feelings get to you. It is all about grown-up shit. Watch what you say, man. Watch the females you go with. She can leave me in charge. It is that superior shit. Do you want me to repeat it? I love you. When I’m inside you, let me know what you’re going through. The way you act is not suitable for a relationship. So be careful about what you do out here.

 

    ( ON THE RUN ) Man meets the woman. When we were young, I can remember moving all of those bricks every time I exchanged drugs for money. You always met me and took the money home with you. That is what I love about you. You knew we were on the run. You gave up your life to come inside of me. So we can handle this business together as one. You know I will never cheat on you. There is one girl that you say might be you. I know God gave your life to someone on this earth because I had to come at this young age. Ten might be a beautiful number.

 

    Make yourself better when you see me fly through this whip. I see your eyes opening. You cannot feel anything because I do my own thing. Everybody has to wait their turn to get this money. I want to buy you all of the things you need. 880 116 = 996, which changes my money into trillions. Biggie and Jay Z said I needed four other Aaliyah born in 1979, mine in 1982 is three. And her month one mine that is 2. Her birthday is 16 mine 17 that is 1. She turns 42 next year, and I will still be 38. That is a four-leaf clover.

 

    There is nothing that can be done. The way you hustle, Ninjas always want to fuck with you. You have to take care of the people around you. Gangsters are getting shit popping. When you are in this game, You have to open your eyes. Try not to look up because those people are watching you. I never wanted to be a kingpin. That is the way my uncle made me. So I’m taking over the family business. I must admit I’m handling it well. You never know what can happen in a blink of an eye. Swear to God, do not get it fucked up.

    I know you want me. Whenever you see me, I see your gaze. I’m holding my feelings in. Be mine, and I will be yours. You are supposed to come clean about everything you did back in the day. Okay, shorty from queens, that was the setup, or was she running alongside me. I hope this is the beginning of this life. Maybe the right one will come along and help me out in this damn relationship. Please do not get it fucked up. I will get to know my kids unless I am separated from part of this life.

    The only thing I remember is what you said. How much do you miss me in your mind? In the south, I am sitting in the park, thinking about how I will return to my family. My wifey is asking me, where is the kid? I knew that meant never giving up on life. So I stood up and got my act together. Everything is all right looking forward now. Baby, hold me close and never let me go. She gave up her life for us. First of all, you and she both are 6 feet. In August and then April, the plan was for the 25 to come twice. Yes, it did.

    If I catch this flight, Baby. I will come across the world so that I can be with you. I do not know how your mind feels. This is an integral part of our relationship. Do not be disrespectful, or I'm sorry about the threat. Don't you see how annoying I am not standing next to you? I want my life back. Where he was, or this kid, is beyond his strength. Yes, the battle is brutal. Nevertheless, I'm fighting every day, which makes no sense. It is 9:00. Just think today is the 25th, and we are almost in the 3rd quarter. Days sure go fast.

 

    Everyone is talking about finding a new girlfriend after the breakup. I am holding my head up, looking at other girls. Nevertheless, my heart is with you. In life and death, we share our daughter. I know she looks like us more than ever. When I was traveling to tell you there might be a baby in my life. The ball was all in your corner as I could not make up my mind. This was the road I chose. They say you will make everything right if you love him when they return. This is coming from the bottom of my heart. I find myself going into this cycle over and over again.

    Side Piece is for all ninjas hating when their females go out to party. What do you think she is doing dancing with other ninjas? Let me guess. I am just going out with your girls, and why you at home? Why don't you ask me to be with you? Instead of giving ninjas the company I need, I cannot have an insane conversation at home with me. Now I know how those ninjas felt back in the days. Now my player cards have stopped. I got all of my ladies at the home building, my family. If you are a part of this, be grateful.

 

    D-X-L- when you make movements as the streets may relate, business is a must-do not catch up. How can you stay out of black justice? There are many ways one is not doing bad things. There comes a time when you have to be good. It is much misunderstanding, but I can let my feelings out with this mic. When there is nowhere to go, you have to do the unthinkable. Get up and deal with it as best as you can with your expertise. The best course of action is to use continuous tense.

 

    In my life, how you carry on your life will be how people treat you. It is the same thing you must maintain in this lifetime. Follow what you want to do, and everything will fall into place with you. Do not cross the lines. I am in a battle with the top dogs. The exchange of this whole document can make many differences. I am not saying that money is anything. You can not buy love with it. Nevertheless, while I am here, money is on my mind. I want to do the best that I can do. Without the Feds on my back, I can do nothing at all.

 

    Play your cards right. Sometimes you can just look at a person to see what they are doing. Nevertheless, trust me if I demand a test, and it fails. I cannot be with you because I am only for the women who are loyal to me. I want a woman who respects herself. I cannot have them out all of the time. Have fun, but do not disrespect me. I have to stand my ground.

 

    Somebody's gotta die. Dealing with street life, anyone can get murdered. Hopefully, it is not me. Everybody wants to be a murderer. As for me, I am getting this bread. Let us take it one day at a time. When you have a strong team behind you, You can do anything to get the job done. It is like nobody wants to work. Everybody wants to be bosses. How can you build a company if you cannot find anybody to work for you. It is going to be complex building by yourself. If you have a team that wants what you want, it would not be hatred.

                                                                  CHAPTER 57

    Fuck you. Will you take my dough and spend it with the next ninja? I cannot get the answer right. That is how you feel. Why don't you pack your bags and walk out of here? If a ninja set trip, am I to blame? It is all in fun. I know what you are doing. Where does the money come from? Alternatively, we can be on some loving each other shit. What to do when there are so many things on your plate? Take care of her. If she leaves, all of the money she has will stop. Am I right? Yes, I know that. It is your world.

    There is no limit when you OT in the south. Like I was saying, in alleyways, you see many things, just a lot of tiny houses and woods. You have to know the paths. So you can get from one place to the next. Sometimes you have to travel by the wood trails. All of this is popping, the way they play. I was OT for about 8years. Just imagine how much money you can make. When you are handling business, the game does not change. Staying high was something I had to do to stay on the same page as southern. Just in case, I would have got hit up like al Pacino would not feel anything.

 

    The way you look in my eyes. If I got this dark cloud in my hand, I want to share the world with you. Our bodies side by side all night talking to you. We only talk when we have to handle business, either with me or not. Baby, I cannot take this. The time away from you makes it hard to go on. Nevertheless, this man has to stand up. Life is for us, and we can do this. We have to be honest with this relationship. Parting me for telling my family the way I feel about them. I never want to let you go. Let us play cards. Remember when X said slashing all of my females.

 

    Keep yourself down, you are mine, and I am yours. It is all up to us what takes place in this relationship. The way you walk past me and look in my eyes, I want to say something to you. Anyway, I am lost for words because this is how hot you are, Baby. The way you dress from head to toe, knowing we take care of you. I am proud of us because we never get it wrong. Let us keep this up. When you think of me, do you think of me every day? This is complicated not being by your side right now. I cannot wait until we get back on track.

 

    I am so in love with you. Every day you put a smile on my face. The diamonds are shining on your body. How can you think about leaving me? Don't I take care of my family? Everything I do is for you, baby. We can sail wherever you want. We can go to the nearest Hilton, Baby. You can have everything in this world. I pray that we never fail, which means our love. The money does not stop. Everything takes time, and we have all of the time in the world. There is no limit to how far I would go to please you, especially when you are my baby.

    Play basketball. Guess who is on the ground. Who goes next if you are on my team. We can get this game over. Let us win the game. Score of 101 to 99 is a 2-point difference. The game you should always play to get the best lesson learned. Let ninjas talk about you to make sure you handle your business. Do you like my ninjas? Everybody should help one another out. When you are the best at what you do, get the job done and try to win by a more considerable number next time.

    Every fight we fight as children. It makes our love stronger. Playing 711 while kissing you, she does not want a bum. Instead, she wants the real thing and comes home on Saturday. Then she wakes you up and tells me you are up. After you get up, we play together all day and all night. That is what I call puppy love. Now we are older than we were. This love is still powerful all the time. You make my day whenever I see you. I like what we are doing. Making each other wait on that good, oh loving 100%.

 

    What is up, gangsta? Why would I choose another color? When all I saw when I was growing up was red. My flag means everything to me. This is a Damu world and does not get that fucked up. You have to be 95% mental and 5% muscle when in this business. That is the only way you will stay out of black justice. Having a strong mind can positively affect the life you live. Keep your family first because if you go to black justice, Your family can suffer. Try to keep the ladies in your life happy.

 

    Patiently waiting for going into the murder. It was fun as fuck. For you, why wouldn't I go through it? The best thing about murder is knowing what it feels like not to be here. I felt like my soul was leaving the body. Then it went back into the body when they sewed me up. I only had one temple. I had to get my wings because of what happened to Jesus. Two other brothers went through that with me. I was in the middle of them. I was not going to say any names. Just know that we had a solid connection that can never be broken.

 

    High all the time, but it is all under lock and key. I can continue to do what it has called for me to do. Get this money. I worked hard for this game that I played to be this successful. Please, do not be deceived about how much I had to invest in this game to be where I am now. If ninjas take off my plate, they take off your plate too. I try to stay consistent with this writing. The more albums are dropping, the more money for my company. It is a give or takes thing. It all depends on how the ball bounce.

    Do not push me. I wonder what happens when we go to heaven. It may be life after death. I will soon see, but no time soon. Ninjas handle their business like a man. That is the way it is supposed to be. This game has no rules. You do what you want to do. You have to understand there's jail time behind that at any given moment. Nevertheless, you cannot walk a straight path because it is hard to do that. As long as you follow the rules of this game, You can have all of your dreams come true. It is about who is doing the right business.

    It is so much that I want to tell you. The way my heart beats for you, It had to be hard for you because it hurts my soul. I always want to tell you how much you mean to me. We come here for better or for worse. The closer I approach you working on myself. How long can we keep this up? I am ready to settle down and have kids. A little boy or a girl is running around. Taking them to the park doing parent things, and I know it is up to you. When can we start this family? I know you are raising the kids we have together. Nevertheless, I want to be in their lives.

 

    If I were in charge of the world, could we stop the killings? I know transporting cocaine is not good. One has to do it because the respect of others comes with helping people out. I am one of the men that take his life seriously and play this game to the fullest. It is about giving my children what I never had. I think about the importance of family, but people may be frustrated with the care of friends. You have to be one with yourself. I have to think about every step you make death or life outside or in black justice. I am moving, intending to do right.

 

    Bomb first the math of getting money. It takes knowledge of street life. You cannot depend on anybody but yourself to get it. Lead yourself in the right direction. Always know the rules that people play when you are up against ninjas. Slow down, do not rush. Yes, it is going to be a lot on your way. The body moves from the heart to me, and the heart moves with the mind. It is what you make out of this life that you lead. You have to keep your game face on at all times. Your friends will remain your friends through thick and thin.

 

    Blasphemy is the worst thing that can happen. Death is one of the most intense feelings. Black justice could be challenging, especially if you got a life on your sentence. It is always something that the streets have. That can get you in trouble. The mind of a hustler goes on and on about the crimes. Good things can happen when you look forward, but only if that is the kind of path you choose. Trust me. It is your choice to do better, and you have to be patient. People die day by day. How can you create something and not take care of it? I am not talking about children. I am talking about a dream that you have.

 

    Hold your head to be the man that got to handle everything the world throws at you. Tear yourself away from the real thing, but not here. Free all the people in black justice. I am trying to stay away from that because my family would be here by themselves. I hope God continues to bless me. When you feel pain because it is only feelings, Keep your head up. I will see all of my family and friends at the crossroads. Life is long, but it can get sorted by death. I want to live my life until God calls me home. When that comes, I have known a problem going to heaven.

    That is what it has been made for. Let me come inside of you. This girl is still complaining about me being in and out of town. It would be best if you let me do my thing. Babe, while I get my money back, relax. Everything is going to be taken care of. I can see you smiling at me. This is the game we are going to play. You are my world. It is as if I could have it both ways. When she promised me that it would be my first 21 birthday, I was an adult. Now it has been 19 years after. When am I going to see your confessions?

 

    My friend, when will you spend all that time as a couple? You plan on knowing your partner right. However, things can get tricky. What is the best way to find out if she is cheating on me? Calls at night, speaking down over the phone. Not coming home when you are supposed to do. Are you staying the whole night at a club? Those are signs of her cheating. When a man cheats, he gets caught, but girls get away with everything. It is hard to stay out of trouble. That is why I am just staying faithful. If I did not cheat, she would not have a reason to cheat on me.

 

    Why do you want to hate? Thus the rules you need to know. In Harlem, there are many big-time connections. I do not want to disrespect ninjas that I screw up with. Let us get this money. You cannot let people stop you from doing what you need to get that chicken. Believe me when I say it is hard to get money out here. There are many ninjas selling drugs. I am glad I have the connection. So I do not have to wait for work. I get that shit shipped to me as long as the money is right. Payment of the connection is all I care about.

 

    Everyone pushes that to the limit but never takes it. Always gives got job. That is what a real ninja does. When the block is getting this money, It is all love on my side. Ghost, what the fuck is good. East Side all the time gets this money. If you are not with me, fall back. My ninjas and I are at the front line. Females choose whom they want to be with. It would be best if you defended something. Otherwise, you will fall for anything. Get your weight up, or get that weight up. Either way, stay true to your team. Ninjas talk a good one. My misfortune, I am no longer on the street.

                                                              CHAPTER 58

    When the war is on, that means getting your wire. Gangsters do not talk. They are in charge of the business. Protect what is yours, and only you can handle yours. I am trying to get this chicken. The game change every fucking day. You have to move with your heart, and I bet everything will fall into place. The deal went through. This is what I am talking about. People want me to fall back because these investments are suitable for my company. My wifey is telling me to keep it up. That is what I am going to do.

 

    You are in front of ninjas. You lead your team the right way to conduct business like school. When you get in trouble, you get a sheet for the classes you go to. That is how I learned the game. I had to pay attention to the teachers. Then you can handle business the right way. I told you I learned from the best of them. Everybody watched the same gang I watched. Nevertheless, I am handling mine differently because I watched real closely. I hope the younger generation pays attention because you can learn a thing or two from me.

 

    Can you handle it? You make my world work. Maybe we could get acquainted. While we can spend time together, my body calls you if your body calls me too. We meet in front of the club, and we watch each other. I want you to come closer. What is your name? Bogus is a nice name. My name is Ellison. Do you have a boyfriend she responded, as I do, Baby? That sounds perfect to me. What time did you leave? Whom did you come to? She responded with my girls. Can I take you home tonight? Just to drop you off. So we can get to know each other more.

 

    Always Ghetto when you listen to the words of the young woman you want to be with. She is upset about me being on the street all the time. Tell him what you think I am doing here with some available money. I am trying to take care of us on Damu. You have to trust me. I will make sure my family is straight out here if there is one thing. I will never cross you. I have to stay one step in front of the other. As a family, we need to understand. I care for you. I pray so that one day I can get out of the ghetto. It is taking everything in my blood not to break down.

 

    Me and my bitch, want it all. It is hard to give her everything. Nevertheless, you make a way to give it to her. It is in her blood to be faithful to her man. A man would give up his life to protect his woman. It has been two decades since I have not touched her. That is what I call faithful. Twenty years in counting is robust, a man or a woman. If she is 3years older than me and shares the same Birthday, that is a sign. Women being the first in the world to stand up to a woman can be a challenge. Nevertheless, I have to do it.

    They do not know. I wish I had you here to myself. How long do I have to go through this? I become weak because I simply play. I am more vital than ever. When you call I will come. One day, we have to do that together. It is stressful without you here by my side. All I want to do is to love you. The clock is ticking, and we know how long this will last. Hopefully, forever in life and death, when will we handle some of the things that must be dealt with. When you look at me, do you see a cheater? If this is the case, explain how my mind is immune to evil thinking.

    Are you still down? Wait, hold on to me, looking into your eyes. I can read a whole lot. It is up to us to decide who is correct and who is wrong. I am just writing to erase all those emotions that lead us in the wrong direction. What about planning for our future? I grind from the bottom. You were by the side of your man to the fullest. How can we cool off when it is so hot? It is the thought of you wanting me. Let me tell you something my heart is yours for life. It is only one of me, and it is a lot of you. Let us get the job done.

 

    Let us talk about cheating when baby starts talking bullshit: my body love, and some lust your soul. I triple cross you, but the game does not stop. It keeps going on and on. What the fuck do you think? You were exceptional, and I think not. You better look good and hard. What are you waiting for? We are only getting older. Yes, I can push this to the max. When are you willing to have sex, or all you want is money? The other keeps it on the low. I am full, and I do not slow down for anyone.

 

    How can you believe everything people say about me. Baby, the heart moves with yours as one. Both heads are okay. I am not cheating on you. It is just R&B. So do not get offended about what you just heard. Everyone has a good and bad relationship. Maybe the time we are not together, makes us stronger. You know me more than I know myself. It is comfortable being in this life with you. You have been there when I had nothing. So I vow to take care of you as long as I can too.

 

    I have to take you back to the house. When I was in Queens, I remember handling business. Mom, you are good. I still remember the connection you made to me back there. You know I agree when there is a great deal on the table. How do you know they could be trusted? Let me guess. It is someone you know. The money right tells son I said we still here. Let him know I love him with all of my heart. Little girls know it is their dad's little girls. The conversation meant everything to me. Trust me. Soon we will get to know each other better.

    This shit gets the best of me. My mind is still back in the days. This mic will not stop talking about this shit. Wake up. Miss stick let daughters know I love them. I am telling you now the game can shatter you. Hide from what is getting to this chicken. You have to be mindful of everything. All of my kids are good, right. You do not know what daddy had to go through to get this respect from the streets. Just as I gave respect, that is the only way to be. When you are living this life, money will not change me.

 

    I did not hit ninjas girls in a while. Oh, no, what is popping talking? That shit might get me in trouble. The sister is strong. Excuse me for being honest. How many girls a ninja can hit. This is that fallback game. Money long makes ninjas wonder about a hill ninja. We got the connect money to share for everybody to get it. This faithful shit is breezy, but you may have many girls. There is no doubt about that. It is all or nothing. I haven't been in nightclubs, not dancing super-sized, but the bank account locked like door slams.

 

    You ask me if I love you. I'll tell you yes, I do. I know we were going for the best thing in our life. When I am around you, there is no better way. My soul belongs to you. It is not a day that goes by without thinking of my family. Being so far away from you, you know I always had that New York shit in my blood. This was the fight of my life. I was just thinking about getting back with my family. The Gods only know about my myth. With that being said, I believe all the myths about how many Gods there are. I believe all of them were one.

 

    As time went on, how much time did we endure without love in our life? You tell me one day we will. When that day comes, I will be ready. When we see each other, we do not speak. How do we know this is the right thing for us? I feel wrong about being away from you. We have to get our shit together. Before it, all ends. What part of the game is that. Do you want to be in this life with me? This is me speaking from my soul, baby. If it is not one thing, it is another. I want the time we had when we were growing up back in the days.

 

    What can I tell you about the last time? I never meant to hurt you. It is many people that want you. Why did you choose me? Your body is calling me. The way you move looks like a dance, holding your body. You are going down on me. How is this story going to end? You know what turns me on. When you are faced with me, am I the only one here? I prepare myself to ask you to leave with me. Let us go to my place. Just jump in my whip.

    I want to love you. I wonder if God has allowed one of his angels out of heaven. Your body tells the whole story. How can I make this up to you? Yes, my heart hurts because I am not the man you once loved. I will keep you in my prayers. Baby, when you act as if I hurt you, that was not my intention, trust me. How can I make this up to you? All of the females in the world do not amount to you. You bring me joy and happiness. Every day of my life, come with me on this journey ahead of us. Never let me go because I do not want to let you go.

 

    I love you. It has just begun. The last time we met, there was a conversation about what needed to be addressed, and guess what that did. I put everything into this company. My life was on the line for a long time. Now I got my life back. Thank you so much for all that you did for me. I vow to support our family. It is not easy, but baby, I am doing my best. Understand that there are many more relationships out there. What makes ours any different from all of the others. The way we move as one and never let anybody take that from us.

 

    Look how this rhythm happens. When you saw me and I saw you let me break this down in the studio. Doing those love songs might get me in the mood. You buy what you see. You want, play grand Willy. Yeah, you have double RR taking trips on a G5 and flying worldwide. Sightseeing is just doing what you want. I am trying to make that happen. The company is doing just fine right now, dressing up with the best clothes, popping the best bottles, and smoking the best grass.

 

    It is hard to trust girls these days. They want a man with money. It is not tricking, and if so, it better be for the woman I am in love with. Girls always want to love holding their hands while walking around New York City. She wants a man not ashamed of being the only one for her. I know, sitting home waiting for you. If you fall for a player on you, I am one man taking care of many females. Sporty getting the money because if I did not have any cash. These girls would not want me.

 

    Who else could that be? The best time you had, you have to mean it was with me. How can you deny that? I am always on your mind. That is what you say. So let me know what I am thinking. Let me make this easy for you, kissing your lips. Do not act shy. It is all for what. What am I thinking about making love to you? Do you have my back out here on these streets? This is called for more information. Then get the baby in line. I cannot decide what I have to do to get to you.

                                                                  CHAPTER 59

    I am a run-through Ryder. You know what it is. I am covered in this world for now. Whoever fucking with me, let us get down to this business. It is always the gangsters who have the small end of the stick. Ninjas cannot say that my money is short. That is why I put people into it to get money. I learned from the best. Ninjas who did this for a long time watch the ninjas talking to Jake. It is a lot of that nowadays. Fuck that. I will keep this shit going until I can open up my business so you can screw the dog.

 

    This would be world expansive worldwide feeling. Shorty, you know I think you are doing your thing. I cannot get mad about this. Maybe I am the reason you are the way you are. I should have stuck with myself, done things you could only wish for. When you get money, you can buy whatever you want. I can do this for a couple more years. If it was not for you, you did not know what I was doing. The game has rules, and females have rules too. Get on my level. That is something you have to do.

 

    What is the right move for a ninja to make? You always have to be on your grind. Yes, it does get messy out there. All the money piled up with everyone, and whoever wants to get this money with me, you have to stay focused on friendships and loyalty. Nowadays, that is hard to come by. When you are on these streets, if a person eats, everybody should eat. You cannot tell me the right way to get this shit off. The connection is hitting me with the best kind of products. You have to move as one.

 

    The more you earn, the more the gangster guys respect you. Not for all the gangster nonsense, you're doing here, but for feeding your ninjas. You just have to live life with known worries. You have to maintain being a gangster. You also have to stay on the low. It is always something happening in the world. When you stand up, you have to put other people in a position to get that chicken. You cannot make mistakes here because it could cost you your life. What is the most significant part of the streets? Yes, it is trust.

 

    The game can make big-time drug dealers. It can also bring families down. You cannot be scared of the time that you can get. You have to get back on your grind when you know the game's rules that you played out here. When you get out of black justice, make sure you stay 050. When you are in it only for money, trust issues become one of the biggest problems. You cannot be serious about whom you get down with. It is the best code of the streets. The more you are a stand-up ninja, the more people learn from you for advice.

 

    One day, a boy named Sincere wanted to be a gangster. When he was twelve years old, he left his comfort zone. Being with his family, he hung out with his friends. He was going to parties. Then he started going to skate keys. Seeing many girls there, he and his crew turned up. Everybody knew who they were. The first girl that came to him was named Blank. She was looking into my eyes. Then on the dance floor, she approached me and began to tremble at this request. Sincere started feeling her, but she had a boyfriend.

 

    After I got her number, we talked on the phone. At this party, I was seen by a girl named Blank. Then she started dancing around me and moving her ass. She gave me her number. Then she started coming on the hill and hanging out with me. She is one funny girl who always kept me laughing. I am walking down the block. Someone told us it was okay. Then I walked up the block on 151, and then this girl named Blank was with her friend. She said to me her friend wants to be my girlfriend. I said yes. Blank and I met at my friend June's house.

 

    We started going to skate keys every week. Have fun on the outside instead of inside. After a while, things got scary. Then I moved down south. I did not know this would be a walk in the park. I started hanging out with many folks. It is a gang that wears black. You know I was still in my bloodshed. It is as if everything in my life has changed so fast. The first thing I had in mind was how to hold my head. There was nothing but woods, alleys, and tiny houses.

 

    Nothing in the world can stop you from going to jail with me if I catch one case. I am throwing time at black justice. It is hard because I have to play it safe. I have to move slowly. I cannot move fast. They say slow money is the best, but Ninjas do not understand that. They want that quick money. Ninjas and I are going to take our time. I cannot think of leaving you here alone. I'm telling you how things are here. When you think about it, does it all pay off at the end of the day, and if not, you need to put your family first.

 

    The day gets more challenging with time. Plan your future and do what is right with your family. If he sees that the blessing will come in your way, you will be better over time. If you take your time, you learn a great deal. The only thing for one is to learn from their mistakes. Everybody plays a part in being together. If we cannot understand how each other feels, We do not know each other. To come from the bottom, one must live from the bottom and reach the top. The more one does good, the more one is respected on those streets. You always have to do things the right way. Never let yourself get into things that are bad for you. Know yourself. Take some time to love who you are before you love anyone else.

    You cannot curse the women you are in love with. You cannot fight with her. You cannot get upset with her. If you have a child with her, you pay attention to your responsibility. Always love to enjoy each other's company. it is just these thoughts. That is running through my mind. How can you sleep with a guy and have a child? If not, have you been to the hospital, and some of me is within you. These kids come from the days I went to Murda.

 

    The doctors took some of my love. So you can have these babies. It does not matter to me if it is for you. The only thing that concerns me is that they were done in sin. The kids sit on my temple. All I ever see is you sitting next to me. You love me, and you are forgiving me. For what I put you through. So what do you say about going half on a baby?

 

    I am worried about where she is every day. I am thinking she might be cheating on me. The way we move things can get ugly. Every time I see this woman, It seems like she is in somebody else bed. The man in me can not get mad at anyone except me for being with other women.

 

    The way ladies play the game gets me mad but not upset. Because I am thinking hard and long about walking out of this relationship, I know I need to make up my mind. Only believe half of what you see and more than likely believe nothing you hear.

 

    You got it bad. You are always going back and forth with me. Just make up your mind about whom you want to be with. If the money stops, will she be there for you? Alternatively, will she stick around and help you get back on your feet. That is what real women do for their men. You only remember how loyal you were to me. I did put this family on my back and carried it. Every woman complained about not having what she wanted as a man. If you help us, we can have everything.

    Maybe she loves me, or maybe not. How can you prepare for what life has in store for you? She has to want one thing, and you cannot give that to her. I do not see anything wrong with finding courage for her. The strength of a couple is more than you think. The price you have to pay for everything to go your way. When you first start a conversation, You talk about things that matter to us, battling the temptation of being by yourself. It is not happening because I will find another female.

 

    Slipping when you go to the finish line. You make sure you are on the winning team. I know how it is when you are trying your best to stay out of trouble. Everybody in this game sells drugs for one reason and one reason only. It is all about money. Stacking money can be so hard. If you are not on your job, ninjas will stab you in your back. Ninjas are probably telling the jake what is going on in these streets. Make moves the way you know how to make moves.

 

    Never let anyone sidetrack you from doing what you have to do to provide for your family. The way I see things may not be how others see things. I want to have more responsibility taken care of and directed in the right direction. The game is not going anywhere. I am trying to tell the young kids that it gets harder out here. You are only going to be on for a short period. Running from the jake is not a good look. Jake is killing us every fucking day. You do not want to live like that, right.

 

    Look at each of your emotions. Watch your back from those who want to see you five feet deep. The plan is to stay at 050 at all times. When I say East Side, you say all the time b's up. Diamonds are forever. How does she look? Bright shiny like the white rocks. It is the record company I sign being on the street, but why street life. When you can handle your business, Your friend looks nice to, whom you are coming to see.

 

    You better have permission first to stay out of the streets. All the money you can ask for got the best family in the world. Every girl wants to be a part of this life that I have. When you're ready to be treated like a woman, come to me. I know that I keep repeating those songs. I have more to say about it. Baby holding you next to me for life, I never want you to go. It is the only thing I have done for a long time. 

                                                                 CHAPTER 60

    As soon as you realize you need some time alone. I mean, your trust in someone goes away. The idea is to keep someone who does not want to be in a relationship with your wounds. You have to stay positive through all the shit. It is always good to accomplish your goals with someone, not knowing where things would end. It is the same as knowing hope. Times can get hard trying to figure out what you want out of life. As long as you stay strong enough to follow your heart, it should all work out.

    Stand right there, that's where the light hits your body. When you called it off. The light got darker. My ups turned into downs, baby is there a little hope for us. When you see me do you see the man that's in your life for eternity. Yes, baby let's make this last forever. I will get up no matter what time it is, gets up to come to your rescue, that's what a man does for his lady, no matter what she's going through. The only way I'm not coming to your site is if you are cheating on me, falling out of love may be hard but if this relationship isn't meant to work so be it.

    The life we live brings me to this question, how many girls I got to go through before I find the right one. That I can give my all too, growing up with a lot on my plate. Showing that I can be a man, whether we get married or just a couple it doesn't matter to me. When my heart beats hopefully it's connected to your heartbeat. Elijah the best is yet to come trust me, in my own way I would like to say I'm sorry for all that was done to you, as I sit here listening to music while playing with my life. Please God keep me in your prayers.

    The thought of kissing your lips means so much to me. I love the way you look at me right now. I run a business where I want to succeed. So I must do all that is in my power. That means staying on top of it. If I am not on top of my company, it might take losses. It is so hard to continue to write these words. Nevertheless, I am doing my best to stay focused.

 

    Dead presidents with all of this cocaine being sold. Who is at the top of the food chain? It is I whom all my ninjas eat on this plate. When you handle business to the max, this blood shit is in me, and who does not like it 510. The kid was 5007 for 8years. They are trying their best to make it out of folklife. I lost two of my close friends out there. This young kid has handled OT business for a long time with no crying. They know that jake was on to me. I had to shake that for real. Ninjas ask me how kin 100 dogs do what they have to do to take care of things.

 

    Sister, this is for you. 031 understand whether I strike a 036 wifey for life. I could not deny blood right unless I got the green light that's 101status. If I call 037, you know what I'm talking about. The game, I cannot take the shit going on in my ninja's mind. I unaddressed myself but do not move too fast. Real sister shit tells mom as I miss her. Simlack knows about Big Brother rules. At the end of the day, sex, and money matters most to the gang. We got money just like we did. We are going to continue to get money.

 

    Streets are watching. Now we have got that over, and we can move on. It was a hard one. The only thing is for one to come out of black justice. For real, that is a stand-up man who never thought he had it in him. Before being calm, you never know what you will get out of a person. That stays to himself. Never give up on life and getting out of black justice. That is what real ninjas do. From here on out, oh my bad, until they free him. What is the goal? Never let up on what you believe in.

 

    Doing everything that she asked for can be so hard. Nevertheless, try to handle a lease when you are willing. Cocaine arrives in the United States from every other country by boat, plane, bus, train, and car. People even walk the drugs over here, but they blame us for selling them. You know me, I am going to get this money. I need to get this money right away. For my family's sake, I continue to handle my business in the best way that I know-how.

    How can you mend your thoughts? This game is so fucked up. Everybody is going against each other. As for me, I am going to get this money. I used to be hard-headed. I am doing everything in my power to stay popping. Nowadays, you have to lay back from all of that shit. I work hard for whatever I have. I did this shit by myself, and guess what? I am blessed to be here another day. Do not ever count a ninja out there who knows that God is the most extraordinary power. He will give you what you are looking for.

 

    You must love me. When times got hard, I was there for you. I remembered the last couple of things going OT handling the business out there. Before that, you are sitting there with me breaking dimes up. For real-life shit, I had 2 thousand bottles to fill up. I was showing you how to bag the workup. When I finished me hitting the streets, the Firm came to my house for four keys. I not only gave it to him to pay for it, you know it is money work reading.

 

    When all you know is the game, that is the only thing you will be involved in the game. You have to take steps to get out of the game. It can be so hard to let go of the fast money. In other words, keep getting fast money, and you will end up in black justice. It has a lot to do with how you look at things. You can look at it in the wrong way, or you can look at it in a good way. It is up to you which way you prefer. You also need to show the kids other ways to get money.

 

    When the game gets complicated, who can tell you? Call on my family. That is whom I am calling on. Let me tell you something. Whatever happens, they are on my side. You live on behalf of those who love you. Only time will tell how I will get out of this life. It was intended to conquer street life. I am headstrong, handling it my way. The only one who can handle your business is you because you will give it your all.

 

    You and I just got together. Why are you rushing? Is there something you want to show me? How many months are you? Can you slow down and talk to me? Let me know how you are feeling. Next stop seeing you baby two kids by whom, if it is me, play your part. Do not let ninjas gas you. You understand that money is not everything. I would give all of the money up. After a long day at work for a relationship with you, this is what I like to see baby take care of his company.

    Let us get down and do dirty. I am watching with whom you are sexing tonight? Yeah, I walk to sightsee. I am with all of the girls that I am with. As long as they got, I am good. The fact that I am not pushing the whips makes no sense. I am pushing bricks and cannot get locked up because my family needs me. If it was not for me handling that OT business, that is where all of that money came from. I am not trying to go to black justice watching my babies grow up. Yes, it is all worth the wait.

 

    You stay telling me to take it easy. I know I have to calm down. Shorty, with your body looking so good, how can I not be emotional to sleep together. You are my baby. The way you move and talk to me, telling me all that you need to hear. She thinks I am playing games, telling her I love her. Why the fuck I am playing this is not Pokémon. Yes, I am chasing you. I hope I do not get shot by ninjas. The gangsters, you are trying to do what I am trying to do.

 

    Down low who do you want to be with? There are many girls in this world. I am talking to all of you. Do you think I am playing about walking out if I find out you are cheating? Baby, tell me it is not so. You step into my whip with other men. Babe, I got you. I am just following the song. That is how I write the words to my music.

 

    Every woman wants a man to be faithful to her. When you find a man, it is hard to believe it. While believing it, you tell everybody he’s knows good. That is your fault, baby, believe me. When I say it is over, she says it is over, sweetheart. You know I do not want it to happen. Meet me at college.

 

    So, she calls to confirm that she is not cheating. Who am I to believe. I am in the mood to strip you of all of your clothes. Can we stand here looking into each other eyes? The way you tell me you love me. I am staying true to you. Yes, I am all for it.

    Babe, I cannot sleep how the story unfolds. When we first met, you seemed to be a friend of mine. However, I guess that was not the case. You left life at a difficult moment in my life. As I believed when you left me, I had no one in my life. As I grow older than before, I become more mature and wiser. I know you need a man, not a little boy. I am trying my best.

 

    I cannot wait until that day comes when we make up for this long time apart. Yes, it will be the time of my life. Getting back to you is everything to me, walking around in the house with you. That is my biggest goal. All those kids we have, and you have babies with me. It makes me feel wonderful. When our baby is born, it will be the best day of my life.

                                                                CHAPTER 61

 

    It is the game that you are in. When you stand up and do something for your family, it is the best feeling in the world. When you go with a female, you try to keep her. This is more than less work you need to do to keep your lady happy. This is more work to remain loyal. It will help if you always take it for survival.

 

    You have to plan everything out. If you plan to stay on those streets, the more you plan for your future, the older you get. I must take my time and make it all come to me. You cannot move too fast or slow. I have to move just right. Mind your own business, please, because the game is coming to an end. That is grown man shit.

 

    Why wouldn't you understand what pressure means? When you cheat on the lady in your life, it takes the world to bring her back to you. Even if she forgives you, she will always have one eye open, watching your every move. You have to understand that is how real it gets. The last thing you want to do is piss her off again because she will bring everything back up.

 

    This is how you handle her being away from you for a long time. If you can't stand seeing another man, you must respect her and not deceive her because she will be with the next man. Who will take care of her and treat her the way she needs to be treated. As I said, everybody makes mistakes. Trust me. It is up to her whether she wants to take you back.

 

    I want to set it up, where you have been taking care of it for a long time. I am doing everything in my power to take care of you. The way life is designed to be. We have to put in what we want to get out. The only way we will have this so-called good life is if we stick together as a family. We have to take it one step at a time and move at our own pace.

 

    When you put everything in your relationship, you need to know where you are going. The worst thing that can happen is that you fail in what you do. We must stand up and contribute to this cause. The more you stand still, the less anything will be done. The worst thing that can happen is a falling off.

 

    There are ups and downs to everybody's life. It is how you handle the outcome. For the first part, you make moves like you are supposed to make moves. The last thing you want is to have some misunderstanding with your girlfriend. That is why you always make her happy. It will be best if you restrain her by any means necessary. Always try to keep her happy.

 

    You never move unless you are asked to. When you help, the other ones help you. The last thing you need is God's blessing on you. He always answers your prayers. God sees how people move. If you are a good person, He will give you whatever you ask. I believe that He never lets you down. There is no way He is not going to answer your prayers.

 

    The breakup is the one reason I’m trying to keep my family straight. My kids might not have everything if their father did not work. It’s so hard to take care of them. The way the system is designed for us to fail. I’m talking about us. How can I look into my children’s eyes and tell them that everything is okay if I do not do everything in my power to show them that this is the case?

    Tack before I start writing. I want to let you know I love you so much. I still remember seeing you when you were a baby. I wanted so much for you, and your mom’s got another young princess, daddy’s little girl. I could never abandon my family. It’s hard enough to be away from you when you fall asleep. I know you fall asleep in my hands.

 

    Make it home on this track. Jeez said his life is schizophrenia. Try walking in someone’s shoes who live that life. Watching empire talks about my whole life, and it’s hard to watch that. I hope the ladies in my life understand what I am going through. My life means the world to me. People do not see a young man’s pain going through a sicker Moe tree.

 

    Your way of life is hard, and I can understand it. My family has a lot to do with me. I am acting this way. What happened to 7sisters. If Moses departs from the Red Sea, this is where I wash away all my sins. So you know there is no bad blood in my life. When you get to heaven and hell, you can give your family the present they want at the same time.

 

    When I put that ring on her finger, I will do my best to give her. The emotional side of her man, getting down on one knee. It’s hard to be with one woman. I can’t tell you how much I miss talking to everyone. You are the best part of my life waking up next to you. Please try to understand I’m working like crazy.

    You want a man that’s committed to you. You do not have to worry about me cheating. I thank God for the women he brought into my path. Baby, you know my heart goes out to you. Why worry about something that’s not there. Stay true because you’ve been my world since the first time we met. It’s been such a long time, and now we’re just sitting there.

 

    It’s the way we should spend time and play together. Everything happens for a reason. The way I love you and keep you safe all the time, we must stay together. If I promised to take care of you without any questions, that’s how I want you to respect me. We can’t fight. We can’t get loud with each other. We need to come to an understanding.

 

    One part of this rule will always be to take care of your partner. Live life the right way. You will find yourself in disagreement. When you see the conversation going in that direction, you need to talk about the good and bad parts. You have to understand what each other is saying to agree. Try to talk more and do less fighting.

 

    The game always comes with death or black justice. You have to move the right way if you plan on staying out of trouble. You have to keep believing in yourself. You have to move accordingly, or bad things can happen to you. You have to do less playing, and you have to find courage. Take your time before you make a mistake. There is always something good about a person.

 

    The way you move determines the way you act. You cannot lack confidence. Every day is a new day to start a new life. So you can become better. Whatever it is, you have to stay connected with yourself and stay firm with what you have. Whenever there is a problem, it can always be solved. The more you pay attention to what is right, you understand life better.

    When you use what you have to get what you want, it may not end in good condition. You have to stay trustworthy until you find your soulmate. You have to take your time when looking for a relationship. Wherever you go for less, you may get used. Stay true to yourself. You need to stay above water. You have to look for someone that’s looking for you.

 

    When you use sex as an outcome for making money, no one wants you in the long run. I’m trying to get them to take the time. Whenever you move fast, you find yourself with different men in and out of your life. You can’t think that is it. It would help if you wanted more for yourself. Make an intelligent decision. It’s everything good about you that makes you who you are.

                                                                CHAPTER 62

 

    Baby, how do you want me to act? You’re my girlfriend that supports me. You need one to hold you down when you are in this game. If you want to leave, pack your shit up and get out. That is what she told me, and guess what I said. I’m not going anywhere because you’re my world. How many times do I have to say this to you?

 

    When you can commit yourself to a girl, it is better than having all of these girls. Well, I’m thinking about starting a family with one girl. People are staring at me and saying, “You’re crazy.” I never met a girl whom I never knew. That might be what I’m missing. Who knows, do I or don’t I want to find out.

 

    Sometimes, the day she showed me, she would not have me. I cannot get mad. I have to move on, but I know it will be hard for me. It looks like everything with her is okay. The way I follow myself, only God knows. When can we go out on a date? Everybody wants a girlfriend. Lies are something you always share with me, as close as I get.

    Is this the best place to be with you in your arms, or does she cheat? I cannot see the wrongdoing that women do. They are smart about cheating. You have to watch them closely. I hope every woman does not want to use their man. If she’s smart, she can make her own money. Yes, I will support her if she is honest with me. She has nothing to worry about.

 

    Whatever she asks for, she gets. The women who stand up for themselves are strong. If you did not help me build this, why should you get what I have worked for? If she remains faithful, she can have what she wants. I cannot see myself working this hard. Then a female is taking it and spends it on the next man. Helping each other should be a two-way streak.

 

    A woman would say diamonds are a girl’s best friend. What about the man who works 9 am to 5 pm who cannot afford that. Will she leave and go with a baller? Yes, I know men look for a sexy woman with nice tits and a big ass. Sometimes the working class is the keeper. There are too many rules to find a good woman in this day and age.

 

    How can I think you want me. When you say it is not you, it is me. This is what you told me. Nevertheless, I know my daughter is taken care of. That is what is more important to me. Everything she wants, she can have. Lay, I want to be there so badly. However, Daddy is working because your mother wants to continue her dream, and who am I to tell her no.

 

    You know you mean everything to me. Seeing you in that red, it is you in my blood. You are the reason I am going so hard with this poetry. I want to tell you how I feel. How could I explain all of this to you if we were together? I’ll try again to get your attention. So you can see me for who I am. I am a good guy, but do not get my soul mixed up.

    Heaven & Hell: We must come together. Everybody wants the money, but you do not have to set your man up. You know, being me, I can handle the street life. However, knowing myself, I have to leave the game. Your shorty cannot eat books. Nonetheless, she can learn and pursue her education. People act as if they have so much money.

 

    The blank being low sin do not talk like that. You know slow money is the best money. People will see how deep a person can get in these streets. Big up to all the people that I mess with. Many people take losses in this game. However, it’s how you get up and keep moving on. Once before, I used to be that person in the front. Now I am laid back.

 

    Autumn Leaves: When you walked out, you walked out with everything I own. I’m asking myself when you are coming back. I have to watch my front. It is always something going on with me and you. The way we handle one another should be different. Baby, I am trying to make it up to you. I love you to death.

 

    Everybody moves forwards and backward. This is the life we choose to live, the thought of leaving what we built. If I were in these streets, zillions of dollars would be who’s. Blank that I’m working for what is mine. As it should be, a working black man is a strong black man. My life cannot change. This is the way I want it to be.

 

    I need to love the way I sleep with the women in my life. I know when I sleep, I’m in Jesus’ hands. The body loves lust soul. I’m looking for one to ride or die with me. It is the pressure of being with one girl. It’s many girls that are in my life. How many times have I had to tell you you are the one for me. There is only so much a man can take.

    From the first time, you laid your eyes on me. Standing there, you look cute. My heart is pounding, and I feel so much joy when you look at me. These emotions run deep for you. Being with you is the only place I want to be. It’s hard but being vital to you is all I want to do. Eye contact is the warm feeling I get from being with you.

    Lying in my arms, the thought of you running through the city. Get your groove on. Making love to another man. Suppose I take all of the money out of your bank account. How are you going to live? I never let you see the other side of a guy who runs the streets. I keep comin’ back to you.

 

    This is the way we have fun with each other. Take trips to the park holding your hand. Being that man that you need. Keep all of my ladies happy. Thanks for letting me have many girlfriends. So our kids have other brothers and sisters. I want you to know all of you mean the world to me. I am not letting this go.

 

    This is one of the party joints. Put your hands up and look across the room. You look so pretty when I see you. But I see you are a little scared. Please don’t be. You can call me whenever you need me. Baby girl, how can we move on to the next level. I’m looking for a wife. How hard is it to find one?

 

    Your body is so good when I see you pushing me around. Maybe after the party is over, you can come home with me. My wife should be soon if everything goes okay. Let me ask you something, “Will you be my wifey?” She said, “Yes.” That is all young people interested in. I will always be there for you, baby. So we must be on the same page.

    Let me tell you a little secret. Why are you getting mad about little things? It’s hard to live the life that she wants. If it was up to me, you could have everything in the world. The world is a prominent place to find someone ready to love me. We could make this night last forever if this were the first dance. You and I will always win.

 

    From the first time, we locked minds. I knew we had something in common. By the way, we finished each other’s sentences. It could not be luck. It was faith in the way we act. Even if I failed, you would never fall. Trust me. I was getting back on my feet. In due course, please wait. We should not get upset again because we love each other.

                                                                CHAPTER 63

 

    When you think of me, please think about all of the good things I did. I work hard to take care of you. You know it is the hardest thing to see you suffer out here. The days are getting longer, and the nights are coming faster and faster. It is all up to you if you want to be here with me. The last time we talked, we talked about being a family.

 

    I had to give orders to buy you the latest outfits, cars and everything you need. A working man once showed me how hard it is to be a working man. When there are many bills on the table, that got to be paid. I had learned the value of money. At a young age, I moved carefully. It’s all about taking care of my family.

 

    All I know is that money can not solve all of your problems. Get up and get outside to get it. Making known moves that mean you broke. I can’t see myself like that. Money isn’t everything, money. It cannot buy respect. People say power comes with money when one has it. People have their hands out. If we move as one, everybody eats. It is a big enough plate for all of us. Show the gangster how we do it. Change to keep close contact with your friends and watch your foes. Family is supposed to remain strong.

    Most of us love life as the flowers bloom. Helping each other from the evil ways that go on in the world. A lot of the time, people lose their minds. Trying to take on the higher tasks. Calling us crazy is more of a thought pattern to help our calm. Level every single thing that comes to me. They say the man upstairs hears you when you call. I don’t appeal to him so much.

 

    You shouldn’t let people understand what you are doing at no time. Staying with what is on your mind and continuing to do you. Make your life living for when times get hard. Wrong moves can get you in trouble. Making intelligent moves makes you a better man. Who was there for you? nobody so remembers that? Have faith that you will be blessed, and only sound comes from blessing. You have to stay above water, make or break you. Many people do not understand that. Stay strong and handle yours. You are going to go through ups and downs.

 

    Time will say plan games during a battle that no one gains. It is just dying money and violence. Harlem is one big playground. Life is too short to be in the middle of a conversation with gang members. Drug dealers should change their thought patterns. Most importantly, we will be growing up changing my life. Closer come together like the million men March. Hustlers fight for the game.

 

    It is not always the man’s fault. This can be from a woman that puts up what blocks a man from entering her life. It is okay for a woman to be overprotective in lots of ways. I’m not blaming anyone for this. It’s much pressure from both men and women. It takes a strong man to break the wall that a female put up. It is only suitable for me to try and break the wall that she had built. Lack of understanding can make a female put her guard right up.

 

    When your mind is strong, you cannot act weak. Just knowing how hard you work plays an integral part in the outcome of your life. I miss my brothers. But, we are all out here taking care of our business. Knowledge is power. A man stands up, and leads yours all the way. Take action in your craft, being smart. At no time, let up. Fight for what you believe in. These are just thoughts you can take and leave at the right time. You do not have to be wise to make money. You have to have guts. Then there comes glory.

    From the top of the game, looking down at who is in it. Let us get at anybody that’s in it. They say that I am losing my mind. Well, let us just say I lost it. Will you remember me for the good things I have done? If not, the drawing of arms does not tempt me to say that I shoot. I am just trying to understand that I am in the top 5 dead or alive. This is the way people made me. Girls cannot get enough of me and the way I act. Sex, where the hell is you? I did not hear from you all day. You want my voice piece.

 

    Always strive for more. Never let anybody tell you that you can’t do something. I never had that mind state. I always had ideas. Writing them was executed successfully. My idea was the hard part. You have to fight for what you believe in. It would help if you understood that there are many ways to overcome the temptation to smoke. Those are just some of the things I try to stay away from. Have dreams. There is nothing wrong with that.

 

    I never screw up anything in life. As your father, I love you very much. I love what God has given me for an inheritance. I do not understand why that happened to you. I just want you to know that I love you. I was born with four souls inside of me, and I love it. I will always trust you. He just wanted me to be strong in this lifetime. Jesus has blessed me with his power. He needed me because I was the strongest man that he had seen.

 

    I accomplished everything that I was supposed to. That was why I gave my family the gift they wanted from me. I was a writer, and my gift would better help my family understand the Bible. Many people wanted money to make themselves noticed. The way I see it, Lord wanted me to share my gift with my family. The girls in my life stayed with me through those hard times, and I love them for that.

 

    We’re in trouble when it’s deep. People do not care how other people act. You have to have a fallback plan when the game is all over you. Let’s keep the faith and take our time in the game. Why not love it. I’ll tell you why, because you should watch your hands. When playing this game, push for what you want out of life because everybody is balling. You got money. Everybody got money. This is about which team is the strongest.

    People speak of who does what. I’m watching the game, and I hear everything. Harlem fired at you. Forgive me if I still think about what people did to me. I ran for what money was calling me to handle my business. I’m still in charge of his business. Gangster paradise, I handled much business out there. So let us bring heaven back and for those who do not know what that is. Soon to find out triple five-wire bust. I’m the only one speaking to me, Damu, who messes with the kid. It is 187 degrees.

 

    Follow the rules because I follow them well. You may not see that those thoughts come to mind in the game. Having a good head on my shoulder does not mean anything. Just sitting there with all of the blood coming out of you turns me into a beast. You ask whether I can handle all of this by myself. The answer is no. I can’t. I’m not promoting black-on-black crime. I’m just telling the story that went on. Suppose we can be at peace. Then we are at peace back then.

 

    You never know what’s going to happen in life. Good and bad things do happen. It’s how you take it. Everyone knows you can die in that game. So play the game the right way. You can’t let the game stress you out when you live in die blood. I don’t know about you, but I’m going to hold myself in the way I move. It is just my thoughts that if I lose everything, will she be there for me. I wonder why it should always be good. We just have to pray for better days. We can’t allow the little things to upset us.

 

    Your whole heart must be in this relationship if it plans to last. The money doesn’t look at it, but it’s there. I want you to have everything you need when you’re my girl. You can have it all. Baby, the kids are growing up. This is why I am doing everything I can to ensure they are okay. Baby, understand. It’s hard work. Damn, this shit isn’t easy. One day we need to be with each other. You know me. I should love the blessing that God has given us and continue to do what the man upstairs wants.

 

    You never know the outcome that God has for you. Baby, do you hear me with everyone I can relate to. The game made me who I am right now. It’s challenging to make much money. It would help if you did so because you like to make music and write poetry and short stories. Only you know what you have in yours. If you keep at it, Jesus will bless you. I can’t be mad at my life. All I’m saying is get out of here. Never back down from a challenge.

    How does life take a course in your everyday living? You have to live life to the fullest when you are in this. The world is one prominent place. Things do happen in life. You just have to believe in yourself and your friends. Never let anyone take your dreams from you. The game is on the line right now, and you have to have this loyalty. Everything will happen one day. Trust me. This is the word of God and Jesus. Go hard on whatever you want to do, and one day it will come true. No one knows whether you will fail or achieve your objectives.

 

    I think we’re almost there. This gets hard when you write every day. It’s tough to follow the words to connect with the song you want to write. I’m just me, and you know where I come from. In addition, friends are presented with general questions. This must be the hard part when you are at your last couple of stories. How can you make the rest make sense? You have to stay on track with this rap shit. The mind only goes where the heart has been before. Trust me, It’s a long road that I have traveled, and it’s not over yet. You know I have to keep up.

                                                                  CHAPTER 64

 

    When we get back on our shit, we have to be real friends and family. If nobody crosses each other, this music will work. We can have it all. One hundred and fifty-one is the block where I come from. Our circle was small, looking out for each other. Let’s not let anyone take this shit from us. The block I’m from has been there since I was a little boy. We keep it real. We all get the money one way or another. I love the hood, but when this music shit takes place, we are all out of the hood. We want money, Power, and Respect. If you can’t fuck with that, don’t holla at my crew.

 

    Grab the world by storm. Victims, you fire, I fight back. The strength is that I am more vital than ever. This is why we’re fighting. Explain what was going on in my life. Laugh about the old times. Reply to your answer the way of heaven, take in the old way. There is room in the hotel for your girlfriend. You want to have lunch. Afternoon what time is it get your ass home. Blunt, so you can get high. Drunk, I drink a little bit. Together we can have it all. I promise that okay, baby.

 

    Your mind can picture. You hook up with the people you hang out with. If everyone on your team can’t be screwed, I can’t trust people. I only trust my friends and everybody I have money with. We are in this game. There is no stopping what we are doing. The ghost town is where I’m at right now. However, I’m from junk town. Stay on 050 at all times. The game is getting deeper. You have to handle what God throws at you and stand up to the fullest. Never let your friends down. If we meet, I want you to know we are together. It’s coming, trust me.

    My mind always travels through those thoughts that all goes well with you. If you’re a man, you need to build a woman. How can we connect? You know I want to be home with you. When times get hard, I will be there for you. We have to learn from each other ways. Let’s build together and raise our family. My kids mean everything to me. Let us not look back at the days when we had problems. Like I said before, I did this for us. Now we realize how much I love our family.

 

    Growing up with a lot on my plate to deal with everything on that young man’s plate. I’m just thankful to have everything we need. Why are we in life struggling against various things in life? I never let hard times get to me. I just stand up and take on this responsibility. As your man looks at the life, we have. Everybody is okay. We need to continue to stay on this path. We deserve this. We can’t let anybody take this from us.

 

    Fighting may be easy and sometimes challenging. You have to make a way to get through it. Head up at all times. Never let your guard down. If we keep this up, we will be in each other arms again. I’m sure of it, and we have to trust. We have to listen to our hearts. We must not allow the mistakes of the past to resurface. After 20 years, the thought of you lying down with another man is killing me. I know you do not want me to lay down with another lady. So it’s something we have to worry about. Love and hold it down until we get together.

 

    You have to roll with the punches. You have to stay true to the game. If you hustle, get money. I’m going to keep doing my thing. Never let people come between me and my money. My shorties made me shake it up for what it’s worth. Better make yourself a home run. Being in the South, I did many things when growing up. Nevertheless, I never cross anybody. I like to stay on Status. You have to get up and get what you want. Nobody is going to give you anything. That is why I hustle for what I want. Say what you want about me.

 

    How does it feel to get it on? The page I’m praying for is this one and not that one and not the other one. If so, I know you are okay. This is the shit that we once did when we were young. Wake up. I can’t believe she’s on this route. Do you know what I say? I do not want violence. Fuck it. You can’t fall back. You are in these streets. Going back to what I said about handling your business and never being scared of anybody understanding. However, please do not get us in trouble. Blood in, blood out, that is the rule.

    This shit can’t be televised. If you are in a gang, please keep your mouth close. He told me about the connection. What is going on in my life? The connection hit me. Fine, you want to talk about guns. It’s okay. The most asked question is why he is not around tellers when moving this much work. Copyright if you know who does. You are indeed my friend. Yes, you let us not play like I cannot see what’s going on. You are alone in these streets. Yeah, I’m going to get this money to the max.

 

    Piru loves to hold your head. Everybody wants to gang bang. Stay on o50 red money because you know we give it up. It’s the way we act in these streets. Whoever doesn’t like it bleeds Damu. We run these streets. I live by the rules of a young OG. Taking significant steps to help other gangsters in what we’re trying to do. Then and only then shall we be respected on those streets. If everybody moves together, we can get all of the money we need to care for ourselves. I thought you knew how to land on a treetop.

 

    This is the real story of my life. Just remember when I get on my feet. Who was there for me? I have not forgotten what happened at the game. I’m going to ride until the wheels fall off the battlegrounds. We all have to live our life to the fullest. Never let anybody bring you down. Keep the pace you are on. You may lose your mind unless you are built for these streets. You are moving the only way you know how to move. Who cares when you are chasing money. At the same time, I’m laid back in the studio. Making that sound keeps me sane.

 

    Where do I start this song? People can’t understand the game that I know. I still take pages out of the book from the ’60s and ’70s babies. Nevertheless, I’m an 80’s baby. Trust me. I will not let you down. Status is one of the names I go by. If you are going to call my Damu name, call me Simlack. I stay patched in. You know, the same red-eye side as a relief growing up with much bloodshed in New York. Harlem, yeah, we get down handling much business there. Even dough it stopped. I still got love for my people. That’s still in this game.

 

    When the days started getting tough, I just wanted to be on your side. Leap day, my month comes along. The color green is a question of money. I must have destiny on this day when I’m old. There are many life rules. Am I yelling at you? In this life, we live long nights. I am still writing my heart to you. Baby, it’s hard from dust to dawn. Nevertheless, I keep pushing on, or should we say pressing on. The late, great words that Aaliyah said. We vow never to cross each other. People do not understand that we planned this life. I miss you said it all for better or worse.

    When we said, we will always have each other back. I did not mean you gave up your life to help me out. At the time, I was angry because the last conversation we had was difficult for me to talk about. Now I understand what you wanted. I don’t want to bother you with someone you don’t know. I hope all your friends figure out why you need them to be with them. The soul is always with you. Even when you think it’s not. Believe it or not, it’s there. Baby, you live through me forever.

 

    You can’t cheat on me. How can you look into my eyes and say you’re not cheating on me? The unity of the body loves the greed of the soul. This is what my 036 live by. Don’t get it twisted. Did you touch her? Yes, I did. You want me to leave you by yourself. No. My heart was on the line. I’m glad you’re doing your own thing. When I returned, I knew what I should do. Who runs this relationship, both of us. Don’t mess that up when you have a good woman next to you. For what will be a night one-night stand, feel me.

 

    I can’t imagine myself without you. I know you want to act out when it happens. You know what I mean. I can tell you how I feel. Do you understand what you did to me? We have to be stronger than ever in time. We will be with each other. I know it hurts to be separated from someone you trust more than anybody else in this world. Who were you talking about when you said the four-page letter and my birthday’s four-leaf clover?

 

    I refuse to be taken for granted. This passion is in my heart. It only belongs to you all of it. Even my deepest thoughts cannot be missed. The thought of changing relationships can be challenging. How many times do I have to tell you? It gets lonely at the top. I need somebody to share my life with. It was your way, baby. Hold on to me. Let’s be together. But I know that can’t happen because your soul is where my dot lays in my hand. I’m holding onto you so we can get back together.

 

    Sometimes I feel like walking my way. Starting a family with someone, I never knew. Because it could be a little different from whom you know. Just the thought of starting a new relationship means I cannot go back to any of my past relationships. The only person I need in my life is my daughter. So I could open my mouth and ask a girl her name. I need to do it because it is supposed to be here. Maybe they are doing their thing. Who knows, I need to start over to be happy and start a new family no.

    When we talked, didn’t I tell you? We are always going to have one another's back. When we walk side by side, I can’t see you with someone else. It’s my third eye. I told you to prosper. This is what I seek. If he lies down, you must walk with me. Whoever that might be, she has to be strong. I’m not just giving up on you. At a time like this, we may find it difficult. When my mind kind of lurks, You keep me focused on what’s essential. It must be you, me, and this family we got. Please stay on Status.

 

    So let me run the streets with my thugs. Thanks for the stuff you have just sent me. That is what I was looking for, one in the chamber and 16 in the clip. Ma, this love can be a calling. I want to give all of my heart to you. No more hanging out in these streets until these stories are out of my head. There is work on the table. Let’s stick to this business that we have. Boy, do I miss her. Yes, I do. Knowing you’re all right making me feel better. I will hold my head up. I cannot wait to meet you. My heart goes far, and I’m just letting you know this life is forever.

                                                                  CHAPTER 65

 

    I meant it was back then when I had many girls. How can I get that back in the entire front? Maybe I should get a new lineup. X named all of his side chicks. Most of my side chicks are gone. Some might say that you cannot control your own. I know it’s just that I’m in pursuit of money, and they’re pursuing dreams. This shit has to stop one day. When that day comes, I will be ready for that. They all treated me equally when I went down. Be that as it may, guess what I came up with.

 

    Let’s think for a second time. I have to tell you it’s okay. How can you show me that you are faithful to me? I’m just telling my baby how I feel. You can take what I have to say and use it as you relate to your baby. Everybody has their thoughts about a relationship that’s going bad or if it’s going good. Sometimes it is hot and cold. This is a warning to you. I’m always looking out for you. I want you to know that I take your words to heart. I’m always thinking about the time we spend together.

 

    Twenty-two years ago, I came all the way here. The game changed a lot, and I’m changing with it. Those powerful words come from the heart. When we were young, we did everything for each other. I can’t let you get away with this, the love of my life. You kept me standing on my feet when times were hard. Just think I have to feed both of us.  How am I supposed to feel about this company that’s ours? Just give it to someone besides me. I put all of the work, blood, sweat, and tears into this organization!

 

    My uncle won’t let go as long as I have the drug money. Don’t mess up what we have in front of us. Things have been the same since you left. Nephew is still grinding like you never left. Harlem has changed like crazy. I am Just speaking from my point of view. Just keep it, gangster. That’s all I hear from him. You know we still got significant connections. All I know is how to be authentic. The game has messed up people that talk about the drug dealer. Nevertheless, a dealer like me tries to get out of the streets.

 

    Being in this game may be troublesome to most people. Uncle, I still remember what you told me. Whom can you trust in these streets? I’m talking about taking care of business now. Most people do not understand the mind of a gangster. The streets aren’t meant to be played with because you can die from it. One must know the entry and exit codes. There is a soul in me, and you must care for it cause that’s the part that cries. When it’s happy, you are sad.

 

    Sometimes hard work hurts. I can’t hang out and go to parties with my friends. It means nothing to my family taking care of me. The more I think about expanding my business, the more I think about doing for others. It’s time to open up my company. The day when that happens, I will be filled with joy. The writing part was challenging, but not that much. Just letting your mind adjust to thoughts makes the words flow.

 

    This might get me in trouble, but who cares. It’s hard to trust those women. I need one that knows how to take care of a man. Finding one is hard as hell because she thinks you will be at parties popping bottles. Nevertheless, you only want to take care of your family. Now that’s what a man does. Always remember that. It takes hard work to be a father and even more work being a single mother.

 

    Match this when you hold your ground. Being the talk of the town, we speak of you, and I speak of me. How much do 700 kilos weigh? You can make millions off that because of 22 monasteries underneath the bed. That jump shot works right. This city is the dots air max. All I know is when you’re in the middle of what they refer to as tellers. Why party? Why do you hang around when you have so many things to do?

    How can we help each other? Getting what’s best in life is everything I want for you. I want you to have everything a woman needs. My present is here. Let’s not look back anymore. It’s good to be in this phase of my life. Look at us. How come you’re my ride or die. Let me answer that because I’m the man that you want in your life. This life has to be the best. This is what is on my mind all the time. Baby, please hold me tight and never let me go. Suppose you let me care for you until the end of time. Maybe we will not know, but I do know we will be together.

 

    When you ride or die for someone you love, you will do anything in your power to make that work. When you are in this life, you have to hold your head. This money keeps calling me. Gangsters need to play too. However, step back if you don’t want to play with someone. You can always have what you want. I do not doubt it. The game is to be played without crossing others. I can’t understand the way people play nowadays.

 

    How can you act up? When there’s so much going on, we either go after you or don’t. The souls get stronger as time pass. I miss sex like a crazy Harlem at its best. The ghost town is where I reside now. However, It’s not a problem. All gangsters give it up. It’s just whom you mess with. I cannot forget about the rules of the game. How do I abide by the rules? When you handle yours the right way, you can have anything out here if you put your mind to it.

 

    The thought of starting a new album looks hard. Nevertheless, writing is something I like to do. May God be with us as I get into these verses. I know that it is a long way down, just by being patient and performing many other records. It makes it look hard, but it’s not that bad. Nevertheless, remember I am a poet. This is where my connection to words comes from.

 

    The power of ideas makes you competent in ways the world can’t even express. If you are trying to say something, say it. I speak more of the critical need of the family. To have confidence and believe that I know that I am the rock of this family. It’s how you handle being the man of this family. All the money in the world can’t change me. It’s my love for hip hop.

    Overall, I am still your man. So respect me, and I will respect you. It is a relationship between two person’s understanding. How can we bring our relationship to the next level? We have to think about the future and present now. We have to make the right choices when we decide how to understand one another.

    I understand there are ways. Handling the ups and downs. Let’s look forward in time. Raise our kids the way they need to be raised as black women and black men. Yes, it’s hard, but you should never give up. Because God will bless you, trust me. Thoughts run through the mind of the young black man and woman. You just have to school the youth.

 

    Just having faith means there are other ways to accomplish your dreams. When you see somebody in good spirit, it makes all better. Being strong will always be a decisive factor in handling your life from this point on. Without knowing how to manage time, you always want what’s best for your family. This may be a call from heaven above. All you need to know is that you can do whatever you want in this world.

 

    Yes, it’s more, for a start. I can change. I may be bad someday and good someday. How do you tell me how I feel. When I wake up in the morning, I give up just by seeing you in the morning. It makes me feel wonderful. Baby, how can I make you feel fabulous at all times? I am loyal, take out the trash, and prepare dinner, even if I do not cook. Getting faded with you than busting that ass at night or in the morning or the afternoon. When do you want to? Do you want it all the time? 

    Hush baby, when having a baby with me feels so good. I never want to wake up from this life that we have. On a mother, note takes care of her. You know what I’m trying to say. Seeing the kids. Seeing a man with you only sees the kids. It makes me feel like we need to say more. I can’t wait until the time comes. When we’re together, and we do business together, don’t talk to me about what I want to do to you. Kids might be reading.

    Writing takes much time. When the page is blank, you have to create letters into words. That is hard as hell. People say that you should go after something you want if there’s something you want. God has given everybody unique gifts. You just have to find yours. I found mine, and it just so happened to be writing. I just wanted people to understand what was in my spirit and heart.

 

    Playing with people can get you into trouble. Many fail to understand that others can provoke conflict. Being peaceful can make people understand the goodness in you. Ensure others have not been tightened. How can I promise something I can’t keep. I like to make promises and try to keep them. Only many of them understand me. Nevertheless, I understand that many people make me, and that’s what makes you.

                                                             CHAPTER 66

 

    Playing parts destroys friendships. Money destroys friendships. How can you get money and look out for all of your friends? Make sure everybody is on the right path. Stay out of trouble and not in prison. Be honest with one another. If there’s anything wrong, we can talk about it. Stay true to one another. Everybody moves in my big Meech voice by never being compared to one another.

 

    What you take away, you ought to put in more. Every move you make has to gain you more. Try not to take losses and always try to make intelligent moves. You only make what you put into the game. Lots of hustlers have when they are young. Then fuck the money up when they are older. Not having anything to show for the game they played. Stacking money for the long run and holding yours down.

 

    I want to take back another building. How strong you have to be your own man. Many drug dealers hustle all day, every day of their lives to get this money. Don’t get caught. Every drug dealer would want a person to hurt my status. You have to have a lot of big-time connections in this game. Making money isn’t everything. People trusting you now that you’re a gangster means I own the town.

    Can I make moves how I want to make them? Still and forever be a rapper industry and in these streets. Many people come for what you already have. Knowing that I represent my own as much as possible. Keep the game to the most significant point that I know of. Try to control the game and make the best out of it. The Keys are going for $25 thousand dollars. Just handling business is an important cause. That’s all we know how to do, the passion of the bad guys in my 2pac voice.

 

    It’s a lot you can get out of these streets, just by being honest. It’s a lot on every man’s plate. You just have to work on your craft. When times get hard, who can you call on? Agreed or disagreed streets love you if you like the streets behind. How you deal with stress depends on the emotional role it takes. Grab your gun, baby. Nine is all I see when people try to harm me.

 

    Hanging around the world is storming the world. So we can’t connect. I am trying to stay with you, against whom and for what you did to me. I can never forget that. You hold me down or was it all to make sure I get back home. Now I’m back home. Saw that ass twice what you scared to come to the battlegrounds.

 

    How can we play hard body when nobody is next to each other. Hitches kill me for real, knowing I’m mad. Let me ease up on you. It’s been a long time. Battling me is damn straight hard. If everyone sticks to what we’re trying to work on, we might get something after all.

 

    What I want to know makes you feel better about us. Baby, I love you. Tell the one who had my wife with me that I still have my head on my shoulders. I know I shall see you soon. I know this. People say I play a lot. Is it fun laughing at night. Who is it? See you at the clubhouse around my gang. However, she wants to be my one and only. I don’t want to be a gamer equipping their eastern side.

    When you have been in this game for some time, you learn all about people. Who’s cool and who’s not cool. Money may change a person. I just have to love what I am doing. I always say keep your head up. People will cross you when they feel like you are getting too much. When I mean death, I mean never seeing my kids grow up. It’s one of those things I’m afraid of. When you leave earth, you go to heaven. I want to know that I have someone waiting for me.

    When you live through love, it can help the spirit connect with someone else. Is this real, or do I love you? How am I supposed to make this one our own? When we are two people as one, We can overcome many challenges. I am sure of it. Black butterfly starts the thoughts that run through my heart. I can’t have you go because I want you by my side. It’s all about you. Hold on, can you remember when it’s just gone. It is time to start a new beginning.

 

    Hold the money until the game stops me. Why do people hate trying to tell the game? I have children to care for. When the murder happened big up to my brother Pete, Sex holds your head. Rollack names his little brother Simlack. Before faith helped me stay on the right track and get on with it, the Redmen got status 101. I try to remain humble. You know, I love jewelry. If it happens, God bless TYE.

 

    Time makes people think about who is telling or who is not. It’s only suitable to make sure you stay true to your family and handle business the right way. Keep your circle tight. Look who’s with you for the money and who’s with you for the truth. It’s a lot to take in, but fuck it. You have to do it. Family, meaning brotherhood, is all we got. I am my brother’s keeper. Do you like what you are into with me? Ready code nights? Are you into me? Can I shower you with gifts like it’s your birthday? 

 

    All the money in the world, how much does it cost you? Holidays, where you want to go, are of no importance. How do I become the one and only? Baby, can we make this happen? It’s crazy about the thoughts I have in mind. Undressing in the bed next to you at all times, no matter how hard it is. Baby, I hope you hold your head up. I can remember when this first started. Trust me. I know how hard it is. One day life is going to change. Many things go on being in these streets.

    From this point forward, who’s with me is the one I respect. Let’s make this the best that has ended life. Maybe we can change ourselves. I don’t know how to be responsible for every black man. I own up to what is mine. Make sure you choose the right man just if you want to build a family. Do not choose somebody who will fight with you. I hope you understand. I’m trying to do everything in my power. Believe in me. One hand, wash the other hand. Most people get their hands dirty.

 

    Being a person of intelligence helps me to understand the fake. By all means, live your life the way you want to live it. We have to have a common ground about where we want this relationship to go. When I say go, I mean growing trusting. Hold on to what you have because it can be gone one day. All the things you don’t take for granted. You must love wholeheartedly and trust your soul. Then and only then can things be good.

 

    The streets have no love. This game is what you know about it. Fighting in the streets holds me in place before people beat me up. Cocaine is still on these streets. Yes, I’m going to handle it. What are people talking about gangsters? I’m not on the streets because I’m handling these writings. You would do the same if you could be where I am when we were trusted youngsters, my friends, and my family. I put both in the same sentence because I mean what I say. The group connection between who is hot and who doesn’t feel what I have knows the feelings.

 

    The battle moves. Why do we play hard? When they know, they’re yellowback. To get in this game, you have to be a gangster. Making money is something that makes things happen. Drug hustler’s shit gets deep. That is what I love about it. Black justice will be there for the long run. Contacts, letters, visits, and calls are helpful. While I was on the run, it was difficult. Nevertheless, shit not going to black justice. This is a gang member on TYE MACK and DEADEYE.

 

    Never be on 801 because it can kill you. I have to be on point at all times EASTSIDE. It’s a bloody mess fucking with SIN. I don’t want to be laughed at before you think about what’s good. I will never be Mr. Freeze! People stay on the yellow back. My leaping red color is never high nor low as 5007 at my Damu. I was the plug EASTSIDE to the SOUTHSIDE. The whole killing thing is in my dog. High as heaven Brim New York City. Nine trey gangster. Relieve St Patrick’s Day four-leaf clover gangster kill blood.

 

    It’s full of shit now. Blacks don’t want comp on the battlefield. Shoot him, a couple of clowns from the shore. Two dead know surprise in the ghetto. Hoodlum is on the uprise. After the fruit loops, Trey Duce on the porch recovers the spoils. Why do crack heads turn around licking cocks? I need a fix chill who’s throwing bricks as I point at my kind. To get the line of cheese mine does time 25 for life woman lives a life. She said to take the knife. It smells like Irish pink.

 

    Remember the time we spent together when we were in love. No matter what happens, we will always be together in this lifetime. The step we take can be challenging. There is nothing easy. We need to remain connected to our feelings at all times. Understand the rules of the game that we play and handle when it gets complicated. Hustle makes money. Get money while you are young and get money when you are old. I heard you say there’s not a lot of time. How can we pause time? I am always here and enjoy the life put to me.

 

    I handle my business by myself because I cannot stand people telling others. Emotions are getting harder staying away from you. Notice that when you are at the bottom. No one wants to help you, but they want you to do it for them while you’re upstairs. I thought you understood that the streets have no mercy on anyone. Supposed to stand firm when they count you out. Protect one another and stick to what you have from the beginning. Another way to help your friends and family when the going gets tough.

 

    The problem happens. That’s the way you deal with them. Females these days want less than what a man can give them. I’m not talking about a little boy. Chicago is one of the east sides of the united states. Illinois, why couldn’t you be with me? The family is strong enough to do anything. He’s looking out for you. Carolina hopes all is well. California, I see what you are doing. Keep handling your own. Uncle nephew is proud to keep us together as one family.

 

    Plane like an angel flying to heaven. Station, and when you get there, you will see God by yourself. He never made a mistake when he called you. Speaker loud and clear that is why he needed you close to him. Showers mean your soul is taken care of. I need to get a chain of Jesus. Expedition can’t buy a truck because it matters more to me today. Remember the time you spent together. Invitation to heaven will always be a blessing.